#just bad on so many different levels

[senselessalchemist]

Only the most deranged and horrid content from youtube ads as per usual

#bad content #and i sincerely apologize #but i stared at this for minutes on end #just bad on so many different levels #why give the brains those bodies like this is some terrible fitness ad #legit thought this was yet another repugnant and terrible diet ads #but no its just some other repugnant and terrible scammy quote unquote services #i hate this and i hate seeing it but my horrible brain cant let me be alone with it #and i hate the rigid classifications when in reality its all just gradiations and variations and no one is going to fall into just one #meyers briggs shit all over again just with a new flavor #anything that purports to classify people like this is almost certainly unfounded and pseudoscientific and ultimately basically useless #got a little steamed there whoops #also whats the point? like you could just consider yourself and probably make some good conclusions re what youre better at #and worse at #it can be fun but i hate it being presented as if its something like backed by facts or science or whatever #anyway sorry have fun with things and if you find some personal use or positivity in them thats cool! #but i just worry about the scamminess of some things #and the potential to reduce oneself based on the narrow categories presented

[uncanny-tranny]

I think another aspect of conservative thought people need to understand is the idea that it's all about dominance.

The reason why sayings like "we don't want to trans your kids, we want trans kids to live" is because, in the conservative mind, you are replacing their dominance with your own. It can never be about what is best for others, it is always about expressing absolute power and control.

Natural selection, at its ideal, will weed out the people who "shouldn't live." If their existence is a threat to the already-established hierarchy, then it's obvious that they shouldn't exist in order to challenge hierarchy.

While this certainly isn't a "conservative-only" mindset, it's a trend I have noticed more in conservative spaces. This is why I don't always think it's helpful to go on about how, "Oh, we don't want to threaten your worldview. We just want people to live 😊". You will fundamentally be threatening their power in their minds. Therefore, nothing you say can truly take away from the anxiety, fear, and anger at losing control that may be instilled.

#politics #transphobia #transphobia tw #used the whole 'we want trans kids to live' because i personally think it's a good example.. #...but isn't the sole example of such... #...take for instance the gay marriage debates from the early 2010s... #...'if we legalize gay marriage it's ONE STEP CLOSER to them taking OVER america and legalizing [horrible thing]!'... #...that is the anxiety of Losing Control and Losing The Divine Hierarchical Power Bestowed To You Personally By Gd Himself... #...i'm not saying all of this to dissuade people from educating people. but i want people to be aware of this dynamic... #...and to decide if they can (or should) personally go up to bat for others to educate people... #...i don't think you will go very far if you try to educate people without understanding on SOME level how their thought process will be... #...because it is likely that you are educating somebody who is going to see the world VERY differently... #...and they will often interpret what you are saying VERY differently than how you intended it to be interpreted... #...again while this isn't solely a conservative issue (believe me i KNOW) i notice it much more in those spaces... #...and since i am in spaces that WANT to educate people about this i think it is apt... #...it isn't a bad thing to want to educate. but again it's not helpful to just assume others are going to interpret you the way you want... #...it's definitely why i stopped making so many posts about educating others. i just don't think i can do it well... #...or at least in a way that doesn't Feel Threatening (even if it Isn't A Threat)

[evermoredeluxe]

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#this is gonna sound bad so hence in the tags #i feel like everyone is in the grieving stage of tumblr fans not being picked but im in such an acceptance phase #i used to get so sad that i hadn’t met her and will never meet her but now i don’t #like i live one hour from LA but i still never expected to be picked like not even for one second #because i’ve just accepted it to the point where im not at all disappointed and im just happy that others get to meet her #like i know that some of these people meeting her weren’t fans 3-5 years ago and hated her in 2016 and it’s Different when they meet her #instead of veteran fans #BUT there are also a lot of long time dedicated fans there #i don't think we all comprehend what level of fame she's at #her meeting and inviting these many fans is not normal - casual fans or new fans or veteran fans #arshia talks

