#like i keep having dreams abt getting w some man usually my f*ther in some car which may sound banal but to me every time its just like. oh

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#like i keep having dreams abt getting w some man usually my f*ther in some car which may sound banal but to me every time its just like. oh #lol is this when i was trafficked. some of them feeling more morbid than others #cant remember how this one started but it was already fucked and i had quite the sense of dread but #it ended w just like. being dragged by my f*ther naked through the puring rain and streets as a child. while he was going on abt some #idk extremist religious bullshit along with his general fucking insanity abt everything i cant eveb remember #but i remember thinking 'this sounds awfully familiar' #and while i was scared as shit already i also wasnt. particularly surprised. funnily enough i remember thinking to myself in a detached way #'well this is going to traumatize me for the rest of my life lol' #and then i got shoved in some car idk. cant even properly remembered that much snd then i wokeup #but i really dont appreciate how many of these particular dreams ive been having. of usually my f*ther or some other dude either coercing #me or manipulating or physically shoving me into cars like not fun lol i sure wonder what that means #............ #im so tired #i guess its good that it woke me up bc i have reading to do but im so tired that i feel like vomiting. or maybe its the whole thing that #makes me feel like vomiting #or both