#shut up emma

[sconesfortea]

The way Frenchie talks to Ed after he storms away from the dinner in 1x05 is so soft "you alright mate?" "what'd they do you man?" "they're such dicks about spoons".

He's just been consoling Stede about the party & immediately wants to calm Ed & it's so kind & idk, I just love him?

#ofmd #our flag means death #shut up emma #queued

[bugwat3r]

#Someone add the badly drawn text bubble with dean domino #fallout new vegas #dead money #shut up emma #lowest effort post i’ve ever done made but this is all i can think about when i see this stupid ass picture

[softlyblues]

need everyone to know i laboriously write all my smutty dr who fic with fountain pen before i type it up onto ao3. i got a new bottle of ink i love her

#doctor who #shut up emma

[swagbitch666]

hi everyone i just want it on the record that i am weirdly enraged by donna canonically changing the word for gravity to mavity and the fact that they are just casually using mavity instead. in the doctor who universe it is canon that gravity doesn’t exist

#doctor who #dw #shut up emma

[theninjazebra]

Stupid thoughts on fanaticism/extremism -

My bias up top is that the i was raised with someone with very poor mental health, so this colours how I see these topics, but ...

Out of dysfunction and insecurity sickness festers. I don't think that's a controversial opinion. Addiction is obvious, how it just smothers a miserable reality with oblivion.

Intense belief/fanaticism/extremism, in my experience, does the same. It just kills and replaces life with The Thing. Cause, religion, whatever. Not just in the sense that someone spends too much time in an online community then tries to kill a local politician, but how much of their own life they have killed to get to that point.

And, I guess, how much of their own life was already dead and damaged to begin with.

There was enormous emphasis on Purpose and Greatness and More To Life Than This in the church-y, weirdo communities I grew up in. Everything was important and had meaning and was a means to an end. There was no living.

No stillness, no appreciation for small things, very little value placed on people or relashionships unless they were for The Cause (or the leader, depending on the group). A lot of contempt for pleasure in every possible form, as frivolous and shallow. They can't talk about anything else for any length of time before It is brought up.

They became junkies for religious/fanatical exstasy and zeal in the same way end stage addiction is all just a means to an end.

This is why, i think, these kind of beliefs/obsessions can become death cults - life and living has become the enemy. There is no now, just The Glorious Cause/future/revolution/God/whatever. Death becomes just anther means to an end. Anyway, guess who was raised by someone who was passively suicidal most of her childhood 🙃.

I've mentioned religion in there a bunch, but this isn't a uniquely religious thing. Anything can be The Thing, The Cause, The Obsession. And no one is immune.

Same way no one is immune to a cult. Life is hard, at some point you will have the shit kicked out of you, and the vultures will circle. Even people who grew up in cults and left and tasted freedom and joy can fall into another cult just because people are people, and we need others (the horror), and what is a cult other than a group whose social and power dynamics have become dysfunctional.

Anyway. This is a lot of words to say it's years later and I'm still knocked flat by how good and valuable the frivolous, sweet, nothing moments of life can be.

#shut up emma #go start the day and stop being weird #also i might post that weird homeschool rant later because fuck good sense i want to Discourse

[obixwan]

once you start crocheting you literally cannot stop

#crochet #shut up emma

[plainemmanem]

😕= dang that sucks

🙁= i’m genuinely upset /srs

☹️= wahhhh that’s so sad/cute/precious

#i just wanna CHAT tonight ig #shut up emma

[mutualcombat]

SPIDERWEAVE GANG RISE UP

#my boyfriend of all fucking people gave me this idea #he literally burst in the room while i was sleeping just to tell me emma gregory said minthara likes gale #hes stupid #also gale with the bun is canon sorry #bg3 romance #bg3 fanart #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate fanart #baldur's gate 3 #baldur's gate iii #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #minthara #minthara baenre #dj minty j and the gay #bg3 gale #bg3 minthara #bg3 shitpost #baldurs gate minthara #baldurs gate gale #my art #holy shit how many times can i tag something i honest to god dont know the limit and ive been using tumblr since 2009 #spiderweave #gale x minthara #minthara x gale #this is probably the sweetest way minthara has ever told anyone to shut the fuck up #galethara

[bedcorpse]

“oh its all about paying artists until you have to foot the bill” actually it’s more about doing zero market research and jumping to an almost exclusively behind-a-paywall method of content creation. if they had announced that they were doing new series’ with a platform like nebula, that they would be doing kickstarters to fund shows a-la starkid, or that they would be adopting a world of wonder model where they release content 1-2 months early for paying subscribers (but it still eventually is posted for free), i don’t think the backlash would be this severe.

of course creatives deserve to be fairly compensated, and i empathize (as a creative working two jobs to make ends meet) with El Capitalismo ruining everything. but instead of figuring out what their audience wants and trying to prioritize that, they keep trying to ball on a buzzfeed budget despite the fact that leaving buzzfeed for creative freedom means giving up some of the luxuries (cough cough Steven Lim’s Fucking Gold Leaf).

tldr i sympathize deeply with watcher not wanting to lay off employees or sacrifice the “tv level quality” they’ve been trying to uphold. however. they never stopped to consider that most of their fanbase fell in love with their content when they made most of their videos in a basement at buzzfeed with a static camera, and don’t want to (or straight up can’t) foot the bill for expenses that they don’t even really care about.

