#just sad lady hours

[kaidabakugou]

the new girl at one of my favorite bakeries called me pretty this morning and it literally melted all my stress away 🥺

#kai.rambles #i was feeling sad bc my grandma is in the hospital and when i went to visit her they wouldn’t let me pass bc my license is expired #which okay ik that’s my fault but i took my passport with me just in case and the guy straight up told me that it wasn’t a valid form of id #and im like yeah tf it is ITS A PASSPORT and he said no #and while i was waiting for my mom to come down to the lobby an old lady came in and he turned her away for the same thing #and dudeee okay you turn me away fine fuck off but an old ladyyy??? at that age they don’t pay attention to that just let her pass #and then he argued with another woman bc she brought a flower arrangement and it had water so he couldn’t allow it HELLOOO??!? #so i had to leave and went to go get breakfast for my mom at least bc she stayed the night and i was supposed to stay the day #and when i came back to give her the food she told me that the nurse that was with my grandma asked what happened bc she wasn’t expecting #my mom to return and when my mom told her she immediately got so angry bc that same guy #didn’t allow her and a couple other nurses to bring in a cake for one of the residents #who’s birthday is today and they had a full on argument this morning #so it was all in all awful and now my mom has been there for more than 20 hours until later tonight when my aunt goes over :( #anyway this turned into a whole rant im sorry but im so mad bc i know for a FACT that a passport is a valid form of id #and he was just being a fkn dick #but the girl called me pretty and it took some stress off and she really liked my blush #and i liked hers so we had a little makeup 101 exchange and it was so nice at least 🥺 #and i have a couple cute asks to answer that have made my day as well so i’ll get to those in a few 🥰

[bluesidedown]

Gratitude time

#today im doing it because it's easy and im overflowing with thankful things #very often i do it because it's hard #probably good to remember it CAN be easy #anyway #thankful for my team im gonna be travelling with and the enciuragement they are #its good to remember i am not on this ceazy ride alone #thankful for a genuinely good rich fulfilling day of class/prep #and the stories of God’s amazing provision from an incredible middle eastern guy who shared with us #and for the moroccan lady i met who now somehow is cooking us lunch tomorrow so now i get to try moroccan food #and her hospitality #and for a good comfy bed and the gift of a private room this qeek #and wifi cuz hey that's a bonus (not to be taken for granted this next month) #and a remarkable number of solutions for dumb lil problems #and for the fact that my goodby with The Boy tonight (the big goodbye. for 8 months) #which both of us were dreading because yknow the Big Sad #didnt actually hit either of us emotionally while we were together #which was such a gift. we got to spend 3 hours together just being peaceful and present and having good conversations #and thinking about how to do dating well this year #and praying together #and it was just. so good #and i am so so glad i get to date him this year and share this crazy thing with him even though itvis gonna be really really hard sometimes #and he made me a bracelet to take with me 🥺

[deus-ex-mona]

kawareeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~

#(aka me when my acid burns randomly start throbbin’ when i bend over :( it’s very inconvenient) #in other news ​this week absolutely s u c k s can i trade it in for a better one— #first there was that acid spill. which. like. ouch???? but the mark is still there and is apparently very obvious. which sucks #then the day after the acid attack™️ meself and one other guy were called out under the assumption that we were doing unnecessary overtime #with the ‘unnecessary’ part running off the basis that there’s a low sample volume bc one single monday had fewer samples than usual #and we were singled out j u s t because our taxi claims for last month were through the roof due to the fact that we live across the country #like??? hellooo????? why are you treating it like it’s my fault that i have to pay upwards of $24 (at least) to get home??? #and??? excuse????? why are you extrapolating the previous day’s sample volume to the previous month’s workload as a whole???? #but. m a n. the way the mildly higher up lady abruptly shouted at me for asking a question just. pissed me off. for some reason. #she was talking in circles regarding the future of our taxi claims #so i asked if we (now) had to submit a second claims form for the transport company dudes to compensate us #and she yelled at me to stop talking before i could finish :( sadded and annoyed tbh #though i get the feeling that she hasn’t liked me ever since i left some results she asked for between her desk and some other guy’s desk #and someone else had placed their notebook or sth atop it so she couldn’t find it. and she blamed me for it. ha. #that was a few weeks ago though. so. hm. i wonder if she’s still mad about that… #either way. i applied for a couple of jobs that are closer to my place bc screw travelling across the country for an hour every day #s c r e w hour-long train rides i’d rather sleep #i prolly won’t even get the other jobs but. oh well. that’s life ig

