#men wanting to ruin my life

[punkeropercyjackson]

"This is the gender fuckery and cis+ website"You guys can't even handle trans people who don't want to physically transition

#no because this literally ruined my first best friendship after i grew up friendless my whole life💀she sxually harrased me with bodyshaming #and the worst part is that it wasn't even her saying i'll never be a man i'm bigender and super femme and THAT'S why i want to stay afab #but she refused to understand me!!!she expected my femininity to be the same as a cisgirls and my manhood the same as binary trans dudes' #i explained my gender SO MANY TIMES and she used 'she' 'accidentally' even though her fuckass also called me 'a girl in a he/him kinda way' #she saw my bigenderness and genderfluidity as a fucking joke instead of who i actually am just because i don't want t or surgeries bc gnc #and i told her both those things too but here we are!!BE NORMAL ABOUT TRANS PEOPLES BODIES AND STOP BEING A DICK EVEN IF YOU'RE ALSO TRANS #trans #transgender #transmasc #transmasculine #bigender #genderfluid #trans men #demigirl #ftm #transfem #trans women #nonbinary #agender #demiboy #transneutral #transmascfem #black femme #genderqueer #xenogender #catgender #dragongender #ghostgender #💌 #summerposting

[karasu-hieis-dragon]

The chokehold that Kanata Hongo/Hiei have on me is so, so good.

I thought Kanata was the perfect Hiei, from the attitude, the down head/up eyes looks he gave to the way he personified himself into Hiei.

#anime men are ruining my life #Hiei #Kanata Hongo #Yu Yu Hakusho #I want this sexy awkward man #Choke spank me pull my hair #Don't know how? Don't worry I will teach you #Wear the costume #seriously why is this so hot

[wurm-food]

anyway I didn’t mean to moan like that

#men that can ruin my life and my insides #I want to be the puppy curled up in his lap ooooooooo #one piece #wurm piece #op 1058 #sir crocodile

[caruliaa]

just bc im a lesbian doesnt mean tht i wont at times become deeply entranced with the beauty of male actor or character. it just means i wld rather be locked in a room with a man with a knife than do anything romantic or sexual with one

#NO OFFENCE TO MEN AS PEOPLE THAT EXIST. but also i shldnt have to say tht after saying this yk #also b4 u say ooh ur aro tho why do u need to specifcy u wldnt do anything romantic w a man when i wldnt with a woman either #i am actually pretty romance favorable. like i would be in a romantic relationship with a woman if it wldnt ruin my life #with how it is rn . i think i like and want all the parts tht make up a romantic relationship i just dont experince romantic attraction #but anyway i was here to talk abt my sexuality not my romantic orientation #this post was originally like 'im remembering why there was such a huge overlap with my og major starkid hyperfixation #and me identifing as bisexual' but the thing is is the main main guy from starkid i remember being attracted too #was infact . rob. and thats aged badly bc of it being revealed that hes a fucking creep since then #but also just now not that we should ignore tht but regardless of that i just. dont see it at all #maybe it is that news subconsiously turning me off him but i really dont see that much what i liked abt his appearance #but who rly inspired this post to me is infact . jeff blim ? which is suprising just from the fact tht i dont ever remember #having tht big of a crush on him with that og starkid hyperfixation. but well he is a very beautiful man . giggling a little bit. sorry . #also becoming a bit obsessed with joey richter but thts just standard lesbian obssesion with a weird little man #not attractive to me im just obssesed with him. hi #also posting this now so when i finally watch the fnaf movie i can rb it abt josh hutcherson #anyway. does anyone read these tags do these long rants i go on like. turn ppl off of my posts. sometimes i wonder #flappy rambles

[girlscience]

feel like I need to add a little intrigue, a little spice, a little danger to my life. I need to pick a vice.