[thedevotionaltour]

even for period typical ableism it still drives me nuts for karen to go oh poor matt how can he deal and get around as if he hasn't been blind most of his life at this point and living on his own by himself as an adult for his entire adult life after college and has also lived in the city his whole life like girl use your damn brain he can get around by himself just fine. good god. like take five seconds to use your brain. literally adult man who lives by himself if nothing else that should tell you he is fine and when he needs assistance has the knowledge and ability to go get it you act as if he can't even walk on the sidewalk by himself. he literally shows up to work by himself. it drives me up the wall sometimes how she sees proof of him functioning fine independently literally witnesses it on the daily and still thinks these things. like again foggy isn't great either bc again the period typical ableism (and just general ableism in the world outside of this period as this is a common attitude of viewing disabled people as helpless and unable to function even if they are people who do live independently (and im not touching on people who do need extra support and caretaking in this context. as this post is about these characters in the context of a story. so im talking about what we see there instead of any truly meaningful nuanced way) but the writing here is like. Particularly this way due to the time) he has a modicum more of understanding that matt is literally a capable grown adult man. literally told karen matt is a big boy who can handle himself and then karen went b-b-but you forget he's blind as if foggy hasn't known him for years of his life and is his best friend like PLEASE SEE HIM AS AN ADULT. I AM GOING TO GO INSANE. PLEASE RESPECT HIM IF YOU LOVE HIM SO DEARLY. AND EVEN IF YOU DIDN'T. JUST RESPECT HIM AS A PERSON!!!!!!

#i think it's particularly maddening bc we have seen characters be able to understand civillian matt is like. more than just Blind Man. #i am always highly aware of period typical writing and can remember the context etc etc but sometimes. #sometimes it truly. truly does drive me up the wall. especially when other characters have been capable of not being That Level #of infantalizing. again foggy still isn't much better in a lot of respects he is just as capable of and has been as infantilizing #and insulting as karen has been. for sure. on multiple occassions. no questions asked. but i dont think he does it to the extent karen does #as in we dont see it on page just as much. it's just a bit less. so we see karen focus on it far more. to an almost exaggerated extent #part of that is the romance plot of ohhh i cannot possibly love a blind man while foggy is matt;s best friend of many years #so of course it will be in the way of the stan lee and old romance comics schools of writing that this goes down and is written like this. #of course we see her focus on it a touch more in a different way bc she's still getting to know matt and hasnt witnessed him #for about like a decade(? they met in undergrad right?) function on his own the way foggy has. but jesus christ man. good god. #at a certain point even with the period time context it does just still leave a bad taste. at certain points it becomes less eye roll #and far more maddening and hard to push down. bc it is gross. no matter what time period it is. #again. both of them are pretty disrespectful towards matt about it at this point even if mostly in their inner monologues or dialogues #with each other and not super to matt's face about it every time. but still. sometimes karen drives me far more crazy about it than foggy. #becase at least foggy can in fact recognize every now and then. matt is a perfectly capable grown man who can function and thrive. #and is someone who lives independently but also can know how to get assistance when needed. #while karen at this point has never really once given matt the benefit of that assumption despite witnessing his capabilities. #because even with his act of trying to fit the image ppl have of him. he still functions within that! and shows he can do things! #and ask for help when he needs it! even within his act of making himself smaller and quieter for others. #he's still like. adult man who lives his life. and does stuff on his own time. #i cant really speak about matt on any more deeper level than that in regards to his disabilities. i am not disabled. #i only speak as a reader and someone watching what these characters do and have proven to be able to do and how they act. #so i can only talk about karen and foggy's behaviors and attitudes in that regard. #and also as a person with like. basic understanding of other ppl living their lives. that all ppl live their own damn lives however it is #like most ppl on planet earth. #i apologize if any of my wording here is bad or if i dont talk on it well as none of this in the real world stuff is my lived experience #and you are free to go hey. incorrect. think about that or word that differently. #ok i promise im done now it's just. EUGH. UGH!!!!! #static.soundz

[goldkirk]

