#so much uncertainty....... idk when it'll ever end lol

[mysticwiki]

i wonder when things will actually start looking up for me. i wonder when it'll be my turn

#mari speaks #i did not have a very good week and today really topped it off for being the worst day #i just want things to be okay rn #so much uncertainty....... idk when it'll ever end lol #i wont go into full deets btw so i apologize for the vagueness #but between uh. bad mental health and my sprained ankle and also family stuff #i'm just going through a lot and it'd be nice if things could stop for a while!

[carmenlire]

AAAA i love love love the first chapter to your parents jangchu series its SO sweet!! their vulnerable and honest talk about having kids was everything. and sangwoo saying he wished he had someone listen to him when he was younger broke my heart a lil 😭 but i love how jaeyoung listens to him always 💕 and the DRAWING at the end im gonna cry!! i have so much more to say about this fic but ill leave a comment on ao3 soon instead. i cant WAIT for more ❤️

ahhh omg thank you so much!!! I'm so happy that you liked this! honestly, idk how many parts i'll actually end up writing but i'm glad that I just went for it lol even if it just ends up being a few little snippets of them as parents!

I do think jaeyoung’s always pictured having kids someday but then he fell for sangwoo and just let go of the idea. like in the fic, kids wouldn’t ever be a dealbreaker and he just assumed sangwoo and kids wouldn’t mesh well lol. but as soon as he sees maybe he was wrong, they do have that conversation-- they live together, they’ve been in a relationship two years and it’s time to just talk about it. (i’d like to think that sangwoo had none of jaeyoung’s uncertainty. he always pictured a family sometime in the future and that necessitates kids-- plus he lowkey has an affinity for them. i hc sangwoo as good with babies all the way up to teenagers. he can relax around kids and they do give him joy. the babies/toddlers/kids for their part like that sangwoo treats them seriously and he’s surprisingly good at just playing with them whether it’s coloring or with toy cars or dolls or whatever).

i think both jaeyoung and sangwoo have extremely loving families but i also think that sangwoo was a kid who got extremely invested into his hobbies and while his parents were patient and handled him well, i wouldn't necessarily say the same about his teachers or peers, which lead to that comment he makes about listening! and yeah, jaeyoung totally reads between the lines and it's another little piece that makes sangwoo what he is though he doesn't let on just how much sangwoo let slip with that one little sentence!

and i really enjoyed that last scene! at the end of the day, jaeyoung drawing sangwoo with seojun and you know he's lost and daydreaming about when it'll be sangwoo with their kid :')

i'm very happy to hear you liked the fic and your message is so lovely and kind and just makes my day! thank you so much!!

#of course now i'm thinking about #how did sangwoo get his very rigid ideas about marriage and children #i do picture him as the black sheep of his family #the serious one and while he does have a sense of humor and does enjoy himself #and is comfortable with his family... #idk i'm thinking of how/why he came to think that about dating #anywho #thanks for this message!!! #asked #answered #anon #semantic error #first comes love tag #my writing tag #se anon