#like half declined

[iero]

Does anyone else with tattoos get absolutely terrified that you're not gonna like the design mock-up when the artist finally shows you it?

#personal #I've never not declined a tattoo when the artist showed me it. HOWEVER I DID get a tattoo of something I wasn't entirely impressed with. #When I got my Demo Lovers tattoo years ago the artist showed me something I hated and then proceeded to be a total dick to me when I said #that's not what I wanted and asked him to redraw. #<- And I wasn't mean. I actually was afraid to tell him so LMAO #So the bad experience of that is probably why I get so afraid but I'm feeling the fear now a week and a half before I'm supposed to get it. #And I'm not from the area so it's not like I can just reschedule. #Also I know this is Not Normal. Most people are like 'I'm scared of the pain!' and I'm like 'I'm scared I won't like the design.' #But I also have 10 tattoos now so the pain is totally second nature to me at this point.

[pop-punklouis]

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#ngl but after listening to half of tortured poets #there is nothing great about it #but it also isn’t objectively bad #it’s just there #like jeremy renner in any movie he’s ever been in #like. this is what we as music consumers get for allowing everything she touches to turn to gold #because it has dramatically affected her work #we have seen such a steep decline in her craft since folklore and evermore peaked #like there’s nothing interesting here!! the lyricism isn’t doing anything!! the production is bland!! (k*ll jack antonoff) #her vocals never reach their full potential and stay in a mid range for almost the entirety of the record!! #and nothing makes me come back for more it’s like a 17 song long podcast without any fun hooks or even half-way poetic verses #every song that is half way decent i recognize that aaron dressner was a writer on it #that should tell you something rip #idk it’s just!! there lmao #maybe i’ll think differently when i listen to it more but for now it’s not doing much for me dawg

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#oh god. i keep having these weird half nightmares where my mom is alive even though in my dream i kno she's dead #sometimes she has her post chemo body. most of the time she's pre chemo. and shes usually on her way to go have medical stuff done #and its all very normal in the dreams but im also watching her like she's a consciousness inside a walking corpse #so its disorienting when i wake up #i cant imagine the dreams my sisters are having after they saw her still alive and awake when she was declining #unrelated

[yaoiconnoisseur]

it's looking like our 15 year old cat is reaching the final stage of her life.. she's not eating much anymore and she's just as skinny and lethargic as my dog was the month before she died a couple of years ago.

#apparently once you have one senior animal reach that point in your home/life you can identify it really well afterwards #my partner and i are.. ok. not really but we will be #i adopted our cat when she was 9 #before my partner and i had met #as much as i wanna say it's her thyroid.. it's not. her medication was working really well until it didn't and now she wont eat more than #a few bites even with her medication #hopefully she'll make it to christmas but honestly it's not likely with how rapidly she's declining #for those wondering how old my dog was when she passed. she was also 15. 15 and a half to be exact #and i had had my dog since she was 8 weeks old. #tw pet death #they speak #tw: pet death

[brookheimer]

anyways now that everyone is feeling adrift and unmoored after succession’s end, might i direct you to (at least seasons 1 through 4/5) of veep?

#decline imo starts towards end of s5 then much more in s6 then MUCH MORE in s7. still worth watching for funny hahas but if you give a shit #about like characterization or appreciate satire that’s less like. On The Nose or Heavy Handed #then i mean just go in to those seasons with lower expectations #but s1-4.5 (lol) are phenomenal and will scratch that succession itch #also the severe lack of amy brookheimer fans is detrimental to my mental health and emotional well-being #danamy is not tomshiv but they are somewhat tomshiv adjacent #god are they fucked up <3 #anyways go waaaatch i mean it #krank lovers let me introduce you to ben and kent #bent. ken. i don’t know #but yeah no sense of humor etc is sooo similar like the writers team on succ is half from veep or smth lmao #also written by a british guy too. until it isn’t and then it sucks (when david mandel takes over around s5) #veep #succession

[magdaclaire]

i made two irl friends today please clap

#walked up to quincy from my ethics class and was like “hey bud autism4autism interaction so i'm gonna be blunt: i want to be friends.” #and that WORKED OUT FOR ME #and then this girl keyonna who i complimented once and she offered to buy me lunch and i declined bc i have anxiety yeah her #she asked if she could sit down with me and then we talked for like an hour and a half #she has adhd and is a writer and is muslim and from nigeria and asexual and i am so lamely excited about maybe having irls again #mer rambles

[ryan1014n2]

After the closure of the Mid Sodor Railway and being sold to the Peel Godred Aluminum Works, Falcon and Stuart were the closest thing each other had to any sort of home.