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#I am struggling so hard to pinpoint where the lines are in discussions of situations like the franke and hildebrandt behaviors #because like ok #people keep being so outraged and angry and baffled that they viewed the kids as #deliberately willful and disobedient #and then transitioned into believing them to be infected with evil and or influenced or possessed by demons or under satanic influence #and that’s where everyone is like HOW COULD THEY THINK THIS HOW COULD THEY TELL THEM THAT HOW COULD THEY ETC ETC #and that’s where everyone loses me #like yeah. of course it’s wrong. of course it’s damaging and shitty. but like. what in the world is everyone so shocked and upset by #about that concept (not the physical abuse it caused obviously) #how are you shocked. how are you shocked? it’s just the logical conclusion of believing children have disobedient evil wills #like if you assume evil you’re only going to escalate from there. OBVIOUSLY #I don’t understand how it’s different #where do things cross these lines? no one explains that to me #normal life as usual while tons of kids including me spend years or decades believing we’re evil and under stubborn satanic influence #but in one of the rare situations where it rises to public awareness suddenly everyone is shitting bricks over it #I want those kids drowned in love forever and I wish it never happened to them and their situation #was definitely so so so extreme and severe and I am so glad R was so brave and desperate and got them out #but like. how is everyone so shocked #this is standard. this is common. there’s a huge subculture of people doing and believing this shit #like why is it different just because this case is so visible #so like how is it so hard for people to grasp that this is a widespread issue #I don’t understand #of COURSE it’s wrong to do to someone but like #so many parents and adults do so many of the things these two did just less #fewer hours. less intensely. not in a desert. not with handcuffs and shit. etc. #where’s the line legally? where’s the line culturally? #like how am I supposed to grasp that it’s not a problem until it’s at some level that #I know it’s all Bad but I mean in terms of when the populace starts to mass-care

[saph-yells-into-the-void]

the amount of DISDAIN I get from some ppl saying that blue flag is written for the straights.

girl I did not stay up til 6am reading this manga, tearing up and crying bc of how much I saw myself in characters like touma and masumi and how painfully relatable their pain/struggles were just for you to say that blue flag is for the straights

be so fr rn

#the usage of queer pain in blue flag was done so so SO fucking tastefully and with care towards ppl who experience similar struggles #there were so many very well done nuanced discussions not only relating to queerness but also towards other topics such as heteronormativit #and societal standards and choices and change #hell I even thought that the whole discussion on homophobia towards the end was done with care- there I said it #bc it isn't just like: HOMOPHOBIC PPL BAD!! #there's layers and different sides shown that some ppl may not agree with but Jesus Christ ITS PART OF THE FUCKING DISCUSSION #yall NEED to hear these other sides and stop closing your eyes to everything that isn't just like- homophobia bad >:( #bc god forbid we have nuanced talks about touchy subjects #sorry I'm just so annoyed that this is a fandom-wide agreement that the homophobia talk was handled badly #bc imo I don't think it was it was just trying to shine the topic in a different light #anyways this manga is brilliant and amazing and I need more ppl to read this #I'm even hoping for an anime adaptation idc if itll most likely be mediocre I just need more ppl to find this story #this manga resonated with me on such a deeply personal level as a queer person that I didn't even know was possible #'blue flag utilizes queer pain as a tool for the straights-' stfu speak for your fucking self #this manga wasn't written for the straights it was written for ME actually #blue flag

[tritoch]

me: oh wow an ffxiv theory/meta post! i love these even when i don't agree with them. i wonder if this person will highlight an underdiscussed aspect of the setting, or reframe someone's characterization interestingly the post: "in the original japanese--" me: unsubscribed. blocked. reported. hie thee hence and never darken my door again.

