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#not to be ungrateful that when i get tired of 'feeling guilty abt putting off ur trip to go see family until the summer bc u didn't want to
wethecelestial · 4 months
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they should invent a grief thats uncomplicated and purely cathartic to experience. has anyone thought of this before
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loupetlapinn · 29 days
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how do you feel abt noncon with jeonghan? i feel like he’d be so patronizing and mean…like MEAN MEAN i’m talking degrading and mocking you, forcing you to take all of him in your mouth and cunt…
(also im so glad ur account came across my fyp, there’s not much dark svt content)
oh anon this is jeonghan's Domain ok. OH ANON. youre so right, listen.
t/w: noncon, coercion, unprotected sex. a/n: MDNI. dear anon i got carried away. unbetad is my brand. synopsis: jeonghan is just so very mean. w/c: 1.6k . . . feel free to block me.
( glad you found me too. )
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He'd always start off so innocently, under the guise of a caring sort of authoritative figure to you. He likes reminding you that he's older than you so he obviously knows what's best for you.
Always 'just trying to make sure you're okay' with near intimate touches ghosting areas you were sure was inappropriate given the circumstances. But he always made it seem like you were being ungrateful when he was just asking a simple question, he was only trying to soothe the apparent tension.
It got to a point where you would try and avoid him, your chest seizing if you catch a glimpse of him in your peripheral, or his voice ringing out a little too close to wherever you were. A part of you felt guilty, maybe you were making things up in your head. Maybe you thought too much of yourself to think he was making advances, he hadn’t actually done anything explicitly wrong . . . He was just being attentive, he even buys you food, remembers the way you like your coffee. He hadn’t even done anything really but there was something that always lingered with you afterwards. Something just felt . . . off. This feeling only further escalated to the point your stomach would be in knots, scampering off quickly to find some nook to hide in to avoid his suffocating presence. Growing tired of trying to politely dodge his wandering eyes and occasionally entitled hands. His mere presence put you on edge. 
“I have to go,” you’d offer a sad excuse before you’re once again scurrying off. You felt like a coward, not sure as to why because although you’ve been polite and discrete as possible about it; you have expressed your discomfort and lack of interest in his wolfish attentions.
Yet, in spite of your efforts to avoid him you still somehow find yourself alone with him more than you’d like. 
“Oh . . . I didn’t um . . .” You clear your throat, immediately taking steps back towards the entrance after an uneasy dip of your head in his direction to acknowledge him before you turned tail and ran the opposite direction once again.
“Didn’t expect to see me?” He smiles, that smile. That completely, utterly Jeonghan smile that you’ve grown to dread seeing.
“Sorry, didn’t mean to disturb you. I have to—“
“Go?” he interrupts, head cocking to the side as those dark, hooded eyes glimmer. Akin to a cat finding a mouse to toy with in its idle boredom. 
“You always have to go,” a ghosting of a pout follows his words. His eyes remain emotionless even as he feigns a wounded expression. “If I didn’t know any better . . . I’d think you were avoiding me, Y/N.”
“N-no!” You fumble your words like an idiot, grimacing at yourself. Getting ahead of yourself to placate his invasive tone. “No, not at all. Just, have some deadlines to meet, that’s all.”
Before he has a chance to respond, you’re zipping away. Not wanting to stand there and squirm under the weight of his gaze any longer. Only able to take a sigh of relief once you’re a safe distance away. Heart thudding in your chest.
You swear he does it on purpose, strings you along and riles you up. He likes the way you squirm, he likes the stuttered breaths you take, the way your gaze can’t keep his own, your antsy fingers restless at your sides.
It doesn’t take much longer, Jeonghan can only be so patient. Until he isn’t. He pounces when you least expect it, after letting you think that maybe he took a hint and eased off of you.
“I don’t know why you have to act like such a brat,” he muses with a drawl of agitation as he quite literally corners you.
A shiver runs down your spine and you’re not sure if it’s because of the way he sizes you up as he begins to crowd you, or the coolness of the wall against your skin as you press yourself back against it. Swallowing thickly you shake your head, wide eyed as you peer up at him. He reveled in the way you trembled, the look of distressed confusion etched onto your features as his hands soothe up your sides. Slender yet firm as he palms your chest lazily through your shirt and there it was again. That signature Jeonghan smile, it twists his lips, curling the corners of his mouth as he can’t help but purr his amusement.
“All I’ve ever done is try to be nice to you,” he continues, ignoring the way your hand wraps around his wrist as you urge him to some sort of mercy. “And this is how you repay me? Didn’t anyone ever teach you any manners?”
“Don’t worry,” he coos, his free hand abruptly twisting around locks of your hair, sharply angling your face upwards for your eyes to meet his own as you find yourself grimacing again. Those eyes, they looked as though he could swallow you whole right then and there, a snake coiling around its prey. Your heart lurches before plummeting to the depths of your stomach. “I’ll teach you.”
“Jeonghan . . . Jeonghan, please,” you finally find your voice.
He looks at you confounded, head tilting, a brow raising quizzically, “Please? Honey, we have’t even started yet.” An incredulous scoff follows, “I suppose it’s not a bad start though.”
“I’m sorry, really,” you plead and he just gazes at you blankly before offering a sickeningly sweet smile.
It’s a blur, everything. Your shirt yanked down to exposed your chest, he tsk’s at your bra before he’s pulling at that too. Both hands grasping at supple mounds, they’re cold against your skin and your face contorts, nipples hardening under the pads of deft fingers. Pressing yourself further back against the wall as if flattening yourself there would render you invisible, pushing away his hands.
