#so you better worship her

[araneitela]

Kafka has appeared! What do you do?

Honestly, she thinks you guys should just get her some chocolate.

#[ et cetera. ] seems i came at a bad time. / no no; i think you couldn't have timed it better. 23:47:15. very punctual; kafka. #[ whY IS WORSHIP IN HERE. IS THIS WHERE FANON GETS IT FROM? ] #[ also why so aggressive-- why're we kicking her. ratio don't you dare. ] #[ i 100% would understand anyone asking her to move out however. she'd take up the tub every day. ] #[ i dunno how she hasn't gotten kicked out of the sh hq yet. ]

[oatbugs]

. anyway after writing the tags 4 this post i told my research partner i will no longer follow his dreams lmao. still helping w it but i need to engage in research that i find satisfying

#i think ive been waiting for something for a while and i will spend the next year waiting for it too #i thought i felt panic but i have decided to read it as anticipation. the thrill of rejection or of moving forward or the latter as #a result of the former. i left you with your backpack unattended in the cafe because on fridays i am done #putting my life on hold for another whim-without-a-warning #this cross country service is delayed by 26 minutes so i will grab a bucket and start shovelling the water away from the tracks #everyone is moving on in some different way and im sorry if you think im mean for telling you getting so drunk will disable you from #recording your brainwaves effectively but it seems like you think i owe you an awful lot. one year ago in four days my friend got me hegel's #science of logic for my birthday and i thanked him for proving to me the existence of things this is what i do he said #and then he will spend the rest of his life breathing philosophy and i dont want to spend the rest of my life #breathing someone elses dreams i wait for the moment of realisation. this is now a 30 minute delay. i was supposed to worship beautiful #things and that is what i will do. i think i have a best friend and i know i have a lover and i know to #restrict my love the way you have. im sorry. i hope you understand when i tell you. i am now sitting on the floor in the luggage section of #this incredibly busy train and i saw a photo of her with her boyfriend and her hair in braids smiling like a fool this is the #except a week ago you told me you almost took too much this time to live. you are a beautiful girl with a beautiful soul and you know you #have already changed the world and it somehow was not enough. now you are smiling without any makeup on next to him #and yesterday you cried in an airport in the states when you were too full of love. this is the most extraordinary human being i have met. #tomorrow he heads off to princeton while his best friend heads to harvard. he goes there to make the world a better place. he is the most #extraordinary person i have ever met. the issue with human beings is that we are incredibly good at almost dying and keeping going. #you try to kill yourself and publish a paper and give a talk. you negotiate the seperation between your own parents and submit another #phd application. i am surrounded by extraordinary people with extraordinary minds and incredibly broken happy hearts. #i only see you smile when you talk about robotics. i still dont know how manifolds work and i love the concept anyway. i dont know. #i do know that i refuse to live unsatisfied. #you can keep drinking. im going to drink this reality up #i think i was a horrible person and i refuse to engage with that mentality again no matter what it takes.

[th3oi]

Trying to limit who can and can not worship Artemis is a fruitless endeavour and only makes you look like a clown

#‘’Shes picky and only accepts celibate women’’ oh so we’re lying now that’s what we’re doing #She has been equated to Bastet the goddess of fertility and sexuality #Entire societies have worshipped her #She is a goddess of untamed wilderness and claim over your own body and autonomy #Please remember that unmarried and virgin are equated in translations of ancient texts #You are not better than others for being celibate or virginal #Thats just purity culture

[timegears-moved]

WAIT i wanna talk about the ribbon for a sec because it's fucking hilarious how weak of a symbol it is for ash and serena's relationship. like serena incorporated it into her main outfit after her "advertisement for trainer customization in the xy games" arc and it's like meant to show how much ash means to her. meanwhile ash got the ribbon by complete random chance. for free. didn't put any thought into it. didn't even spend money on it. and he just gave it to her because he didn't want it. actually i've changed my mind it's the perfect symbol for their relationship because it's so painfully one-sided.