[applejongho]

it's the way that this fucker had a two extra hours to lecture and he still didn't finish his lecture. And that's our problem

#this hell class is a tue thur class #yesterday (mon) we had a zoom meeting for two hours to catch up #not only was it useless but frankly a waste of time bc i learned next to nothing! #im like 🤏 this close to dropping this god awful class #like im a good student and im learning jack shot #shit* #not to mention i just feel so demotivated and sad and depressed on days i do have this class #negativity tw #apple lady words #edit: and im asking questions and making him go back on things but nothing is helpful #'this is straightforward' 'i just explained this' well im about to cry. and you'll have to console me

[laomelettedufromage]

Being the youngest by a couple decades in a group of old people who adore you is so much fun. They think I’m soooooo cool :P

#I’ve been doing this one hour long west coast swing lessons #and it’s a very small crowd and once again I am the youngest by a couple decades #and I’ve only gone twice but when I tell you these old people LOVE me #they get so excited to talk to me and they’re like ‘we just love the energy and your style you’re just look so cool WE want to hang out with #you’ #today I wore my oxfords and they were like ‘you know you outta know how to dance wearing those!!’ #and another old lady noticed my favorite color was green and she got so excited and was like ‘you and me we’re the same I was just like you #when I was your age’ #anyways it’s very sweet #I love being complimented #definitely an ego boost #also very sad because I don’t think I’ll be able to afford going to this class regularly #money or time wise #but they definitely make me want to keep coming shsjajsjsjs h #by yours truly the omelette of cheese

[missclaresmagic]

The worst is being severely depressed and on the verge of bursting into tears but having an upbeat song about enjoying life stuck in your head.

#am i right ladies #am i right fellas #just learned my very small number of friends text between each other and not to me✌️ #love feeling like the outsider of the group like my tramatic experience in high school #as least back then it was like 15 people and some would talk to me #now it’s just 4 and I’m left alone for weeks at a time #could I text and try to reach out myself? yes #and I probably should #but does thinking I’m the one in the wrong for being the most forgetable person on earth feel better? #you betcha #trauma dumping #feel free to ignore #ignore me #sad posting hours #sad post #sadposting #sorry for being depressing

[demon-princess13]

#do not read these tags if you don’t want to be sad #anyways #trigger warning: everything #i can’t catch my breath #idk what is going on and the 911 lady is just on the phone telling me they’re on their way listening to me gasp #I know I’ll be fine but for real what the fuck is happening to my body #i haven’t gotten a coherent word out in over an hour #only screams and moans #this is fucked up and I want to riot #my body has betrayed me #okay there’s the vent posting im probably going to have the paramedics here any minute so #you’ll hear from me later #promise #me #srs #first health emergency of 2024 baybeeeeee

[frodo-of-the-nine-fingers]

do you ever just

Miss Ruth was a lady. A lady always knows when to leave.

#wuh oh its being sad about fgt hours apparently #A LADY ALWAYS KMOWS WHEN TO LEAVE #and SHE DID #SHE LEFT OF HER OWN ACCORD #IM NOT EVEN WATCHING FGT IT JUST POPPED IN MY HEAD AND NOW IM CRYING OK BYE #fgt

[sarayamarie]

Why is it so fucking hard to convince yourself that this one tiny insignificant mistake is not a huge disaster that's going to ruin your whole life? Why is it so hard to focus on literally anything else? Why is it so hard to move on from this so that you don't repeat the exact same mistake again which is only going to make the situation worse than it already is?

#anxiety #i wanna cry #send help #writing bits #is it tho? #bits from books i'll probably never write #character dialogue #conversations #convos #dialogue #dialogue ideas #dialogue prompt #confessions #depressing shit #ahhhhh #this is just routine now #sad lady hours #im sad lol #im just being dramatic #it was a dumb dumb quiz #that i didn't do well #cuz i was sick af #and when i get sick #I'm not even here #i get so zoned out #ider what i wrote #or most of what happened that day #or the day before that #but anyway now I've gotta study for the actual exam for that sub #and everytime i try it makes me more depressed?

[tinyredpoppies]

Worked 18 out of 24 hours and I feel like death.

