#she's always down for fun stuff

[greppelheks]

shit I genuinely have feelings for my coworker/friend....

#she's sweet she's considerate #she'll bring cakes and coffee to work for me #she's so funny she's so much fun to be around #she has this confidence that's so attractive #but she's also a bit insecure about things which is endearing #she's smart she's super creative she's a super sweet mom #she has little shame we have the same interests and similar music taste #she's always down for fun stuff #she's super nasty #she's emotionally intelligent and she'll actively show me she wants to be around me #she understands me in a way that feels so natural #I can tell her about stuff that's bothering me and she'll understand and also be so supportive #I just really like her and I like spending time with her #personal

[swordmaid]

cat ❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

#catelyn stark #asoiaf #valyrianscrolls #mine. #i dont think is her full outfit tbh .. she needs more layers ....... #and also i think her hair will be up but i drew it down bc i wanted to draw her thick hair hehe . #the outfit is also not rlly accurate but i just took inspo from like paintings and other references and tried to make something. vibes. !!!! #anyway this was kinda fun i feel like doing a mini series #mb cers is next bc it's always fun to design stuff for her since shes so extra #but im just happy i finished something 😭😭😭 !!! for once!!!!!!!!!!! i didnt even shade this lol

[megumi-fm]

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#okay random story time i don't know why im narrating this or how i even stumbled upon this memory rn #but i generally do sad vents in the tags and for a change this is a funny one #so back in highschool (i say highschool but i mean junior college) i used to visit this park near my house a lot #i was an sg kid back then and the thing about parks there is that they're kinda beach-parks and they have the best cycling/running tracks #they're also really massive parks so i used to go often. sometimes bicycling. other times walking. yeah. the park was like my sanctuary #anyway. there are quite a few bike rental areas in the park and there was a cute lil shop next to this one particular rental place #and they sold like biscuits and water and icecreams and stuff and i went there a lot #and on one particular day i went there and there was this guy around my age part timing at that shop #now again this might be culture specific bc i dont see it in india but part timing in uni/pre-uni is pretty common is sg #a lot of shops and restaurants employ teenagers to twenty something ppl for part time jobs... anyway im just adding context #point is that i had walked to the park with my mum that day and she told me to go buy a couple icecreams so i went to the shop #and i saw this guy around my age and like. not to be a simp but this dude was so pretty? #like he saw someone had come to the counter so he looked up and shot a smile and i thought i got slapped by sunlight #i could spend the next several lines going on about his pretty tan skin and his glowing raven eyes but this is pathetic enough so ill stop #anyway he saw me and smiled really wide (customer service smile- i thought to myself) and i smiled back and asked for icecreams or whatever #and then this guy started getting chatty right. so he was all 'you come here (to the park) often right? ive seen you with your bike a lot' #see now. the problem with me is that i always think im bothering people. this poor dude was attempting to make conversation #and i was replying with one word answers #and i wasn't even realizing that he didnt want that. bc he kept asking more questions and i. kept. shutting them down. #then when he gave me the icecream he was all 'are you here alone? icecream alone is no fun... i could keep you company if you want..?' #which. he was being really cute about right. but because im so fucking dense i was all 'oh no i came with my mom actually' #and he went 'aw man' in this really cute but faux sad way which i didnt understand at the time and i left and then #after three full fucking days. i realized this man was tryna hit on me? #and then i went to the park like a week later and he was gone. poof. i even thought of asking the uncle in charge of that place #then i got too embarrassed and chickened out #yeah so turns out my neurodivergence neutralizes any sort of rizz that comes my way #i could've been chilling with a cute boyf rn but no😩 this is my destiny #megumi in the tags

[itspileofgoodthings]

Taylor returning over and over to the falling through the ice accident in the Bolter—everything to me

