#jakob vents

[the-epitome-of-sunsets]

you called?

testing, testing. jakob's my idiot of a brother, and i love sunsets.

call me dawn | she/they | istj | questioning | extrovert | not religious | minor | may 15 | taurus | dating this idiot called kyle | darci scott | a certified judo flipper | popular kid | warrior maiden | dyscalculia | | hopeless romantic | hot people on my mind 24/7 | insane soul | half greek half african-american | green eyed dad girl | am a hoe- accept it | nobility | cabin 7 gurl | slytherin | candor | the most noble of the knights | chronically online | public school kid | youngest child | forsenics | sunsets, sunsets and more sunsets

DNI IF: pro-israel, zionist, homophobic, islamophobic, antisemetic, proshipper, religiophobic, xenophobic, transphobic, ableists, anti-blm, porn bot, pro-facist, MAPs, NSFW, racist, sexist, creep, or if you want me to judo flip you :)

fandoms: tales of arcadia, riordanverse, harry potter, marauders, avatar the last airbender, ghosts (bbc), ghosts (us), merlin bbc, boarders, four o'clock club, get even (bbc), creeped out, owl house, grishaverse, and kotlc

music: taylor swift, ariana grande, stray kids, one direction, conan gray, olivia rodrigo, rosendale, lewis capaldi, ava max, billie eilish, miley cyrus, bob marley, tate mcrae, MKTO, alan walker, alexander stewart, nico collins and ed sheeran

hobbies: judo, netball, football, fencing, ballet, fitness, underthinking shit, tumblr, pinterest, embroidery, painting, listening to music, guitar, reading, being a material girl, swearing and cussing, and judo flipping my brother

personal tags:

#the epitome speaks- if i need to speak

#the epitome rants- vent stuff

#tsunami whirls- about jakob

#this punk ass bitch- about cassie

#lightning shatters- about siya

#im going to kill this jock- about my bf kyle

#my beloved moots

I support Palestine. If you don't, you better run, because I will track you down and shoot you with the gun I hide in the basement. If you don't, you're a zionazi- end of story.

@that-one-clotpole & @the-ocean-is-inside-of-me thank you for the help with blog aesthetic <3

I share an account with @the-punk-and-the-jock too <3

Hey! I'm Dawn. I'm a minor, and I decided to join this hellsite, because of my brother- @the-ocean-is-inside-of-me. I thought it would be best to watch over him, and also because I wanted to see what exactly Tumblr has it in for me. You see, I'm the granddaughter of a Greek mafia boss, and I've seen... interesting things. Let's see how crazy this hellsite can get. My ask box is open, as well as my DMs, if you wanna talk, have any concerns or if you just wanna be friends! Oh, and don't you dare try to hurt my brother, or our friends, because if I do, you're invoking the wrath of the ✨judo flipper✨. I think that's all from me! Stay safe, little people on my phone. Dawn, signing out.

#the epitome speaks #the epitome's intro post

[computerpeople]

Jakob - 22 - He/Him (or any others)

I am some guy with autism and other things wrong with him. I like horror games and bright colors. My special interest is Eckvanet. I make art a lot.

I have DID and it comes up sometimes. I am not interested in hearing anything about how cringe it is. I'm a 22 year old with a beanie baby collection, I think no matter what I do it'll be cringe. Don't follow if youre under 18.

Longer about

this is a personal/spam/vent and my main is @toontowncreepypasta

Warning: I use the F slur frequently and occasionally say the R slur, I am able to reclaim both. I try to tag everything I can but there will be mentions of triggering or nsfw content on this blog.

#sorry it took me so long to do one of these im still like old tumblr brain where themes were like the thing #txt

[scout-company]

Dead or Alive—Chapter 10

With Semyon’s help, Scout makes it back to the crest of the hill right as the bandit calls a cease-fire. Semyon had worked quickly to stop her venting out, using a lot of bandaging to fold what little was left of her prosthetic sleeve against her side. The slightest breeze could push her over now, and the shifting sands beneath her feet kept threatening to do so, but between Semyon’s hand to her back and her boiling annoyance, she keeps herself upright.

“Yer doin’ a mighty fine job at that!” Scout snarks at the bandit’s claim of meaning no harm. Wait, where’s her—Devon has her pistol. And she’s sidestepping down the crest of the hill, keeping the pistol trained at the bandit. She doesn’t seem to notice how much her grip is shaking.

The bandit keeps glancing between Scout up top and Devon flanking progressively closer to him. 

“Who are you?” Devon demands.

“Conan,” the bandit replies quickly, “Jakob Conan.” Right. Those other bandits had called him Conan.

As if to prove his identity somehow, Conan tugs his hood off his head and cloth mask off his nose and mouth, revealing a head full of slightly wavy blond hair, slightly muted by incoming grey. He has a couple scars crossing his face: one long one bisecting the space between his left eyebrow and right check, one cutting through the greying stubble along his jaw. 

“Yer the one them other bandits were lookin’ for, ain’t ya?” Scout fizzes, studying him as she and Semyon start picking their way down the hill themselves.

