#mother won't believe this

[bismuthfool]

What if a small child wandered onto cryptid Wukong's territory and was lost?

bro is nice to kids

in fact he tries not to show himself to people during the day, no matter whether he wants to help them or scare them because everyone knows that people love to chase after everything scary and big. Wukong knows this too and if they see he in the light of day, then it will be impossible to hide from them he tries not to even get too close to them (but small children are an exception)

(he meows because he knows that people love cats. he loves them too) (his meowing isn't cute...)

#lmk hum!au with cryptid wukong #bro can speak human #lmk #monkie kid #lego monkie kid #sun wukong #monkey king #art #lmk au #we have a completely random child here #this child will then tell her mother about a big strange creature in the forest #mother won't believe this

[cometblaster2070]

once again thinking about this:

the absolute devastation this panel from "The Search" brings me is genuinely immeasurable.

there's just something about the way azula came here to confront her mother and to finally, finally be proven right. she wants her mother to tell her how much she hates her, how much she fears her, how she always hated her and preferred zuko because azula was a monster.

but when she actually gets the chance to confront her, she's faced not with her mother, but with a woman who has no recollection of her at all.

and even still, when she's attacking and threatening her, her mother, despite not knowing anything about azula or who she is, only states that she's sorry she didn't love azula more.

and the look of disbelief in azula's eyes; after being molded into the prodigy firebender, the weapon, her father wanted her be, she can't believe that her mother's telling the truth.

it's the way she wants to scream and challenge her mother, wants to tell her that she's wrong and that she's lying and she should just admit the fact that she hates azula already.

but that's not true. and azula genuinely can't wrap her head around it.

#avatar comics #avatar #avatar the last airbender #atla #azula #princess azula #atla azula #atla ursa #the search #atla the search #i literally go RABID over this page #like i genuinely CAN'T #it's so hurtful and horrible #because every molecule in this girl's body refuses to believe that there is even the slightest chance that her mother loved her #even when faced with the truth #she genuinely can't believe it #she won't believe it #because her whole life she's been led to see herself as only a weapon or a monster

[demon-of-the-ancient-world]

So idk if this is a super surface level take, but I think the most heartbreaking part about Paul's journey in part 2 is like. how he kind of knows even from the beginning what he'll have to do in the end. And even in those moments where he thinks he's maybe in the clear and forging his own path (the "taking off the ring" scene for example), I think he knows deep down that it won' t last. That the most he can do is delay the inevitable. But he'll still try to delay it as long as possible. He knows what going south will do to him. He knows what the water of life will do to him. He just doesn't know how bad it'll be. I think up until the last possible moment he still has some desperate hope that he won't give in fully, that he'll be able to have a win-win scenario and give everyone what they want while still remaining uncorrupted.

I've compared it to LOTR before but it really is Like That --- every good person who possesses the ring at some point thinks "maybe I'll be the one to resist it though. Maybe it'll be me who's able to remain pure of heart." I think Paul is the same way - he sees himself changing drastically, but still thinks maybe he can avoid that fate while still stepping as close to it as he feels he needs to. And those steps get closer and closer until he falls off the edge, as he was doomed to from the start.

#dune #dune part 2 #paul atreides #now don't get me wrong i *also* have a different meta about how he like. isn't *as* heartless and Fucked Up as we think after taking the WO #(like. yes he is Fucked Up and Came Back Wrong but i don't think he's blinded by it entirely. he's not hyped about it. he knows he's Wrong #and does it anyway ) #but yeah there's this too #i think he still believes he won't become like his mother did. that he'll somehow be able to resist it. and that's ultimately why he agrees #because he has this desperate belief that he'll still be the same in spite of everything

[who-is-page]

Life is hard! Consider buying my stuff!

My life isn't quite falling apart, but things have gotten really tricky lately. One housemate (and their super destructive, permanent houseguest) is refusing to pay their share of rent or utilities for the next three months, and another is refusing to pay their full share of rent for that same amount of time and is making us cover around $75 every month, and I'm having to double-up my hours at work while still being a full-time student (and also one of my professors, who we're 99% sure is using ChatGPT to generate her citations because none of them exist and we pointed this out, hates my guts and has been grading me really harshly and forcing me to go full-sail on every assignment to ridiculous degrees in order to pass this required class).

My spouse is working on getting full-time at their job, but it looks like they won't be able to until December, and we also have no idea how much rent is going to increase this year-- my guess is it's going to go up another $500, same as last year, to a total of $3,000, so things are gonna get really fucking bumpy until around January, probably.

