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Since the Beginning (Ben Solo FANFICTION - Part 2)

Okay so it happened guys, the first part is getting oh my god so much love so quickly and like yall know me, I got excited and wanted to write part 2! P.S, i listen to a lot of music while writing these, do you guys want me to post the songs/ vids im listening to as a I write? Let me know! eeeeeehh I’m excited! Okay enjoy! Let me know if any of you want to be tagged in the future instalments!

Link to Part 1

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Words: 2.6k+

Warnings: Mild Swearing, Feelings of abandonment

Note: Y/N = Your name, Y/N/N = Your NickName (or if you prefer, the nickname he gave you)

Tags: @bensoloslover

Songs: Running - Adam Lambert, Eyes On Fire - Blue Foundation, Somebody To Die For - Hurts, Paralyzed - NF

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He took his stand, “What do you mean Y/N was taken...” He asked in a breathy whisper looking down at his mother, he was near startling in this position, with that voice, he didn’t need the helmet to put fear into the hearts of those around him. He held the back of his head. It couldn’t possibly be his Y/N, he had never told anyone about her, no one. He took deep breaths. He had convinced himself so long ago that she was gone forever.

“Ben,” Leia held his cheek. “I know who she was to you... but there's no time for explanations right now, we’ll lose her forever if you don’t hurry.” She searched his eyes. “I wouldn’t put you in this position if it wasn’t absolutely necessary”.

Ben pulled away and sighed, turning around, his eyes darting around the tent. He turned back to face his mother in a swift move. “Tell me what I have to do”.

That is where it began. By the time nightfall reached Ben knew the plan, who would accompany him, the route they would take. He was going to see her, going to be able to touch her... and give her absolute hell after he finds out where she's been this entire time. She was his best friend, and deep down, he knew that he loved her, he would never admit it though. He never thought he would get the chance.

Sticks cracked under his new boots as he walked, to his new spacecraft. Leia was there, waiting to send him off. Ben’s eyes were killing him, strategizing under the light of a single lamp while looking between old maps and digitized constellations, he would have been done for. But the rush of getting to see Y/N again, finally being able to save her from the danger she was in for once. Nothing would stand in his way.

He walked up to the princess, the general. “Thank you,” She said softly. “I know this couldn’t be easy...” She looked up at the man that was once her beloved son.

“For Y/N, there's nothing I wouldn’t do...” He had a menacing whisper. “Don’t think I’m doing this for you or your... your cause” he nearly spat. He honestly and truly loved his mother, he wanted to be like her when he was much younger. Strong, smart, capable, commanding. He hated what she left him for. Mothers were supposed to let the world burn for their children... at least that's what he's heard over the years. He never felt that he was any sort of priority to his mother. If anything, he was a distraction and a target she had to worry about.

“Five minutes until take off! Let's go!” Someone in the crowd of mechanics, pilots, and more yelled.

“Goodbye... Leia.”

Without missing a beat he boarded his craft. Getting settled he looked over the controls and then to the co-pilot seat next to him. She would be there soon enough. He was going to make sure of that.

The crafts took off, heading back into space. He was focused, he realized, he hadn’t felt this way since before the accident with the rest of the Jedis.

It wasn’t long after the stars began rushing past him that Ben and the rest of the resistance reached the planet that Y/N was on. It was one of the base camps for the dark side. A near fallback plan. If ever all of their ships were blown up, or anything of great circumstances were to happen, they would all meet here. No one knew about it... At least, that's what he was sure of until now. Apparently the light side was more equipped than he had previously thought.

The ships made their landing a few miles away from the base camp, it was a cloudy night above them. Ben hated this planet, he had been here before only once but it was more than enough for him. The terrain was just about terrible for everything, the weather changed drastically in short periods of time, and the soldiers that were here... there was a reason they were the ones guarding the home base. It was so isolated here, the entire planet and only the First Order to do with it what they pleased.

Ben met with the rest of the fighters. He tried to ignore the way they looked at him, the looks that screamed traitor, the looks that screamed that they would stab him in the back the way he did to his own family. What did they know, they weren’t there. He shook off the feeling. He couldn’t get distracted. He got the cell number Y/N was being held in. He felt a pit in his stomach and then butterflies erupted, he didn’t know how, but he could feel Y/N’s presence... She was here.

“Let's go...” Ben whispered. He began making his way through the camp, staying to the shadows, a few fighters taking the more obvious route to be the distraction. A jet above, ready to pick them all up at the signal.