Stuart tried to stay cheerful enough for the both of them, but it was much easier said than done.

#before the official 'decline' of the msr (selling half of the engines and closing part of the line) #falcon and stuart considered themselves to be friends #and they eventually came to see each other as being like brothers as they grew up together under duke's teaching #after their other friends were sold off they (along with duke) became much more important parts of each other's lives #but it was after they were sold to the aluminum works when they became incredibly close and amost inseparable #it was not a very loving environment and so through the unfortunate circumstance they quickly became each other’s 'home' #they remained as such through their transfer to the skarloey railway and thus their name changes #although sir handel had come out worse from the aluminum works and was not a very cooperative engine #and sir handel became rather jealous and upset with how quickly peter sam befriended rusty #but he got over it once he also got on rusty's good side (after a bad first impression) and all three got along from then on #with both sir handel and peter sam eventually adopting the skarloey railway as their new home #they're not as dependent on each other as they once were which is refreshing and good for both of them #but they are still much closer and more comfortable with each other than they were before the msr's closure #and when duke was rescued and restored he was pleasantly surprised to see how close his boys had become #and duke was welcomed into the railway's family with open arms-- er-- buffers #ttte peter sam #ttte sir handel #ttte headcanon #(especially in the tags I think) #my doodles #my post

[daughterofsarenrae]

Man we hit a good dosage for angus's meds and hes like. Acting like his old self right now. Def with the energy down like 90% but hes exploring my room and playing with toys and his back legs are holding his weight and it's so nice to see again

#unfortunately it wont last forever #but im kinda ignoring the vet rn #she set his dose to 2.5 mls but due to a mix up with the pharmacy im only giving him 1.5 rn #but it seems to be really working #and id rather hold him here so i can go up again when he starts declining again #palliative care man. his meds & vet visits r so expensive rn but. worth it to see his old self coming back a bit #even though i know it's temporary #the slowburning grief of take care of a pet with a terminal diagnosis can be interspersed with bright moments #so im just dwelling in that for now #also rip i gave up half my floorspace in my room for ango bc of the fucking ANTS that invaded his space downstairs. infuriating #tho tbh i like him up here and he does better up here so i might just keep this lmao #anyways. boy cute i love him <3 #baby: angus #the heavy stuff is mostly in the tags but ik some people r sensitive to this topic? #idk what the tags ppl use for it are tho so if u see this and want me to tag stuff about angus's health just lmk what to use #i dont anticipate posting about it very often but u never know

[mintytrifecta]

Got a 100$ worth of money for tandy your boy is gonna get himself some corner knives 🤙🤙

#And like. Leather conditioner and resist #Probably some more dyes #Swivel knife blades of different sizes do I'll stop using an exacto #Like #Idk chicago screws?? Maybe some snaps??? #Extra stamps and leather cause my half shoulder is rapidly declining in size and I only have so much of it to mess up on gnfnfjdjd

[yioh]

the bfs are matching guys <333

#jjk spoilers #jujutsu kaisen spoilers #spoilers #LMAOOOOOO #never been more glad i dropped this manga #the quality of writing declined so damn bad #gege taking out all the characters that make his manga interesting one by one like dominos lol #gojo deserved a better death/ending #i was so satisfied w nanami’s death :( what happened man #jjk manga spoilers #but yeah i can’t say i’m surprised like . oh wow another guy died jeez surpiseeeee #the fact that gojo was such a strong character in terms of writing such that the entire story revolves around him #the entire foundation for jjk is this guy #and yet . he’s just another fight for sukuna to defeat and move on from 😭 #so lacklustre #but what do i expect from the guy that literally had gojo sealed for like 2 years of the manga #killed nobara offscreen #forgot abt half their cast #it’s just such a mess 😭 like these are ur MAIN characters man #all the characters are so overshadows #i don’t rly care abt sukuna or anything anymore #i guess i’ll tune into leaks every now and then to see what happens to yuuji and megumi #(spoiler alert they’re gonna die too lol ) #like WHY make a characters entire concept being the strongest to end him like that😭 the strongest guy in the world and yet he ends up as #just another death in another ordinary chapter

