#the admin support for these traditions and came to you with zero knowledge they even existed and look I’m so ingrained in the community now

[jimgandolfini]

normal people: struggle to let their new s/o get close enough to break their heart the way a former s/o did

me: struggling to accept the generosity and mentorship of a fella should it result in the way I disappointed my former mentor into no longer speaking to me🫠🥴

#this fellas teaching me a type of art that I was introduced to at my former museum #and he’s so happy that I care about what he does and he’s very proud of my interest/efforts #so he keeps telling ppl he’s teaching me and showing them my progress #bc he’s just very excited #(even tho I’d prefer to keep expectations low and not have everyone in the world know/expect something from me) #but my point is it’s 🤢 that I occasionally wonder if he’s told museum paul or someone he told then told museum paul #and I kind hope he has 🤮🤮 #idk #one of my favorite compliments of all time #was my former/favorite coworker saying that if anyone was going to replace museum paul and match his level of enthusiasm it would be me #and idk idk idkdkiidkd idk #I’m just a little bit like mp look my interest is/was genuine I really care look and I’m doing my part to carry the tradition on look I was #the admin support for these traditions and came to you with zero knowledge they even existed and look I’m so ingrained in the community now #that one of the best guys alive doing it is teaching me look MP look #😕😖🤮🤮 #anywya really though #this guys so incredibly kind and he’s so enthusiastic about me learning #and it’s wonderful but a little part of me a little deeper down is like okay but just be prepared to not be surprised or crushed if you do #fail him or fall out one day #bc MP is still the most sincere person I’ve ever met and the current state of things doesn’t cancel out anything but #all that sincerity all that mentorship all those positive things also don’t cancel out the fact that we are at 180 degreees from where we #used to be #mp #anyway