His heart was beating out of his chest, he had to time his breathing and concentrate on not making any noise.

Easily enough, Ben made his way into the building surrounded by small camps.

Just with Ben’s stroke of luck, a crew of stormtroopers rounded the hall he had come down.

He sighed, he was done trying to be careful. He began his fight. The troops coming at him, they were, of course, no match for him with his lightsaber. He had technique unlike any of his fellow classmates at his uncle’s teachings. He rammed the uniforms, stabbed them, pulled them into each other using the Force, he didn't hold back in the slightest.

He finished them all off by himself. Taking a breath, he composed himself and followed the hallways to the cells, either taking down further troops like a storm or using the Force on any stragglers.

Finally, he made it. The numbers read the same as the ones he was told. He took a breath. This was it...

He punched the code into the door and it swept open quickly. Ben could feel his stomach-dropping, the anticipation. He stepped in, completely drenched in sweat, wearing just sweater and the bare parts of his usual Kylo Ren look...

Turning his head he saw someone curled up in the corner, mumbling. He walked over, one of his steps making a creaking noise and he was pulled back. He was surprised for only a moment, he could tell it was through the use of the Force. He was pushed up against the wall. “I swear, if one of you tries anything else, I will shishkabob you with my lightsa-” Her breath was taken away just as his was “... Ben!” She had finally turned and Ben didn’t even care that he couldn’t touch the ground at the moment.

Y/N ran to him, looking him up and down. “It’s... it's you.” She whispered and let him down gently and nearly jumped into his arms. “I never thought...” She whispered. Ben held her close, breathing in her scent, playing with the ends of her hair. His eyes became glassy.

“I know... Me too” It was all he had to say. This was real- wait. He pulled away and pushed her up against the wall, not too hard, but enough to get her attention.

“Your lightsaber?” He searched her eyes. “You were using the Force... You... YOU WORK WITH MY MOTHER??” He pulled away and shook his head. “You... you never told me. You...” He took a deep breath.

“Ben... I can explain-”

“Stop.” He pushed her back with the Force slightly. “We just need to get out of here. Follow me” He walked out of the cell as Y/N followed. What the hell was happening. He could never imagine this when theorizing what her life was, being so close to his own. As they exited the cell Ben held out his arm behind him, pushing her back slightly incase of danger.

As Ben turned on his lightsaber he heard the same noise behind him. Y/N had picked up her own lightsaber from the nearby storage of prisoner’s items. “How many times have I told you, I don’t need you to protect me. I’ve got this.” She searched his eyes and then looked away. It had been a long time. She walked past him and lead the way.

They both jogged down the halls, each taking one side for a lookout.

“Okay, this way come on.” Y/N whispered and began heading in that direction.

“Y/N!” Ben loudly whispered. “No! The exit is this way!” He gestured with his lightsaber in the other direction, near growling, he was getting beyond frustrated at the situation.

“Ben... I was here on a mission. I’m not leaving without completing it.” She searched his eyes.

He groaned internally. “I hate you” he mumbled and began heading in her direction. “But I’ve got your back”.

That made Y/N smile, she went on the tips of her toes and planted a kiss on his cheek. “Its good to have you back” she whispered in his ear.

Neither Ben Solo or Kylo Ren had ever gotten embarrassed, but at this very moment, the man was turning just about the same colour as his lightsaber. He shook his head and jogged to catch up to her.

Soon enough, the two had made their way to the main control room for the entire camp and building. The guard inside rose from his seat but with a wave of her fingers and a whisper, he was sound asleep. Ben trusted Y/N with his life, but it was scary to see how powerful she was and how he had no idea... he needed to remember not to ever piss her off.

“Where is it...” Y/N mumbled to herself.

“Wheres wha-” Ben began but was then cut off.

“Aha!” Y/N nearly did a fist pump in the air. She began typing into the computer.

Ben walked closer to the monitor. “Wait.. what are you... Y/N stop!” He pulled her back with the Force and quickly let go of her. He always felt so out of control when dealing with her... now that she was close, he used the Force on her so easily on her. He had to control himself. “You’re going to destroy it all” Ben’s voice was soft.

“Of course I am...” She was taken aback and scoffed. “You’re telling me you don’t want the First Order to fall?” She looked beyond confused.

It dawned on him. She had no idea what Ben had done... “Y/N... It’s complicated..” He began to whisper.

“There's nothing complicated about it Ben!” She grabbed onto his sweater, pleading him to see her way. “They’re murderers! They kill innocents, they don’t care about anyone or any sort of life... They’re monsters!” She walked past him and began to go back to typing on the computer.

