#so many things have changed wtf

[thespineoftherighteous]

i think Kevin's thing is that whenever Neil is Neilling he just despairingly asks "why must you be like this?" so much so that it becomes an inside joke among the Foxes. (somehow Kevin is the only one not in on it because he doesn't even realize he says it so often.)

#if it's mild Neilling then he just says it with a sigh #if it's hardcore Neilling then he'll repeatedly moan it out while hugging his knees and rocking back and forth in the corner of the bathroo #aftg #neil josten #kevin day #y'all I have so many aftg urls saved I just noticed. wtf #and the thing is #i don't really like my url (too long. I like short pretty ones) but I don't think I'd ever actually change it #mostly because Tumblr makes that very annoying sometimes #and once when I changed my main it made it like my old url was a deactivated account? so I couldn't access any of my old posts #and if that happened to this account id be pissed #mine aftg

[ganondoodle]

sorry i keep coming back to totk rants, but something that utterly baffles me from a game design perspective especially is

who, in their right mind, would think to put similar objectives with the same characters in the EXACT same place as its previous game when already reusing the same exact map (no, single rocks springkled around isnt a meaningful change, fight me)

like from a purely logical point of view its just ... not logical?? and TWICE so when most players will have played the previous game, so now that the exploration, which was the main driving point of it, isnt as satisfying simply bc you know most locations and what is what, the thing you need to do is subvert it as in you go to that location and theres something else now or something that leads to a new reveal, but not NOTHING either, bc you likely cared about what youd find- the satori mountain was such a cool mysterious place, so now you head to it to see what is now and its nothing but maybe an obvious treasure chest? thats both lazy (i realy use that since its way overused by people missusing it) and just ... it might be meant as a lil nod so that there isnt nothing at all but to me it feels even more condescending as if there were literally nothing instead

satori isnt here anymore? thats weird if its always been there, so you go find a cause, maybe theres a fissure somewhere you can enter a large cave system, an hidden entrance to the underground that reveals there is something corrupting the place somwhere nearby but not exactly in the same spot- make it into a bossfight at which end satori gets cleansed- maybe it got captured and taken somewhere else, to a place that was kinda neat but didint serve a big fucntion in botw like maybe it was dragged somwhere into the big tabantha canyon, or to the forgotten temple

you try to visit rito village but the snow and cold there got so bad that you cant even reach it without special gear, and when you do reach it its utterly frozen in thick ice and not a single soul is there, the perch of vah medoh is knocked over building a bridge as a subtle hint as to in what direction perhaps, its intriguing bc clearly they have to be SOMEWHERE, maybe they tried to use vah medoh to evacuate but bc its losing power and doesnt have a skilled pilot they crash land it into the mountains, now trapped there and due to the storm not able to send anyone out to get help, maybe some did but they didnt make it and you can find them on your way and rescue them, and bc of the storm being so bad no one can get out and no one can get in (except for our special boi linky ofc) and even after the storm has weakened they dont immediately go back and act like everythings normal, maybe theres an extra mission afterwards helping them rebuild the village but not exactly the same as it was but fortified, different to account for things like this happening again, establishing the crashsite of vah medoh as a second outpost, or a temple, to thank it for bringing them out of immedaite danger but couldnt go all the way

theres so many places that are so clearly modeled around botw that are entirely unused now bc they had to remove all things shiekah for no reason, the holes they left jsut being holes where somethings clearly missing or some chest with a gem in it while the new shrine thing is within view distance a few meters away, might as well have put them in the exact same place bc it really doesnt make a difference

(like alot of those ideas im using for the rewrite which changes many things but you get the point right??)

and its even worse imo with the building stuff, bc now you dont even have to journey there you can fly glide and literally drive there instantly like a giant skip button so you cant even appreaciate the way to it, you skip to one important part to the next

and then points of interest are REPEATED AGAIN, like with shrines and lightroots and settlements and big mines- that is the opposite of satisfying gameplay, you dont have to explore shit bc its all in the same place which is probably why they only did tiny changes to those few spots and nothing else bc they knew most people would run right to those so it gives the illusion of changes (which are half reversable or barely a change at all) and even those are STILL meaningless

its right up there with having even MORE grind with less substance to it than in botw, the shrines and krogs got a lil old but at least the environment, its subtle storytelling etc were something- and totk just bloated everything with more little meaningless collectables while not changing anything meaningfully (and instead pretends that some things where never there and those new boring things were always there)