Conan’s eyes narrow. “How do you know that?”

“We got ways,” Scout dismisses. “Point is, y’all raided us, then scrambled. Then ya come back here? What’re ya doin’ here?”

“Where’s my antique!?” Devon butts in, storming up to him gun-first.

Conan blinks and steps away from her, deflecting the gun away from his face with a finger. “Which antique? What’re you talking about?”

Devon sneers, “Don’t play dumb! The one you stole from Riku’s store—you know which one!”

“Listen, I wasn’t part of that raid,” Conan says, pushing the pistol away from his face again when Devon points it back at him. “I gave no permission for that. The only thing I’ve taken lately was an artifact from those other bandits. I don’t know where they got it or if that’s ‘your’ antique or not. All I know is that I was going to sell it for enough Pixels to go clean, but if you want to—”

Devon’s eyes go wild as she all but shrieks, “You what!?” She tries pointing the gun at Conan a third time, but he deflects with a swift hand to her wrist. So instead she almost pounces like an enraged tiger.

Semyon only barely stops her by pulling her backwards by the shoulder. “Devon! Back off! Let him talk!”

“He’s a bandit!” Devon objects, yanking her hand out of Conan’s grip but failing to tug her shoulder out of Semyon’s. “He’s nothing but—!”

“Devon! Calm down!”

“No! He’s—”

Scout winces at Devon’s ever increasing volume, the frequencies of her voice poking at the cracks in her brand already made tender by her plasma loss. So she sidles away from Semyon as he wrangles Devon back, instead scooting closer to Alice, who has snuck down the hill finally. Meanwhile she asks Conan, “Whaddya mean by fixin’ to ‘go clean’?”

Conan blinks away from Devon at Scout’s question. Then a shadow crosses his face as he scowls, “I’ve lived the bandit life long enough. I’m done.” His scowl softens but she shadow remains across his face, even as he looks square at Scout and pleads, “But there are people after me. The other bandits in my old gang. And the Peacekeepers. I need somewhere to lay low.”

“And you really think you can ‘lay low’ in the same place you and your idiots just raided?” Devon spits, finally pulling her shoulder away from Semyon’s grip. 

Conan shoots a look at Devon and insists, “I told you: I was never a part of that raid. Those idiots, as you so aptly call them—” he curls his lip as if the mention of them tastes foul— “Went against direct orders. They stopped listening to me long ago.”

“So what makes ya reckon that hangin’ out here counts as layin’ low? We were able to track ya after ya skedaddled back there; can’t them bandits do that, too?” Scout fizzes.

Conan shakes his head with a sound that Scout can’t quite tell if it counts as a snort or a deep cough. “Not likely. The ship they use is so old it doesn’t even have an ID number.”

“Huh.”

“Forget about the other bandits!” Devon huffs, bringing the pistol up again. “What makes you think we’ll let you just hang out here? We may not have the Peacekeepers at our beck and call, but we know people who do and we can still bring you into custody!”

Conan’s hand twitches on the safety of his rocket launcher, even as he’s leaning on it like a stout pole. Scout watches his hand. But instead of any further movement past the twitch, Conan holds up his other hand and implores, “I promise I won’t do you people any more harm. Please. I just need somewhere to hide for a while.”

“We could always bring him to Bronzemarch,” Alice suggests in a lowered voice to Scout.

Scout tilts her head at her, then looks back at Conan. He hasn’t lowered his free palm once; he’s been holding it up empty in a gesture halfway between surrender and shielding himself from Devon’s verbal onslaught. 

Conan glances at Scout and Alice with a curious twitch in his eyebrows. “Is this ‘Bronzemarch’ in charge around here?”

Alice startles, but manages a nod as she confirms, “Y-yeah, he’s kinda in charge.” 

“Then bring me to him if you wish.”

Devon starts to snarl, “Not on your—”

“Cool yer engines, Dev!” Scout crackles, flaring to get Devon’s attention, “The sooner we can get this feller to Bronzemarch, the sooner he’s outta yer hair. Geez!”

Devon blinks at her flare, but her expression quickly settles back into a glare that she levels at her first, flicks quickly at Semyon when he goes to pull her back again, then points back at Conan for a long moment. At length she finally concedes, “Fine. If he gives my antique back first.”

Everyone looks to Conan. His eyes flick between the four of them, studying each of them in turn. Scout can’t parse the subtle changes across his expression as he studies them. Whatever those tiny twitches of his eyebrows or tightening of his lips are supposed to mean are lost on her.

But eventually Conan’s features slump into resignation and he points between Scout and Alice’s shoulders. “It’s over there. Under the sleeping bag.”

Scout turns and finds a makeshift camp of sorts nestled under a small overhang she hadn’t noticed coming down the hill. The overhang looks like an old slab of sandstone had been shoved into the sand and the hill formed around it over time. And under it is Conan’s camp—if it can be called that—with little more than a backpack, an unlit lantern, and a partially unrolled sleeping bag crumpled into a heap populating it.