#ffxiv #it's written in tokyo! we are talking about people who if they had a translation question could *walk down the hall and ask the writer* #it's not the english version's fault that you're a coward who's afraid of subtext and subtler characterization #even if it was intended as direct translation 99% of you lack the japanese fluency to appreciate any degree of nuance #and you frankly clearly can't appreciate nuance in english to begin with! so how could you know if it's conveyed correctly. #my favorite example is haurchefant. a lot of people complain about him being 'toned down' in english #which 1) he is. it's culturally necessary. if EN haurchefant talked about your sweat and offered you a 'warm bed' he'd be loathed #he'd come off as sexually aggressive towards women and as bad mlm rep. fans would DESPISE him. #different audiences have different values. he has to be written slightly differently to land in the same way he does in the original. #2) no he's really not. like sure the text of his lines gets toned down. but he's still absurdly into you. he's still a weirdo thrillseeker #there's still SHIRTLESS MEN WORKING OUT IN HIS OFFICE LOL #a lot of people complain that the english version is too aggressive or people are too mean and it's like...these are different contexts #like there's sooo many alisaie lines where people are like 'she's more of a cute tsundere in jp she's mean in english' and like. #alisaie is 100% an american tsundere in english. the localization team just knows how tsundere archetypes come off in english #which is to say straightforward tsundere shit tends to scan in english as either incredibly childish or cumbrained nonsense #and they have in turn written her with just a slightly lighter hand and more culturally intelligibly in english #she's a teenage girl who covers her sensitivity and inability to stop caring by putting on an abrasive front. that's a tsundere #alisaie is sort of an insane feat of localization. new levels of technology previously unheard of #'alisaie is like my badass wlw little sister' okay...yes. let's go with that. please ignore the ass shots in the trailers.

[drewsaturday]

the thing is i rly adore adult characters in kids cartoons that are kinda left to develop in the background but still have some fucky romance stuff going on, but i also want more of them?

and to get that, i should probably watch an adult show where baaaasically the same characters would be fucking on screen.

but something about losing the context of them being in a kids cartoon with no spotlight ruins it for me???

?????

#txt #i think the solution is i need more cartoons that focus on adults #OR kids cartoons to run for more than 2.5 seasons total so there's time to give me enough content for those adults #that it actually feels like they've gotten the screentime equivalent of a single episode dedicated to them #after 9 seasons of existing in the background #but it has to be like.... in proportion to the rest of the show #which ALSO sucks for me bc so many times i'll see a rly appealing ship but the actual show it's from is so bad #and bad shows r bad but bad KIDS shows are another level of unbearable (as an adult... watching them j;klsdsf) #it's different when it's a genuinely amazing cartoon that just happens to have this as a feature #but i am finding so many ships from tumbble as my intro to a cartoon #but the actual show would make me want to chew glass due to badly handled kid plots taking up 90% of the show #because. it is. a kids cartoon j;klskdflk. #but at the same time i don't want the adults to get TOO much focus bc then it's not as interesting either a;jlksdkljjfk #finding ships that actually hit that rly weird balance in kids shows is so difficult man #at least i'll always have fanvids to fill me in on these things i guess #it's a weird window of appeal to be stuck with but at least it breeds great fanworks when they give u Just enough

[assmaster-8000]

why don't clothes fit me the way they do on a skinny cis guy (<- isn't a skinny cis guy)

#being trans masc is so frustrating because i forget i got the level 1000 gyatt #go forth and find a beautiful trans woman bodily curves of mine #i have so many cool pants that would give away im kweer if i wore them not because they're from alt fashion subcultures #but because my ass and thighs and hips are too femme apparently?!?!? #when will people stop associating allat with women or something #my cis male friends have the biggest fucking asses for some reason AND THEY KEEP ON TWERKING INFRONT OF ME WHEN IM MINDING MY BUSINESS #no but *im* the female and a girl apparently #i wanna go out in tight fitting clothes until i realise i actually have a female body like whatttt #ain't that crazy #im not saying those bodily attributes are inherently femme or indicators of being a girl or a female cause just. no #im just saying that many people think that way #and it's hard trying to be perceived as masc while trying to dress the way i want to #'why do you care about how others perceive you?' because being perceived as a girl makes me feel bad like what #its different from your personality being perceived differently #im aware my gender is something i define but i can also want others to perceive me as a guy too #i cant change the minds of everybody but in the end i still am a masc identifying person and i want people to easily identify me as one #transphobes and people who blatantly refuse to perceive me as one is something else entirely #and if adhering to the binary gender norms is how i can be validated in my gender then so be it #because gender is a social construct and mine is affirmed and solidified through social interaction #other trans people wont do what i do. others do. that's fine. gnc trans people are fucking sick /pos #but unfortunately i do not have it in me to NOT care about how others perceive my gender #because it matters a lot to me and being perceived as a girl hurts

