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#ive always prioritized peoples happiness & comfort & well-being FAR above my own
heyitslapis · 6 months
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#haha now im fucking sobbing im my bathroom bc i was texting one of my only 2 friends (not including my ex) about how nervous i am#then i started in about how i actually dont really want to go out & meet people & go on dates but at the same time#im so extremely tired of being lonely/alone & having absolutely no one to consistently hang out with & im so starved for love & gentleness#and tbqh all i want rn is someone to hold me. i want someone to actively want me/pursue me. i want someone to choose me & care about me#it really fucking hurts & sucks being on everyones backburner. im such a loving person. i have such a big heart & so much love to give#ive always been like that. ive always loved people with my whole being. always been happy & happy to make others happy#ive always prioritized peoples happiness & comfort & well-being FAR above my own#ive always heard the universe gives back what it receives from you......so whens it my turn to be wanted fully & loved in an unwavering way#my love has always been give give give...... i just want to receive the affection. the devotion. the loving tasks. for once. please.....#im not even looking for my forever or for my life partner or w/e. i just want someone who's excited to see me & wants to be in my presence#someone who; even if only for 1 day or 1 week or even 1 month; chooses me. chooses to stay.#i think......im tired. im gonna go play fallout nv until i pass out from exhaustion. im tired#emma vents#vent tag#sad boi hours#sad bitch hours#2023 tag
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fatetempted-a · 6 years
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♡   INTRODUCTION TO GUIDELINES ——–
hello everyone!   i’d like to thank you for taking the time to read my rules. i want to reassure you that there is   not   a password here because they give me anxiety and i don’t want that to happen to anyone else, but i trust that you’ve read them even though they seem a bit   lengthy   in my opinion. however they are   very   necessary to keeping my blog a safe space for me and a safe haven for you. just be aware that i will absolutely know if you have   not   read them.
♡   CREDITS   &   DISCLAIMER ——–
i am not, nor do i claim to be   any of my muses  . i have no affiliation to them any television show, movie, or wrestling promotion they are or may have been affiliated with. this is simply a roleplay blog created for writing hobby purposes only. my mun faceclaim is   emmy rossum  , most of them particularly in her role on shameless. i have no affiliation to her, shameless, or any other shows / films she’s been in either.
you can find all of my credits for icons, screencaps, and everything else that i don't take credit for on this page. i’ve tried to keep a lot of credits in tact, but if you see somewhere where i’ve moved or deleted it, notify me and i will correct the wrong   immediately.
♡   FOLLOWING   &   SELECTIVITY ——–
i.   when following me first, please take into consideration whether or not i can navigate your blog on desktop tumblr. i need to be able to see the following pages: guidelines / rules on every blog, biography/ies for non–canon original characters, and a list of muses for multimuse blogs. if you do not have a rules page i simply will not follow, period. i need to be able to see if not only our muses but also us as writers will mesh. this also makes it difficult to tell if i do something that may make you uncomfortable if i’m unaware of what your limits or what have you are.
note:    if not having rules, biographies, or muse pages is something you’re working on or will have in the future, please send me an im and let me know because i’m more likely to follow back even if i can’t read them at this time with them not being finished!
ii.   i like to consider this blog   mutuals only  . which means that i will only follow back people who i see myself writing with for a number of reasons. the most important ones being i want to write with you and your blog follows my guidelines. unfortunately, however, it does mean i   won't   roleplay with non-mutuals. iii.   though, i don’t want my selectivity and mutuals only status to scare you off. you’re more than welcome to express interest in rping with me   anytime   through the ask feature if we’re not mutuals! if you have a plot idea or genuinely are   that   interested in rping, we’ll give it a go. i’m pretty flexible about these things.
note:    if you are purposing a ship right off the bat and we aren’t mutuals, purpose a ship oriented situation, or anything of the sort, it most likely will not happen since we aren’t mutuals and therefore i haven’t had a chance to get the feel for our characters. i know this sounds   harsh  , but i’ll discuss how i ship in the next section.