Scout makes it to the sleeping bag heap moments before Devon does. But as soon as she squats and starts pulling the sleeping bag away from the overhang, she feels a faint, pulsing resonance sing through her arm and into her brand.

“What in tarnation…?” Scout bubbles.

“What? What’s wrong with it?” Devon all but demands as she squats on the other side of the sleeping bag pile.

Scout can only shake her head first as she continues rifling through the folds of the sleeping bag. The more fabric she pulls away, the more that resonance buzzes ethereal feedback into the nicks in her brand, singing of stars. Almost exactly like how that gate had. 

Scout pulls one last fold of insulated sleeping bag away to reveal what looks like a vase. It’s bigger than the one she’d found in Riku’s stash, but with similar construction: wider at the bottom, made out of a similar sort of material. It doesn’t have handles; instead it has a small lip in the top and rings of patterns evoking foreign constellations circling its tall neck. Something about the patterns tugs at Scout’s subconscious.

As soon as Scout puts her hand around the base of the vase to wiggle it out of its sleeping bag nest, the resonance singing from it makes her hand throb as her plasma syncs to its pulsing. But somehow it’s not a painful throb, despite her thinned plasma. Just…strangely familiar.

Devon’s face softens when she sees the vase, but then her brows contort into a knot again as she glances down at Scout’s hand. “Why is your hand blinking?” she frowns. She whips around to snap at Conan, “What did you do to it?!”

“It ain’t hurt, Dev,” Scout fizzes before Conan can respond with anything more than a shake of his head and a frown. Devon whips back around to frown at Scout, and that frown only contorts more as she clarifies, “It jus’ has a funny aura or somethin’. Feels like that ol’ gate.”

“What?”

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#starbound fanfic #starbound #starbound novakid #fanfic #I Was The Sun #Dead or Alive

[wardencommanderrodimiss]

I have pondered for some time now a Fates AU where Corrin doesn’t get kidnapped by Garon when Sumeragi is killed, so Azura is not counter-kidnapped, so they each grow up in their “original” non-Valla kingdom.

Azura is, of course, miserable in Nohr in her early years. Her first friend is Jakob, who gets assigned to her as her servant because he’s an incompetent noble boy abandoned to be a servant but no one cares if the dead unpopular second queen’s neglected daughter gets an incompetent servant. They just quietly vibe together in their respective parental abandonment.

Eventually there comes a point when Xander as crown prince is old enough that he’s like “I don’t have to listen to anyone, I can associate with my stepsister if I want to and nobody can stop me”, and then Camilla and Leo are eventually able to escape their mothers’ orbits and influence to follow suit. Emotionally, Azura is always more distant from her siblings than Corrin is, because Azura is very conscious of where exactly she stands with both Garon and the rest of Nohr. But by the time Elise is old enough to understand what’s going on in the family, people have stopped talking about Azura and Arete enough that Elise just thinks she and Azura are half-siblings. Everyone else knows differently and doesn’t correct her.

Meanwhile, in Hoshido, Corrin is having a much better time, as you can imagine.

 And the reason I make this post specifically today is that I realized that the Awakening trio would eventually be showing up in Hoshido. They wander up to the castle and brazenly ask for an audience with Queen Mikoto and once they somehow get to talk to her they’re just dropping some winks and nods and nudges to eventually convey the general vibes of the mission they’re here for. She brings them on as retainers for the royal family, explaining her reasoning to no one. Nobody besides Mikoto trusts them, except for Corrin, who trusts everyone. Every time Laslow so much as breathes in Mikoto’s vicinity, Yukimura and Reina descend like “BEGONE, THOT”. He looks at Sakura and Hana waves a sword threateningly. He looks at Hinoka and she glares back. He says hello to Corrin and Kaze next to her is gesturing I’m watching you back at Laslow. Selena just laughs at him every time he complains about this. He tries to vent to Odin, who isn’t listening, because he’s been trying to grant the perfect name to the magical Hoshidan throne for like five days. Laslow is living a nightmare and no one else cares. Lilith is also here.

Nohr is a tragic and awkward family drama and Hoshido is a sitcom, basically.

#misc fe fates AUs #ONCE AGAIN on this fine morning/afternoon i am cursed to think about fire emblem fates

[latribune]

[nnjzz]

TONGUE DEPRESSOR + TURNER WILLIAMS JR. + JULIE ROUSSE + PAUL MICHEL

JEUDI LE 25.01

TONGUE DEPRESSOR / us TURNER WILLIAMS JR. / us JULIE ROUSSE / fr PAUL MICHEL / fr

à Les Nautes

1 Quai des Célestins 75004 M° Sully-Morland

20:00 portes

20:45 action!

