#thinking their relationship is perfect while being jealous and secret-woman-mistress about padmé in general when they work together

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omg the counseling au!!!! i loved how anakin was making banthashit arguments about 'how inevitable it is for him to constantly worry for his master (as if he was his spouse) and padme not understanding it even though she was also constantly worrying for her husband (which he actually is)'. as much as I love how unhinged the boys are for each other, I'm still so sad for padme because she's so... kind and nice and loving. I hope she will be able to find her own happiness after her slightly-idiotic-husabnd-who-did-not-even-realize-he's-been-in-insane-love-with-his-master-since-he-was-like-13 finally gets his head together. wonderful update as always!

i think for the couples counseling au and the anidala in the fic, i'm really trying to balance the line of having this relationship fall apart in some pretty spectacular/dramatic ways, but without having either of them come off as bad. i don't necessarily feel bad for padmé in any of my recent fics that deal with anidala crumbling post (mostly couples counseling au and a more perfect union) cause she's wholly in and crazy about anakin and she must understand on some level that he is alos wholly in and crazy about his master first and foremost.

there's a line in a more perfect union that i really like where padmé admits that she knew anakin was in love with obi-wan but thought that as long as he never realized, she could marry him and be in love with him and that it would be enough and i feel like there are aspects of that in the couples counseling au - not that she knows that anakin is in love with obi-wan, but she certainly understands that obi-wan is Anakin's Most Important Person and she's just starting to realize what that means for her and for their relationship because she keeps coming in second, even for something as simple as where anakin spends the night

like in general i think in these fics and also in canon padmé knowingly married a ticking bomb of a man and we're just watching the relationship itself explode - it doesn't make her a bad person or anything, it just makes her sort of willfully blind. i don't think either of them are bad people, but they're just not like. good together or meant to be together and anakin's chapters in couples counseling definitely detail the falling apart of that relationship because they're just not right for each other anymore

#asks #couples counseling au #a more perfect union #to be clear tho obi-wan's chapters probably wont deal as much with anidala falling apart #because obi-wan will be his own flavor of willfully blind about the whole thing #thinking their relationship is perfect while being jealous and secret-woman-mistress about padmé in general when they work together #which they will #but yeah i think one of the things i like about writing the fic so far #is padme and anakin's relationship #which is a mess for a thousand reasons #but im really trying to capture padmé's own agency in it #like she is not going to just. let anakin go without a fight #she's being kind and forgiving and trying to understand anakin but it's coming from a place of subconsciously realizing she's losing him #she will not be teethless later on