#like part of my obsession with deep water stems from a reoccurring. uh

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i have this thing where sometimes i see a smooth surface (cgi is specifically bad for this) and some part of my brain goes. hey wouldnt it be fucked up if that was Flawlessly and Perfectly Smooth. and i go yeah that would be fucked up and proceed to have an anxiety attack over the concept of a really really really flat rock face or some shit like that

#howling #and then the other people in my brain MAKE FUN OF ME FOR IT #i dont get it either!!!! #like part of my obsession with deep water stems from a reoccurring. uh #it wasnt a nightmare or anything because i would be awake it was like. a vision. or hallucination i guess but idk if it was one for real #but it was like. a glass of water but the glass was perfectly smooth and the water was perfectly flat and didn't ripple #so all the sides were SUPER smooth #and it doesnt SOUND fucked up but the actual image itself was the scariest goddamn thing imaginable #i dont See It anymore (it used to be if i even THOUGHT about it it would show up) #but sometimes ill see something and i get the Water Glass Terror (tm) again without the actual water glass #all this to say that i watched the first episode of that ashoka show today #and in like the second scene she cuts holes in the ground with a lightsaber and it fucked me up a little bit #anyways the only reason why im sharing it is because there really isnt a pattern #on what smooth surfaces do or do not trigger the Water Glass Terror #and even then any given thing only works once #like even with cgi sometimes itll hit REALLY hard and other times? nothing #idk man im just still feeling it a little bit and want to get some of this shit off my chest #catch me oversharing on the oversharing webbed sight <3