#like. just. the shock of it all #there’s something about Taylor where her experience of life is so ….. brutal #like I don’t know how else to say it but it just is. life is not easy on her it is always ready to CLOBBER her #and in a way she’s not easy on life. there’s some kind of magnets/opposite poles stuff where she’s just always drawn to the worst things #to feeling them and experiencing them and almost ??? creating them #like I don’t mean to overstate it. and I know she has a family who loves her (thank GOD) #and also she’s very practical and industrious about creating this very Instagram worthy life full of Fine Things and a Fun Time #and of course all the resources in the world at her disposal to create all the trappings of it #whether it’s a celebrity Fourth of July party or the eras tour #and she’ll do it and love it. but as all the best critics know and point out the most fascinating thing about Taylor is always the music #and it’s where all the weirdness and stubbornness and difficulties of her life. her a c t u a l longings her actual fears #her actual terrible awful experiences that she charges headlong down the paths of #is set free! and it’s breathtaking in the most shocking way #like falling through the ice! I always say the first thing that always hits me about a Taylor album is the bitterness #just this blast in the face. and her music is so gentle! in so many ways #and the packaging is so appealing and her voice is so soft and expressive and there is none of that weird experimentation #even musically (remember when she shut down imogen heap for putting a minor chord in clean she was like absolutely not. I’m obsessed) #(with that moment forever) #but like. so much of Taylor’s packaging and life and HER really does SEEM so basic or ordinary or just rich girl ordinary I guess #she likes basic things and wants basic things. but also she is so hungry so restless so angry so wounded the rich internal life is CHURNING #all the time. every second. and it’s spectacular to watch and also I will worry about her until the day I die #or just—-I don’t know. it’s going to be spectacular and it is sometimes going to be awful #but she will keep furiously writing her way through it!! #there IS such a woundedness to her. and it makes me love her so much because it’s packaged in such a way people think it must just be #whining or privilege. but it’s not! it’s just. the human condition and Taylor’s own flaws #okay I’ve lost the plot here a bit in my ramblings but yeah the ice metaphor. insanely perfect

[mxwhore]

learned a very valuable lesson today

#for each DICKHEAD you encounter there will always be a kind person waiting for you :) #i was flabbergasted that everyone had decided to be an asshole towards me. a stranger #first scenario: i was in the train watching my phone and this older guy comes up to me and starts going off on a 'kids these days!!' rant #he basically told me that i was BEGGING to get my ass beaten and my phone stolen and he wouldnt come console me when i cried abt it #me being used to this treatment from my grandma i just went ok. and put my phone away #and obviously that pissed the guy even more so he continued to rant until it was his stop #i wasnt too pissed because i was going to HAVE A BURGER!! but still. what?? #so i went to get that burger and wait for my mom so we can go to the farm #and the burger guy was extra niceys to me :) we joked around and stuff #AND THEN. scenario number two #i had my delicious burger and i was looking for a table when i saw two ladies sitting with and empty table next to them #and so i went! i was just about to sit down when a random lady SNATCHES the chair i was about to use #i was like WTF??? #the two old ladies saw this and instantly went like wtf are you ok??? and starting having a go at the random woman #she ofc in good karen fashion didnt care. so the ladies let me have one of the chairs so i could sit next to them #the woman decided to sit right in front of us and so we started shit talking her between us. it was very fun tbh #i was genuinely bummed at these interactions till i realized that there were lots of strangers that were niceys to me #and have me extra ketchup #anyway!! im off to see my dog now #love u

[good-beans]

(Milgram self-insert oc masterpost hehe)

Name: For the sake of posting online I’ll call her Rose!

Color: #E7355B [the pink in the art]

Age: I guess she’d be 20 given when Milgram started huh.

Status: Milgram Staff, Machine Technician

Symbols/imagery: ballet/musical theater, science experiments

Song genre: very similar to Mahiru's, something upbeat and extra pop-y

Tentatively she's number 011? She's not really prisoner but she's also not free to come and go, so I'm not actually sure if she'd get a number (Edit: I've decided she'll actually be 012. Staff is given the 01X range, and even though Es doesn't actively have a number they'd be staff member 011, making her 012.)

Story: Since the project is supposed to be realistic/present day, the mv machine would be brand new and unpredictable tech, so they’d want someone keeping up on maintenance and making sure the brain-invasive process won’t cause any harm to the prisoners. Rose was studying abroad in Japan working on some cool neuroscience tech (irl I know nothing about technology or brains but shh) and she stumbled upon some secret tech/plans from Milgram. Long story short, she was dragged into the experiment to make sure things ran smoothly.

Writer's Reasoning: She’s really fun for me to play around with, as she allows me to work with a character who has a tiny bit of pull over Es’ mindset in conversation but not the final decision (aka mirroring the voting system), and someone who is simultaneously trapped in the prison but has a reason to see all the canon content.* I really enjoy the character interactions and dynamics Milgram has set up so far, so it’s been super fun seeing how things change for better and worse when someone not quite aligned with either Milgram/the prisoners is thrown into the mix!

*As much as I love dramatic irony in fiction, it would drive me crazy if I knew every detail of of the vds/mvs but Rose didn't – and every single Milgram character is The Worst Communicator Ever so I couldn’t justify that she’d hear it secondhand from them...