more shriens with shorter puzzles or none at all, more krogs with the same reward system, over a hundred tiny caves that all blend together bc they are all so similar and you really only do them for yet another colelctable for old gear and ONE cool new one with a bad effect after which the things collected become uselessreally, souls to collect to buy you a single armor set, rewards being largley reused old stuff from botw (imo you should have a chest in your house, yes YOUR house, that got most of the standard versions of botws armor in it so you dont have to buy it all again??? but you gotta think of going home first and dont have to use it- make new versions of them alternatively so you can choose if you want the old one or new one and also LEAVE ONE AT YOUR HOUSE WITHOUT HAVING TO SELL IT SO YOUT INVENTORY ISNT AS ENDLESSLY SCROLLING AS YOUR STUPID ARROW BAR)

theres new effects from food and armor thats largely useless (like the attack when hot?? why wouldnt you you jsut combine an armor and a potion- put on hot armor and drink an attack potion? its way more efficient no?? idk i found it to be yet another effect thing to bloat my inventory especially when NPCs keep giving you shitty effect food)

the whole sonanium (zonaite?) collecting with multiple ways to convert it into yet another currency??? huh???? AND have it be the thing for you to autobuild with?? when you need it upgrade your battery which takes an insane amount of those stones?? wells, while finally an actual well are NOW ALSO LIKE A COLLECTABLE and im gonna take a wild guess that the reward is utterly disappointing too

the fairies are all blocked by much more annoying means than in botw (like i wouldnt want to carry those NPCs three meters away in their little cart antoehr time please) and the amount of material AND MONEY NOW you need is so much higher for no reason (if its their attempt to make the game harder its the lamest way to do it)-

all while instead of expanding on the foundation of botw they ripped it out to build a new one while pretending they are both there (im so so slaty about this .... a sequel like this should expand upon the stuff of the first game, both in theme, narrative, mechanics and more and not ... replace it with slightly different versions of it while abandoning everything established before and really only using it as a way to skip having to make you care about some characters bc you might still care about them from the other game)

i could go on, as always lol, anyway, i really really dont get why this got into the final game ..

#ganondoodles talks #zelda #ganondoodles rants #totk critical #*cracks knuckles* time to rewrite and design #no but literally #putting the same objectives into the same places with the same characters ........ and then repeating important places AGAIN in the- #-undergound is just so ........... thats the opposite of what you should do wtf #like im only an aspiring gamedev but ............... right???? #like theres so many things #make the zora not be able totalk bc they are all poisoned by the goo so you have to understand them via weak fignerpointing #also have the champs be around the actual dungeon already so you can literally find the dugneon yourself AND do it right away #without having to go to the town- ask where is- get told where is- get little fight- get little puzzle- get dungeon that is often worse- #-defeat way to easy boss thats also found in depths- gets SAME CUTSCENE EVERY TIME- all problems go away- town normal again #there is quite literally no permanent change to anyone

[yasmeensh]

I finished reading 4 books from Earth's Children series. The last three were really hard to read. After finishing Plains of Passage, I have come to really appreciate Clan of the Cave Bear as a standalone. I miss all the Neanderthals and Ayla's character arc. Gotta do some fanart!

PS. I MISS IZA! Best character in the series.

#clan of the cave bear #earth's children #after the first book it just goes downhill #REALLY DOWNHILL #Ayla becomes the biggest mary sue EVER #in the first book it was believable because it's established in the story the Neanderthals have different skills that Ayla must adapt to #and she wasn't doing anything over the top #She was just adapting #but later she starts doing insane things #like wtf?? NO human ever figured out they could strike iron pyrite to get sparks? #NO ONE ever figured out they could make a needle? #She invented the arrow too (or whatever that thin short spear things they did? not the spear thrower #I will not be surprised if she ends up inventing the wheel in the next two books #also domesticating animals #also there were so many traumatizing scenes #three different rape scenes in book 4 !!??? #I was going to throw up #It just.. got very uncomfortable to read #it changed me #so I now I'm thinking about the first book #yes it has all these same elements from the later books but they were sparse and were actually part of the plot #part of the character development. in other books they were just things that happened. Like. the characters are not impacted by it at all. #you could read the end of the book and nothing about the characters change after witnessing these traumatic experiences #they are the same from beginning to end #uh um sorry for the rant O_O #anyways I miss izaaaa #bye

