#that's most likely gonna be short-lived!

[wildflowercryptid]

ngl i have so many thoughts about penelope sitting in the back of my mind, she's such an interesting character...

#i'm gonna try to avoid using penny when talking about her just so i don't confuse my pokemon moots ;0; #but yeah... just the imagery surrounding her has got me pondering #like the fact that the room she spends most of her time in at tangle tower is quite literally a gilded cage #or that she's wearing an outfit that's strikingly similar to her mother's if not the same exact outfit... #i also can't stop thinking about how i feel like she doesn't even have any true ill will towards anyone currently living at tangle tower #even flora (the character you could expect her to dislike based on her motivations) is someone she has some care for... #ALSO HER FUCKING REACTION WHEN YOU SUGGEST HER MOTIVATION WAS LONELINESS UGH!!!! #just.... fuck dude #i do hope we get to see her again #random idea i've thought about too is harrow getting involved in tracking down penny and it ending w/ a face-off between the two #i think that'd be cool... #wait shit my brain is making a connection with another idea i had hold on #*rubs my gay lil hands together* hmm 😈 #sorry that my rambling's always relegated to the tags it's easier to parse my thoughts in short bursts like that #tangle tower #mj.txt #tangle tower spoilers

[orcelito]

I've kinda been existing in the realm of "everyone I know is going to die, many sooner than I expect" for the past few years. Considering. Ykno. But I don't register that's not the norm most of the time. I lived 22 years of my life not experiencing proper grief, after all. Only a few people I barely knew had died. No one I was ever close with.

One of the first things my new therapist said when greeting me (after having reviewed the preliminary questionnaire I filled out) was something about how sorry she was at my unimaginable loss. And I just had a moment of like. Huh. No, it really Isn't normal to lose 6 members of my family and 2 cats in the span of 5 years. No, that isn't normal at all.

I hope I don't have to experience any more unexpected losses anytime soon. I'd like to have faith in people's permanence in my life again.

#speculation nation #negative/ #kinda. ya kno. #i think my dad's death really was so very traumatic for me actually. #barely more than a day's warning. even he didnt know he was dying. #if someone can die so abruptly like that. someone who was the 2nd most important person in my life. #well. it certainly creates some doubts and fears. #in the end. im just doing my best to not join them just yet. we dont need another generation's loss in such short a time. #so im taking care of my health. going to therapy. getting new glasses. gonna get a fibro diagnosis. #finishing my degree. eating healthily (kind of). staying away from alcohol. #i need to exercise more. ill start going on bike rides again. soon. #the grief is immense and unimaginable. and i am a very different person than i was even just a year ago. #but theres something that such loss does offer: perspective. #time is not infinite. the march of death comes for us all. some sooner than others. #so im trying to do my best to live my life to the fullest. taking measures ive been avoiding for years. #ive had some hiccups. it's certainly not easy to stay positive rn. #but im trying. and ive made a lot of progress already. & thats what matters in the end.

[elijah-inmymind]

OH MY GOD SHUT UP U GUYS I AM THINKING ABOUT DVDS!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD. I LOVE DVDS. DISCS. HOLY SHIT U GUYS. HHHHHHHHHH.

GONNA BUY A PORTABLE DVD PLAYER AND THEN I’M GONNA WATCH BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN!!!!!!!!! I ALREADY HAVE BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN ON DVD BUT I HAVEN’T SEEN IT YET DUE TO NO DVD PLAYER.

AND THEN I’M GONNA FIND MY ROBOTS DVD AND I!!!! AM GOING!!!!!! TO WATCH!!!! ROBOTS!!!!!!!!!!! IT’S THE BEST MOVIE POSSIBLY EVER AND I REFUSE TO WATCH IT ONLINE. IT LIVES ON A DVD!!!

I CAN’T FIND MY ROBOTS DVD RN BUT OH BOY WHEN I DO!!!!! I WON’T BE ABLE TO WATCH IT BC I DON’T HAVE A DVD PLAYER YET. BUT ROBOTS!!!!! EXCITED FOR ROBOTS.