#bwark #like even in a platonic way ash only ever acknowledges serena's existence occasionally #and to be fair this is a problem with the whole xy gang #it doesn't feel equal because everybody is worshipping the ground ash walks on #but there's still at least some semblance of an effort for a friendship with clemont and bonnie. it's more believable #there's just nothing there with serena #don't even get me started on how her ''character development'' is her going from a sassy and funny girl to. a fucking housewife #and any development she does get outside of ash is made null in the finale with the ''i'll become a better woman for you'' thing #LIKE GIRL YOURE 10!!!!! GO EAT SOME MUD AND ROLEPLAY WARRIOR CATS OR SOMETHING!!!!!!!! #anyway xy is so funny. and by funny i mean bad

[swordmaid]

am getting a lot of character inspo for shri’iia from amy gone girl. I don’t think she’s as smart nor calculated but she is similar to some degree in that she’s hyper aware of the current persona she’s presenting and how she’s appealing to the people. the masks and the mjndgames, that’s basically how shri’iia operated while she was still serving under her matriarch in menzoberranzan. she needed to play the roles the matriarch required of her and it was only when she was with her matriarch that she can be ‘Real Shri’iia’, and that’s how I imagined shri’iia to be esp in act 1 when she is so new and scared in the surface. she needed to work out who these people are (her companions) and what they liked, so her first persona - her blank one - the charming helpful paladin who got tadpoled and wants to go back home just like the rest of them (which was half true). she didn’t really argue and she generally agreed to what the group wanted. she was helpful and co-operative, ask her about her past and she will tell you something bland and generic- interesting enough to be ooh-ing about but not too interesting that they’ll delve deeper into it. then, when she got to know them a little more, she started crafting little personas adjacent to her first one ; she’s the girl who’s curious about magic but never had the chance to learn with gale, she’s a cool girl who likes mischief as debauchery with astarion, she’s the one who likes to take risks and live in the moment with karlach, the knight in silver armor who’s willing to help the tieflings with wyll, a disciplined fighter with lae’zel, someone who understands the depths of devotion with shadowheart - but none are really her, not really. ofc her own personality might slip in here and there but for the most part she’s appealing to them and what they’d like her to be but none of it is really genuine. shri’iia just needs to be on their good side to minimise the chances of them turning on her, and if they let her guard down it’ll be easier for her to get rid of them should the need arise. taking up all these different masks, collecting all these intel abt them to be used for later, slithering and making a place in their minds - it’s really how she operated back in menzoberranzan. I think the only one who catches on to her game is astarion but that’s bc he’s doing the same thing too, so it’s very game recognises game lmfao

it’s only when she breaks her oath and goes through her existential crisis that all of her masks drop and her real self comes out. she was never that kind of person lmfao ^, she’s greedy, selfish, paranoid and rather obsessive. she doesn’t care about a lot of things that doesn’t concern her, she has a cruel streak that she hasn’t shown before, and she hates doing anything that won’t really benefit her. but she’s fiercely loyal to anyone she likes, like a dog. and severely she craves validation and approval - also like a dog.

#like if shri’iia was smarter and wiser it’s really over for you hoes 😔 but she’s not lol #the matriarch also taught her how to deceive so she had good training lool like that’s coming from the master liar herself #and in game Shri’iia’s deception is p high so it tracks 👯‍♀️ #but anyway I finished reading gone girl and shri’iia would’ve turned out like amy in her vengeance ending #I think if her paranoia consumed her and an outside figure validated her way of faking herself #and generally moulded her back to being that overly obsessive paladin who lives to serve - which is what her matriarch made her to be #but obv she can’t be that girl in the surface .. they can’t know abt the Lolth worship! they’ll kill her! so she makes a new one … a #completely different one that’s so detached from her previous self … someone new and charming and fun and harmless and the kind of person #you’ll feel safe around and happy to travel with. she is that girl! and more! and she’s down for anything! and she loves to help! #but she forgets the goddess she worships is fickle and vengeful and proud so her favor drops and suddenly her real self is left #with nothing .. so she doesn’t know what to do anymore … she doesn’t know if she should keep up this fake one I mean what’s the point does #she even have it in her anymore?? how can she go back home when they don’t want you back #like who is SHE without lolth even … bc the girl that she has been playing is nothing but a blank image #and that’s NOT her .. never been her… so shri’iia is left bewildered confused and even more scared #like what do you do if you’ve been left behind in this new world?? and the purpose of your existence doesn’t want you anymore but the #thing is she knows where she went wrong.. but she didn’t have a choice - or did she?? shri’iia doesn’t know .. she’s not a planner #you don’t need to plan when your matriarch does all the thinking for you and you just do what ur told bc there is nothing better than to #serve and fulfill your oath …!!! so she ends up getting wasted in a party with the people she didn’t even care to save lmfao #and then she gets drunk and ends up fucking this one guy just bc she asked and she’s already hit rock bottom #lolth always says fuck elves anyway so she goes off and do just that 🤷‍♀️ #shut up abt bg3.