[aeide-thea]

thinking abt (1) that post abt how most censorship is preemptive self-censorship¹ (2) bras²

⸻ ¹ wow, tumblr search actually worked for once??? ² i do understand and respect that for many people bras serve an actual structural function wrt support/comfort! however, for many other people (hi!) they do not, at least in everyday non-sports contexts, and that's the set of concerns i'm speaking to here.

#i mean for me personally it's also like. sometimes/often/always i don't want to have visible tits‚ for Gender Reasons #so rendering them more compressed & visually ignorable is a move in the right direction #but that's sort of seasonal (which sounds insane‚ but‚ idk‚ in the summer the visible body hair helps balance out the visible tits???) #so it's like. objectively very obvious that i ought to go braless more in the summer #when it would bother me less visually and dramatically increase my comfort levels #and i do‚ in the house! but like. when i go out i still feel the need to render myself Presentable and i'm mad about it #bc like. yeah it's partially a trans desire to hide my chest but like. is that actually separable from the way women are socialized #to manage their breasts to HOA-approved standard or else open themselves up to a whole gamut of inappropriate treatment. (no.) #and so it's really just like. reimposing many different shades of cisheteropatriarchy on myself simultaneously #but unfortunately the only way out is to just. accept all the bad reactions i'm living in fear of. but those DO feel bad! #as always it's like. hard when yr self-protective conditioning isn't serving you wrt being a free person #but IS a rational reaction to the hobbled reality of yr actual existence… #like. easy to say 'just ignore those worries.' and maybe i will‚ at least in the context of like. casual public appearances #but like. even if the material consequences are unlikely‚ for me‚ to be more than unpleasantly judgmental stares— #that's still a real emotional consequence that has an impact on my well-being! but so does the self-censorship. #anyway. too many tags & no novel insight. just like. sux lol #(also usually on here i omit any discussion of Tit Management Issues bc it's my space where i get to pretend not to have a body) #(but like. that's self-censorship of a kind too.) #embodiment (is violence)

[xysidhequeen]

Me: The migraines are getting better! :D

The Migraines: No the fuck we are not

Me, in pain: They’re. Getting. Better.

The Migraines: Suffer

Me: If I say it enough, it'll be true

#shit post #almoat 800 people are following me you all get to suffer for it :D #no but I have migraines every day #i wake up with them consistently #after an hour or two they go away for a bit #usually after Ive been awake 5 hours they come back #I can only take so many different OTC headache meds before it becomes dangerous #like #I already gave myself ulcers because of it #which #seriously ulcers dont even register on my pain scale i didnt even know I had them #the migraines arent my only issue just the one people have the easiest time understanding typically #theres also the light headedness #the near fainting sometimes when I wake up and move #the consistent nausea thats been around so long my hunger cues are permanently fucked up #the concerning weakness and general aches everywhere #BUT #my migraines dont feel AS BAD as they did over the weekend #SO THATS GOOD #its hurts rn though but it waited awhile to get to 'my skull is slowly fracturing' level so im proud of my body #also dont tell me to drink water I drink more water in a day than my entire generation does in a week im VERY hydrated

[sysig]