#and then i’m gonna watch my Addams Family dvd from my mum #and iRobot #and Chappie #and i’ll go on a hunt to find The Matrix so i can watch it all the time on my PORTABLE DVD PLAYER #“but u can just watch it on the internet” #okay??????????? #where’s the fucking joy in that????????????????? #no whimsy?? no nostalgia?? #no obsession with the technology of ur childhood that u never got to fully understand before it fell out of use?? #that lived such a short life in the grand scheme of the endless development of technology???? #this beautiful little blip in the history of technology and i get to use it to watch the best movie of all time. Robots (2002). #had to put this on pause for a sec to document my cat stepson giving me the most zooted look #mouth hangin open and everything #he’s a fucking weird cat #orange obviously #incredibly unhinged at all times #very very cute and sweet just the most good tempered cat you’ll ever meet #so so so fucking stupid #SO stupid #afraid of when u adjust ur legs when sitting on the couch to get more comfy #but not afraid of running into literally any and every solid surface he can #he once ran full tilt at my feet seemingly intending to phase right through them #no brace for impact no attack posture no hesitation at all it was like i wasn’t even there #and he was utterly shocked when i #a big lumbering giant #whacked him with my shin right in his skull so hard. like a soccer ball. just THUNK. #that’s a lie he was actually almost entirely unphased aside from looking at me like it was my fault #jesus christ #i’m gonna be so real with u man i forgot what i was doing #fuck me. no more yapping for tonight.

[neverendingford]

Therapists have two genders:

Professional Asshole and

Well-meaning Incompetent

#color says shit #text post #replying to my therapist is the most frustrating thing in the world. ma'am you think you're building rapport with me? #I hate to tell you but you've been wildly unsuccessful if that's what you think you've been doing here. #stop trying to educate me about my bullshit diagnoses that I already know about from my years on the internet. #like. babygirl I'm over here trying to build up to feeling comfortable enough to talk about the six-layer trauma cake I've got going on #and you're over here showing me a diagram consisting of two concentric circles meant to convey the idea of self versus other #you're very nice and trying to be helpful but I don't want to fucking talk about the girlfriend I want to talk about the issues that matter #girlfriend is an experiment. the other shit is stuff that lives in our fucking soul. shit that made me into the weird person fragment I am #and I had to fight for an hour. therapist kept on scheduling us for half an hour. HALF A FUCKING HOUR HALF AN HOUR ISN'T ENOUGH TIME TO TALK #I had to fight for it and even when she finally scheduled us for an hour she still tried to cut it short #I had to pull up the appointment confirmation to prove I had an hour allotted. like seriously what the fuck. #one of those people who had their own mental struggles and then is like “I want to become a therapist and help other people uwu” #and then is fucking useless and projects their own issues onto someone else and shoves their personal solutions onto you #like someone in r/aita projecting their own shitty relationship onto someone else. some of us are different Daryl #ugh I'm so fucking pissed and I'm not giving up the controller until I get this shit sorted out for now. #r wanted to hop back on this morning in the shower and we had a shouting match but our deal was she takes a week break so I'm keeping it #because too much shit has built up and she's been not doing so hot so I'm gonna get this mess cleaned up before I let her back on. #I bought groceries. I did laundry. I got the car repairs done. I got our bike fixed up. I showered. I did dishes. I'm going to #and I'm going to get even more done tomorrow. maybe then I'll go back to watching over her shoulder and backseat gaming but not for a while. #it feels nice though. like I get to finally stretch my arms and yawn real good. #and btw to answer the question she's always fucking asking. she's not ace in the slightest lmao. I am and the bleed over confuses her. #there. question answered so maybe she can stop asking about it. #I feel like in her push to find herself she kinda pushed me back into the corner. which... ngl that hurts a little. #oh well. you don't need to hear about our lovers' quarrel. I'm going to bed in these cozy fresh bed sheets I just put on the bed.