So basically, if you like the work I've done, consider throwing me a tip on Ko-Fi or buying my stuff on Itch.io:

(Also I promise we have more stuff lined up that we want to polish and publish, life has just been super-duper fucking busy! There is so much more going on right now than what I've mentioned here, especially in terms of surprise medical bills and other horrible surprises. And we haven't forgotten about Inky Paws issue 2, either, which we're still hoping to have done by December and which will STILL always be entirely 100% free to download, no matter what our living or money situation looks like. That will never ever change, so please don't worry!)

#personal #yells #one of the surprise medical bills was MY TOOTH FUCKIN BROKE #I need to get a whole ass crown!!! wtf I'm anti-monarchy this should be illegal to happen to me #there are other surprise medical bills too but that's the one I'm most like are you FUCKIN srs rn #I love dentists and I think they're the coolest so it's like not scary or anything it's just. it's SO EXPENSIVE. #All the other bills should be at around $600 or below but this definitely won't even with insurance and I'm like whyyyyyyy #I should have gotten the crown like a week or two ago but I literally just cannot afford it rn so I'm trying to just be careful #with the patch the dentist put on it a month or so ago.... #sorry I'm just using the tags to SCREAM at this point like oh my god guys #you would not believe some of the bullshit that is going on rn #My housemate's permanent guest? it's their partner with assault charges #Who kidnapped a cat #Burned their last place of residency down #Bite and shanked their mother at 5am while she was asleep in her bedroom #And got my housemate arrested on false charges last year for funsies #And jumped off my roof #And brings stray animals in the house #And makes the hugest messes in the kitchen and living room without cleaning them up #(And I think she's a local drug dealer but that's more just a DO IT IN YOUR OWN FUCKING HOUSE AND NOT MINE thing) #So the whooooole polycule is on high alert that this person is gonna go off the rails and hurt people/pets at any time #I'm so unbelievably stressed out and worried about my cat especially #And like. I have PTSD dudes! This is so unimaginably fucking awful for my mental health! #If it weren't for my support system I would be in PIECES right now. I am so lucky to have partners and friends who care. #Also if some of that list sounds Weirdly Familiar to you it's because I wrote a fictional AITA post for NaNoWriMo '21 based on some of it #Yeah THAT is how long this stuff has been going on and what I've listed here is only Tip Of The Iceberg #Those two people will be gone by the end of November but oh my god I'm so stressed about retaliation and shit #The housemate in question tried to deflect by being like-- oh well she was just off her antipsychotics! #Like dude I don't know how to break this to you but. 1) that's a reason but not a justification for her behavior #2) She's an awful and horrible person both on and off her meds so obviously it is not the sole fault of her psychosis

[odetolovers]

i wish i knew more queer women who were very into their careers

#i've always struggled with gender and while i've settled with being Just Me i can't deny that i was raised on the belief that i would be a #homemaker and upon figuring out that i dont want that and i actually want a #pretty high profile career i'm really struggling #i'm a very veryyy femme lesbian and the way that my relationship is set to work in the future means i won't be the one to carry a kid or #stay at home. and i love that because i know who i am in that regard and my strengths Do lie in career and working #but i struggle with it too because as a person who didnt figure out she was queer until she was 20 and thus thought she'd have the #heterosexual experience of marrying a dude & carrying a kid & not being a huge career person for years #it's a bit of a shock to the system #i really struggle with overcoming gender roles that i've grown up being indoctrinated into believing and still thinking of myself as a good #& kind & nurturing person despite not wanting to be the stay at home mother #i wish i wiiiiish i knew more queer women who went through this realisation and came out the other end of it because it's harddd for real #valentina talks #i never realised how deeply how i grew up and the society i faced drilled into me that being a career woman & gay & taking on a more #traditionally “male” gender role was Bad and made you Wrong TM

[jenna-louise-jamie]

at work i keep getting shown the “correct” ways to do things like sweeping the floor and it's driving me a bit crazy. like i can see you're doing it faster than me but can you let me do one thing at my own pace. please. because im doing it better, even if it's slower.

#i worked as a residential house cleaner because my mother was one #if she saw the way they want me to clean things she'd have a brain aneurysm #i work in a kitchen now btw #also its kind of like im sorry boss but thats not how my brain works #if you hand me a broom and tell me to sweep i won't be able to stop until the floors are clear enough to my personal liking #they swept so fast and aggressively for max 10 seconds. respect and everything but i took my time in a different section and guess what its #more clean #so let me have this #that in particular irked me for some reason. other corrections they've given me its fine idc #but my mother would set brooms on fire she only believed in vaccuming #so if you give me a broom i have to make the floor clean enough so my mother wont astral project into my work place to scream at me for not #doing a good enough cleaning job #no one show this to my boss though please its just between us #my text #this whole tantrum could also be because once i do something one way i can only do it that way forever and i dont want to change #im not a fast worker. but i promise i do my very best

[tsarnvoiny]

new tag dump part 3 !