iv.   due to bad experiences in the past, there are going to be times where i’m totally selective for plotting because i have a hard time trusting people to   actually   follow through after the wrong doings that have happened to me. v.   even though i do follow back a lot   (   90%, lbr   )   of the time, i reserve the right to  n o t  follow back if i so choose. this may be because i just don’t see that our characters are going to write together or mesh well, your blog triggers anxiety for me, or your blog doesn’t follow my guidelines. vi.   i also reserve the right to   unfollow   at anytime that i may become uncomfortable with your blog. this may be because you’ve said something that   offends me, broken one of my rules, or just general became an anxiety trigger for me. it also may be because you followed me and we became mutuals, but you made no attempt to interact with me. i am   not   a blog who follows for a higher follower number. vii.   i also will be unfollowing any blogs that have constant, daily or near daily self–depreciating passive agressiveness. examples that are not what i’m talking about are as follows: mental health issues, family drama, general bad day and need to vent, temporarily being down on yourself and much more but i think the gist is gotten. this is a more recent rule of mine but it’s gotten to the point where it’s an extreme level of toxicity that i don’t care to see. viii.   i do believe in   mains. this is no way is any sort of exclusivity. it just means that those versions of a muse will probably be replied to first, given the first shot at plot ideas, etc. you can find my list of mains on the navigation pop–up.
♡   NSFW   &   TRIGGERS ——–
i.   this is  not  a blog that does pwp   ‘ aka ’   porn without plot. i firmly believe in a strong story behind writing and shipping. i am   not   just here to write smut. while it’s fun to write sometimes, i still need to be comfortable with my writing partners to do it. sorry. if that’s what you’re looking for, you’re in the complete wrong   place. ii. nsfw stands for more than just smut on this blog. it essentially stands for anything that’s not suitable for just anyone to read or to have at work, in public, etc. such as, but probably not exactly or limited to the following topics:
note:   abuse implication, alcohol consumption, drug use, gore, murder implication, rape implication, self-harm, suicidal tendencies, violence. etc, etc, etc. •   a couple of things i will   absolutely not   write out under any circumstances are   alpha / beta / omega smut plots, animal abuse, any sort of incest, graphic depictions of murder / suicide, pedophilia, or rape  . •   i should   not  have to add pedophilia up there, but in the past i have come across blogs that wrote it and was absolutely appalled. so i need to specify that i will   not   be writing that disgusting, illegal, and morally wrong subject.
iii.   if you write incest, i do have   incest tw   blacklisted simply because it’s disgusting and immoral to me. but if i see you write / have written about spawns / children of incest, imo, that’s a little too far into a taboo subject that is pretty disgusting in the eyes of society in the first place as well as myself and i have no desire to write with you. if i find out after following, i will   unfollow without hesitation . iv.   i will   do my best   to tag triggers for people. i will have all triggers i tag or have been asked to tag on a list which will be located here. v.   triggers will be tagged in the following format:   #word tw  . vi.   my own personal triggers are as follows: cancer, eye gore, paranormal imagery   (   imagery that looks real, similar to paranormal activity   ) , and trypophobia.
♡   OUT OF CHARACTER——–
i.   my name is   rae   and i am a 24 year old lesbian, grey–a, cis female from southwest iowa in the central timezone who prefers that you use   she / her   pronouns when addressing, but will gladly accept   they / them  . ii.   i will   not   tolerate drama between roleplayers on this blog. this means vague blogging about myself or my mutuals, harassing myself or my mutuals, slandering myself or my mutuals, etc. the list goes on, you get the gist of it. iii.   do   not   bring me into your online drama with people. in the past i’ve been dragged into a lot of drama and i will   not   tolerate it anymore. i have too many real life stresses to worry about and persons who have nothing better to do than cause people grief won’t be tolerated. iv.   my blog is   hate free  ! i don’t tolerate any sort of hate whatsoever. this may pertain to hate on other roleplayers, my or my mutuals characterizations, my characters in general, my mutuals, myself, etc. you get the picture. v.   one thing that i prioritize above everything else is my   mental health  . i have schizophrenia, bipolar, obsessive compulsive disorder, serve generalized anxiety / social anxiety, depression, insomnia, and a mood disorder. therefore sometimes i will be a hermit and avoid everyone and everything. it’s   nothing   against you, but it’s just me trying to keep my mental health in check. vi.   discord and snapchat are my only forms of contact outside tumblr ims, but they are available upon request to mutuals.