P.A.F. 6€

TONGUE DEPRESSOR / us new heaven ct Duo duo composé de Zach Rowden ( que Le Non_Jazz reçut déjà  pour un set atypique à base de K7s)  et Henry Birdsey, tous les deux multi-instrumentistes, compositeurs-improvisateurs. Ils écrivent, improvisent et interprètent de la musique basée sur des drones ( 

impliquant généralement des accordages microtonaux et des fragments réarrangés/ ré-accordés de musique d'église américaine ) avec violons, de la Pedal Steel, de la Lap Steel, de la contrebasse, de l'orgue et des cloches, et pourquoi pas une cornemuse... Collaborations diverses et régulières avec d'autres musicien.ne.s versé(e)s dans le même genre de recherche et hantise sonores ( Leila Bordreuil, Max Eilbacher, Paul Flaherty, Weston Olencki, Jakob Battick, John McCowen... ). 

"empyrean chimes and subterranean drones from out-musick duo Tongue Depressor -- an in-depth exploration of tuned percussion and just intoned drone that comes highly recommended if you're into the work of Tony Conrad, C.C. Hennix, John Cage, Philip Corner and Michael Ranta -- or if you're into church bells, gamelan, or Popol Vuh's earliest meditations." --Boomkat

https://tonguedepressor.bandcamp.com/

TURNER WILLIAMS JR. / us alabama marseille

Musicien et dessinateur prolifique : on retrouve le même genre d'énergie débordante et de style foisonnant aussi bien dans sa pratique graphique que sonore.

Il compose / improvise avec un shahi baaja : instrument à cordes pincées indien de la famille des cithares, ( ressemblant à une épinette des Vosges ou à un dulcimer) :  il s’agit d’une version électrifiée et légèrement modifiée du bulbul tarang indien. Il est doté d'un clavier de 2 octaves et demie chromatiques, avec toutes les altérations, soit 30 notes au total.  

Shahi baaja  ( littéralement :(« instrument royal » ) est composé de deux cordes mélodiques ( " chanterelles " )  accordées en la (l’une grave, l’autre aigüe), de trois cordes bourdons (mi, la, mi aigu), montées sur un chevalet de type "jivari" (comme sur le Sitar indien) mais aussi de 10 cordes sympathiques (  qui vibrent en résonance ) .

Il se caractérise par l’absence de caisse de résonance ( c'est un " solid body " donc), l’ajout de micros ( et d’une sortie jack ) ainsi que des touches de machine à écrire faisant office de clavier sur les deux chanterelles.

Répandu dans les avatars contemporains des musiques traditionnelles asiatiques - on en rencontre une version au Pakistan ou en Afghanistan (sous le nom Benju) ou encore

au Japon (sous le nom Taisho Koto).- on le retrouve occasionnellement ailleurs ( rock prog, electro, fusion... ) :  ainsi on a pu l'entendre ponctuellement chez Beck p.ex. ou Rapoon,ou plus amplement, joué par Michael Flower de Vibracathedral Orchestra dans son duo avec Chris Corsano.

 Turner Williams Jr. en propose une approche et une maîtrise tout à fait personnelles.

JULIE ROUSSE / fr marseille

Artiste sonore, improvisatrice et compositrice électroacoustique, constamment à la recherche de matières sonores, explorant avec des systèmes traditionnels et expérimentaux de capture du son, dans des contextes choisis et particuliers, urbains, naturels ou industriels. Son travail est fait de performances live, installations sonores, musiques de films, collaborations avec des chorégraphes, performers et vidéastes

Dans sa pratique de l’improvisation libre, elle utilise sa collection sonore à l’aide d’une plateforme numérique de traitement du son en temps réel, fouillant la matière brute – intrusion dans le détail sonore – à la recherche de textures et de rythmes afin de créer des univers poétiques ( " à la recherche d’une relation entre l’Auditeur, l’Espace et le Rêve " ), créant des univers fourmillants et immersifs, avec des pièces à partir de field recordings capturés dans un lieu spécifique, à un moment spécifique afin d'être déployés pour un projet déterminé.

PAUL MICHEL / fr montreuil

"  Recherche sonore à partir d’un synthétiseur modulaire et d’effets. Bourdons, instabilités, court-circuit. "

PM est un peu le joker / dark horse de la soirée. C'est un de ces " jeunes talents " - repérages BROKEN IMPRO " notre  série préférée ( qu'on ne présente plus ? ) se déroulant régulièrement au Chair de Poule. https://soundcloud.com/urlurlurlurlurlurlurl https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pxcfK1b4qW4

Fly - Jo L'Indien 

#Youtube #Bandcamp

[freelance-informatique]

Départ de Niels Nkounkou : qui pour le remplacer à la défense stéphanoise ?

