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[nightmanatee]

thinking about how hard it must've been for 13 to let yaz go. bc of how destructive she is for yaz despite all the attempts to make it better.

she tried to show yaz the universe but failed to open up. let her find her true self (and who she loves) but failed to show this love (and accept it) herself. taught her to fly the tardis and shouted at her. gave her a reason and all the tools to become the person yaz always wanted to be yet still failed to give her the most valuable thing (and what yaz has always wanted): more time.

after all of this i'm glad she's realized that maybe yaz's the one who deserved better. perhaps she deserves much more than become twelve (and so much more than what 12 did to clara: selfishly kept her close to himself).

#kinda also feeling that 13 did the same to yaz what 12 did to clara: #gave an illusion that the doctor is going to be alright on their own and that the companion is better without them #13 is like it's me hi i'm the problem it's me #and good for her #i love thasmin #and i love how i can make polar opposite theories about them #one day they both deserved more #the other 13 is the problem #sdfsdlfksjdf #thasmin #13th doctor #yasmin khan #whouffaldi