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#this is what i was doing when i missed the new years countdown LMFAO
handweavers · 5 months
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first english paper pieced quilt top is going well, i really like this plus sign design. i'm mostly using cotton fabric from past sewing projects, a lot of it is indian block print fabric as well that i've thrifted. epp quilting is all hand stitched which i really enjoy
the ugly visible stitching is just basting stitches that temporarily attach the paper templates to the fabric, they get removed later
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Back at it again with a fic that nobody asked for lmfao. Can you believe it’s already been like a year since I made this blog? Fucking wild. Anyways, here’s a new year's fic with our main boy Merriell because I am incapable of writing for anyone else it seems #whoops.
Summary: Set kind of in modern times I guess. Reader and Mer go to a New Year’s party in which an ex is there and it just kind of escalates to fucking in a linen closet. 
Pairing: Merriell Shelton / Reader (femme)
Warnings: Oh god where do I start, filthy dirty talk, possessiveness on both parts, maybe a bit of jealousy, oral sex (male receiving), fingers, semi-public sex, lemme know if there’s something else I should put here
Words: 2540 
Tags: @r-ahh-mi @sherlollydramoine @txml @xmxisxforxmaybe @moon-stars-soul let me know if you wanna be added to my tag list or if I missed you!
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The New Years party we’re at isn’t particularly fancy, one of Merriell’s old friends from high school. It’s almost a reunion, only far less formal. People are dressed up but most of the party-goers are acting more like it’s the night of their senior prom. There’s beer pong set up on the dining room table, some sort of suck and blow card game being played in the living room and loud drunken conversations are taking place around us. I stand in the kitchen, conversing with some girls I know vaguely from over the years of attending parties like this, making polite conversation. I usually don’t care for small talk, it’s hard to care about why someone you barely know had stopped drinking or how they managed to get insurance payments so low, but the amount of alcohol in my system makes it easier to pretend. 
“You must be something special” One of the girls directs at me, I don’t remember her name but I know she and Mer had a brief fling in high school, years ago, “I remember Shelton in high school, no one thought he’d ever settle down. What’s your secret?” It sounds so condescending coming from her. A stereotypical suburban trophy wife. Married a Chad or a Brad right out of high school just to say they were high school sweethearts when in reality they could barely stand each other, cheated on each other every other night.  Probably prom queen and he’s probably football quarterback. She’s never had to work for anything in her life. She’s always pissed me off. And right now there’s just enough alcohol in my system for me to clap back at her. 
Almost as if he sensed my annoyance, Merriell’s suddenly by my side, arm looping around my waist to settle a hand possessively on my hip to hold me back, “Hiya Darlin’,” he greets, kissing my temple lovingly. “Everythin’ alright?” 
“Yeah,” I answer, smiling up at him, “we were just talking about you actually.” He raises his eyebrows, his eyes crinkling in amusement as he hums in response, “About how I managed to wrangle you away from the bachelor life.”
He chuckles, hand squeezing my waist, “Baby, you know you didn’t have to wrangle me away from nothin’, I knew the second I laid eyes on ya that I’d follow ya to the ends of the world.” 
The suburban wife coos, but one look at her face shows barely masked jealousy and I can’t help but feel smug. Just to piss her off a little more, I drag his head down to meet my lips, kissing his just on the side of too dirty for a public place. It’s quick though, and when we pull away he looks at me with a mixture of amazement, amusement and lust.
“C’mon,” I say pulling him towards to door to the living room, “I need a new drink.” 
I don’t. But I want to get away from the group of wives before I do something that’ll ruin the night. He follows me, hot on my tail, out of the kitchen, both hands on my hips now. He takes control, leading me to a hallway off the main room, turning me in his grasp to let me rest against the wall. 
“Love it when you get all territorial like that.” He smirks down at me.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I feign innocence, wrapping my arms around his neck but refusing to meet his gaze.
He doesn’t let me keep my head turned for long, using his nose against mine to turn my head to his and capture my lips in another kiss. He keeps kissing me, each one a tad more urgent than the next and I know where this is going. 
“Merriell,” I warn against his lips, “You best turn the heat down, you remember what happened last time.”
He pulls away slightly, huffing in annoyance but smirking as the memory catches up with him. We’d been invited to a Halloween party. And of course, Merriell insisted that I wear the sluttiest costume he could find. Needless to say, he didn’t make it until we got home. He’d gotten himself all worked up and had to take me to the nearest bathroom. Bent me over the sink and fucked the near daylights out of me. It wouldn’t have been a problem; if he had remembered to lock the door. 
He hums, “I remember that bein’ kind of exciting’.” He says lowly, rubbing his nose against mine. 
“No,” I say sternly.
He pouts, whines while his hands rub up and down my back and down to grab my ass, “Bet I could persuade you.”