L’AS Saint-Étienne s'apprête à faire face à une autre transformation majeure dans son effectif. Si l'on en croit les échos en provenance d'Allemagne, le défenseur Niels Nkounkou est sur le point de dire au revoir aux Verts. Mais qui pourrait donc bien le remplacer ? Destination allemande pour Niels Nkounkou après l'AS Saint-Étienne Alors que le départ de Niels Nkounkou de l'AS Saint-Étienne vers l'Eintracht Francfort est sur toutes les lèvres, il est à noter que rien n’est encore officiel. La machine médiatique allemande ne cesse de confirmer ce transfert tant attendue. https://twitter.com/Footballogue/status/1689240879574192128 Lire aussi : Ismail Jakobs, le défenseur de l'AS Monaco est la cible d'un club anglais Un vide à combler sur le flanc gauche de l'ASSE Si le départ de Niels Nkounkou se concrétise, cela laisserait un vide considérable dans la défense stéphanoise. Laurent Batlles, à la tête de l'effectif, se retrouve sans arrière latéral gauche alternatif. Dès lors, la quête d'un remplacement se fait urgente, voire vitale. Les pistes manquées et l'espoir Mahmoud Bentayg. Les Verts ont déjà tenté leur chance pour combler ce poste avec Antoine Leautey et Alex Bangura, sans succès. Le vent semble tourner en faveur de Mahmoud Bentayg. Le jeune défenseur de 23 ans, évoluant au Raja Club Athletic au Maroc, est le nouveau nom qui résonne dans les couloirs du Chaudron. Ayant été titularisé à 34 reprises lors de la saison précédente, il semble avoir le profil adéquat pour rejoindre les rangs stéphanois. Le transfert serait estimé à 600 000€ environ. Voir également : Strasbourg RC : le club  compte sur cette nouvelle recrue pour solidifier la défense Des défis à relever pour Mahmoud Bentayg La Ligue 2, avec sa nature très physique, représente un nouveau challenge pour Bentayg. L'ASSE, encaissant deux défaites consécutives en championnat, est dans une phase délicate. Dans ce contexte, l’adaptation du jeune Marocain pourrait être rendue d'autant plus compliquée. Il faudra également qu'il gère la pression d'être constamment comparé à son prédécesseur, Niels Nkounkou. Le microscope médiatique sera, sans aucun doute, braqué sur sa transition, étant donné les enjeux actuels du club. La saison à venir s'annonce cruciale pour l'ASSE. Entre le probable départ de Nkounkou et l'arrivée espérée de Bentayg, les Verts doivent faire des choix stratégiques pour assurer leur avenir. La saison est encore longue, et tous les espoirs restent permis. Reste à voir si Mahmoud Bentayg sera l'élément qui permettra à l'équipe de retrouver son lustre d'antan. ________ Retrouvez toute l'actu foot sur notre page Facebook et sur notre page Twitter ! Read the full article

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Vent post- jakob if you see this..go away >:T

For some reason when I’m happy for someone I get sad. Not all the time but with certain situations and then I feel bad. Like I get jealous of certin things. Why do my friends who are adopted have ways to reach out to their moms and dads and I don’t? Why do other trans kids get to go on hormones but my parents won’t let me? It’s so easy t act like that doesn’t effect me but it does. And it makes me mad, not at them but it just causes anger. Like 3 people Ik are already going on testosterone after coming out like 4 months ago. I’ve been out for 3/4 years and my parents wont even talk about it with me or just say they’re scared and then forget abt it. My bf knows almost the exact l address of we’re his mom lives and all I have some shitty Facebook message my mom read once and deleted. I know it’s not true but sometimes I just get mad and think “it’s not fair” even though that’s not how it works. I hate it so much. I hate that I get mad and jealous and then I feel so bad about it even though I can’t control those things/feelings.

Also race dysphoria. I’m Asian American but I’m adopted and my parents are both white asf. A lot of the time I feel like I’m not “white enough” or I’m not “Asian enough” I don’t like my skin color sometimes. Or the shape of my eyes, or how other Asian kids at my school are able to talk abt all the stereotypical Asian parent thing their parents do and I can’t. I make jokes abt it all the time and I’m not embarrassed or ashamed sometimes I just don’t like the way I look or how I don’t have the same experiences as other people.

Bullying. I was bullied severely. For almost 2 years. And that fucking hurt and was hard and I’m still healing from all the damage that caused. Yet people around me(even not meaning to) invalidate it all the time. “No one gets bullied in high school” yea well my brother fucking did. He did so severely he went to partial program and we had to call a crisis freak and he didn’t go back to that school for 2-3 months. So yea I was a loser who spent most my time in the counseling office. Yk why? Because I didn’t feel fucking safe in my own god damn school. And I know it’s going to be the same way in high school. So stop saying that shit. Stop saying how no one gets bullied and shit like that because you have NO idea how fucking hard that was for me. I struggled to be alive this far because of it.

“Friends” -I know there’s more to one side of a story. But He knows how hard and literally life threatening that person was to me as he still chose to be friends with them. They chose to be friends with people who bullied me. I know the other side, he has a bad home, he wants to be popular. He has a main character complex and wants cooler friends but he fucking left me over and over. So no I’m not going to stop talking about how mad I am at him because he was a bitch. He hurt me and he knew it would hurt me.

Just stfu. SHUT UP. Stop telling me to calm down or that shit. Im MAD. Im mad as upset and hurt and I just want that all to go away.