[da-proti-toku-grem]

why can't anyone understand that everyone is different and not everyone likes the same things and that it's completely okay AND normal for someone not to like going out and preferring to stay at home :/

#honestly i understand that my parents care about me and they don't want me to be feeling bad #and that they ask me bc they just want to make sure i'm okay #but i've explained to them what i feel like and they just don't get and i get mad but i akso know it's not their fault and just... oughhhhh #like yeah i have a weird kind of social anxiety according to my therapist and even she doesn't know exactly how to help me yet #but there are just so many reasons behind why i don't like going out and it's not just bc it gives me anxiety #or why those situations give me anxiety in the forst place #1. i'm just a very introverted person that doesn't like going out #2. crowded places/closed spaces/places where there's not enough ventilation/loud places (be it people talking or just music) overwhelme me #3. all said in 2 + flashing lights give me huge migraines that can linger for over 3 days #4. i am very much a night owl and i'm forced to live in a society where that isn't fucking acceptable apparently and i'm called lazy for - #- not being productive in the morning when the only reason behind it is that i am a lot more productive at night #but no one ket's me do that bc 'why are you doing stuff when you're supposed to be asleep?' #i have been the same since i was little. literally nothing has changed #and people where always like 'oh she's just shy' #but idk wtf changed #maybe it was that i became and 'adult' or maybe the fact that i started therapy and they told my parents that i have social anxiety. idk #but suddenly every single person in my family is worried about it and they're genuinely making me feel like there's smth wrong about me #i mean. i have my problems i'm not gonna go telling you that i'm perfect bc i'm pretty much not #but is there really smth that wrong with me that i need to fix #or is society just a bitch that doesn't understand that there's different kinds of people and everyone is different & IT'S COMPLETELY OKAY #have they ever thought about the fact that maybe these situations cause me anxiety bc i've been forced all my life to do them #even if i don't like them #instead of thinking that i don't like them BC they cause me anxiety?? #i mean. i know i have to go out more and that there's tons of things i can do ofc #but you can't just force me to do things i don't want to and put on a good face while doing it *every.fucking.day* #aaaaand i could add a lot more things but i'm once again reaching the tag limit so i shoukd just shut up #it's just driving me crazy bc i know they're trying to help but it really is not helping at all............. #ranting

[lokh]

also my banking website wouldn't let me access my account cos my phone browser wasn't set to english 💀 like. isnt this. racist

#????? man wtf.... and then when i changed it it STILL wouldnt let me access it??? #maybe cos phone language hadnt been changed #it was like 'either change ur browser language or use our app' #one i dont want ur fucking app. ok #two. im genuine abt the racism thing lmao we have so many immigrants and people #whose first language isnt english..... u can have ur fucking website set to english whatever #whats the reason for this man...

[krussyarts]

My progress on the fillei doodle page <3

#This is all because of the person who reblogged my last fillei post and tagged it 'THEM 💖💞' #I redid so many parts of this So. Many. Times. Fuck. #Istg the sped up process of this looks ridiculous. I changed my mind so many times 😭 #It doesn't even look like them anymore I- #I also do not draw like this anymore. This feels so backwards #Anyway. I'm so off topic #fillei #fischl x collei #fischl genshin impact #genshin impact #collei genshin impact #collei #fischl #I started this in October 2022 #I have 15hrs on this thing wtf #Ignore the big white space. I dislike the drawing that's currently there. So I'm reworking it. #However! I don't know what i want to draw there yet. Preferably something that can also be use as lighting study. #Since that's apparently a theme i wasn't aware of #I won't post it if i look at it for too long

[lalala-mirage]

yeah?

#face the thing but look away #awkwardly looking away to the side #or looking outside window; with a frown #i feel the tired; powerlessness; the feeling of having given up; futility #i obsess over “unchanging” because i hate it so much because i fear it so much #bane of my existence bane of who i am bane of what i am capable of #i cant change the unchanging i cant convince the unconvinceable and i #i really want to “give up”; but nonetheless i still refuse it #i guess it is also a face of silent refusal #refusal that they are unchanging; refusal that what im doing isn't working #refusal of the current situation #well - what can i even do #idk i just wanted to push the limits of tumblr tags how long can i make this #how many tags can i put in here like wtf

[rhysnolastname]

Solas says I know a place and takes you to the middle of a swamp where he insults your culture, religious beliefs, and then dumps you.