[coridallasmultipass]

A thing I just thought now: "Oh, wow, it was less than 8 years? That's a really short time to know anyone before getting married."

The punchline is that I'm aromantic.

#like damn if im gonna ever marry anyone itll be on our deathbed after a life together #the idea of marriage is fucking terrifying #how long do most people know each other before marrying?? lemme look it up #yeah im seeing the average is like 2-5 years and thats too damn short geez #i guess this is just one of those things ill never understand lmao #i think of marriage and i picture like a low budget halloween undead wedding scene with spooky organ music #aromantic #OBLIGATORY: 'DISCLAIMER: i'M HI (HIGH)' TAG #ShitPost.exe #Cori.exe #seriously tho i dont know how people live that fast #cant believe i just realized this was another aro thing i didnt realize was an aro thing #like being creeped out about people getting married young or fast #or i guess the aversion to attending weddings ive had my whole life lmao #wow yeah im a lot more aro than i thought i was lol this was a real introspective line of thought

[missshame]

I hate studying I just wanna create stuff and see the world I hate how little control I have over my life

#Let's make it clear I know I'm lucky to get higher education and I'm grateful for it + knowledge can be the greatest tool #It's just that medschool is killing me and there's just too much stuff to learn and I'm struggling so badly with it that at the end of the #day it feels like I'm not learning anything and I'm completely dumb and uneducated #I'm not even a good student but it takes all my energy and even when I'm not studying I rarely have the energy to do anything #The only thing I sorta do consistently is working out because it makes my brain shut up for a while and it helps the muscle pain I got from #All the stress and sitting at my desk/working long days at the hospital #Anyway I love complaining sorry #I just feel like I had /have a very creative artsy nature and I'm really suffering from the lack of it like not in a I don't have enough #time for my hobbies and to relax #Which is already bad enough btw I don't think it should be considered normal for anyone to be too exhausted to do anything outside of work #But I really feel it in a I'm not myself anymore it's hard to move forward and build confidence and a sense of self while having a life so #far away from what you love and feel like you need + denying yourself what you desire the most can't be good to your brain let's face it #Anyway long story short first thing I'm gonna do when I finally get my degree is by me some drums learn the guitar and paint on the walls #And in the meanwhile Idk do I keep living this way? If I do will I go completely insane? #Or do gift myself the right to give up on the idea of being a slightly less bad student and do I say fuck it and start living my life now ? #Idk! Idddkkk !!! #Oh my god

[milo-is-rambling]

I am so high I love you dabs I love you big bong rips I love you huge heavy bong I love you only having 20 dollars to my name and no plans but getting high and ignoring it I love you oh no I’m thinking about it

#I want to take an ice cold shower and scream and smoke a whole pack of cigarettes and lock myself in a closet for 72 hours in the dark with #no distractions to figure out what I actually want to do with the rest of my life and to face every bad thought I have and struggle to #ignore even years later like ugh I just need to be at the bottom of the ocean floating sinking alive dead in between for like a month and #then pull me back up and either I’ll be normal or I’ll be so fucked up they just put me back in there #like either way I am vibing at the bottom of the ocean (I have been desperately imaging a sensory deprivation tank all day) #(put me in a fucking sensory deprivation tank until something in my fucking brain rewires and I get worse or better than I am now this #inbetween stage is fucking killing me like what do you mean I’m not a horrible person but also what do you mean I struggle every day but I’m #normal but I have things about me other people don’t and alienate me to the point of near total isolation but also this is just how humans #are and I need to take meds and actively struggle to fit into a perfect little box of what a person should be like god damn I am so tired of #getting better and worse and better and worse and better and worse and better and worse and I’m miserable and I’m happy and I’m sobbing and #I know a month from now I’ll be depressed again or I’ll be the best I’ve ever been and it’s so fucking horrible to be in the middle stage #where I actually have to step up and admit shit is wrong and face it like why can’t I just lay in bed forever until I become the bed and not #like get a job and have a future. ugh. depression is so fucked esp bc most things in my life are normal I guess or like easier than my #friends like we all have seperate challenges but I’m the only one still living off their parents (ha. parent. forgot for a second.) and the #only thing wrong with my life is the mental health issues but I won’t step up and deal with it bc I feel like I’ve been depressed for so #long I like fucked up the foundational shit and like I know it’s fine but also I feel so behind and I feel like I’ll be behind and unhappy #forever even when im happy I know the next depressive episode is right around the corner and I give up again. ugh. I hate knowing that’s #what’s wrong with me but still not having the energy to step up and fix it. im so pathetic I want to cry. my brain is me but my brain is #destroying my life. anyways. im high and now im sad and have dry mouth. I think im gonna drink ice water and change into shorts+lay in bed)

