#listening to punk breakup type songs loudly and yelling . because I can

[seilon]

text them shit about ur ex then, ruin his rep right back

just talked to one of my friends on the phone for a while and dw they already know everything I have to say more or less about him it’s just. I can’t force them to cut contact with him or anything especially without sounding like exactly what he makes me out to be (manipulative, controlling, whatever) so. as much as my friend has reassured me in a lot of ways I’m still sort of stuck at an impasse when it comes to Him

#believe me I wish I could ruin him as much as he’s fucked with me but. yeah #my friends are all generally very… centrist in a way. some more than others of course but. yeah #they won’t take one side or the other as absolute which is good in a way but also painful #considering how much he’s done to fuck with me and my mental state and my friendships and etc #I told my friend over the phone ‘idk it’s hard to just be ok with my friends hanging out with the guy who literally haunts my Dreams’ #I am somewhat drunk now which is good. to me #I feel kind of bad for freaking that one friend out though he’s really the sweetest #and in a selfish way I’m worried I’ve just made myself come off as guilt trippy and whatever to my friends playing directly into my ex’s #image of me and etc #but I know logically that that’s. probably not the case. i am drunk so logic isn’t as strong as it usually is #kibumblabs #drunkish. drunk as I ever can get #I never get drunk enough to be totally incomprehensible or anything unfortunately #I just have less of a filter. as you can maybe tell #anyway back to cleaning the kitchen #I am glad I’m home alone #listening to punk breakup type songs loudly and yelling . because I can #EVERYBODY. PUT UP YOUR HANDS I DONT WANNA BE IN LOVE I DONT WANNA BE IN LOVE #FEELL THE BEAT NOW. IF YOU GOT NOTHIN LEFT SAY I DONY WANNA BE IN LOVE I DONT WANNA BE IN LOVE