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Rotting Log (2022)

Rotting, I lay prone sprouting mushrooms as

bedsores

a once tall timber queen turned to fallen

log.

Fungal cocoon of depression wraps once vital roots

cutting circulation to arterial branch

fingertips turning

blue, blue, blue from forgotten use.

A biome home to harm and self hate.

My lungs collapse with a puff of spores

infecting my brain with bedridden

bacteria.

The only movement being bugs crawling under my bark,

skin slowly peels reveals deadened

cambium.

The sun cannot reach me here,

I am enshrouded in eclipsing emotion.

Listless, I lay upon my forest floor

listening to my decay.

Unable to escape,

I welcome my return to the earth

#poetry #poem #writing #thoughts #mental health #tw depressing thoughts

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I've got that deep deep aPATHy

#photography #hiking #pathway #apathy

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Depression-Induced Apathy (2021)

When vim and vigor failed to move me,

the storm in my cortex continued

to chew me.

But between chromosomes and cracked bones

I couldn’t muster the strength

 to care.

Sedimentary and decaying

these thoughts overwhelm.

Stationary and weighing

I let myself drown,

beneath it all I plea

to that corpulent god of 

deep soundless apathy

‘Release me!’.

Now I convalesce 

laying between victory and detritus,

aware of my every breath. 

#poetry #poem #mental health

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My university has these big woods on campus and to help teach us proper trapping they used to have students set up traps out there. Every. Single. Year. Long story short had to stop that because the mice and voles were FIGHTING OVER THE TRAPS AND GETTING OBESE. Whoops!

my fav thing in wildlife research is the concept of animals being “trap happy” meaning the same animal goes into a trap on purpose again and again after it’s caught the first time bc it was like “hey…..there was food in there and Zero (0) predators and then they just let me go in the morning…….”

on one hand it fucks up our data but on the other hand……..I Get It you Funky Little Rodents

#environment #wildlife #research #itsalearningcurve

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Geeesel 😑

Find your REAL Angel name

• First two letters of your last name • First vowel of your first name • Third letter of your middle name (or parent’s first name if you don’t have a middle name • Last consonant of your last name • Add IEL or EL to the end!

#what the fuck #sounds like a goose overlord #angel name

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Female Lioness at Oklahoma Zoo Grows Mysterious Mane

Though rare, maned lionesses are not unheard of.

In Botswana’s Okavanago Delta, maned lionesses are regularly spotted, likely the result of a genetic anomaly shared by related animals.

Embryos that were disrupted either at conception or during gestation likely caused the genetic mutation, Luke Hunter, president of the big-cat conservation group Panthera, told National Geographic in 2012.

“Alternatively, and perhaps more likely, the problem may have occurred during gestation if the fetus was exposed to increased levels of androgens—male hormones such as testosterone,” Hunter says.

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Cows with Flower Crowns

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This is the kind of science I am here for

Seabirds produce a truly astounding amount of poop, some very dedicated scientists decided to calculate just how much, and we have the scoop.

#science #animals #penguins #biology #science is beautiful

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Buoyant Sunlight

gif by riverwindphotography, February 2018

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. Photo by @hendriventer Namaqua Chameleon in the Namib Desert. #nature #wildlife #chameleon #namaquachameleon #namibia #namibdesert #wildlifephotograpy

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Cairn garden on the beach

#beach #Cairn #sunset #rocks #nature

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