#its hard ive arranged beach trips where no one shows up ive hosted movie nights where people leave halfway through

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maybe a house would be nice. admittedly I am only saying that because I realized I could have a housewarming party and try to invite my favorite people to come visit

#unimportant thoughts #itd be so fun! just imagining sharing my space with the people i love and having them in my space to celebrate it #its all I could want ! im gonna be daydreaming about it sctually #i mean i still could do that with an apartment BUT less space also noise restrictions #UGH i could throw a yearly christmas party! #my family had a big christmas party every year when i was a kid with some families we were close with :( #i miss it a LOT #nostalgic about the fact that there were kids my age i could play toys with and eat at the kids table sure but STILL #i could do that for my friends ! #i could maybe cover a plane ticket or two and get some of my favorite people together for a nice dinner and sleepover ;( #i could decorate and cook a meal and have wrapped gifts for everyone under the tree :( #meatz has a friend that throws a big halloween party every year and i really admire it #to throw and host a party rvery year where the prople you love can gather and see each other snd have a good time #is a PRICELESS fucking thing to provide and its something i admire #DOING things and hosting events and making stuff happen is a Big Deal #its a value and service many people dont appreciate #fortunately its been BEAT into me by the BMX scene #that the most importsnt thing you can do for BMX isnt to post your opinions online #but to host your own event to provide for the sport your own way to get people involved and to have a good time #and i wsnt to do that in life ! #its hard ive arranged beach trips where no one shows up ive hosted movie nights where people leave halfway through #but I know ill find people that want to do things and hang out just as badly as I do !