“If you’re so sorry then you’ll make it up to me,” he snaps, his tone even. Eerily steady but it slices through the air as his eyes bore into you, you could feel the heat on your flesh.
A strangled gasp sounds form you as a hand darts to wrap around your throat, his grip bruising.
“What did I fucking say about being a brat, Y/N?” His voice barely a whisper, as your faces are barely inches apart. You could smell the faintest scent of his cologne, it tickles your nose as your mouth gapes. His fingers dig into your skin. “You say thank you when someone’s nice to you.”
One moment your against the wall and the next your forced onto your back upon the nearest table, you’re sputtering, the tight feeling from your neck and chest relieved slightly as you gulp down breaths of air greedily. Coughing from your eagerness to fill your lungs. As you struggle to stop seeing white, Jeonghan takes the liberty discarding your bottoms.
You looked much better like this, spread across the table, eyes unfocused, trying to catch your breath. It wasn’t his fault that he had to teach you a lesson, if you had just behaved in the first place he wouldn’t have had to take this route.
“Now, let’s try that again,” he says, splaying spindly digits upon your thighs to push them apart. Forcefully when you still have the audacity to shake your head tearfully and try to press them back together. It’s pointless and you both know it, thinking you could really keep him from what he wants.
You cry out, head thrown back against the table as his length pushes past your entrance. A slew of curses uttered under his breath as he makes sure to fit every last inch of his cock inside on you. Hissing at the way you spasm around him, the way your body writhes at the sensation of your unprepared heat being breached. The stretch burns, but it matters not to Jeonghan as he experimentally pulls in and out before slamming his hips flush against you.
“What do you fucking say, Y/N?” his voice his guttural, hands squeezing your thighs in a way that would surely leave bruises.
“J-Jeonghan— please,” you whimper out only to keen as he responds with a reprimanding thrust, each more merciless than the last before his fingers find your hair again. “I’m s-sorry— I’m sorry! T-Thank you,” your words minced, unsteady as winces and whimpers follow.
“What was that?” he snickers, hips jackhammering against you, wrapping your hair around his hand to keep a firm grasp on you. To entice more of those fat tears that brim your lashes and trickle down your face. “I can’t understand you when you don’t speak properly, stupid little thing. Now you can’t even talk right? Will I have to teach you that as well?”
Jeonghan can’t help the groans that follow every time you constrict around him, accompanied by the pitiful noises that you seem to have an unending amount of.
“You seem to take cock just fine,” he observes aloud and you bleat out at the savage snap of his hips, “One less thing to teach you.”
He uses your locks as leverage, watching your face twist into pathetic expressions, mascara running down your face as he tortuously continues to wrench at your hair to pull you down to meet his thrusts. “Say it.”
“Thank . . . you.”
“Say it.”
“Thank you, Jeonghan!”
Jeonghan makes sure to drop you to your knees to cum in your mouth when he’s done with you, rivulets of pearlescent release pouring past your lips. Missing purposefully to paint your face to enjoy the fucked out look upon your features.
“A fucking mess,” his voice almost accusatory, like it was all your fault.
“Maybe next time, if you fucking behave for once. You can cum too.”
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luobingmeis · 2 years
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things do not feel Good right now <3
#i’m abt to go on a very long laundry list of reasons why i’m throwing myself a pity party#which i beg all of u to. ignore.#bc ik w/ posting on social media there is an air of. wanting to be seen.#which i will not deny! but it is much easier to yell into a void of profile pics then. be by myself or (god forbid) actually talk to someone#but like! here are all my fantasy escapist media so i can ignore how i am trying to avoid reality at all costs <3#alcohol continues to be the devil. i am so tired.#and does an adult in ur life ever say something so off-putting that u don’t even know how to interpret it#like wtf does ‘this house will all be yours anyway just make sure u take care of my pets :)’#like. i’m 90% sure that means my house will be left to me but. it was just. weird.#which tying into some other things my m*ther said tn im just like. what the fuck is happening#anyways i feel so guilty having m*mmy issues bc i don’t trust my own perspective of things#so what if im just ungrateful and a bitch? <3#also sometimes i feel too anxious to leave the house#and i am either too anxious or too low on energy to talk/talk consistently with most people i know#so that’s all fun#and i want out of here but idek if/when that will ever happen#and i am so very tired! and so very anxious! and i would like to be able to just talk abt that#and hope get the point across how it’s ruining my mental health without having to say it#and not have to hear advice that just evades the point that. when i am without any distractions i am deeply unhappy <3#i am at all times stuck in august/september and i feel like i will not let myself leave#and when it turns out that this is all pmsing and hormones i will simultaneously become worse and pretend this never happened <3#anyways. ‘im scared and i do not want to be like this’ lines that will haunt me forever#anyways. sudden downspirals that make u want to be medicated but also just sleep for a while.#i have had an uptick of sudden downspirals lately and it’s all bc i no longer have the motivation of. self-care/self-preservation.#and in the morning. i will either wake up more anxious or wake up embarrassed.#either way. i always feel like a brat complaining abt my home life or my job or my mental health etc etc etc but. alas.#i just. miss a lot of things rn. and i would like to not be like this.#i rly don’t want advice or. sympathy or anything like that. bc idek what i would say to most stuff#so instead i will bury this post with posts abt my funny little guys <3
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