#i worked 10 hours then came home and took a nap and then went back for another shift #and it was 3rd shift too #so i was trying to stay awake after working 42 hours this week and 10 hours just that day #but i made it and my boss is happy with me and my residents were happy that i was the one working #omg one of my residents overheard me talking to another resident who was having shortness of breath #and she stopped me before i left this morning and told me how wonderful i am and that i was so sweet to the other resident #and that had it been any other staff they would have just gotten irritated or just sent her to the ER simply just to not deal with her #so it was really sweet and also a little sad that some of my coworkers are not very nice to some residents especially if they're needy #like have some compassion #one of my coworkers is old enough to live there and she's the worst one #and i'm just thinking like lady you should thank your lucky stars that you are working 40 hours a week in your 80s (out of choice) #like you are completely mobile and sound of mind and have practically no medical issues so you should feel lucky #she needs to have more compassion and patience with the residents #anyway wayyyy off target #sorry for the rant lol #personal #k texts

[frogathy]

im just waiting until the day i can get married and be a mom what do you mean i have to “go to college” and “have ambitions”

#i do not want to #i do not want it #i do not want to be in the claws of the education system anymore #i want to learna and enjoy intellectual things on my own time #i hate school and i hate the way it works and i hate being there for 8 hours even if i enjoy what im learning i just hate the way #school treats its students and i hate how much is required of you i really really hate it #i hate that i have to write a 20 page thesis and present it in front of the entire school to graduate like BITCH IM PRETTY SURE MY ONLY #CAREER IS GOING TO BE MOTHERHOOD AND IM 100% OKAY WITH THAT AND WANT IT #i dont have ambitions i dont have special subject interests i dont have anything that i want to do in life except have babies🧍🏻‍♀️ #bro i wanna have a family and play piano and thats basically it i am a Simple girl #maybe im just in a mood bc im on my period but these are definitely not new tjouvhts i have Definitely had these before #i would thrive back in the times when women didnt go to school💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀PERHAPS THAT IS A TERRIBLE THING TO SAY BUT #DO U EVER WISH THAT. YOU COULD JUST BE A SIMPLE LADY AND LEARN HOME SKILLS AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ESSAYS AND GPA AND STANDARDIZED TESTS #I DO NOT HAVE SKILLS I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO COOK WELL AND THIS BOTHERS ME BUT I CANT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT BECAUSE I DO NOT HAVE THE TIME OR EN #ENERGY TO INVEST MYSELF IN THESE THINGS BECAUSE I AM ALWAYS DEPRESSED AND ANXIOUS AND SAD BECAUSE SCHOOL REALLY FUCKS YOU UP MAN #god i hate it here i hate school all the girlies are depressed and this girlie wishes she was not required to be formally educated #froegis meep tag

[deus-ex-mona]

here’s to hoping for a ✨better✨ next week… _(:3 」∠)_

#really long rant about my ✨work woes✨ incoming— pls lemme have this moment before i cry at the interns on monday— #short summary of my utterly horrendous week go— #on monday: the machines kept taking turns to die (and that stupid self-restarting computer aaaaaaaaaaa—) #tuesday: the machines were horrible (again). and the final chapter of act 1 of the mona manga came out that night (which was much sad :( ) #wednesday: was relocated to that acid-using station and got an acid burn on a really inconvenient part of my hand >:( #like yo. acid. why couldn’t you have landed on the back of my hand instead?? #why did you *have* to splash onto the left side of the base of my left index finger?? i can’t even wrap a plaster around it and it sucks >:( #thursday: the machines were horrendous too! they refused to pass the daily quality checks!!! and there were tons of samples to load too! #as a bonus this lady kept hijacking the computer to check results or something while i was trying to enter stuff into the job queue thing #(the job queues for the stupid machines that is) #and so i could do absolutely ✨nothing✨ while she did her stuff… and then she complained that my workstation was really slow that day >:/ #lady p l s. blame the machines!! and it’s only my literal second day at that station so— :( and you kept stealing control of the computer :( #and then there’s today. friday. (ʘ‿ʘ) the person who loaded the samples last night put said samples into the wrong slots of the machine… #…and so the dumb acid autofiller spewed out acid anyway. which spilled onto the machine and then evaporated (for the most part) overnight #and so! when i popped in to the workstation a good 10 min late (having overslept a little due to believing it was already saturday)… #i noticed the wrongly placed samples，smelled the really strong scent of acid，went ‘ah maybe the toluene reacted with the solvents’… #…and just carried on as per normal. it only clicked that those were acid fumes from the missed samples when my eyes started to water ಥ‿ಥ #and even then i ran off to find a coworker to ask ‘will the thing still autofill if there aren’t any beakers in the indicated slots’… #but ofc i couldn’t articulate properly bc i was ✨lightheaded✨ from the acid fumes. i felt really loopy for almost an hour after that tbh :( #and so i still have no idea how i’m still employed at this place tbh. all i do is blabber nonsensically and forget my coworkers’ names :/ #but i think my terrible jokes have become a little more commonplace in the workplace. whoops. #i’d say ‘merry christmas’/‘happy new year’/‘happy birthday’ when i give printouts to others，and now they say it back to me lol #i stg my sense of humour is utterly horrible. no wonder why this higher up lady (probably) secretly dislikes me lol #like she’d say ‘i’ll train you in [test method]’ only to give like a half an hour overview before leaving me to fend for myself </3 #on the other hand，she’d train and guide literally every other person for hours on end till they’re familiar with the test method :( #or maybe she thinks i’m too capable (lol). prolly not though. i usually stare confusedly at her like 👁👄👁 through her explanations #well. i think i’m done with my venting for now. see you tomorrow. #inedible blubbering

