day 3: what the actual fucking fuck.
putting landslide by fleetwood mac at the end of the final episode of the walking dead is just pure cruelty. it is borderline MURDEROUS because the way they slaughtered my soul and ruined my tear ducts…i will never be the same.
the moment i heard the tune come in i wanted to curl up into a ball, cry my heart out, teleport to the front door of whoever made the creative decision to make that song a very prominent background song that went very well with the finale, strategically pick the lock, and then proceed to enter the house; where i will then drench every pair of sock they have in milk, pour tomato soup on their carpets, turn every single picture frame upside down, crease every crisp sneakers they have, butter every square inch of tiled floors in their house, clog their sinks with the most expensive jewellery they have and empty every soap and shampoo bottle in their bathrooms so that they will have no choice but to shower with toothpaste. i will wreak havoc upon your household and ensure that you wake up to find every single minor inconvenience you can think of HAPPENING before your eyes. maybe it will take you months to realise half of it, but then i will linger in your mind forever, like the pain you have caused me by putting stevie mf nicks in the final episode of the show that kept me alive with all the blood, sweat and tears it made me shed.
but also…
i want to kiss your forehead. i want to stroke your cheek gently and caress your hair with a loving touch. i will embrace you with open arms and hold you like you’ve never been held before — preciously, tenderly…almost to the point of worship. you will experience such love that it will overwhelm you with the pure confusion of love and pain, so blissful, so bright…that it will feel almost foreign, inhumane. i will sing you songs of admiration and praise. your name will be known for thousands of years when i etch your name into stone, literally making history with the profound joy you have blessed me with. it will be my way of thanking you for putting one of my favourite songs in the final episode of one of my favourite shows.
i may decide to break you by leaving you, ripping you away from the godlike affection that i have offered you. then you will suffer in the torment of knowing what it felt like and having to live in the absence of it. i will leave you to wonder why you even deserved it in the first place. or i may decide to part with you with a naked kiss, ghosting you with the slightest touch of my lips against your skin. and then i will disappear into the night, making you wonder if it was all just a wonderful dream.
also that caryl “i love you” is so much more than people make it to be. it’s a “you’re more than words can ever describe” i love you. a “we are beyond partners or soulmates, you are everything to me and nothing can change that no matter what happens or no matter how i feel” i love you. it’s a “i don’t have strength to say it because it may overwhelm me with too many emotions that i cannot even begin to comprehend, but i can’t live without you” i love you. a “see you soon i care about you so much please don’t ever forget about me” I love you. a “you and i have been through so much together and our bond is something planets are made of and it’s been forged in the fire of the trauma we have faced hand-in-hand throughout these years” i love you. a “i am yours without trying. i will always cone back to you.” I love you. its way more than just romantic or platonic. it’s the caryl magic that we have experienced through all 11 seasons.
so yeah as you can tell i am definitely not emotional and trying very hard to keep it together despite the fact that the show i love so much is officially over now even if there are spin offs
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little known fact, i am a huge the walking dead fan. it's the first tv show i ever got into (i was 9 when it premiered!) and one of the very few shows i ever watched on a weekly release basis.
i remember, up until season 8 when i stopped watching, i literally had never once in over 8 years missed an episode. i was seated at 9pm every sunday evening when it released.
my whole family sat around to watch it together, but we all stopped when they killed carl because that was just unforgivable, atrocious writing that we could not look past.
we tuned in for rick grimes' last episode, and for michonne, but we never watched the show in earnest after season 8.
i did, however, tune in to the finale last night. it was a bit bittersweet, now that i have grown up so much, i had a watch party with a group of friends rather than my family being together (people have moved out, moved on).
while watching it, it was just a tad disappointing because it really wasn't the walking dead for me. the walking dead died with carl grimes.
the camera angles, the filter, the camera quality, the characters, they just aren't what i fell in love with. i miss the grain, the hazy look, the lowkey-ness of it, the tight knit cast of characters. i miss the original opening credits. i miss rick grimes more than anything.
but, nevertheless, i was actually really impressed with the series finale. i cried. A LOT. the performances, specifically from connie, kelly, magna, yumiko, and luke in that first act of the episode... wow. i was a puddle of tears. i hardly knew those characters, but the walking dead has a phenomenal, talented cast.
and rosita, my love :( full on sobbing mess. she deserved better. she deserved to live forever with her baby girl that she fought so hard for. she deserved to go swimming, in the summer, with her bestie, eugene. a beautiful, powerful performance from christian serratos. rosita espinosa is a walking dead icon, one of its best characters. she deserved to make it to the end. that was a raw, heartbreaking end to her story.
and i dont know if i can put my love and emotions during that very final scene into words. rick grimes, my beloved. one of my all time favorite characters, the first character i ever stanned, a character i will always hold so close to my heart. you cannot have the walking dead without rick grimes.
i was convinced that neither rick or michonne would make an appearance. i should have known that andrew and danai wouldn't let the show end without one more epic scene.
i screamed, burst into even more tears, and had the body high of a lifetime when i got to see rick grimes on my screen again.
perfect ending to the finale, perfect final monologue, pitched in from the entire cast, finished by michonne and rick. the beautiful montage of all the past, iconic characters. the nods to all who built the walking dead and made it as incredible as it was. seeing glenn, carl, beth, hershel, and tara grace my screen again... it was a beautiful final few minutes to a show i will always, always, always love.
rick grimes has, what i consider to be, the most epic, intense, profound character arc of all time. i've loved him since season 1, and i'll follow his path through the walking dead universe with no hesitation.
rick grimes went from believing "we are the walking dead" to believing "we're the ones who live."
rick grimes, there is no character quite like you!
thank you to andrew lincoln for his flawless portrayal of one of the most badass main characters to ever exist in television history.
the walking dead changed, for the worse. but, that finale was truly a love letter to what it used to be. it was incredible. im so sad it's over, that it couldn't end during its peak, but i cannot wait to see rick grimes and michonne grimes back on my screen, next year.
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THESEE INTERACTIONS MEAN THE WORLD TO ME
i genuinely am so happy and sad at the same time bc the show ended and everything and GOD the finale 😵💫
anyways thats all i have to say other than so many cast members showed up and they ALLLL looked so good. if you havent seen the finale, PLEASE watch it!!!!
my show is finally over and i’m heartbroken. but also excited for the spinoffs in the future 🤭
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