Story roles:

She’s a bit conflicted -- she’s officially Milgram staff and knows she should remain neutral on the prisoners, since she won’t be allowed to interfere with the process/executions. At the same time, her job description is literally “make sure the machine doesn't hurt them and everyone's safe :)” and she's way too emotional to avoid getting hopelessly attached to everyone 😅

I really enjoy the theory that the machine extracts videos based off of priming, so one of Rose’s duties involves listening in on the interrogation and making sure there’s been enough material discussed/not too much time has passed overall (hence the ringing of the bell happening at different lengths for each vd -- That's her ringing it :3). She then watches the mvs along with Es to make sure there are no machine glitches, and know how to calibrate it better for next time.

(IEdit: I've since decided to add in official trial mvs, but before when I wasn't ready to tackle that:) She has to run some tests on the machine to make sure things are calibrated correctly, so she'd extract little things here and there. It gives me the opportunity to think up lyric snippets and recurring symbols for her without worrying about full encompassing music videos.

I'm not afraid to admit she can fall into Mary Sue territory every so often by being everyone's friend, because it's less about "aw everyone likes her" and more about "canon is too painful rn and I need a fix-it tool to take care of these guys and give them hugs and tell them someone forgives them and cares about them and unfortunately these characters wouldn't let anyone less than a friend do that." Rest assured she's definitely not perfect and will fuck everything up on occasion :3

Miscellaneous: Whenever I play around with normal au ideas she's still working on the machine (but in a public, more ethical setting), and she's Mahiru's roommate :) Her character isn't super focused on love, but if I had to pick a cover song it'd be Stickybug II. It's very much my vibe, the lyrics fit well enough (better than most songs, at least lol) and it's one of my favorites out of my limited knowledge of unchosen Deco songs! (Edit, I've actually given her non-deco cover songs hehe)

So yeah, I hope she's not too boring without a cool crime to decipher, but I wanted to share since I was really proud of her! It took a bit of tinkering to find a way to fit her into a perfect secret-third-thing role that runs very smoothly with all of canon, so I was very excited!

#waaahh posting before i chicken out #I've never posted about a self-insert so please be kind lmao 😅 #i dont expect a ton of hype for her but if people have questions im always down to talk about her hehe #this is my only art -- i rarely draw oc stuff but i was really happy with how this came out #i definitely dont think shed get a number or those side rune straps by canon standards but the art wouldnt look right without them #im mad that the lab coat and gloves make her look a bit like shidous design :/ i definitely wanted more scientist vibes than doctor #dw she wears her PPE when she works on the machine 😤 #yeah yeah theres some shipping aspects sue me -- but genuinely its mostly for fun character studying and fix-its #mkdr and neoneon also hold a special place in my heart but i didnt want to double up on covers #im so sad because she just. doesnt fit into LCSyS #the machine is fake in the au so shed have no opportunity to join the experiment #plus even if i made her generic staff shed just be on the receiving end of the lie with es... which is just canon until the very end adfsdf #WOO huge thank you to kyanako5972 and purgemarchlockdown for enabling me to be annoying once again >:3 #and thank you gunsli!! our chat was the first time i ever talked about her and it really gave me a lot of confidence :') #not maintagging but i will edit for organizational tags later #i also may put this on my writing blog at some point but we'll see #my art #rose posts #ocgram #milgram

[tamagotchikgs]

i try my best not to think of it and i havent in years but the fact the only people who were ever supposed to be my friends irl would always dump their love on me and then to leave me & say they dont like me over and over and over again only so they could watch my reaction n make fun of me together maybe did affect me huh

#i am normal i am not affected ii do not see ◡_◡ #[distant sounds of me crying & screaming && gasping for air &&& ripping myself to shreds like a bear] #i was always an autistic lil freak who didnt speak so i guess i shouldnt be surprised #but like. i always just wanted them to like me #i always just wanted the chance to like them back and let be allowed. always just wanted someone to be pals with. someone i could trust to #have my back for once vs everything else #i remember such a specific moment right #and we were going on a roadtrip w her and one i already had #and they ended up talking before we left #the worst part is i had to keep seeing them. i had to just keep reliving the humiliation over n over again n it got so deep in me #& the og one had a plan that we would sit together in the back n n we had like. tons of stuff brought we could do n snacks n all this #n then at the very last second literally as i had just sat down she was like . actually. i dont want you back here. i want her she's way be #better #and i remember so specifically she was like. LOL look at ur face.......... #and so i had to sit up front alone w nothing to do the entire ride but listen to them make fun of me for it #i feel like it would be better if they had left it at that but then they always came back n treated me so sweetly so i was like . ok i have #a chance #maybe they do like me #like the same girl went on to share cookies she had bought w me and we sat on the lawn for hours hanging out n eating them #and then she did it again #and again #but i was so alone in the world otherwise that i stayed #for years n years #my therapist always talks about how because of how long ive had anxiety means itll take either equally as long or longer to recover #and all i can think ab is how i lived with everything horrible at home #always just wanting to escape #to living through bad things outside of it too #just piling on top #from 6-16 #and i kept going back