[scattered-winter]

seeing everyone get super emotional abt the pjo teaser today has been. a surreal experience for sure

#i WANT to be happy about it and i WANT to be emotional about it but i am just so god damn tired. im so tired. #im not even physically tired most of the time but i am Tired. you know #trying to get a job. absolutely cannot. trying to go to class. too tired to even pay attention when im there. #trying to do homework. too tired to focus on it when i do it. gonna fail more classes and to be perfectly fucking honest #i might just drop out. #i dont know what im doing here!!!!! im getting a degree for nothing!!!! im wasting time and money by being here!!!!!! #if i knew what i wanted to do and how to get there that would be one thing but im literally only here because idk where else to go #and its costing me a fuckton of money!!!!!!!!!!! that i dont have!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #and i am just so god damn tired. #i dont want to drop out because i dont know what to do if i did. #i cant live with my parents i Cant. its ok to do that short term but its suffocating after a while. #i cant be the person i want to be with them yk. #but i dont know where the hell else im supposed to go!!!!! i dont think im meant to be here but i dont know where else i need to be!!!!!!! #i dont fucking know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #and i am just so fucking tired. so god damn exhausted at all times of the day. #like im being so fr right now i dont know what im doing here and every moment of indecision is costing me more money #im not gonna be able to pay for my second semester but i cant get a job and i dont even know what im doing here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #because im just here because you go to college after high school its what you do!!!!!!!! #i didnt choose to be here!!!!!!!!!!! i just went with the flow and now its costing me and i am broke!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am so broke!!!!! #someone please put me into a coma rn i am being so fr. i am being SO fr. #i want to. quit college. and go work somewhere. just a job. no more school. i dont wanna do this anymore. #hrrhhghghghhhhhh #winter speaks #personal #anyway i am slightly afraid lol because not even the pjo show can make me feel excited + happy about something #despite it being nearest and dearest to me. im just too goddamn tired. #i am not gonna lie guys losing one of my friends at the beginning of the semester has had an Effect (tm) #lol. lmaooooooo even. #there's a girl in one of my classes who looks just like her so thats sooo fun. thats great. #fucked up how grief just grows on you like moss. it doesnt leave.

[pepprs]

also.. Like ok not to double post but i can’t stop thinking abt how in one of the trainings someone was talking abt how kids Back Then didn’t hang out w their parents all the time and just kinda had their own lives and it was just understood that once you reach a certain age you’re able to make your own choices and you don’t have to stick w ur family all the time. it’s not that i want my family to disown me or throw me out or anything but i just uhhhhhhh. i think being sheltered like this has fundamentally irreversibly damaged me and i feel like im living in a pit of quicksand. like i want to get out of the house but not with you. ykwim

