#lets hope in 5/6 yrs when i graduate that i'll look back at this post and be like ahh you had nothing to worry about

[room4creation]

im just venting about my uni course... feel free to ignore

here’s the issue medicine is tew much content and also theres no like syllabus of what we need to know for exams except for what lecturers mention or older students tell u but its still like??? so confusing 

and im so ridicously behind like i only JUST made first module notes on anatomy and not even on the actual content itself i still have CVS anatomy, RS anatomy and GI anatomy to go over... still have content from IMMS, CVS, RS and GI to make notes or something (literally over 100 lectures probably LOLOL), histology im kinda ok on bc i have my notes for that <3 i think i still need to do one histology thing ... still have to do like two eygp things to do bc i just bullshitted my way thru those tutorials, i probs need to go over the ILA stuff but thats ok bc i have that stuff written up... and thats just in time for exams

i have an essay due in like a month and im not an essay person like... and i have a presentation due in like 3 weeks and its just WOW. and then two weeks later eygp tutorials and ILA tutorials start again... and we start a new module in like 2 or 3 weeks and its like i cant physically bring myself to study for more than like 2/3 hours a day so i just physically cant catch up or get on top of stuff in time for exams in june or whenever they are

life is such a flop i miss a levels so damn much when everything was clear and simple... not easy just SIMPLE.

and ok so i have all of that but i dont even know how to go about it like i didnt make notes in a levels but theres no fucking way i can just go thru powerpoints when it comes to exam time and idk how to do anatomy and idk whether to make my own flashcards so i actually engage w the content or just use other people’s ... do i bother making notes when i didnt during a level like will that even work for me as a revision method do i write notes out onto paper or is that mad time consuming... do i write it up on word doc but will i even re read it or engage with it at all... how do i go about remembering and udnerstanding thigns ... how will i study when it comes to exams with no resources... i literally dont know what to do.

i wish first year didnt count so i could just TRY and see what works for me but it counts so i need to do well :/ i actually do want to do well , i dont want to flop but at this point i probably will flop bc ... i am lost as hell. i dont know what to do. i dont know how to revise i dont have the work ethic either like... esp when im depressed like on a GOOD day i can do like 2/3 hours a day.. on a BAD day i dont do shit maybe half an hour if im LUCKY. like... idk man. im really probably gonna flop. and we literally ONLY have the end of yr exams... nothing else so i cant see how im doing until i flop :/ the worst part is i just dont know how to start like i dont know what to DOOOO idk how to even tackle this like... its like having this huge mess and you just dont know how to start at all like i dont even know i feel paralysed

im not cut out for uni i swear like

#i just rlly need to vent #i hate telling people irl stuff like this bc ppl always just say shit like #dw you'll be fine like you'll do it !! #or they say they're in the same position as u when u KNOW they're not #idk #this is what i mean when i say my problems would probably be solved if i just worked harder but i CANT i dont even want to LOL #i should drop out instead of failing out but ... my parents :/ #lets hope in 5/6 yrs when i graduate that i'll look back at this post and be like ahh you had nothing to worry about #literally paralysed #theres so much and i just dont know how to start where to start what to do