Im done. One more person brings up those last 2 things I’m telling them. Im telling them how shitty it makes me feel.

#im so done #just stfu #bullying #race dysphoria #fake friends #shut up. #ugh fml

[somnolenceses]

oct 31 2022

trick or treat! long time no see

not vent-y. ive long past any use for this blog anymore, really. but ive been thinking a lot lately. its no surprise that i have some not-so-stellar memory so i dont really remember things unless i REALLY think about it. kind of like a certain white hair character ive been playing for a while. but recently ive been able to actually, truly reflect on my past actions and now, it truly baffles me that people love me or want to continue interactions with me.

it really baffles me even that people havent shut me out or be like 'you're horrible by the way, i can't believe you at some point believed you were a good person before it all hit you in 2019 that you're very, very horrible actually.' people are too kind, aren't they? you are more inclined to believe someone hasn't done anything wrong when you think they haven't but in truth they have. the other week i was thinking there is truly nothing but benefit to killing myself. unattractive, no matter how less i eat now, (im not, nor have i ever, grazed anywhere near the super concerning levels so, really, if anything there is no bad behind this and its good for me) even uglier underneath, now i really know no matter what i do i'm forever going to be weird and awkward and i'll forever be an outcast even to the groups i'm in, completely incapable of being competent. even my friends mentioned they did not like me before befriending me, and they make jokes at my expense sometimes, and i wonder if i somehow have manipulated them. even the one i love. god i couldn't even bear it. so many times i felt like i've cheated them out of someone better, someone more proper to deal with them, someone more competent and it makes me wonder what the hell i did to trick them into liking me and making so many promises. i just cannot, im sorry. it's one of the most confusing things in my life. i am nothing but unworthy. i feel i am only meant to give love to others, not be loved. that sort of reciprocation is just not for me, i think. sometimes i feel too awful in the head to properly help them but i force myself to suck it up and push it down even if the thought of replying stresses me out and makes me feel worse. but that's jjust what people do for eachother, don't they? so i feel bad because i feel like i'm making it out to be their fault when it's really not. at all. who knows if i can even do anything to save them? i can't even kill myself anymore because i'd just be abandoning them when they need me the most, and in a way, that's good but it feels like that lack of ironic freedom kills me in a way. i'm not sad any more over this, really. those days are past me now. i guess it's just a part of maturing. that life is not what you ever will want it to be, and you're just locked into a pretty unhappy or undesirable future no matter what. though, i guess if i ever get selfish enough (as if i wasn't enough), or god decides it is my time, i hope he makes it quick and painless. it's a bit too much to ask for, but whatever. didn't really ask to be a person anyways i'd rather just observe life. but as edgy and joker arc-y as it sounds i guess the greatest freedom of all (life) is the most cripplingly oppressive. i probably don't even mean that last sentence i thought it somewhat sounded nice. i am just a natural liar through my teeth. though it prevents me from stupidity like this, haha. anyways i have been enjoying FE13 and FE14 in the time i have been inactive. i love jakob he's so nice for being a typical butler character.

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[pinfact97]

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[jakobkrov]

🥩 //

I hate you

/nbh

#I just needed to say this and get it off my chest #dont reblog #sorry for venting on jakobs account as per usual i just. Ghhhhh. #/nbh means not directed at anyone following this blog

[a-friendly-fangirl]

My thoughts on Sex Education, season 3.

⚠️⚠️⚠️SPOILERS⚠️⚠️⚠️

First of all, please try to remember that this is just my opinion. I'm nobody to judge whether the season was good or bad and I don't mean to hurt anyone.

With that being said, I'd like to begin by admitting that I liked these 8 episodes overall... but there were so many things that felt wrong to me.

I loved Jean's journey during her pregnancy and the way she tried to take care of everyone at the same time (although I kind of disliked Jakob for some things he said).

I loved Aimee and her desire to heal after the assault. The way she really wants to make her voice be heard was heartwarming and inspiring to me. Plus, her friendship with Maeve is one of the most beautiful I've ever watched (about this, I'll say something later on).

I loved Viv and her ambition that slowly became less important than her peers and their rights. She really wanted them to be happy in the end. I think that she didn't really understand how bad things with Hope were until the trip to France. And she redeemed herself in a great way.

I loved Lily and her journey towards acceptance of herself, even when others thought she was weird and silly. It was empowering seeing her so confident in the end.

I loved Adam's growth. It taught that even the most simple of passions can turn into something meaningful and that, no matter how bad you are, you can change.

Above all, I loved Maeve finally getting the chance to do something amazing for herself for once.

All of these things were wonderful, truly. But so many others I didn't like and I couldn't really understand as narrative choices.