#purrs #i was supposed to be home alone all evening on friday and i was very selfishly looking forward to that. and then my mom changed plans in par #part bc i think she didn’t feel comfortable not having me there. and now im being dragged there and it’s like.. i have things on my mind and #things i need to do to even GET myself to the point where i can make decisions like most early 20soemthings in entry level positions can do. #and instead im being dragged on a family outing and guilt tripped abt it. and its dumb to complain abt going on a family outing for a lot of #reasons but it’s like.. girl i literally do not want to spend time with you weekends are so short and precious AJD i do not want to spend th #them suffocating in the middle seat and having to act excited and smiley and pose for pictures. i HATE it. and i don’t have to be livingt #this way but it’s so fucking hard to take the first steps to do something different. i feel so trapped and like im Gonna be stuck in thisnho #house forever. like can i skip to the part where i only interact w my parents maybe once every couple of days at most and live a #separate life and get to fully choose and enjoy life’s pleasures in the ways i want to and not have to be beholden to some stupid diet and s #standard and whatever. i want sugar and salt and oil and i want riding on the bus and staying out late with friends and going on adventures #and not always having to come home earlier than i want to and i want a room of my own and a cat and peace when i choose it. pain 😂😂😂😂😂😂 #delete later

[orcelito]

Having lost my cat, my uncle, my great grandmother, my grandma's best friend (& one of the people who helped raise me), AND my dad all within the span of 9 months,

I have little sympathy for people who use deaths as an excuse to be an asshole. I get it, it sucks. Get the fuck over it. Your grief is not an excuse to treat others like shit. What the fuck.

#speculation nation #this isnt anything personal. im just reacting to a post that kind of pissed me off. #to be fair i was never close with my great grandmother so im not particularly broken up about that one #but it's still yet another death in the family within such a short period of time. #my cat is on this list bc he was the first one and it majorly fucked me up. so yeah it deserves to be here. #the others. well. my grandma's best friend makes me sad but at least she was getting up in years #my uncle and dad though. especially my dad. yea those have fucked me up the most. #im never gonna be the same after experiencing all of this in such short succession. #it sucks in a major way. and things are still continuously tumultuous. #but you dont see me lording it over people and using it as an excuse to be an asshole. #maybe i make people uncomfortable with how casually i mention it. but like whatever. it's simply my truth. #that's still just like. me just talking about what ive been up to. that kind of thing. #idk acting like someone needs to be treated with the most tender of touches after experiencing a major death #to the point where you cant even tell them when theyre being a manipulative little asshole? #i dont fucking think so! #yeah okay all grief hits different but ive pulled myself up by the bootstraps and kept my head on straight #even after i experienced death after death after death after death after Fucking Death #whats your excuse? youre Sad? we all fucking are. thats just life. #it's horrible and awful and it sucks that we have to live with this but you CANT let that affect how you treat other people!!!!! #and here i am making my own post venting about it instead of replying to the aita post that sparked this #bc the person the post was about just made me so angry to hear about. #but i am... a reasonable adult who separates themselves from situations before reacting in anger... #and so im making a tumblr post to get the emotions out instead of getting emotional at random strangers lol #anyways i actually had a pretty good day today. but in the way of grief. the smallest things can trigger moods sometimes. #but i am letting the emotions flow... here they are... i have expressed them... and i shall now release them... amen... #negative/ #i guess lol. i sure did rant enough for it.

[todayisafridaynight]

masato/aoki has been a hyperfixation of mine for almost 3 years now unfortunately he's a little worm in my brain slowly killing me off. this is half a response to some asks i've seen, a sort of explanation to aoki looking different to masato (which is definitely nonsensical in ways) may be because he's somewhat healthier than when he was as masato, hence he's not deathly pale, tired looking and a bit of weight gain maybe? (personally love his hamster cheeks as aoki). as a disabled person myself i don't think rgg really thought much through in his disability and the shit it can bring?? hoping yakuza 8 brings more context for him though i doubt it. again unfortunately,,, he's important to me regardless and ngl the hate he gets makes me upset sometimes. like he is definitely awful awful, especially aoki. my autism could write a whole deep dive essay about his character that no one wants to hear lmfao. also your masato art is a joy, just to let you know <3 as a fellow daigo enjoyer,, masadai ex boyfriends is the most valid and superior ship for masato lmao. ty for your service in this fandom 💪

damn im honored to be gettin a letter from THE ceo of ryo aoki themselves.. even if its anonymous ill still frame it on my wall hiii ty for writin <3