Ben’s lightsaber turned on and Y/N froze. She bit her lip and looked over her shoulder at him. Sighing she let her head fall. She punched the desk with her fist. “Are you kidding me...?” She whispered, he had never heard her speak with such ferocity and yet, so gently. She turned to him. “You turned...?” She shook her head at him. “You have Han Solo and Leia Organa as your parents and you turn to the dark side? What, are you going through, your rebellious phase?” She shifted her weight, crossing her arms.

He absolutely despised when she did this. Whenever she disapproved of something he did, she would talk to him like he was a child. He shook his head, clearing his throat and pulling his hair back with one swift motion of his free hand. “You know... a lot of things have changed Y/N/N” He swung his lightsaber in a show-off motion, signalling to the colour of it.

Y/N’s lightsaber turned on as well, a bright blue illuminating her skin.

“Let's go, Solo.”

It was nothing but the sound of lightsabers slashing at one another, lights sparking. The two dancing against the other, following and presenting the next step.

Ben knocks Y/N to the ground, making sure not to hurt her too severely, he takes the opportunity to slash the computer. “Oops, can we leave now?” He raises an eyebrow to his best friend on the ground with a smirk.

With a scream she lunges at him, pure rage and fire, leaving behind nearly all her technique. “Y/N I don’t want to fight you!” He yelled over the sound of the weapons.

“Then you shouldn’t have become the villain!” She yelled, slashing and defending against his every move. She was strong, a lot stronger than the young Solo had anticipated.

They were out of the control room, fighting in the midst of the corridor, stormtroopers seeing them and taking fire. “Shit!” Y/N yelled, she ducked for cover.

Having tried to make sure that Y/N was out of the way, Ben forgot himself, letting himself get shot in the abdomen, he fell to the ground but moved himself to cover. “Ben!” Y/N yelled, she deflected the fire with her lightsaber as she ran over to him, ducking behind cover. “Are you okay?” He could tell she was worried by the look in her eyes, he missed those eyes. “Solo, you’re not allowed to die unless it's by my hands!” She groaned. “You’re trying to look after me, look at the crap you get yourself into” she scoffed and shook her head. “How are we getting out of here?” She searched his eyes while putting pressure on the wound. “I’ll radio for back up...” He winced, beginning to take the radio out of his pocket.

Y/N took it straight from his hands. “Its Y/N! Is anyone out there?” As soon as she stopped speaking there were several calls through the radio. All worried and cheering to hear her voice. These people knew her, they cared about her... she was known well in the resistance. Why did Leia need her back so badly? She was a Jedi but... was that really the whole reason why? Ben had thought that the resistance would have stopped with the search for the Jedis, after what he did...

“We’ve got your location! We’re coming, stay put!” the resistance called out.

Ben couldn’t believe it... he really couldn’t. Exhaustion was getting the best of him. Maybe it wasn’t the best to go Rambo on the way in using both excessive force and a lot of Force abilities. It was good to know that Y/N could tire him out... for training purposes of course.

The edges of his vision were going dark. “So... much for a rescue...” he couldn’t help chuckling softly, starting to close his eyes.

Y/N tapped his cheek gently. “Ben Solo, you stay with me damn it. I know you’re not dying so you sure as hell are not going to pass out on me you wuss”.

Ben let out a soft laugh raising his eyes to Y/N, “I missed you”, he touched her cheek.

An explosion is what took their moment. Across the hall shouts came out of the smoke “Y/N! Where are you?”

They were here. As much as Ben hated the resistance, in this moment alone he was grateful, beyond, though he would never admit it.

They came running over, pulling Y/N up, rejoicing. They were acting as if she was the next Leia. He sighed, trying to pull himself up.

“Okay okay guys, we gotta get Ben up, he needs help.” Y/N stopped the celebration and the fighters didn’t make a move.

“He's a traitor! He's a backstabber!” One of the fighters stated the rest agreed.

Y/N crossed her arms, “As I said, he needs help...” She turned to look down at Ben, bending down to be inches away from his face, “And a lot of it” she smirked and patted his cheek gently.

Ben rolled his eyes but wouldn’t talk back as long as it meant he would get help, for now, he knew he couldn’t keep Y/N safe at the moment on his own, he needed these people.

They all sighed but helped the son of their general up, and back to the ship.

Ben’s eyes never left Y/N. He had her back, and he wasn’t going to let her go anytime soon.

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