[crowcryptid]

Since now everyone knows I’m leaving my job they are either awkwardly avoiding me or “joking” around saying I shouldn’t leave. Lol.

#i just hope they don’t feel the need to give me a ‘goodbye’ because I do not want it #i want nothing from them. no gifts. no goodbye party. on my last day I just wanna say ‘alright. I’m out. cya.’ and that’s it #because when my old supervisor left she was crying n shit it was. sorry. not trying to be rude. but it was awkward as hell #i had only known this lady for a month and she spent that month belittling me #and then she turns around and cries like if she was gonna miss us #i wasn’t even there for her last day I was on vacation but I’m sure she cried again #i do not care if someone is sad I’m leaving. i have 0 attachment to anyone here and I don’t want to have to pretend I do #i just need to make it to 5:00 on Friday then I’m FREE I’m FREE #we’ll still stuck dedicating 12 hours a day to work but. at least I will never have to deal with a customer ever again..

[cerneterydrive]

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#i think someone just quit 💀 #they crossed all her days off the schedule and rescheduled all my days 😭 #this is so funny the schedules all fucked up now #AND ITS BARELY TUESDAY 😭😭 #its so funny like tmr theres one person per shift 😭 #they gave me tmr off tho<3 i stay winning fr #except not actually bc i cleaned literal human shit off the floor yesterday #LMAOOOO THAT WAS SO FUNNY #like when i was about to go the kitchen lady was like que dios te bendiga mija 😭😭😭😭 #tmr off <3 tmr off<3 #gonna try to close kitchen earlier today so i can actually leave at 8 #i put in an extra hour yesterday so im fine w just the 7 hours today i think 🧍‍♀️ #i just wont make the jalapeños today cause if i hadnt done that last time i closed kitchen i wouldve ended on time #plsssusodu pls let my manager leave on time today so i can actually close when i want 😭 #cause i fr have to start closing at like 5:30-6 if i wanna leave right at 8 #ALSO THEY BETTER NOT LEAVE ME LIKE 100 TORTILLAS TODAY CAUSE IM GONNA LOOSE MY MIND IF I CANT LEAVE ON TIME BC OF FUCKING TORTILLAS AGAIN😭 #last time i only had to do like.... 60 and thats why i finished pretty early #but still #sad

[barkingbarghest]

Man something I have not stopped thinking about is how part of why Midst podcast is so mind bogglingly good to me is because of how Third Person makes it. The whole thing is basically them just making up a story in beats and arcs ahead of time, and then RPing individual scenes.

They thought about what kinds of narratives sounded compelling, what ideas they wanted to see in the world and/or story, and how they wanted the story to unfold… but they didn't write scripts. Instead, they rolled up with maybe like an index card of story beats and scene summaries and then started recording [tangent: they shared the outline of the first episode and it's hilarious it's like 5 bullet points very cool stuff].