Like a dream (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #Max Vyer #Dexter Favin #The latest reread really brought up some Feelings I wasn't expecting lol ♪ I thought I'd gotten them all out before but nope! New thoughts! #I love Max as a character quite a lot - he's a mess in so many ways and I really find him interesting! #He's probably one of the few characters that I actually have a ''Please for the love of god take him out of situations for once'' feeling #Everyone else I'm constantly like ''Make them sufferrrrr'' which I mean - I'm not about to say I don't also feel that way A Little to him #The proportions are different! That's all ♪ #He's just fjdsalfd he was failed on so many levels! Repeatedly! Despite how much of his pain is self-inflicted I can't help feeling bad ♥ #Max is not a good person! But I really think he could've been and the potential of exploring that gives me Feelings #Like what kind of environment would be good for him ♫ What kind of life would cultivate him #My brain immediately went to a scenic coastal village where he and Dex can eat fresh fish and work for dinner money and bicycle hehe #And sleep together in worn sheets <3 It's not fancy but it's theirs #But of course their story is a tragedy #The saddest part really is that Max was doomed from the beginning #Even if Dexter had taken him away - he really never would have though would he ♥ - but even if he had #Even if he had gotten clean and started to make a life for himself it never would've mattered because he's still not Max in there anymore #The thought of them escaping and everything being quietly blissful and Dex comes back to a Max sitting on their - /their/ bed #Just staring at his hands and smiling back at him #Hhhhhhhhh there's a lot of feelings <3 <3

[zelda-posting]

tears of the kingdom could have been so good if it were built around like, its story or its characters instead of being a clunky shell to show off the mechanic no one asked for that it forces you to use

#* #text #totk #mechanics #i had fun scuttling around in the depths for a while but that got old eventually. for obvious reasons #what i liked about zelda games was always the atmosphere and character interactions #like. one of my favorite games is twilight princess. which is. deeply unserious in many ways #bit it COMMITTED to its setting and what the writers went ham making sure #that it was still full of whimsy and affection. #totk doesn't have that. the characters are all 1) instruction manuals or 2) vehicles for what small and disparate semblances of plot #survived whatever disaster must have happened in development that made them cannibalize several different ideas #and stick them into the shell for the fucking. arm #totk plays like a gallery or again just an engine for the building thing. #it's pretty. the music is good. the building thing is well made. but as a zelda game totk Fucking Tanks #i HATE overinvolved mechanics. i HATE having to stop and rely on a Whole Process that i have to keep stocked #to get anything done. i've always liked loz again bc of characters and whimsy but also bc it's always been mechanically vert streamlined #and accessible to someone like me who is disabled and finds fiddling EXTREMELY tedious #you have one required tool per dungeon and they're QUICK they're SIMPLE they're A GOOD TIME #totk. to me. is just clunky and has no redeeming qualities outside of again being pretty and still sort of nominally letting you run around #collecting things. some of the side quests were cute. but even then the characters were very. #THE THING ABOUT ZELDA GAMES IS THAT IM used TO THEM BEING ABOUT. NOT JUST THE FUNCTION!!!!!! #there were things— many of them! sometimes most of them even!!!— there just for fun. again almost especially The Characters #totk is so goddamn UTILITARIAN on all levels ITS. CLUNKY and BORING i don't WANT to have to do 30 things just so i can do something else. #hey nintendo. if you have to force people to play your game. like if you specifically have an ''open'' game and then subsequently have to #manufacturer MANY blocks and caveats to the idea of ''do whatever have fun!!'' so that it's''but only how WE want you to''. maybe thats bad. #maybe you've done a bad job. if again. you have to FORCE players to go about things in the way and order that you want. it's no fun. #like even zelda games where you have less options and linear progression feel less restrictive bc like. they don't fucking punish you. #for. playing the game. you just can't do things. totk really punishes you for going off script. which like. why even do that. #anyway. this is all probably incoherent. i'm right tho. #wow there are so many typos. pretend there are not <3

[icewindandboringhorror]

feeling sick constantly in the background all the time is like.. usually negligible-ish.. until multiple various chronic background issues all happen to overlap at once and then it’s like 