Let me begin with the one I found the most annoying: Isaac's fake redemption arc. I know what you might say: "Of course you hate it! You ship Maeve and Otis!". Well, yes, I do. But it's not all about that. I might be exaggerating... but Isaac deleting Otis' message was beyond disrespectful to me. If you remember, at the beginning of the second season, Isaac was really mean to Maeve... but he had the opportunity to redeem himself. He had the chance to say he was sorry and to be a better person to her, even though he had been around for so little time. However, when it came to Otis to have the same opportunity, he decided that he wasn't worth it. Isaac, who didn't really know Otis, took away from him the chance to at least say that he was truly sorry for being such an ass to Maeve. But, what feels even worse to me is that he took away even Maeve's possibility to decide. We don't know how it would have gone, if Maeve had listen to what Otis had to say. Maybe she would have forgiven him. Maybe she would have still chosen Isaac, because Otis hurt her too much. Who knows what might have been? No one. And why? Because Isaac decided for everyone. And I don't care if he thought he was protecting Maeve or if he was angry. It. Was. Not. His. Choice. To. Make.

Also, I didn't really understand why Maeve wasn't as mad as I was with him. Sure, she stopped talking to him for a couple of days. But the moment she started to speak with him again, they hooked up. Too fast, too soon, in my opinion. He apologised? Sure. But so did Otis. And he didn't get to be so easily forgiven.

But let's move to the another point I have a lot to say about: Otis and Ruby. I really liked them together. I found them cute and funny. But still... Ruby struggled for real to accept Otis for who he is. And Otis acted the way she wanted to keep her close. For example, he shaved off his moustache for her. Now, most of the fandom hated that moustache... but again, Otis seemed to care a great deal for it. He kept repeating that he spent months growing it. But Ruby didn't like it. And he sacrificed something he was proud of for her. But okay, a lot of people would do something like that for their loved ones. But then he had to dress like her friends to fit in. To be fair, Ruby gave up that idea pretty soon... but she just reacted to Otis refusing to do it. If I had to make a comparison between her and another love interest (not Maeve, 'cause I'd be biased), I'd choose Ola, of course. She was putting pressure on him in other ways, but she never wanted him to be any different than who he was. Love, after all, means acceptance. And perhaps Ruby loved Otis for he saw the hardest part of her life, without judging her. I wish it could have been the same for him.

About this, I've noticed many people being disappointed in Otis not saying he loved her too, because it means that he was just using her. Well... no? I mean, he was the first one to admit that, if she was willing to give him more time, he might have learned to love her. Should he have made it clear to her earlier in the relationship? Sure! Can we condemn him for not feeling the same? Absolutely not! Feelings can't be forced. And I'm also sure that he thought he was done for good with Maeve. He suffocated the love he had for her so much that the clinic made him sick and that he admitted his feelings only when pressured by Maeve herself.

In conclusion, I think that Otis and Ruby might have had a wonderful friendship, if they were only given the chance. They have that kind of chemistry.

Talking about people who are better off as friends: in my opinion, that's all Maeve and Aimee will ever be. I honestly can't see anything romantic in them. The purity of their friendship means so much to me and it's, at least for me, so different from the "Friends who are more than friends" energy. We're so lucky to have such wonderful actresses to play these characters... and what I see in their gestures and glances tells me of a great friendship. They're so different from Emily and Sue in Dickinson (they're supposed to be just friends, but they're clearly not) or even Judy and Jen in Dead To Me (another pair of friends that can be ambiguous with each other).

Moving to another couple, whose development I didn't understand: Adam and Eric. I'm not a great fan of their relationship. I like them both as individuals. But the bully-victim dynamic they used to have wasn't the best one to start a relationship with. I could see the appeal though. So much that, I was truly happy for them, when they said their first I love you's. And every step Adam made in the right direction made me smile, since that it took him a long time to grow up. Eric seemed happy with him too. Until he went to Nigeria. I sincerely loved the whole trip... but something felt wrong in him founding what he truly wanted there, where he couldn't even tell his family he had a boyfriend. The scene in the taxi gave me chills. I felt the risk he was taking by going with a stranger to a gay club. A stranger that he kissed almost out of nowhere (whether it was the heat of the moment or Adam not replying to him, I'm not sure). It's the second time he cheats on his boyfriend. And I think Eric deserves far better as a character.

My question about this whole drama is: "How come Eric found out that he wanted to be free in Nigeria and not in England?". If it's true that going to the club made him realise he wanted to be among people like him, it makes the whole situation even more absurd. Because there are plenty of gay bars and clubs in England. Why not go to one of them? My theory is that they wanted to build a good romance with Adam, then build tension between them and in us and end the whole thing with their breakup (probably to make Adam fall in love with Rahim).

I swear I'm almost done. I want to discuss one last topic with you all.

Maeve going to America like that felt so rushed. It's probably another strategy to make us want to see more of the show. And it surely worked. But still, it has, at least for how they developed it, nothing to do with Maeve maturing. The idea itself was amazing. I loved her getting the opportunity of a lifetime. But she literally decides to go the evening before (which is not even realistic. In real life, you have a deadline until which you can pay to go wherever you want. If you don't, your place is given to someone else), after getting the money from her mother. Now, where does that money come from? She might as well have stolen it, since she didn't have it before. In my opinion, this part of the story could have gone differently with little effort and the same outcome. How? Well, since that basically everyone thought she deserved to go to America, why couldn't have her classmates and teachers organised a fundraiser? Even in secret, so that she couldn't get angry for their "charity". It would have been so much better and so wholesome to see everyone in that school give a little sum for her, even to thank her for the help they got from the clinic.