[doverstar]

so far taylor swift’s new album is…not…good?

#it’s just one opinion #if I happen to be right what of it #I mean most if not all of these new songs sound the same and are either profane or about sex #which as anyone who knows me knows: not my cup of tea #also young girls (very young) still (always have) listen to her music and this is now what they’re listening to #how far the mighty fall #just. very different from the writing and the intentionality behind past music of hers #she always seemed smarter and more creative than this #31 songs is impressive ms. swift but I’ll take quality over quantity any day #but I haven’t listened to all of it yet! maybe there’s a banger I need to hear that I haven’t reached yet #down bad was. almost fun #and I appreciate that she always releases versions of her songs WITHOUT the profanity #though those versions do make one wonder why she used curse words in the first place? seems to highlight the unnecessity #anyway. just thinking out loud. not a big deal #I have the happy ability to decide that my sun does not rise nor set upon stuff like this #opinion piece #taylor swift #ttpd #the tortured poets department #tortured poets department #tswift #text post #doverstar’s thoughts

[twilightarcade]

i still can't believe she said that shit to me

#wordstag #she KNOWS I can't get behind that stuff ! She's met me yeah ? #tthen she has the audacity to say it's not that deep. Like yeah; saying that all of humanity is inherently evil and wouldn't #accomplish anything if it weren't for their lives hanging over their heads isn't that deep. Average Tuesday type conversation. #'if you were an apple farmer wouldn't you want to hoard your apples?' BUT FOR WHAT?? WHERE DOES THAT GREED GET YOU. WHY IS THE AVERAGE #PERSON IN YOUR MIND INHERENTLY GREEDY. Like ohhh if everything was free nothing would get done because people need motivation #like shit isn't getting done as it is now. You want to be a music teacher. You can't because of money. Why isn't this an obvious solution #like . I know you can't just go welp everything is free now; have fun. I know you can't destroy all of modern economics like that. #but why is a hypothetical magical world where we do that bad. What did the human race do before capitalism? Just roll over and die? #there was still art. There's always art. There's always going to be someone who wants to do something with their life that can't #because of MONEY. Like everything is so focused on money [coughing at the art industry] why can't it just be . #^^^^ anyway context I was talking 2 someone (that I know . Like really well ) and proposed just #getting rid of money forever . Because fhey wanted to be a teacher but couldn't bc money #and this was like . The most preposterous thing to them. Why would people do anything if not for money etcetc #even went as far as 'humans are inherently evil' which wooooaaaaah slow down there buddy . #you're letting your christian show. Or whateevr. Idk just not an idea I can personally get behind #then she goes 'it'snotbthat deep' like she didn't just imply something about the entirety of the human population. Or something. #like if humans are so evil jsut kill us now or something .

[lovelaceisntdead]

I can feel my heartbeat in my teeth.

#i am. bit stressed out. #pets have been up and down lately and it's made me worry #and being ill always makes my anxiety spike #and because I've been so tense then I'm worried I'll trigger a migraine #and i think i might be getting my period AGAIN #which may be because of stress also idk. need to make a doctor's appointment about that. #need to get a referral from my dentist for my jaw. #need to refil my prescription. #and losing the last couple of weeks of jan has really thrown me #i don't know when I'll be back to being able to work properly #and i really wanted to do so fun stuff for valentine's day but i know that's just not realistic now #i know people say January always feels so long but i feel like I'm already running out of time!! #i know most of this is silly i wish i could tell my nervous system that because she is. not happy. #maybe tag vomitting will help. idk.