#what are my options... alcohol cigarettes reckless sex weed acid ecstasy #alcoholism runs in my family but playing with fire is fun and sexy right? #cigarettes are sexy but I am concerned about the smell. it gives me headaches #reckless sex I wish. it would require me to figure out how to be sexy and to flirt but I feel like so many people do it #I could probably get there eventually. and if I am willing to sleep with straight men probably not a high barrier to entry #weed gives me the jitters but maybe I could find the elusive middle ground between no reaction and extreme full body shakes #acid and ecstacy. I could be a raver. I love concerts and the anime con raves like a LOT. not sure how I would react but I could try lol #i feel like cocaine is not my vibe. also tried snorting pixie stick once and couldn't figure out how it worked. blew it all over my friend #idk what other drugs are there that aren't meth heroin or something similar #these are all ones I hear people talking about doing recreationally #oh Shrooms. and maybe K? shrooms seem cool but also I think I would probably get overwhelmed and vomit #I know literally nothing about K #you guys should give me suggestions. I want to feel cool and sexy and dangerous and preferably not completely ruin my life

[aeide-thea]

still thinking abt the tumblrinx i encountered a while back whose pinned post said they were transmasc… and also demanded that men dni

like—i’m not confused by the convoluted not-like-the-other-boys doublethink that gets you there, i can follow the chain of illogic just fine, but i sure am deeply wearily depressed by it!

#i know plenty of good men—good cis men even! gasp! #and i just think like. if we can’t move away from‚ like‚ cold gender war how the fuck do we move forward #fundamentally like. 100% block people who have behaved towards you in ways you didn't like. #but like. this whole thing where ~afabs~ preemptively self-victimize by conjuring up the creepiest cishet man they can imagine #and self-harm by worrying abt that imaginary guy jacking off to them #is just like. i understand how it happens but it’s like. you’re actively doing negative visualization #and‚ like‚ preemptively self-victimizing #ime it feels a lot better to move through the world unworried‚ in the knowledge that if someone says sth gross to you: you can block them! #anyway ultimately i’m pretty clearly making this post bc i'm overdue to unfollow the tirfiest blogger i’m currently following #like. yeah loads of cishet men are shitheads but ~misandry~ is so last decade #and frankly i don’t have a lot more time for the cishet women who have bought into the same system—like i have some sympathy but. #these people all get warped by the system into complementary fucked-up cogs whose teeth bite into one another #and i’m just not interested in biting back—i want to leave all the biting behind in the dust of the junkyard that birthed it #and like. i don’t want to dismiss the oppression that births this sort of rhetoric. it's super real and it's toxic and it fucks people up. #but it’s like. when people have bad dads and then are like Dads R Always Bad!!! #and i’m just over here like. i don’t know how to say this without sounding like i’m invalidating you but my dad was a fucking saint tbh #not perfect dgmw but like. a sweet gentle encouraging man who got ground down by my mother’s toxic heel along with the rest of us #so like. actually not only are you closing yr eyes to a better future‚ yr closing yr eyes to other ppl’s lived realities #like i personally managed to have a totally life-ruining mother without deciding Mothers Are Ontologically Evil Actually! #idk. obviously women remain *enormously* systemically oppressed! but surely we can acknowledge and decry that without #implicitly rhetorically closing off any possibility of a gentler queerer gender dynamic? #anyway none of this is revolutionary i’m just like. i KNOW the fascists want to cut off my toes and force me into the glass slipper #of viciously constrained femininity #that in turn makes itself feel better by sneering at men‚ critiquing other women who Do It Wrong‚ and exerting control over children #so i have strong personal cause to care about misogyny even if i didn’t care about it in the abstract #but i just think like. acting like traditional gender roles and dynamics are a fixed truth we can only bruise ourselves on #instead of a human construction that we can undermine and work to topple #is not actually the path to a healed world in the long run! #anyway. beta edition post (thumbtyped & not reread): may contain bugs.

[greenishness]

my brother booked a flight to the us not two weeks after he begged 200 € off me to pay his debts to the bank and it's pissing me off bad ngl. i'm usually happy to give money to my siblings and friends but at this point he is using me it's not like i have that kind of money just lying around like i was struggling this month bc i gave it to him and he decides to invest into an impulsive trip to fucking arizona?? also don't get me started on the way he pulls the same shit on our sister. he heard that she was working full time and decided this was a good opportunity to ask her to cover his semester fees. asking his LITTLE SISTER for the money SHE earned working a job she hates because she was saving up for her own apartment... he really has no shame omfg

#and every time i come for a visit he tells me about his grand plans for the future how he's gonna be a millionaire soon and provide for us.. #this is why i think that even in the majority of the cases where male influencer hustle culture does not result in rabid hatred + misogyny #it's still ruining lives bc it provides a vision of masculinity that paralyzes men's ability to actually build a good life for themselves #and this failure is on men like my brother just as much as it is on these guys they watch to feel good about themselves #real courage and strength first of all require an ability to make personal sacrifices. it requires doing the shitty work no one wants to do #but it's more comfortable to buy useless supplements go to the gym and daydream abt the manly valour that modern life has stolen from you #it's on YOU that your life is empty and unfullfilling!!!!!!!!! #anyways. i love my brother. i think men are a plague on this earth.