♡   SHIPPING & PLOTTING——–
i.   Si ship chemistry  . period. while i may claim to be a ship whore and i have various ships that i absolutely adore—–i still need to find a certain chemistry between our characters. if we’re close, however, chances are this does not apply to you as i’m aware of how you write and i know we mesh well. ii.   do not under   any   circumstance force a ship on me. i do understand   enthusiasm   though. sometimes i get super happy and excited about shipping too, but there’s a line between enthusiasm and pure forcing a ship.
note:   on that note, i will   never   force a ship on you. however sometimes i feel like i do. if i over-do it or you ever feel uncomfortable,   please   kindly let me know and i promise i will cease whatever it is i’m doing.
♡   STARTERS & STARTER CALLS——–
i.   i typically   do not   write greeters. however, depending on if your account really intrigues me, i may write you one. please do not feel upset if you do not get one. you can always   message me   to ask for one. in the same note, if you would like a greeter, you’re welcome to ask for one. just don’t expect a novel if i’ve got nothing to go on or no idea. ii.   if you write me a greeter i will   more often than not   reply to it. it may take me a bit, but i will   try   to reply. and i appreciate it when you take the time to be patient with that. it shows me you really want to write with me as i’m a turtle.
•   note: if for whatever reason i cannot find the will to reply   (   which is usually because i’m a numpty and can’t figure out how to reply to the certain situation in your starter   )   i will absolutely message you and let you know. maybe we can discuss it and you can either tweak things or i can write you something small.
iii. my starter calls   are   mutuals only. it isn’t anything against non-mutuals. i’m just very guarded at this point in my life with indie rping.
♡   WRITING WITH ME——–
i. please do not   godmod   or   powerplay  ; whichever you prefer to call it. it’s annoying and very rude. if it’s something small and obvious   (   eg. they headed upstairs   )   because the roleplay calls for it and we need to move things along, that’s fine. but don’t tell my muses how to feel or majorly act   without   my permission. ii.   mun and muses are over eighteen so please know that smut will be written on this blog if / when i feel comfortable with it. very scarcely, however, as i need to feel comfortable with my writing partner beforehand. with the teen verses i have, all of them are eighteen. i will not write below eighteen. i just don't feel comfortable with it. iii.   i do   not   care how you format. i personally use tiny icons   (   usually 68x68   )   that i make myself as well as sub font. however, i don’t care how you format or don’t as long as you respect my choice on how to. in return i’ll do the same for you. writing and roleplaying is about feeling the scene through words, not the aesthetics and that’s all that matters to me. iv.   you must be literate when writing with me. and by that i mean don’t type in chat speak   (   eg. “y r u doing that?”   )   or use -description-/*description*. the “literate” rule does   not   apply to typos or grammar if english is not your first language. i completely understand those two things. v.   don’t ever   force or pressure   me to reply to threads. i run at very slow   turtle speed   so take that into consideration before following. this is solely because of physical health and mental health issues. trust me—–it kills me not to be here roleplaying and writing in general, but sometimes it happens.
•   that being said, if i do not reply within   5 days  , you are allowed to message me about it and make sure that i still have your thread in my drafts and the status of it. •   sometimes i lose threads and if i do, all you need to do is gently poke me and ask if i still have it. i   will not   but upset with that. •   i do, however, get upset and anxious when people are   extremely rude   about threads being too slow or lost. if you are rude, i will immediately drop whatever we have going and probably unfollow or block you depending on what the situation is. as stated above, this is a hate/drama free zone.
vi.   even if we’ve never interacted, feel free to send me  m e m e s  at anytime. the only thing i ask that you DO NOT send are shippy memes if we’ve not discussed shipping before. this rule does not apply, however, if i know you from another account and we always ship. lbr, i’m trash like that.
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