#dynamics ✡ are you a friend or foe? #anya&wade ✡ that's my down bitch. that's my soldier. #anya&bucky ✡ i'll stand by you. won't let nobody hurt you. #anya&jamie ✡ hey brother. do you still believe in one another. #anya&ani ✡ you are collateral damage. #anya&jackson ✡ taking charge of our own fate now. #anya&katya ✡ it's like looking in a mirror sometimes. #anya&natasha ✡ i am my mother's daughter. #anya&kate ✡ don't touch my fucking sunshine. #anya&wanda ✡ we wear red so they don't see us bleed. #anya&gen ✡ i'm a survivor who sees a survivor.

[jacuzziwaters]

Idk why I offered to help my friends move like I wasn't writhing in pain from my back last night.

#too scared to get the forearm crutches because i still live at home and my mother won't believe me #but im in pain #im gonna at least invest in a heating pad and a weighted heated blanket tho #jay's attempts at communicating

[obstinatecondolement]

Try though I may not to get invested in people who are Perfect Strangers to me just because they have an affable online persona, I do find myself very endeared to Brandon Sanderson. I have read none of his books, but I think his YouTube videos are very enjoyable and I am much relieved that he has both vocally affirmed his support of LGBTQ+ people in general, and trans people specifically, and has apologised (in a way that seems very sincere and earnest to me) for clumsy and unintentionally homophobic things he has said in the past. Which is, like, more than can be said of some fantasy authors.

#I knew vaguely that he was a member of the church of lds and was like... wary #but he seems to be taking the position that if mormonism is going to get less hostile to lgbtq+ people #that can only be accomplished by sincerely devout lgbtq+ allies staying in the church and making it a more inclusive and welcoming place #which I like... feel is misguided #but also I was not raised mormon and do not have a mormon spouse and family and I am not a sincere believer in the mormon faith #so it is very easy for me to say 'just don't be a mormon anymore' #he also says some stuff I feel is reeeally misguided about how it's good actually that dead people can be baptized mormon #and that mother theresa was good #and communism is bad #but like... I think he is a sincere and kind person who is trying his best #and I appreciate the honesty of him saying 'I believe these things and I won't pretend I don't' #I like when people don't humour me and really do try to be my ally instead of just repeating the party line so I don't think they're Bad #and given that his views on the queer community have evolved #I don't think it's impossible that he could realize a few years down the line that it is not okay to baptize the dead into your religion #but also as I said up top: brandon sanderson is a complete stranger to me and I should not devote this much time and mental energy #to trying to better understand his true character‚ values and beliefs #because that is not relevant to me or something I can ever know #@me just enjoy him being enthusiastic about writing fantasy novels on youtube in an unreflective and uncomplicated way‚ you big weirdo

[mainfaggot]

another shit fucking day but in the most casual way possible bc all i did was sulk study cry study sulk and finally, sulk in the shower. chai next and then bed . fuck my stupid baka life forrealsies

#i almost had an argument w my mother over nothing at one point bc i was so anxious about nothing and everything at once and well #i keep thinking. idk what im doing anything for anymore #like when we were arguing i was like wait what if she brings up how shes giving me a ride to uni multiple times this week #and then i was like wait if she says that. I'll just tell her not to. and then ill skip class. and then ill drop my classes and get a refund #and then ill drop out of uni. and then ill kill myself! #mind you i was thinking about all of this and the argument didnt even go in that direction in the end bc it was over very quickly #ljke. what ks wrong with me #i keep thinking that if my parents get pissed at me for being good for nothing despite me trying my hardest not to be #i really will end it all finally like Actually #bc i dont understand anymore. why are they paying for my stupid medication and tuition #theyre too nice to me #i know they expect me to send them money in their ideal imagined scenario in which i get a good job after getting a masters degree #and i know they expect that I'll take care of them when theyre old bc in their ideal. imagined. scenario. i 1) dont off myself in the next #few years 2) am not a lesbian who ruins the whole family dynamic by coming out and 3) get a well paying job and a husband #so. so yeah #but right NOW theyre nice to me and they take care of me but also i think everything is pointless but i try anyway because they take care #of me and they want me to be well but how am i supposed to be Get Well if i don't believe in myself #like i dont think thats possible really. #maybe a tiny bit? like maybe i won't be Well but i can be better. yeah i can do that #so i guess thats why im still trying #but then it's like. being Better is so. marginally different from being at rock bottom in a way #like yeah its significant improvement clinically but to me it's still casually miserable in its own unique way bc it's better but its still #very much present lingering choking me etc #so that brings me to the following: #im trying so hard but for what exactly? 'just keep going!' but at what cost? but why when im still like this? #z.post