[perilegs]

i pass pretty much all the time but hm. ive heard interesting stuff from drunk ppl i know who dont know im trans

#''haha when my bf was talking about you and i asked to see a picture he showed me one and i was like... is that right? bc i thought that was #a girl in that pic. i mean only bc i didnt expect him to have any girlypop friends haha'' #yeah i mean that is an average thing to say and not mean or anything but it hits a bit different when im trans #i mean the person saying that didnt know and if they did they would have never said anything like that #but it's still a bit. hmmm. #also the topic of my looks came up and it's funny how everyone thinks i'm cute #i wish i could b masc hot but im fine with being cute. not everyone can look good the same way #but like it's so common for the only compliment transmascs get being ''cute'' for various reasons but i think in my case it's just my #wavy hair and slight babyface and round features #which yeah ok whatever i'm still young - ive got plenty of time to start looking less like a boy and more like a man #as in even if i was a cis guy id look pretty much like this #though! im only 2 years on t so i cant wait what the future holds for how i'll look :3c #well almost 2 and a hlaf but yknow #also i have a slight. can i say this. ''tranny voice'' which. slay. but i was told i ''sound like a femboy'' which #once again super funny that ppl say that stuff bc they genuinely cant tell im trans #the only reason i pass is bc i get read as [justin mcelroy voice] kinda faggy #oh that guy over there with wide hips and feminine manners and voice and small feet and hands [compared to cis men] with an apparently cute #face who doesnt seem to know anything about stereotypical guy stuff? thats a cis man #and i love that #but also one of these ppl is not cis #if you saw me irl you'd know im insanely easy to clock for trans people #but yeah whatever im just amused by all this it's kind of fun having ppl not know im trans #but also i have a new friend who doesnt know and i think i should let him know at some point if it comes up bc idk man. it feels like im #living a secret life or something. like obviously no one has the right to know im trans but. i can make the choice of wanting someone toknow #but also hes my only guy friend who lives in this city. well technically not the only one i have another friend but we never hang out irl. #anyways i dont want to ruin our broship #i dont think itd get ruined and if it did itd just mean whatever but im still scared #agh idk #leevi talks

[orngbanana]

wish Jeremy and Dion got more screentime and POV chapters in the novel so I could have more info to psychoanalyze and be sad abt them

#jeremy agriche #jeremy agrece #dion agriche #dion agrece #twtptflob #the way to protect the female lead's older brother #roxana #men with serious attachment issues have ruined my life yet again lmao #I want to study them #they deserve a mental breakdown #and also therapy #i hate them/j

[mad-hunts]

i'm sure y'all already know how petty barton is because i feel like i talk about it all the time... but allow me to ramble about one of the pettiest things he has arguably ever done to someone else, and that is that whenever barton is feeling quirky — you know, just a bit silly — he likes to call into the GCPD and make up complaints about jim gordon in different voices even though he knows he likely isn't going to get fired for it. barton just HATES him that much, and he thinks it's funny, so i can guarantee y'all that every single time after he makes one of these calls he cackles like a damn hyena 💀 and then he'll go on with his life as if he wasn't trying to ruin someone else's... like, if he wasn't evil, then i think he might just have made a good comedy actor BAHAHA

#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings. #ANGERS HELPED ME STAY ALIVE: headcanons. #SKSKSK im still trying to find out how someone could be so unserious and evil at the same time #i guess it could be because his brain structure may or may not be literally altered? idk i'm still trying to figure out if i want to make- #a thing BUT it has been shown that some sociopaths have shrunken amygdala's and they are one of the major parts of the brain that is- #responsible for regulating emotions so if it is altered then that will mean that your personality / perception will also be altered as well #BUT i'll have to get back to y'all as to what my decision is on that... though i am not even joking when i say that barton is- #TRIPPING at least half of the time. like this probably isn't worth making a post of it's own on but whenever everyone thought the joker- #died in the new 52 in batman: endgame? i think that barton might've frolicked through a field or two. #but yeahhh if uh... barton hates your muse then he will most likely try to pull the pettiest thing's against them to ruin their life. so ☠️ #it unfortunately isn't exclusive to JUST jim