[mamanbou]

the thing of it is if we all just individually liked or disliked taylor swift, it would be normal, but as it stands there are people who are obsessively reverent (and defensive) over everything about her and those people are insane and insufferable and wrong. and there are people who hate her vehemently and refuse to entertain the idea of any value (or even acknowledge talent) in anything she makes and those people are generally not insane but they're also kind of insufferable and observably wrong. everybody needs to stop talking about this woman online until we can figure out whats going on

#txt #i hate swiftie-swifties as much as the next guy and yes this new album title is annoying but ouh my god #with the new tracklist drop (and also with midnights lyric leaks) people who hate her will be so vitriolic over #completely inoffensive lyrics and song titles that you wouldnt bat an eye at from like any other pop icon. I logically understand why #if her stuff's not for you and you dislike her as a person (i also think shes evil ftr) itll drive you to madness seeing the idol worship #but good god give it a rest like your hating is worthless when yr going after everything she does including the stuff that clearly works #energy better spent when you zero in on the truly indefensible stuff like 'i come back stronger than a 90s trend' or idk the carbon emission #s #theres no point to this but i just scrolled through a bunch of tags of circlejerk ridiculing the ts11 tracklist and it read like a group of #middle schoolers making fun of someone they dont like by just listing traits about them. like omg her shirt is ridiculous >a normal shirt #>they all nod about how the shirt is ridiculous and makes this girl uniquely cringe and they ignore the 40 other kids in the cafeteria weari #ng the exact same shirt #like guys. you are all SO ANNOYING.

[deny3verything]

i love best friends. i’d love to have one someday

#usually i feel this way about romantic ships but the doctor and donna platonic soulmates have been kicking my ass recently #conceptually i don’t believe in soulmates but i do believe there’s at least one person for any other person who could #colloquially be known as soulmates for each other #i would love a soulmate. i would do anything to have a soulmate. but i think i would also be satisfied with a regular ole best friend #i just want. someone who loves and needs me as much as i love and need them #instead of feeling like i’m the earth orbiting and worshiping an indifferent sun #the sun has plenty of planets and space debris orbiting it. the sun wouldn’t know a difference whether the earth was there or not #i don’t have to explain to you what the sun means to the earth #i used to have a sun but i stopped talking to her because i couldn’t be in that unchanging situation forever #it’s been nearly three years since we’ve spoken and i think about her nearly every damn day #it hurts more than anything that we’re not friends anymore. but i think it was worse when my entire life was dictated by her #whether she even knew it or not #i have no idea if it’s better without her. it probably would be if i could get over her but i can’t. i’m not very good at trying #it would just be so nice to be in a binary star system. to have them orbit me in the same damn way #someone who’d be just as destroyed as i am over the loss of their sun #just someone who prefers me over everyone else. for once in my fucking life i want to be wanted #please

[realasslesbian]

Public apology 2.0: sorry everyone I got the straight man's identity wrong again🤦🏻‍♀️ Actually he identifies as The Victim:

#lmao #like im just always amazed how self-absorbed men are #you got upset bc a lesbian said men were ugly #then every heterosexual on the planet offered you your binky #and came for the lesbian that made you cry with her mean lesbian opinions #(that tbh weren't actually mean like I could have done better lmao) #so she's out here battling the lesbophobic hordes #ppl telling her it's wrong to be a lesbian and she deserves to die over it #and pretending like their heterosexual takes are woke #and not in fact literally the views of the taliban and al qaeda and nazis and every other major villain of the last century #but nvm about the violent lesbophobia bc a straight man had to endure a lesbian on the internet telling him men are ugly #lmao THE HUMANITY #how will this straight man cope with the meanness and negativity of a lesbian not worshipping him #like lmao bro how do you survive in the real world? #are you literally just that coddled and catered to that you think this whole heterosexual outrage is proportionate? #that's crazy #anyway my lesbian ass always gonna find men ugly #and gonna find straight dudes like bogleech especially pathetic #but keep up the heterosexual outrage y'all #it's getting to hilarious proportions #lesbian #lgb #lesbophobia

[gideonisms]

probably my reading of tlt is always going to be filtered through the fact that I think sometimes, if your belief system has really made you miserable for your entire life, there's a lot to unpack there but you should just throw away the whole suitcase

#you could go find something different to worship that same way. or you could simply not! #what if you discovered you don't actually need a reason to cling to life anymore because it's enough to just be here? what then? #harrow throw away the suitcase challenge #i think it's different if there was ever a positive aside from the desperate need to cling to anything so you don't drown #but like. for harrow there wasn't. let's be real she's using the body to justify her own existence #at least her devotion to gideon makes her worse/better in a new fun way #devotion to john & devotion to alecto are different in that alecto probably like. cares a little bit u know? #like yeah that is a better deity because she gives a fuck about you #but on harrow's end i don't think there's that much difference between #living for her duty to john and living for her love for the body #idk if tamsyn actually agrees with me on that one tho so we will see! #i think she could maybe convince me there's a difference in alecto but ntn did not do that

[perilegs]

i downloaded the multiple romances mod but i still don't know if i want anode to romance both minthara and gale or just minthara (info on anode if you're interested) so!