BUT YEAH that's what i figured in how drastic masato is from aoki- like his eyes notably lose that dark ring and his skin and lips get more color (tho that could be because he's in the sun more but who's to say it can't be both).

i really REALLY wish RGG wasn't so flippant about his disability, i go insane trying to figure out exactly what it is or what it could be so i can approach it better when portraying him and also just thinking about him. 'weak lung syndrome', surprise surprise, can mean a lot of things

it's already p cringe that they just poof it away with a lung transplant and get rid of it all together in ishin when there was no real reason to have him stand at all. like. he's literally in two scenes, one where he is sitting but the other he's just talking to the air while takechi sits in the room.

never mind im curious if he ever had to deal with his body potentially rejecting the new organ for a bit since that is a very real concern when it comes to organ transplants, but i get not really finding the need to dive into it since that transplant would have been 20 years ago and the chance to talk about it is slim. still, they could have at least give his initial illness a proper name or diagnosis if they were just going to make it disappear literally one chapter later

anyway, ty again for writin !!! i'm happy i can feed the worm that lives in your brain 🥰🥰🥰

#long post #snap chats #omg hi another aoki enjoyer //froths at the mouth// i am very normal about him #Real though the second i finished Y7 like.he broke into my brain and has been living there ever since #i sneaked some posts about him but i figured most people followed me for daigo/mine stuff or he'd just be kind of awkward to talk about #but. well. im cringe and free now LMAO plus i got at least like three people to enable my postings so #ALSO ANON I'D LOVE TO READ YOUR CHARACTER ANALYSIS <3<3<3 #one of my fave short analysis pieces for aoki is him and his relationship to glass #UGH i love visual symbolism so much im so weak for it and while i already had some thoughts on it when it came to his glasses #op just expanded on it SOO much and SOO well and just really highlighted /how/ much of aoki is behind a glass or screen #im gonna end up gushing about it in the tags oh no.... ill wrap this up #thank you for validating my insane masadai ship <3 ok not MINE i'm just a deranged follower of it but thank you #i am vaguely on the right path then.. hehe

[robertsbarbie]

‘not okay’ was actually an incredibly well done movie and i genuinely think everyone in it did a really good job

#when i originally saw the trailers i was like ‘this? is gross?’ #but like and spoilers for anyone that cares #having zoey deutch’s character be genuinely unlikable and ending the movie with not her redemption but genuine #you have to live with the consequences of your own actions is rather interesting #i feel like cancel culture and the internet and blah blah blah is so hard to do correctly that most films end up #falling short or cringey/ insensitive whatever #but like from the get go it’s like yeah this character frankly sucks and they do things that even once they realize they’re in the wrong #have to deal with the consequences was well put #not to mention it prefaced it with ‘warning unlikable female character’ #and i thought oh they’re just gonna be sexist and stupid about her but i think her character and really all the characters were #really well flushed out and done in away that they weren’t these bits and pieces and you could follow their line #of decision making and character traits #anyway i just thought it was an objectively good film and i wasn’t fully expecting that #eris: text #movie: not okay

[dancerofhyrule]

Love how Tumblr decides not to show my art in certain tags yet it will show a text post no one cares about that got less than 5 likes

#/neg #obviously #partly why i'm quote unquote inactive here #i show something and get lucky if i get a reblog #even luckier if my art shows up in the tags #and like i'm grateful for any attention i do get #but i always feel ignored. felt pretty ignored by quite a few people all my life #idk if i'm just unlucky or if i have poor social skills but i feel like i never get acknowleged #and then i never show my stuff 'cause i'm always like no one will pay attention to it #even worse my very mean brain will say 'likes aren't good enough they HAVE to be talking to you about your work' #which. like i said i'm grateful for getting even a single crumb of attention #i want to talk so badly about the stuff i make and yet when i do i either don't actually have much to say or the conversation #ends up short lived. at least. it feels like it #and i always feel like it's my fault #am i grateful? am i? sometimes i don't even know myself #and yet i feel like an attention seeker when i try to boost my work #so i just don't bother most of the time #ugh geez i'm really sorry for turning this into a whole vent in the tags #i need to stop i feel like i'm gonna cry anyway #i'm sorry if i'm ever annoying boring or ungrateful #wall of tags