[harspud]

obey me had me in such a grip for a while like i was in deep with it and drew a lot of fan art. and then the newer events made me realize the company didn't care about writing anything good anymore and i started to feel really angry/resentful at this game that is just frankly. entirely predatory

#>sluggy personal #like all gacha games are and i should know better. but the sharp decline in quality was really insane and now i'm bitter #like why am i letting myself get attatched to these characters when solmare can't even be bothered to write a half way decent event? #or even devilgram like every new story feels like it was written by an AI

[daz4i]

at a point of my depression where the only upside of going outside is that when i come back i have the momentum to take a shower and it saves me having to shower before bed when it's way harder and very draining to get to it

#i really don't like going outside man 😔 it's bad #i don't get how it's supposed to make my mental health better when i need like a week to recover every time #and ik i said it before but it doesn't get better the more i do it!!!! it gets even worse!!!!! #i have a bad time at home too but being outside is so much worse on literally every level #esp these days when my pains are worse and I'm constantly nauseous and wearing a bra makes it practically unbearable #vent #i guess. #bro my mental health is in such a steep decline in the last month or two 😭😭😭 #maybe it's just seasonal depression idk... :/ but that's still bad. bc summer is like half a year over here man it's so fucking hot.

[barefootcosplayer]

I have had the nicest people commenting on all my old bioshock fics recently and it is just so heartwarming and affirming like thank you and ily ily ily, I’m just feeling the love 😭💛🥰

#fun fact I kept trying to add an emoji to this post to properly convey my appreciative emotion #😭😭 <- this guy and a signature yella heart #but it kept rendering half the text of my post invisible and uninteractable #so just know that this app is a well formed product #you never cease dissapointing my tumblr #keep it sleazy #but anyway yes I’m filled with gratitude and whatnot #what’s up with this bioshock interest it��s gonna make me pick up the game again 🙊🙊 #fully considered rereading the novel which like as a lover of bill mcdonagh that is nice but man oh man is it a trash bit of writing #one day I will bite John Shirley’s nose off in retribution #but also I was looking at the bioshock two art book (which yes I also own literally who else is it made for if not Me #bioshock 2’s biggest supporter/stan) and manzo did it make me wanna write about the middling days of rapture #the descent into splicerhood is an aspect I find super appealing #and like all of those early signs #bc plasmids didn’t immediately morph people into splicers it had to have been a gradual thing #and the time right after plasmids were put on the market and people #began to use them and began to see the slow mental and physical decline #that has so much writing potential #the slow slide into it #maybe it’s a fic about jasmine or Anna or some of those fort frolic people and we watch our narrator start to lose control over certain #thoughts or actions #or they wake up with a boil #I’m just saying it could be hella interesting and I’m thinking about writing bioshock fanfic again but don’t quote me on that #I’d need to reach out to the old ‘shock crew again #Dana and Molly know I love you always #okay that’s enough sap for one post back to blithely reposting bullshit like once a week #(but seriously talk to me about the initial onset of splicer symptoms #the societal shift at that time is so tense and juicy! #i love you minutia lol) #barefoot raps the news

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so. #literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

[hehosts]

the constant struggle of am i boring or am i just posting at the wrong times

#ive noticed a sharp decline on both my blogs but particularly my multi #light's revamp never really went anywhere unfortunately even though i love writing him #ik i get very busy but im really trying to get active again and like be interactive #so im really really trying to show my love and support and im getting interactions it's not that it's just #idk i want to keep it interesting for you folks since you're my mutuals and my audience and my friends #not negative at all i just really want to interact!! #ik i owe a lot of drafts here so ill do those soon i promise! or prom like half a promise

[robinsnest2111]

on a more positive note: I got the day after the Crystal Steel gig off of work without having to ask for it, how cool is that??? I can stay and chat with other concert goers and maybe the band themselves as long as I want!! (at least until I gotta get the last train home)

#now i just gotta hope a coworker whos also into 80s glam metal will have that night off as well so we can both go <3 #I've only known him for half a year BUT I WANT TO SEE HIM HAPPY AND THRIVING AUGHH #like i get it he's been through some tough shit and we're both casually long term suicidal #and makes jokes about our respective declining physical health BUT!!!!! #still i want to see him happy and thriving and this is one of the only ways i know how 😭