#yeah im still thinking about this and its the next day #he might be telling the truth about the Vallaslin but my inquisitor did not let him remove it #I’ve played her as very proud to be dalish and believes in elven gods so it would be out of character even if solas says something else #maybe that’s what it represented then but it is not what it is now and she chooses to move forward #about the breakup … this is not the first time a man takes me on a date and dumps me 😭😭 but hey um wtf #honestly my lavellan does love him and is hurt but she has to be so many things to so many different people #there’s bigger things at stake and bigger problem to deal with at this time than whatever he's hiding or lying about #im pretty sure he was going to say something else not about the vallaslin #but his fear is dying alone becasue i saw it in the fade and yet !!!! he pushes everyone away he picks fights with everyone no matter whos #in the party he didnt come to the wicked grace game he never opens up beyond what he has seen in the fade. he is a fixed point #i wanna shake him by the shoulders and YELL WHATA RE YOU DOING you could have it all someone who loves you and a wonderf #a wonderful found family. he is kind and gentle but he is also so full of ANGER and he is so set on things being as he sees them. #Cole cant change because to Solas cole is always a spirit. the dalish are misguided and YOU Lavellan are just different YOURE special #the meaning of the vallaslin cant change because to him it represents slavery and it is in stone to him. things dont change with time they #are fixed. like things in the fade it what it was preserved. he is trying to hold on to a past that doesnt exist that has moved forward. #Solas says you cant change yourself by wishing. but i would say wishing for change is THE required prerequisite for change. a little though #a little idea a little wish that something was different better. but to #why cant you move forward Solas what the fuck are you holding onto so intesely #OKAY WHATEVER IM DONE WITH THIS ESSAY IM OVER IT ITS FINE ITS SO FINE

[transxfiles]

if elon musk ever tried to put a chip in my brain i'd end up killing either him or myself. one of us has to die for that.

#i don't need a computer chip in my head girl wtf!! and ESPECIALLY not from the guy who is terminally bad at managing major projects!!!! #like.. the public failure of the modern entrepreneurial spirit!! hello!!! #sorry i just saw another article about elon musk's bullshit computer chip plans and im... AAA #like here's the thing!! cybernetics are really fucking cool and are literally lifechanging for so many people #i have a friend who has a new insulin pump thats basically ''smart tech'' and it has completely changed her life and made her type 1 #so much more manageable and i wish everyone who wanted that sort of tech could get it without having any worries #but its the fact that this tech is in the hands of corporations who are so so focused on abusing their power for profit that worries me #and ESPECIALLY when we circle back to the elon musk bs i start to gnaw the bars of my cage bc like #talk about THE WORST PERSON IN THE FUCKING WORLD. TO TRUST WITH PATENTS FOR LIFE CHANGING TECHNOLOGY.. #not to mention programmer bias on top of the capitalist hellscape we live in and like. the inherent biases of so much ''smart tech.'' #im on the ground. #cricket.chatterbox

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#ay ay ay. i dont wanna do my job so bad. it makes me so unhappy also i fucked up a thing by letting someone take part of a culture when i #shouldnt have. it happened so many months ago that i fucking forgot abt it and then the person emailed me abt when we received the stain and #i thought it was someone from another project so i cc'd my boss who was like. wait. what the fuck is this? and now its like oops sorry but #like wtf am i supposed to do abt it now? she askrd me to take some when i was rushing out of someone else's lab and i was like what? sure. #whatever i dont give a fuck i feel like im dying every second i stand in this room. i didnt even think to ask to share it which is what i #should have done. oops. cant do anything abt it now other than feel abt abt causing drama between labs. ugh. #i just wanna cut all ties with my old work. theres no joy there. only pain and anger. which makes it hard to work with it but the sooner i #do. the sooner i dont have to fucking deal with it anymore. ugh. also i really need to find a therapist but my insurance changes in like 18 #days so i might as well wait for the semester to start. ugh. like i can feel the pull of my bad habits trying to drag me down and i dont kno #how to stop them. like its weird. i noticed while my parents were here. they can just do things and enjoy stuff. and everytime i do #something i feel like im holding my breath the entrie time waiting for it to be over and for what? its not like i had other stuff to do #i just needed to kno when things were gonna end and i dont deal well with flexible situations. which makes it hard to do things. so its #like do i succumb to my control freak lil bubble of not doing anything and being miserable or do things outside my comfort zone and be #miserable? one of those things is way easier. plus i dont even kno anyone here so its like wtf do i do? #try to make friends with my sometimes roommate maybe. i just need to corner her and be like hey i need to establish a dialog with u so i can #tell u that if i seem like a weird hermit im not trying to b standoffish i just dont kno how to do human interaction well. can we b friends? #id like to b friends but if i dont talk now then ill get stuck not talking ever. which is whats happened with past roommates... god my 1st #roommate must have thought i was so fucking weird. ugh. point is. these bad habits must stop. and i really need to get work done so i can #never think abt that shit ever again. at least now that ive moved i can run up the side of a mountain when im frustrated #unrelated

