#it's very high stress for swanatello

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I’ve been having your aus in my brain for a while. I absolutely love them 🥰

Question for Swanatello, have you ever had a strong desire to go back home to the lair or do you even remember much about the lair being your home, even with the bracelet and board? Like, have you ever in the middle of the day just randomly think “I want to go home” while thinking about the lair?

Of course he does. He doesn't remember details very often... but the one downside of the bracelet is that now he is almost constantly aware that something is wrong. Even when he doesn't understand what's going on-- he almost always knows that something is wrong with him and with the world around him. He wishes for things he can't remember. He aches over the absence of things that he can't recall. He misses people that he doesn't know. He can't remember home, but he knows he's not there.

Swanatello hates to be alone now. Overall, it's for the best, it helps, but every evening he's introduced to the idea that something is horribly wrong, and then he's promised that someone is going to be there soon to help. And every evening, he has to wait to see if that promise will be fulfilled and if his family will come and help him.

#luckily they pretty much ALWAYS keep that promise #and they've gotten very very good at getting the timing down #and minimizing that waiting period as much as possible #while still allowing swannie the time he needs to process everything and be ready to have them there #because they know it's difficult for him #still #it's very high stress for swanatello #its not WORSE than what it was before. in most ways its better #the lows are all a lot less low now #and there are far more highs #but its still difficult #and they all know it #asks #swanatello #rottmnt #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt donatello #rise donnie #rise donatello #donniesona #memory loss