#so sad. fuxk ahha

[tyhi]

personal af

god i want somebody who's truly emotionally available for once. not just better than last time, not just better than my ex..

i want a husband who's cool with seeing me once a week on average, fucks good, is cool to talk to, remembers things abt me and asks abt my life. god pls surprise me with how good it can get & be.

#i cant fking believe my ex said hes in love w someone else and i still had sex w him and it was rly good. #he said its mutual but neither of them want to act on it like. idfk #sex cw #religion cw #but like he's good w seeing me once every week or two #he can be cool as fuxk to talk to and he fucks REALLY GOOD.. #and like he already knows me bc we went thru a lot of shit together #and hes changed since i last saw him. like changed a lot. he did ask abt my life this time & even when i kinda dodged the question #he *asked again* #like. :| i just want him to say hes mine and not looking for anyone else but atp that wouldn't even fuxking help #if he has feelings for somebody then he has feelings and thats that #theyre compatible too apparently #i was hoping its just limerence lol but nah. the tarot said yea they fit but it would indeed suck if they went for it rn bc. not ready #but like man i dont wanna be his training wheels for his like. real thing he wants. he can fuxking learn the hard way then. fuxk fuck im #so sad. fuxk ahha #my stuff