#emma shut up #also it seems like their ceo should not be a ceo but thats a different topic #watcher

[tamlinsfiddle]

FYI: when someone tells me, "I wish I had your _____!" (e.g. hair, body type, skin color) it is not a compliment.

#i wish my pants fit like how they fit you #i wish I had your legs #i wish I was as tall as you #shut up emma #but seriously #my best friend said #and #that shit feels weird and it's not complimentary

[arrant-knav3]

there’s a strange art to keyboard smashing... idk how to describe it I just know that if it looks anything like a comprehensible word you’re probably doing it wrong

#shut up emma

[sconesfortea]

I'm so riddled with anxiety that I'm scared every time I post an opinion online, but I really enjoyed this season of OFMD.

Do I wish they had more time & space to flesh some things out? Yeah of course, I'd love a 15 episode season, or even just the same 10. But they worked with what they were given & I think it worked.

I hope they're given a 3rd season, with at least 10 episodes, and the budget to make it stellar, but S2 was fantastic I think.

#if you must be critical please be kind #our flag means death #ofmd s2 spoilers #ofmd #spoilers #shut up emma #queued

[bugwat3r]

If you kick all of the gay people out of the country, who is going to be your apprentice John Kramer?

#in the sense that- #saw #sorry this came to me in a vision #shut up emma

[softlyblues]

me and my girlfriend bought the highlanders book and are reading it out to each other and there's this one bit where ben and jamie have to swim to escape and jamie is just like "... i canna swim..."

LITTLEST BABYEST i love him

#jamie mccrimmon #second doctor #shut up emma

[swagbitch666]

me after spending time with my best friend (she knows my soul inside and out and brings light into my world)

#tipping 40% bc we sat at the restaurant for hours #loves mikayla on main #shut up emma

[theninjazebra]

personal bullshit

(this is chaotic ranting, ignore me)

I think the reason I take it soooo fucking personally when people take a purity first/anti-dark art/anti-art position is that art is literally the thing that got me to question and reject the absolute bananas homeschooled evangelical/conservative/conspiratorial way I was raised.

I'd love to say it was the fucked up beliefs, or the shitty way I was treated, or the shitty way my friends were treated (well, there was a big thing that gave me a nudge to go looking for other information, but that's another story), or the general weirdness, injustice, cruelty, bloodthirsty, mental illness, apocalyptic fantasies, etc etc.

But actually it was because the art sucked. Stuff that was obviously metaphor was taken literally, aesthetic sensibilities were HIDDEN TRUTH, and the emotional realities of the Approved art were shallow and boring. It was art that you didn't feel, just Agreed With. Bad all round.

Despite my mother's best efforts she had pretty great taste in music and art and media, and passed that down to her kids. So there was always this conflict between what I liked and wanted and what I was told was good. So clearly I was evil for wanting better music and art and stories.

There's that bible verse, that I can't remember now, about only thinking about Good and Holy things. It was stuck to the side of our Home Desktop for teenager me to flagrantly ignore. But underneath the Enforced Goodness a demented emotional reality ruled people's lives. Intense emotional fragility meant that the world around them needed to be micromanaged to keep them safe, and a sort of paranoid, destructive religion was the best weapon in this fight.

It's not hugely surprising that biblical literalists have trouble with metaphor, or the idea that fiction isn't real. It's a bleak cultural wasteland, where any vestiges of life get seared off to leave more space for... something.

It's a good system of belief for someone who doesn't want to live, just fantasize about dying and everyone who ever hurt or rejected them dying. All reality boiling away leaving sweet oblivion and Righteous Victory in it's wake.

Art is a threat to that. Mostly because it opens a window to the idea that Emotional Reality and Physical Reality aren't the same thing, and maybe an authority figure's personal feelings and tastes shouldn't be violently imposed on everyone around them.

It's so weird to look back as an adult and see how much of it was just "I don't like this, thus it must be EVIL and a THREAT to my moral wellbeing and MUST BE DESTROYED".

It's a funny way of looking at the world, where instead of becoming a stronger, more complex person to live in the world, you make the world around you a simple and safe nursery for yourself. And then make everyone else live in this world too.

Anyway this is how I got sent to a (in hindsight, a very unethical) therapist when i was 15 for drawing vore. Because obviously, demons.

anyway. shout out sad emo 15 yr old me.

#shut up emma #a sort of second part to an unhinged rant i haven't posted about purity culture