#i really like how awful this situation can be. like. obviously gale has a terrible ex and anode is so much better compared to that but. shes #still not good for him. im imagining their dynamic with gale collared on a leash #just. ok. anode will fall head over heels for minthara the moment they meet. and you guys know the 3rd brother comment minthara says to gal #imagine your girlfriend also dating that woman #which. ok this all sounds so delicious and awful #but my biggest problem with justifying it is - what would anode see in gale? #someone willing to worship her probably but like. what would make Her love gale #i can see why gale would like her but idk. maybe anode appreciates the way he's a do gooder until it comes to acquiring power? #bc they agree on that. maybe just something draws anode to gale but what is that something? #i might find out if i just. romance gale as her but what if i dont #also im planning on doing a gale romance eventually anyways. with a very silly fatherly folk hero tav #so. im not missing out on his romance if i dont do this #but idk man it just seems so interesting #leevi liveblogs

[jjacqualope]

I don't know what's going on with the show anymore but based on the few clips I've seen my new crack theory is that Ruby casts off her own identity, gets yeeted back in time, and becomes the Summer Rose everyone knows and talks about.

#destroy your identity #why #become your own mom (hero) #you sound just like your mother/your mother said those words to me #was there a summer rose once? sure #but ruby and yang really only knew the idea of her #not actually her since she disappeared when they were so small #its like that one dnd campaign where the world ended and the heros had to become the gods they once worshipped so the world could be reborn #ruby rose has to die to become summer and inspire a better ruby #what if you could leave ruby rose behind? #well her mom sure did #also #something something the cycle of chasing something that never existed #also thats why they look the exact same #and why she gets all the #shes always been right in front of us #anyway lmao

[skullinahat]

i mean listen if a man says hes gonna get his own kingdom you better at LEAST ask what kinda kingdom it is, fucking idiot

#gabbering #berserk #(i understand why guts would not think to ask thi and why they were all blinded by griffiths charisma) #but its so wild how the band of the hawk all followed and loved and worshiped this man who they never... actually knew anything about. #a kingdom is truly such a vague goal #its so interesting to me it wasnt ''i will make a better kingdom''. never ''i want things to improve.'' #never ''i take issue with the horror around me.'' #simply ''i will have my own kingdom.'' #like griffith was always destined to do horrific things for this goal and his goal was always corrupt #from the beginning how do we get introduced to griffith and casca's relationship? #him telling her that warming a man is a womans job #like... he was always like this. he always held this potential #uuurgh running out of words but it just makes me think how the protelariats only freedom allowed in capitalism is to ascend to the bourgois #not revoking the status quo but simply angry you arent on top of it #peasant to king instead of revolt. want to be the one holding the whip instead of on the recieving end.

[eightofpentakles]

bless Lady Hestia for being the one to steer me away from that does me no good <3 she will always be there bless her

#always listen to Hestia as i say #shes so smart #keeping me away from Hellene missions that do not align with me as a fundamental person #aka as a Irish American Hellene #plus her helping me better myself #i feel like sometimes people forget there are ways to speak to gods #besides just prayer and everything #like not all gods have spoken to me only Hestia and Hermes but ive felt others #like Hera #and Artemis and Aphrodite #and Zeus and Athena sometimes #but Hestia always works with me and usually comes when she can #and Hermes and I spoke alot for a bit #like ?? gods can personally help and aid you to become a better person #just because they want taht relationship with you #idk its crazy to me that people will willingly tell others their wrong in their worship when it comes to Hellenism #like obvi not neo paganism or wicca but like genuine reconstructionism in Hellenism #idk everyone worhsips different so no reason for me to jusge #just not my way of work ya know #just gotta do my own research and such #its nevet been easy tho plus itll be more fun this way :) #okay goodnight #thank you Hestia #bless you Goddess #Hestia <3!!!!!i love you girl okay night

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Currently resisting the urge to blackmail my father into therapy