[honeysuckle-venom]

I've been all stressed about seeing my extended family at my cousin's wedding this weekend, without even properly stopping to think that really I should be stressed about seeing my mother this weekend. Not just that, but seeing my mother when she has to deal with the stress of seeing her extended family. Nothing stresses her out or makes her meaner than seeing her family. Plus my dad told me tonight that she started a new medication recently bc apparently her doctor is concerned about her heart? And the new medication is making her super exhausted. And I really don't need her to be tired because of medication when this week is also the trauma anniversary week of her being too tired from medication: nearly fatal edition. This just...sucks.

#my post #text post #we drive down tomorrow #and should thankfully be back by saturday evening #but yeah. idk. this is going to be...unpleasant #i mean it might be okay #but i don't want to see my mother #and i hate being away from home/having to deal with my food issues away from home #also this part doesn't matter at all but it occurred to me that the only people in my life i'm not out to are my mom's family #which like. whatever. it won't come up #but it's weird to be in the closet/seeing people who know me but believe i'm cishet #anyway

[hauntingblue]

Me as bartolomeo mashing the guy who badmouthed luffy to the wall

#mugiwara no luffy senpai..... okay.... #he was there???!!!! #oh nvm in loguetown he became a luffy believer #150 villages??? damn #luffy catching the sword by spitting on his hands 😭😭 #i love cavendish he is insane and blond #waitwaiywait.... Burgess saying he doesnt trust aokiji.... what is he doing with teach... and its the same as with shiliew??? what is going #on... he does not help them right.... he does not... ✍️✍️✍️ #oh teach die!!! luffy tell him.... tell him to fuck off and die!!!! tell him to kill himself!!! or you do it!!!!!! #like making ace his nakama.... when he rejected him... luffy execute this man #he needs to disfigure burgess so bad his own mother won't recognize him..... just wait..... #oh luffy is mad mad mad.... me too girl me too.... #he was this close to running after him he had to go eat to calm down #she will buy him food and he is going to love her forever lmao #nvm betrayal.... and all this without dropping his food #my girl rebecca crying and defeated on the floor and they start to put shine on her titties.... have some decorum pls... #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 650 #rebecca girl don't cry you dont even need to win you bought luffy food and he will kill doflamingo for you it's that simple...

[mishkakagehishka]

And if you think ab it, i'm a genius <- dumped a block of frozen turnips into the boiling soup to save time on both defrosting the turnips and waiting for the soup to cool off so i can eat

#you guys will not believe how many foodstuffs my mother gave me to freeze so it won't go bad #my freezer is still full of her homemade tomato sauce. if anyone cares. she made it over christmas.

[gaydogmarriage]

#like a fucking idiot i keep checking on these fics believing this time they might be normal about it and not a single fucking time are they #youd think if people can grasp 'vagina doesn't make you a woman' they wouldn't struggle with 'birth doesn't make you a mother' but nope #thats apparently a super advanced logic leap that doesnt fucking occur to these people #the title of father is a special unique title only given to people who nutted in their partners if you've got different anatomy sorry you'r #stuck with mom mother mommy mama forever <3 because that's what you are no matter your lived reality #and like whatever if an mpreg writer cant be assed to do trans rep and wants to bend over backwards to justify why in this au or with this #species their blorbo is cis men can carry i'd still say read the fucking room about the gendering but i'm not getting the pitchforks #but jesus christ if you make the deliberate choice to make your character trans and put it in trans tags maybe consider trans people will b #reading it and won't appreciate a misgendering jumpscare #god this fandom is so shitty to trans men

[anarkhebringer]

I'm working on her DT face paint now too

#also while I was showing my mother she said the Ravel Keeper fending set reminds her of Choctaw or Pawnee clothing from the front #I'm inclined to believe the Choctaw at least since I have some in my family #I won't speak for Pawnee because I dunno

[jellybracelet]

Why does my mother want to validate all my biggest insecurities when I was feeling okay about myself for the first time since I was literally thirteen years old

#can't she just tell me she'll miss me instead of implying I'm silly and stupid for moving and that i won't make any friends #nor will ever be able to marry #it's so hard to tell yourself to not believe the words even when you know your mother doesn't mean them #i know she loves me #and she's not perfect