#ive finally calmed the fuck down NDNDDDDJN

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#ive finally calmed the fuck down NDNDDDDJN #realistically... we've only been buddy buddy like the past 2 months. #and like i think i was doing a lot of assuming. like he may be playing it cool bc hes not sure if i like him... Like That. you know NDJDJD #IDK. i think i was rishing bc i was scared id never see him again #hut now that i saw him... after graduating... and being out of school.... and we have semi plans to meet in feb.... #really dont think theres a need to rush. like i want him in my life and i think at least that feeling is mutual JDJDJDJKDMDMDM #like he basically signed up for double hang outs with me. idk if he realized it JDJDJDJJD #bc every month or 2 we'll have plans with the bigger group AND ones with just me him n our other friend (that wants no part of the #bigger group JDJDJJDJDJD) so !!!@@@@ ya.... #feeling much better and calmer !!! #i do miss him tho JDJDJDJDJJD. i wanna message him but idk what to say. but ik i'll think of something heheheh #and who knows... he may message me too !!!!! ya.... #gotta focus on getting a job anyway HDJDJDJDJDJDND #my applied to count is still 1 LMAO #a lot of the companies.... dont seem real????? idk being a software company and not having a website.... or having a website #and having lorem ipsum or like the dedault wordpress blog post on pages.... its giving scam JDJDJDJJDDKDKD #but ya... the search continues... #personal