[rxtgallows]

being the same age as most long term lolitas were when they started getting into it but its different now bc there is just so much less of a community it feels like... like for me i feel more like i am finding a lot of individuals but no local communities bc its just rlly died down i think... like i found a 2013 pph article about a lolita meetup downtown. i dont think that wld happen now even if i COULD find a local community

#i think if theres not a lolita tea party/panel this year at pcm i will host one next year... #by then ill have been actively in the subculture for like a year and ill know a little more.. rn im JUST starting out i wld have no clue #what to do... but like i have ideas for stuff that wld be soo fun and ive always wanted to host/participate in an event or panel #once i was picked to participate in the fandom state alchemist test or w/e its called but then they wldnt let me after they saw my boot #which was so fail bc i absolutely cld have done tthe challenges with a broken foot. BLAH anyway #or like i hope they try the jfashion show again UGH probably not since it had to be cancelled due to lack of participation... #i jst would looove to have lolita friends in the area... idk how successful i wld be at converting someone and my sibling doesnt count #or ONE lolita friend... i only know of one lolita in maine and shes pretty well known in the NA lolita community from what i can tell so #ive met her a couple times actually she is very nice. idk what i am trying to say tbh #im more open to making friends at pcm in a lolita context and not a cosplay context bc every cosplayer ive interacted with for more than a #passing comment or picture turned out to be like umm a freak #or one of my moms students <- student who made all the dresses for the haunted town tour cosplaying kanaya that one year and then me showin #my mom the meetup pictures and her going omg.... thats d/////// #she was a really really incredibly seamstress btw her costumes were beautiful. anyway. iconic. #i think probably i havent talked to anyone in a while and it is wearing me down i have to make these massive posts every day

[weldnas]

Top comment I heard about Harry today: “bold of him to write watermelon sugar when he can’t even get it right up there”

#this is a rough traslation from my language #the long story is that one of my fav people at work #we always banter back an forth about how much she wants harry and how much i don't want to hear it #because he's my mother #she's very detached from fandom don't have twitter and her main assumption about harry is that he's def not straight #but buy into most of the other stuff #and also he is on the top of her celeb fuck list #and im a normal person so im not gonna shame her for that #so first thing she tells me when i get to work #is that to not worry anymore because harry is going down to the bottom of the list #and then my ither friends interject to make it dirty #bcs 'going down' #and she goes 'no thank you #+ what i said above #fun day #stunt

[unproduciblesmackdown]

hey this site does have summer stock (1950) i can find out for myself if everyone comically trades their affianced or they don't really bother b/c idk judy garland's role's sister tires of showbiz too much to marry gene kelly anyways, very conveniently, and orville keeps just wandering out of every scene looking lost after being shooed away

#uh oh! this summary is already calling her sister ''ne'er-do-well.'' go girl #also oh i see n.d.w. sister invited the troupe to stay on the farm; she's not already in the troupe as i presumed.... #well if you just met these guys anyways. and in my admittedly limited experience gene kelly's roles never come across that charming lol #like is he always here to harry some actor lady and then be all ''who me? the little birthday boy?'' aired about it? others can say.... #i am sure corbin bleu could be a bit more winsome. gene is here to dance & get through the rest well enough #my man eddie bracken uhhh hollywood comedy legend wikipedia says who was in a lot of stuff.... #we'll see if he gets to keep cropping up to be funny lol or what. like i said fun that he's setting up judy garland's comedy too.... #phil silvers will also be there holding down the livelier and comedic fort. even other people probably #summer stock #dinner and a show commences....

[jrueships]

twitter(.)com/heykayadams/status/1686813346127896576

so THIS is the cause of diggs's beef with allen.... WE HAVE FOUND THE ANSWER !

diggs after refusing his gemini moonness then inputting his dob, time, and location into the zodiac finder analyzer website thing: omg JOSH can you BELIEVE we both share a GEMINI 🤯⁉️⁉️ that is CRAZY!!!! but i CANT be.. it HAS to be wrong!!!.. right? right? you're a gemini, you should know all about gemininess! it's crazy, right! right!! YOU KNOW GEMINIS, JOSH! YOU ARE GEMINI MAN!!!!

Josh, trying to deal with yet another miserable, heartwrenching playoff loss: idc

diggs:

Diggs:

hOW CAN YOU NOT CARE ABOUT zODIACS, i HATE you you STUPID FUCKING GEMINI!!!!!!!!!1!1!11!1!!1!!!!