#Like usually I cycle between like. joint pain issues. chest muscle injury stuff. back pain. stomach problems. headaches. etc. #There is never a day that I feel totally normal for the most part. but it's usually just little things here and there on and off #chronic things that seem to flare up sometimes. But then every once in a while it's like the flare ups align and I'll have 6 of the problems #at the same time and then is AaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #For some reason it's okay to deal with one or two of these things at any given time. but if I have to deal with like 3+ at once #or two of the old ones plus one NEW thing I've never had before or etc. etc. #I just can't even do anything. I run around stressed out of my mind unable to focus on any tasks or do anything but feel bad #then I cant even play games or do fun stuff becuause my brain wont let me be distracted from fixating on the fact that I feel bad #It's kind of the same way that it's stressful for me to go into grocery stores because my brain LITERALLY just is not capable of tuning out #all of the noises and lights and sensory information - so it' gets overwhelming quickly. I also just literally cannot tune out sensory infor #mation from my body. so if something feels even a LITTLE weird or a LITTLE painful or is even slightly different than usual #especially if it's overlapping with multiple other 'low level chronic pain' type things then my brain is just like.. being given way too muc #h information that it still cant tune out and then I can't focus and just walk around in a daze for however long until one of the issues #goes away on it's own (like joint pain flare ups usually come and go etc. etc.). or until I see a doctor abut whatever the new thing is #and maybe something they do or say actually helps or etc. etc. #Idk I have SO SO much I want to do the beginning of the year and so many projects to finish and things to post and schedules I have #written out for me to get on (like excercising more consistently and etc.) and it's just furstrating for my brain to just be like #ah.. nope.. we are not doing that. instead we are going to be completely incapacitated by a host of physical issues #which I think most ''normal people'' would just ignore like ''oh yeah I'll just load myself up on ibuprophen and coffee and energy #drinks and advil and sleep supplements and this and that'' or whatever but I can't do that it just makes stuff worse. I have to just sit for #days having a mind battle like 'okay yes we're having these problems.. but we can still like.. do SOMETHING right? we could like.. write #or draw. or things that don't take much energy'' and brain is just like NO!!! WE CANT!!! BECAUSE!! THING IS WEIRD!!!' and it's like okay #but thing is going to be weird. there's nothing we can do about thing being weird right now. so we should just focus on something else #'NO!! CANNOT TUNE OUT THING BEING WEIRD!! lets just fixate on it instead and wander aimlessly from thing to thing never able #to fully focus on any other task. hee hee''. anyway. hhghh.. sometimes I just get tired of having Various Ailments at any given time #especially unexplained ones or weird recurring problems that doctors haven't done much about because then it lends to paranoia like #'what if something is seriously wrong but I just dont know it yet?' which could be the case. I mean hopefully not. but I just hate stuff #being unexplained. because if there's no clear answer then the answer could be anything. even somehting bad. *** :V #ANYWAY gghhb... just bothered at the moment. I was going to come here like 'hey maybe I could post some drafts or pictures or something that #could feel productive!' but.. i dont feel like it. i dont care. too focused on Bad Feeling. just going to complain instead lol

[greedbent]

nothing warms my heart more than kaz taking an already morally corrupt individual and encouraging them to be worse 😔❤️‍🔥

this is what dreams are made of

@drolliic

#〣♚{ ooc } #listen i'm forever dying over the difference between aether/kaz and aether/ryuu gfnhjaodgnhjao #ryuu's out here like “i'll give this boy so many reasons to learn to trust again and be happy--” #and kaz is like “nah you should totally commit as many atrocities as possible” #“you owe these fckers nothing” #WELL AT LEAST 8'D #aether has a good and bad influence to uhm... just level things out ig??? 8')c #but nah really we're all having much fun over here ty <3

[akaikami-cherryblossom]

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How do you tell someone who can’t take constructive criticism they’re a lost cause

#THIS SOUNDS MEAN THIS SOUNDS SO MEAN #but my dance partner for a routine in the musical I’m in can’t do this one dip right and it’s driving me crazy #I have spent SO MUCH time with her and taking so many different approaches to get it to work #and sometimes she’ll do it perfectly after I use a specific approach and then when we try the actual move it’s right back to where we starte #I know I shouldn’t expect someone with less experience to be at my level exactly—and I don’t— but man. this is just bad #and after each run she asks how she did and I have to explain every time that I am only paying attention to where she needs to go #and what I need to do to get her there along with my own steps bc I’m learning this for the first time too!! #if I was teaching that would be a very different story but I’m not so. bleh. #LC screams