[thekimspoblog]

"Prince of Egypt" is one of those movies the internet has decided that you're not allowed to hate.

Too bad I do!

#i gave this movie so many chances #and every time around the 10th plague I throw my popcorn at the screen and give up #Act 1 makes a big hairy deal about how awful the murder of children was #then our “good guys” do the same thing in Act 3 and nobody says jack or shit #we just breeze on past it #just one scene where Moses was like “WTF GOD?! This wasn't part of the deal!” would have saved it but they didn't do that #don't give me that “they wanted to be respectful to the source material” crap #A. If you were raised nonreligious like I was you would agree that Exodus us just a badly written story (with no historical basis btw) #and B. I'm pretty sure in the source material RAMSES DROWNED! #Why would you change that??? #I like Stephen Schwartz but the music in this is just a snore too #the animation is beautiful but the tone is all over the place and the jokes are cringe #i just don't fucking like this movie #I just really don't fucking like this movie #if there ever was a “so good it's bad” movie this would be my pic #in that the quality of the animation distracts people from how fundamentally broken the plot and morality is #no really name one other movie where the hero does the same evil thing he denounced the villain for doing #and the movie doesn't even take a breather to point out the hero's hypocrisy #also I don't know I just don't think “god will kill you for what your parents did” is a good thing to put in a movie FOR CHILDREN #your religion has melted your brains and this movie sucks

[pinkprimrose05]

That one moment when you realize your two comfort characters from two entirely unrelated franchises with entirely different character arcs and roles might as well be the same person put into a different universe twice:

#yugioh arc v #genshin impact #yuya sakaki #diluc ragnvindr #i dont know how this happened chief #like i was just thinking abt nothing and then BOOM #sudden realization #seriously tho wtf #why are they so similar in so many things #they both have a predominantly red motif #and associations with fire #and daddy issues #and repressed emotions #and evil and most definitely dangerous powers that manifest as a purplish black haze #and most importantly... #they both experienced betrayal at the hand of a very close blue-themed friend who was sent as a spy on their homeland #which permanently changes their lives in some way or another #oh and they also share a seiyuu #yeah someone at hoyo was binging arc v while designing diluc #there is literally no other explanation that will convince me at this point

[thursdayg1rl]

killing myself in front of the houses of parliament to change their life tragectories forever. and then maybe they will consider trying to make life easier for people in abusive situations

#why is everything so hard to DO #just registered to vote idk if i did it right #bc i searched up my name in her emails bc my school said we need to stay on top of all of it this year #and saw one asking me to register to vote and it said reply by the 19th but obviously she didnt tell me so i might just not get to vote idk #and didnt want to sign up for a postal vote bc of course they have to post the application to you and then she would be like why are you #trying to vote who do you think you are youre not allowed to be a person outside of what i allow etc etc #so ig when the time comes itll have to be in person #and you need id for that #and of course i dont have a driving licence bc im not allowed to learn how to drive so WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO #at least i can access my passport but there could be people whose parents/spouses hide their documents.. #like dp you see what i mean . everythning is a trap #also im getting so much anxiety about not knowing how to drive #bc she'll never let me learn under her roof so wtf am i supposed to do like genuinely #ill just have to go about life not knowing this basic skill #at least my brother knows how to from pakistan so he can just do the tests #i dont even KNOW #theres just so many things like that which make my skin crawl #like the fact that my bank account is linked to her phone and this address so thats a level of control she has over me like for years #and this is my address for everything official basically #and i have no idea how id even start changing it when i do leave #think the only option left is to kms maybe then ill be free

[the-acid-pear]

Okay i must say Undisputed 3 didn't age as well as its predecessor, which is honestly funny considering that it's not that old (2010), that said, i still fucking loved it, even if they used the fish eye effect on one of the most serious scenes of the movie, completely ruining it.