WHICH MEANS that all the dialogue is improved which makes me go [cartoon foghorn mallet-bonking cockle-doodle-doo] because some of the dialogue is [cartoon cymbals crashing cat yowl stock sounds of a crowd cheering]! Like I don't know how else to say this but the words that they are saying makes me feel like my brain is getting vaporized.

#I've been constipated about Midst podcast for literally years and the dam is breaking #I've been cooking thoughts since like.... late 2021 early 2022? I think?? The pre-critrole days for sure #everyone go listen to midst podcast you won't be disappointed unless it's just not your thing in which case maybe eh? #Lark is so sad you guys she's so cool at the cost of Eternal Sadness... what if you were an old woman but you hadn't lived a single life? #Real thinking about Lark hours tonight. #I loved that q&a thing where one of the podcasters was like "oh yeah we thought about what each character want and what they would Not want #and Lark's was “being saddled with a dependent” #Local 60-something year old lady is a poorly socialized dog more at 8

[imaginarianisms]

1 day i will make a meta of sansa's dynamic with her metaphorical champions/suitors & how that correlates to the ashford theory (i.e sansa being betrothed to joffrey baratheon, then promised to willas tyrell, then being married to tyrion lannister, then being married to harry hardying then married to aegon vi targaryen & aurane velaryon but it is not this day. lmao. when i make that meta it'll be so over for y'all.

#out of the galaxy. || ooc. #just know that. she never marries after aurane. btw lmao #like if he like g-d forbid ever died before she did she'd like. literally never marry or love again like. thats it lmfao #but anyway like. she has a complicated relationship w/ all of them tbh & reflects on them sometimes. #she obviously hates joffrey for him abusing her but like. she can't help but feel sad for him at times bc like. he was so young. #if he had the right people around him maybe he would've turned out okay eventually. but it didnt happen. she never met willas but sometimes #she wondered what it would've been like to be lady of highgarden but she hopes he's doing alright. her dynamic w/ tyrion is. complicated #like. he was never like openly cruel to her or anything & she's grateful to him for saving her life & standing up for her but like. #there's always that grief surrounding their families & i think she resented & mostly afraid of him at the time but in hindsight she's+ #grateful that he never hurt her or forced himself on her. harry she hardly knew unfortunately but like she disliked him at first #but then he actually seemed to warm up to her & she had him tied around her lil finger but she knows that she wouldn't like to be married+ #to a guy who actually has children w/ sb else. like. she's seen how that played out & while she wouldn't be mean it makes her uncomfortable #but especially surrounding aegon bc like. she's not naive enough to say she loved him but like. she actually LIKED him #like. while she was wary of him at first she warmed up to him & genuinely respected him as a person & most importantly aegon was her FRIEND #they got along rly well due to their similar upbringings & what they had to do to survive & like. he's actually a decent guy in canon. lmao #he's handsome & was chivalrous & honorable & sweet w/ her but also like batshit insane in a good way. like. #he was the golden prince she always wanted since she was a little girl; the prince that joffrey was supposed to be but never was. #he gave her a future as queen of westeros that was originally HERS. so when daenerys eventually executes him she has mixed feelings about i #aegon was good to her & she'd vowed not to betray him & she actually intended to keep that vow. to her she was forever in his debt+ #he gave her a future from her isolation & suffering @ winterfell bc of how much everything changed & he waited for her to love him back. #he actually showed her respect & gave her a solid future when she felt alone & abandoned & led her gently into a world of his own making+ #& gave her back her honor & a future. esp when the north was divided between jon rickon & herself. most preferred jon or rickon over her. #without aegon's intervention she probably would've had to marry some northern lord below her station. the winterfell succession crisis wild #but aurane velaryon? that's the love of her life. her bold captain. he taught her how to love & coaxed her in the sun to bloom & freed her. #freed her from the chains of her family obligations. he taught her to break the rules of tradition & follow her heart & trust her instincts #he was there with her in her darkest hour. he quite literally saved her life & defended her honor when no one else had the balls to do that #no one looks @ or touches her the way aurane does she loved him madly truly & deeply he took her girlhood in his stride but when autumn cam #she escaped & had to push him into the deepest recesses of her mind in the name of survival & pragmatism but she never stopped loving him. #& his sweet memory brought too much heartache & bittersweetness for her. she lowkey waited for him for years. & they EVENTUALLY reunited ! #he fought & got legitimized for HER. she's. so genuinely happy w/ that man. he's one of her best friends & the father to her children.