[saphabee]

friends I've already told oc lore to so i cant repeat it VS Newer friends i cant just Ramble for two hours to yet

#yknow? the ''Ive already talked bestie's ear off / I'm not willing to annoy new ones'' #anyway. Corey's trans in a real specific way. cause mobs in MC are like all non gendered in my head cause they can All breed #so bees dont really have an assigned gender? Their gender is blank by default so actively choosing to be a gender Is Trans #plus they often have certain features develop that can be considered more fem/masc which can skew how they're perceived #Corey's got a pronounced lower lash‚ soft round face‚ his hair grows faster so it looks long easier‚ and his fuzz on his chest is fluffier #he cuts his own hair most of the time (with an axe. what a badass) (he can never cut one side right so that side's longer <3) #plus shirts flatten the chest fluff :D #Corey‚ Just became a Person and has No Gender and feminine features: I'm gonna use He/Him i think. :› #plus how short he is. and hes got small hands. Corey youre so liddle how do you pick Vinny up so easy. #Bee Villagers my beloveds. You're a mob‚ then a player living the simple villager life. You're all 3‚ babee! :D!!!

[maddestgal]

i-

#DO NOT READ LMAO #i don’t want to talk abt voltron literally years after the show ended #but #the fact that lance’s cuban identity wasn’t explored and how he consistently drew the short end of the stick #when it came to development #(and hunk too) #(and like most of the characters esp the ones of color 🙄) #idk like i just liked his character sm and rarely see cubans in the media who are positively represented yk?? like jm from miami #i’m boricua but lived in mia and work with cubans now and the stories that they tell me about their journey to the states and what life was #like in cuba is v eye opening #idk it’s just so upsetting that it was t discussed bc quite frankly i don’t think the show runners had the range to discuss those things #so like why even make him cuban or latino at all yk??? #if his identity wasn’t gonna be treated with utmost care and respect ?!;?;? #and for him to get the ending he got #just like. i wish him and allura were developed more thoroughly #very upsetting to see two characters of color who could’ve been FANTASTIC completely flop due to incompetence #but yeah that’s my rant pls don’t read this lmao #also i liked whats his face as his va i think he’s very charming but the no spanish thing was just idk #i can’t speak on behalf of hunk bc i am not polynesian but VERY upset that his culture wasn’t explored at all like ik theyre in space #and these things had no bearing on the plot but omg who fucking cares #the plot was obsolete at times anyways so what does it matter #anyways that’s my rant don’t respond if ur gonna argue w me #argue w ur mom

[sol-flo]

um possibly kinda early in the week for such a topic but i don't think i have an entirely normal relationship with death and grief and i find my apathy a little disconcerting

#idk. half my grandparents died before i was born and a third when i was only like 4. i spent most of my conscious life untouched by death #last one died recently and i just felt relief bc she had been dragging (lack of better word) for months and it was fucking my family up bad #like my mom texted me to tell me and i didn't reply bc i could only think of saying 'ok' and she would not take that well #and now my dog's dying too bc she's 16 and she's not at home bc we're remodelling and i can't take care of her on my own anyway #and idk do i want to visit her in another town before she kicks it? i think i should want to but it's gonna be a pain in the ass to go #am i really just putting my short term convenience above seeing the dog i've lived with for most my life for the last time #i think i am yeah. this is kinda fucked actually right? more conflicted about this than with my damn grandma. didn't go to her funeral #oh well. sorry to be a bummer on tunglr dot edu. all my friends are at work so i can't very well call any of them rn #i think i'll try and get lunch with one of them but idk if he's the one i wanna talk about this with...