Anyway, I'm so sorry for talking so much, but this season didn't go as expected and I truly needed to vent :P.

Thank you for listening❤

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[simstakay]

"Alyson and I went to dinner at Pepper's Pub after class because we had so much to catch up on.

She told me all the drama that was happening in her Fashion class and I vented about everything that was happening with Malik.

I told her we had been hanging out so often recently yet he still hasn't asked or even mentioned anything about wanting to be something more.

She tried to give me some advice and told me I should just ask him directly...but I don't know....she knows I haven't had much luck with guys in the past.

My first boyfriend cheated on me (Rico) and the first guy I fell in love with ended because of a stupid fight (Jakob)....

Am I ready to have my heart broken again if this doesn't work out?"

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[mindblowingscience]

A reconstruction of the only fossilised dinosaur cloaca in existence may help illuminate how the prehistoric animals mated.

The cloaca is an all-purpose opening on the body of many animals – including lizards, turtles and birds – that is used for mating, laying eggs, urinating and defecating.

In 2016, Jakob Vinther at the University of Bristol, UK, and his colleagues were assessing evidence of camouflage in the well-preserved skin of a metre-long horn-billed dinosaur called Psittacosaurus. They noticed that the animal also seemed to have a surprisingly intact cloaca.

Vinther and his colleagues took the fossil, flattened by years of compacting, and turned it from a 2D pancake into a 3D digital model. The team then tried to compare the Psittacosaurus’s cloaca against those of other animals.

Most birds, which evolved from dinosaurs, don’t have a penis and reproduce using “cloacal kissing”, im which cloacas touch. Vinther believes that Psittacosaurus didn’t do this. Its cloaca had two flaps of skin covering most of the cloacal vent, which gives it an appearance more like that of a crocodile’s cloaca rather than a bird’s. Male crocodiles have a penis that emerges from the cloaca and Vinther’s team suspects that Psittacosaurus did too. Vinther reckons the Psittacosaurus’s skin flaps could have hidden musk glands producing sexually attractive scents.

The conclusions mirror those reached by another team that analysed the same Psittacosaurus fossil and posted their findings to a preprint server last year.

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#Science #Dinosaurs #reproductive biology #Biology #Zoology #Cloaca #stem

[the-geeky-truth]

Sex Education 3x06 to 3x08 - Things are coming to an end

3x06

I can’t decide what’s better: the fact that Aimee made vulva cupcakes or the fact that nobody in the Milburn-Nyman household questioned it.

Jean making it clear that Aimee is not at fault for what happened on the bus is so damn important! I mean, of course it wasn’t Aimee’s fault and in a perfect world nobody would ever think it was, but we’re not living in that world and that’s why we need more people like Jean.

And whenever I think Mrs. Haddon is already awful enough, she outdoes herself again.

Putting signs on her students to humiliate and isolate them?! Who on earth allowed this woman to work with children/teenagers (or really any people at all) in the first place?! - Let alone put her in charge of an entire school?!

The audacity of both Otis and Isaac to hear about Elsie’s disappearance, get involved even though they have nothing helpful to contribute, and then proceed to make it about themselves.

Ohhh, Viv is gonna destroy Mrs. Haddon and I am so here for it!

I really like Anna, which once again reminds me that foster parents don’t get nearly enough credit for doing what they’re doing.

I’m glad Eric got to see the queer community in Lagos and that he feels at home there - that’s beautiful. But it’s no excuse whatsoever to cheat on Adam.

3x07

That animated sequence showing an excerpt of Lily’s story is really cool.

I love how Eric is so ready to help with the thing without knowing what the thing even is.

Aaand Mrs. Haddon outdoes herself again.

Oh, how I’ve missed Maeve and Aimee (and their fight didn’t even last that long).

Getting out through the air vent is a bit of an overused cliché, but I’ll allow it in this case.

Okay, where did Ruby come from?

No, Lily, don’t throw it all away!

“Beautiful” is a gendered word? Huh. I use it for anyone, all the time.

Lily’s definitely an artist.

Shots fired, Mr. Groff!

3x08

To think that this is Layla’s morning routine every day ...

I sort of expected that Anna would offer Maeve to stay with her, but I didn’t expect Maeve to accept, so that’s a nice surprise.

Rahim’s and Adam’s friendship is so weird.

So first Aimee told Jean about Otis and Maeve, now she told Maureen about Adam and Eric ... whose mother is she going to tell about her child’s love interest next?

And now Ola and Jakob have me crying a little.

Nooo, please don’t let the baby be Remi’s! Please, anyone’s but his!

I’m so glad Layla is binding safely now thanks to Cal.

Well, Adam has MY heart.

Yes, Ola and Lily!

Aimee is a very good second mum.

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