#At this point I’ve almost said “well if you don’t talk about your Jehovah’s Witness trauma with someone; I will #because yours is directly related to mine due to having vented on me about it since I was six” #I’ve almost said it ten times within the past hour #exjw #And this is the congregation he thought was our family’s eternal salvation from my apostacy. Ha! #“Jehovah is guiding us here” Jehovah didn’t do shit for you except give you PTSD-induced gout and kidney stones; come off it #Get out of her my people #I’m not even sorry for him. What the elders said to him wasn’t his fault; but he 100% got himself into this mess #for my benefit (to strike the fear of god into his disgusting homosexual sinning boygirl daughter with raging hormones) #And his homophobic rant he went on… please just call me a faggot #I’m having it out with him before I go for no other reason but my own satisfaction #ex cult #”I can’t talk to a worldly therapist because they won’t want to worship Jehovah when someone preaches to them” #Why — pray tell — will they react in that way? Because it’s a cult #Cult: spelled “C-U-L-T.” You didn’t listen to the content of my diaries (which you read against my will) and now you’re suffering #Play stupid games win stupid prizes #He’s the most traumatized out of the two of us as a direct result of him trying to “fix” me… #also because I don’t keep touching a hot stove after it burns me. JWs are a toxic cult; so I no longer believe them #My mental health is better as a result #I have worldly comfort media and I swear liberally (which is proven to soothe physical pain) #I’ve accepted myself as queer. I’ve accepted my dark tastes in music and media. #I’ve started doing something with my life to get out ASAP. #Life isn’t good but it’s gotten better once I changed my mindset and stopped being a close-minded homophobic asshole #Just because a couple gay guys were creepy towards you doesn’t mean they’re all like that #Straight guys have been creepy towards me and I never said I wished death upon all straight men #A creep is a creep is a creep; sexuality doesn’t make you a creep — being creepy makes you a creep

[fideidefenswhore]

Many who knew Henry well seem to have responded to him not just with awe, but with affection. Charles Brandon was, in 1509, just an esquire in the old king's funeral procession, but he rose to become duke of Suffolk on the basis of friendship with Henry, and ended as his brother-in-law. Thomas Cranmer, for whom the king caused many difficulties, held his hand as he lay dying, and seems to have mourned him sincerely. More remarkably, his discarded wives could still speak of him with devotion. Katherine of Aragon wrote in her last letter to him, 'Lastly, I make this vow, that mine eyes desire you above all things.' Anne Boleyn, on the scaffold, said to the crowd, 'I pray God save the king and send him long to reign over you, for a gentler nor a more merciful prince was there never, and to me he was ever a good, a gentle, and sovereign lord.' Anne of Cleves, often to be held to be the lucky one who escaped his clutches without harm, remained his friend for the rest of his life. These levels of attachment should warn us not to make easy assumptions.

Tudor England: A History, Lucy Wooding

#lucy wooding #ok so... a lot to unpack here and please no one reblog this to add stuff before reading my tags lol #bcus i don't entirely agree here but i do think she makes some salient points; and im going to get into it #1) so the example of catherine and AB...setting aside the debated veracity of catherine's letter #(and you can set it aside #she could make this argument different primary sources and it would still stand #like when catherine was informed henry married anne she literally refused to believe it. she said in his great wisdom he would #never do such a thing. so there is a degree of hero-worship even years into her exile and repudiation) #you can't really ignore the circumstances #which is that they have survivors they're leaving behind and they knew that and it would ultimately ; inevitably factor into what they #chose to be their last words.... #that being said i don't think you can dismiss them as mere sycophancy / appeal to his better nature either #because last words were considered and are still considered; sacrosanct #it's not a time to lie or even equivocate the truth #i always think of starkey's line for anne's: knowing anne one might suspect satire but the moment was too serious for that' #and i would agree with that #i think it was all bound together: 1) an appeal for elizabeth's welfare and 2) a truth in part #or a truth that had been rather* . she does . maybe more significantly than has been recognized. use the past tense here #he must have been that to her for some period of time #when he stopped being so has been debated by historians ever since #he never was; or right after their marriage #or immediately after elizabeth was born. or immediately after her first miscarriage. or second . etc #anyway so tl; dr while i don't think it's quite as simple as what she's outline here and there are facets to all of the above #i do agree with the general thrust of what she's saying here #which is that...you know. henry was admired and loved by some very admirable people #so there must have been things to love about him #much as that is hard to reconcile with what we know about him and what he did. #that has to be acknowledged and given weight if our understanding of this era and court is ever #to be worth half a salt.