#ugh this is sooooo gemini of himmm omgggg 🙄🙄🙄🙄 #-- diggs on his hashtag savage sag (ittarius) burner twitter zodiac account with a billion followers #here comes the unnecessary devils advocate DIMWIT !!!! #ruining FUN where the scene shouldnt be and creating FUN where the scene shouldnt be #i HAAATE geminis!! I AM NOT A GEMINI!!!!!! i am self zodiacing as... a libra moon 🥰 #and then diggs reposts a bunch of libra moon star sign stuff to his insta adding in 'OMG! that is soooo mee' to it in aesthetic font #milk with dinner is a no for me MAINLY BCS it's clear and u can see any backwash or cup residue in it #and i dont want that #milk is strictly breakfast or nighttime for me #it's either solo or no go!!! i do not like combining foods with milk! #if im drinking something to wash down #i dont want it to be smthin i actually enjoy BCS THEN THATS JUST WASTING!!! EITHER FOOD OR DRINK! ONE COVERS THE OTHER #while wasting BOTH!!!! nuh uh i drink that milk SEPARATE so i can ENJOY IT bcs i am #..i have a problem #im a bit of a freak with resources and efficiency sorry i grew up poor #but my gran gran loooves milk with dinner. she always suggests milk as a dinner option even when we're havin like. #chili. it's SO WACK like. is it a southern/farmer thing to drink milk with everything cus of rural stuff??? #idk anyways offtopic this is hilarious and i love seeing the way the aries analyze things bcs they always think theyre right #but at least do some research..... that supports how they think theyre right and nothing beyond that it's so funny #they can only actually learn from making mistakes. it's like a curse. i love them #ted asks #diggs/allen

[astrxealis]

super busy but hi i miss ffxiv i played again today raghh happy 10th anniv the rising event makes me cry i love ffxiv :(( but anyway! bg3 thoughts in tags!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #meow :3 #my approval w shadowheart is so high lol ... she & my tav are a couple. of bestiesss <3 #astarion is amazing bcs i got bit the 2nd fucking night of playing and just before that too lae'zel wanted to get in my pants #IT'S AMAZING what the first cutscene i got for long rest was wyll already turning into a devil bcs i had all origin charas alrdy #and then after that ?? astarion bite scene. he didn't even talk abt the stars anymore or whatever he just jumped straight to biting my tav #oh my god and lae'zel wanted to get it on w my tav SOOO badly ... her dialog is so funny i love her #anyway :3 my tav is a slowburn w astarion but they r fr getting there. sometimes rising sometimes going down but it's been rising more #lately and teehee <3 my tav also thinks karlach is the sweetest and ADORES her. you can see him making soft heart eyes at her always. #also got the learning magic moment w gale and god it's so dangerous for me to get gale cutscenes tbh bcs i'm trying not to favorite him here #he has. what. stuff w magic and stars. shut up. i can't handle that rn or i'll fall in love LMFAO <3 #wyll ..... i don't use him in my party good gods and he Still remains the character i know the least even tho i know him a lot more now #but i REALLY like him. i would say he's my 3rd fav after karlach who is after astarion but so are shadowheart and gale and lae'zel... so. #i'm. not forgetting anyone right #but yeah basically all of them r my favs <3 and my tav gets along w all of em p well tbh #he's a good nice person but chaotic (he's my bard baby boy <3) so it's REALLY fun playing bg3 w him as my tav ... apollo my dear #i should make an elf oc named emil. give him brown hair. be even more self-indulgent thru making more & more charas. #btw i saw a painting of apollo online today. as in the god. and almost cried (positively) bcs my tav named apollo looked so similar #amazingly w the slightly curly hair blah blah blah and the general colors. apollo just. generally means a lot to me ok. anything w apollo.

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

favourite ways so far that that tension that seems inherent to thasmin as a canon ship is being released in my post potd everybody lives au is 1) the doctor sleepwalking, and 2) the doctor having a giggle fit

#the circumstances in the second one make it even better but just #13 when shes being less self-monitoring is always when shes the most fun to watch #and to see her like that but it's purely because shes absolutely Losing It #it's just #it's so pure #like hello #i can watch this all day #like it's vulnerable it's her guard down #but it's JOY #it's beautiful #i love her #it's also just so nice to write them without the tension #i for real thought the tension was inherent to the ship and that if you resolved it that there wouldnt be one but thats not true #there is still very much a lot of interesting stuff to write in the wake of the tension being resolved #bc it gets resolved by trust right? #it gets resolved - at least in my interpretation - by yaz saving her life #and that flipping a switch for the doctor that makes her able to trust yaz fully in a way she couldnt before #so where before you'd be writing the tension of the balancing rope of trust #now you can write the rest of falling off and realising there was like. a mattress there. or someone to catch you #it's an exhale #it's like thank GOD ive been waiting for this for YEARS