[steakout-05]

i was thinking about how it took me a while to figure out i'm aegosexual (which basically means that there's a disconnect between yourself and being the subject of attraction) and i thought about how much i really dislike and just cannot see myself in slash reader fics. i tend to dislike these fics for multiple reasons, but some of them include that the reader self insert is usually really boring, has no personality outside of being lovey dovey and isn't unhinged enough for certain characters for reasons outside of contrasting personalities for my tastes (like spamton for example, why are you writing a normal protagonist to pair with fuckin spamton of all characters). but another reason is that i literally cannot connect myself to the reader self insert. like i cannot imagine myself in their place at all, it's always another stand-in that i imagine instead and thinking about myself in their place makes me uncomfortable. i can't see myself in their place because i don't see myself as a subject of attraction, and i'm repulsed to that idea. so i imagine someone else instead because that's better to me. and also because of the aforementioned reasons that have more to do with the writing of the self insert, i just cannot imagine myself acting the way the self insert does because I Personally Would Not Fucking Do That™. like i would not be romantically kissing a guy on a date, i would be infodumping about my special interests for 3 hours and then start ranting about how funny cars are while he just smiles and nods lmao

this is why i've never really self-shipped with any character. like i can be attracted to them and be like "i wanna hold his hand/kiss him/do inexplicable things to his psyche", but in reality i could never actually see myself as a subject of attraction by this character, so i'd either ship them with another character i like or imagine a sort of stand-in that has some of my traits and lives out my fantasies but still isn't me. i can fall in love but i can never connect because ew that's gross and weird. watching from the sidelines by reading fics and looking at fanart about characters being shipped with others and being intimate with each other is more my cup of tea.

#aegosexual #also i'm not like. sad about this or anything #maybe i'm a little disappointed that i probably won't experience some things but i'm not like. crying about it. #i literally don't care about it and i think i actually prefer it this way #being seen as something arousing is fucking disgusting and weird in a bad way to me and i don't think i should ignore how i feel just to- #-experience something i won't enjoy. #i just want to watch my little fictional men hold each other and kick my legs like an excited schoolboy about it in peace #also unpopular opinion but slash reader fics SUUUUUUCK and i'd rather read something else instead #now let's sit back and watch literally everyone get mad at that opinion lmao #i'm kidding i'm kidding you're obviously free to enjoy slash reader fics #i just find them to be completely unrelatable and i feel like throwing a self insert into the mix kinda ruins the whole dynamic for me #like i just personally find the idea of meddling in that character's life and being their hubby to be very unattractive #especially when the self insert is so barebones that there's no chemistry #we need more slash reader fics that are just an expression of how much the reader admires the character and nothing more i think #idk maybe i just haven't read enough slash reader fics to appreciate them as their own thing disconnected from me but i really just kinda- #-don't like them because the ones i've read were mostly kinda boring..... sorrgy #i always preferred projection anyway #although i do like dating sims. of course i don't attach myself to the MC but i do like them more than reader fics. i wonder why that is. #probably because the MC tends to have more character traits i guess? so then i can just consider them to be a different person- #-and i'm just pressing buttons for them #it's more free and directional i guess

[withoutalice]

Guys i normally don't yap about this but i was reminded of it when my bf came over the other day-

He admitted to me that he felt like he was forcing me to be around him (which isn't true - if anything i'm the one who's really forward lol).

And while i believe everyone should be held accountable and that statistics exist - teenage boys are demonized in the school system. They are often collectively punished as a gender through high school (this include FTMs in my experience). The phrase "boys will be boys" is lessening the errors of serious bullies and generalizing a whole group of children of different backgrounds and emotional levels to just one gendered expression.

It just made me very sad that he said he was scared of being perceived as a threat to me (or even accidentally hurting me) because of our difference in stature (a solid one foot height difference 💀). I think it's because of how adults ignore the actual emotional depth of boys (includes FTM!!!) since "they're more simple" or they need to grow up on their own to be a "real man".