#luly talks #Yuri's whole relationship with Turbo was just delightful and Dolor was so fucking gender #AND GAGA oh my beloved Gaga i would write an essay on this msn #i KNEW he wasn't gonna give up on Boyka that's his boy!!! from the moment he offered him a new position and got upset when he wanted to die #you could tell he genuinely cared for Boyka #and of course he loves money a lot too but he's a fucking honorable man!!!!!!!! #and i also want his sideburns so bad no joke #like i feel even the small detail of his cholesterol being high and him eating carrots is to show how much he had changed w/o boyka #N THAT ENDIBG OUGHHHHH SCREAMING AND CRYING AND RIPPING OFF MY HAIR!!!!! #gotta point out the ooobvious religious imagery when boyka tied the bloody mop on his knee and it bled too #that was such a beautiful scene #i am disappointed that Dolor's drug addiction was never brought up or anything!! that was disappointing :( #they did wrong what in the last they did right which was having too many characters #there was a lot of lost potential in all these fighters </3 #anyway this movie is just beautiful and yuri boyka is a great character #AND ALSO one last thing i looove that gayness is never joked as a BAD thing in these movies #like first one w Nikolai George just jokes about him not liking the beard but isn't like EUGH IM NOT A FAG I AINT GETTING ON TOP OF YOU WTF #and in this one when turbo got accused of clapping boyka's cheeks he didn't react like the last example either #and if anything the assholes were the others for using that as a valid excuse to beat him up #ITS JUST NICE OKAY 🥺

[tbh-entp]

so I need to learn german like yesterday

#i'm the only non native speaker at this branch #which some emails and things will be in english #but wild that they hired me despite not having a high level in german #kinda makes me feel smurt #also i have a work iphone! #like i'm fresh out of school guys #i'm a project leader i mean #i will be managing the projects #big wtf #but yeah i need to pick up a lot of german loool #and to think they hired me because i've got the international vibe which #ok #also infj keeps on messaging me #this isn't related but a lot has happened versus him telling me that he can't stop thinking abt me while having a gf #which context #we're kind of really really close friends at this point #theres nothing that we can say to fuck it up there and at this point we've both confessed feelings to the other and turned the other down #so many times now buuut he has a girlfriend who he has been talking about breaking up with and i backed out of that drama respectively #until he pulled me back in with informing me he still had feelings and that he was going to be able to leave her with changing jobs/places #which is now #but i'm trying to ignore because i saw him with his gf and it doesnt seem to be great but it made me physically sick so space is needed #and two weeks of space he just messages me to check in and today he messaged me abt my first day of work and i don't like hoping so much #that he's broken up with his girlfriend its possible he has but if he hasnt ya girl will be heartbroken again i'm head over heels for him #a total goner #don't want to think abt it until i know that he's broken up w his girlfriend but legit i think about him at least a little daily #and then a lot if he's messaged me or if i remember something that reminds me of him which is almost everything #i'm glad hes messaging me though i can't bring myself to message him knowing he has a girlfriend but i miss him so much #dramatic situation for no reason lmao

[charonte-simi]

I find it interesting (infuriating) that even after I've "healed" from my trauma it still finds a way to rear its ugly head at the most unexpected time.

#here I was feeling like I'd tackled every hurdle #healed all the wounds #and then I decide to confront a belief that I've held for years that suddenly wasn't sitting right with me #low and behold there's fuckin trauma under there wtf #this is a good thing dgmw #it's only infuriating because healing is so tiring #I'm genuinely glad to learn that I have space for more healing and growth #but damn if I don't mourn all the experiences I'm realizing were tainted by this previously held mindset #I could've had so many more fulfilling and pleasurable exchanges #I'm so frustrated that it's apparently STILL preventing me from living life to it's fullest #working to change that #simi speaks #sad boy stuff #also proud of myself for unearthing this on my own. I usually need my therapist to help me with this #but since I've moved and can no longer see her I'm on my own. I'm glad the skills she taught me are still active