All teenagers need guidance. And between Covid isolation to the prevalence of online communities trying to lead young people astray to capitalize off of insecurities and strip them of humanity (look at the language used in self-help programs online - it's blantantly objectifying!) that guidance is needed now more than ever.

Behavior is learned but humanity is innate and needs to be cultivated...

#coming from a girl in a family that's had it's fair share of bad men generationally- #nah bc he was like “am i forcing myself on you?” “am i a creep?” #and i'm giving him the most basic hug #there are seriously two kinds of guys: #“oh she's being nice to me she must want to sleep with me” #and #“oh she's being nice - i'm probably scaring her into doing this. she's doing this so i don't get mad-” #my bf's the second one #bro this is your sign that i'm not going to go around #and ruin your life by saying you forced yourself on me #just bc we had a disagreement #also yeah that's a women issue i think #me too movement is important but there are some SERIOUS mean girls out there! #women + men need to be held accountable #withoutalicespeaks! #i love my bf

[cann1ballistic]

i wanna do sapphic things to Viva tbh

#yarns #i want her to ruin my life💔 #i made a Girlkisser Music playlist and she’s my cover image lol #GOD i wish i was lesbian hot rather than ‘extremely divorced man’s fleshlight’ hot #i’m only hot to the straightest men on the planet and it’s gonna be my 13th reason

[smol-soop-spoon]

men literally make my life so miserable

#every man i ever meet seems on a mission to ruin my fucking day #i was screaming in my fucking car for 30 minutes i felt INSANE #no one could even blame me #try having THREE GROWN ASS MEN constantly mansplaining and interrupting your safety exercise #WE FINISHED AN HOUR LATE BECAUSE THEY WOULDN'T SHUT THEIR FUCKING MOUTH #u want to waste your time mansplaining??? Be my fucking guest but don't waste MINE???? #everytime i start thinking about “maybe not all men..” they just prove me wrong #i want to punch them in the face so hard #fellas im this close #if i stop posting that means im in jail #camilla macaulay would support me #it's what she would've wanted <3 #i just know everyone in the greek class was constantly mansplaining to her #she was right to kill two men #she's living my best life for real #bacchanal. vicious murder. bag a big strong rich man. what an icon #i love her so much fr <3

[ransiquack]

ALL NEW EPISODES!: ELFO DOES DRAAAaaAaGGG??!.?!!!.

BWAOAWAOAWAAOOWWWOOOOOW

#I’m losing it if u can’t tell #Elfo does drag cus they put him in a dress once’s and it ruined my life #ft my sisters rendition of a British man #very specifically thinking about Frank n furtur #men in drag #men in dresses #slayyyyy #disenchantment #disenchantment netflix #fanart #elfo disenchantment #the quack pot #elfo #spreading my disease #(its homosexuality) #I want him and Miri to meet formally is that TOO MUCH TO ASK??!. #I do not expect much from this #Elfo in drag

[cicadaknight]

cw gender dysphoria? // i do be having the gender thoughts like "if my body didn't look like this i could transition but i can't because i won't ever look the way i feel"

#haha #heehee #hoohoo #much to unpack on this casual monday night #i think i'll just kick this rock down the road a few more years #my gender euphoria is mischievous elven men and masculine modern dancers dancing to britney spears and soft cowboys with pearl earrings #and yet i am in a feminine flesh prison in america #i've been universally 'apathetic' about my gender in whatever identity i've settled on #and now i'm finally in a space where i can explore with a bit of joy and i just feel scared and sad and unprepared #and my dumbass ocd brain is like 'what if you're wrong and if you look any closer you'll ruin your entire life? #-better spend the next 50 hours cataloging every thought you've ever had and torment yourself with scenarios' #but on this casual monday evening i'm not gonna do that #i'm gonna think about the joy of being feminine in the way that men are feminine!!!! i want that! and my brain can't take that away from me #cw dysphoria #personal #h #vent #editing to say #hmmmmmmm i just told my partner some of this and i shit u not they said #‘sorry i’m getting a call right now’ and mimed picking up a phone and then made a fart noise and walked away #:)))) unbelievable #i don’t know that i’ve ever been more disrespected in my entire fucking life