I raise my eyebrows at him, “Persuade?” I smirk, “Using your big boy words, I see.”
He growls playfully against my neck, nipping and sucking at the skin there, “Shut up,” he plays, moving his hot mouth further up my neck to my jawline, up further to my ear where he sucks my earlobe into his mouth. My mouth drops on a pleasured sigh, running my hands up his arms and squeezing ever so slightly. I have to bite my lip on a whine when he blows cool air on the spit left on my ear. 
“C’mon baby,” he mumbles, breath hot against the side of my face, “I know you wanna.” 
I huff, annoyed that he knows me so well, that he knows how to work my body into such a frenzy when he’s barely touched me. He glances down the hallway briefly before move one of his hands around to the front of my jeans. He rubs lightly at the front of my jeans, my hips responding by pressing against the friction. He chuckles darkly, moving his hand up to the top of my jeans and dipping his fingers in past the waistline of my underwear, just teasing. My breath hitches in anticipation.
“We can’t,” I try one last time at feigning innocence, despite my entire body betraying my true desires, “the countdown starts soon.” 
That only rips a low moan from Merriell’s throat and prompts him to catch my lips in a dirty kiss, sucking on my tongue slowly, “Wanna fuck you into next year.” I can hear the smirk in his voice and I curse under my breath, knowing full well he has me wrapped around his finger.
He laughs delightfully, knowing he’s won, and drags me to the nearest room. This time, it’s not a bathroom, but a sizeable linen closet. There’s enough room for us, but it’s tight and I have a feeling we’re about to get real hot and sweaty. 
He wastes no time, crowding me against the back wall and all but devouring my lips. His hands are everywhere. Sliding up my neck and into my hair, back down my body, along the length of my spine, down to grab my ass and then grabbing one thigh, bringing it up to his hips so he can effectively grind against me. I gasp into his mouth at the feeling of his erection against my clothed heat.
“Can you believe,” he breathes, biting my bottom lip, “that the first thing imma feel going into the new year is your hot pussy around me.” 
I choke on a moan, dragging him back down for another kiss that’s just as filthy as his words. He gets to work on my pants, fumbling with the button a bit before finally pulling them down my legs. I kick one leg free to hoist my thigh up to his hip again. We just need enough nudity for easy access. His hand dips down into my panties, fingers finding their way to my clit to rub slow, teasing circles.
He groans, “already so wet for me, cher.” his lips quirk up into a smirk, “wonder if it’s just as wet down...” he trails off, removing his hand from my panties so he can tug them to the side a sink a single finger into me. He shudders on a moan, “fuckin’ hell baby.” 
He adds another finger and my breathing begins to pick up as he slides them in and out of my now soaking core. My hands are tangled in his hair, keeping his eyes locked on mine. He crooks his fingers, pressing against my g-spot and my head rolls back on a breathy moan, eyes slipping shut for a moment. When I open them again he’s smirking at me, fingers still moving languidly inside of me. 
“Fuck me,” I whisper. His eyebrows shoot up but he makes no move to change his course of action. I whine, rolling my hips against his hand, “fuck me.” I beg, “Need to feel you.” My hand moves to the front of his jeans, where he’s hard and throbbing through the rough material. I scratch my nails against him, watching the shiver that wracks his body, watching his mouth drop ever so slightly on a silent moan, “Need to feel this.” I take a breath before adding, “Deep inside me.”
And then he’s near scrambling, barely getting his belt unbuckled before shoving his pants and briefs to the ground. Before he can do much else though, I sink to the ground, overwhelmed with the need to take him into my mouth. 
There is truly not much better than watching his come apart in my mouth. I love watching the way his mouth drops open and his eyebrows furrow when I take him as deep as I can. His hand comes to rest at the crown of my head, just guiding my movements ever so slightly. His forearm of his free arm braces himself against the wall, hand clenched around nothing, hips rocking ever so slightly. 
“Such a talented little mouth ya got there,” he breathes, always unable to keep his words to himself, “Always so hot and wet for me. Could stay here all night.” at my answering moan, he smirks through the shudder that wracks his body, “Yeah? Ya like that? Wanna stay on your knees for me? Taking my cock in ya mouth like the perfect little cocksucker you are? Huh?” 
I feel my pussy clench around nothing, his words never fail to wound me up. I drag my nails down his thighs, grab his bare ass and pull him further towards me, pass my gag reflex so he can feel my throat work around him. He growls, pulling out and dragging me back up. He claims my mouth, tongue making its way past my lips to chase the taste of himself. 
“Gotta fuck you,” he says breathlessly. 
I whine, nodding enthusiastically as he grips both my thighs and hoists me up the wall, “fuck me.” I say desperately, wrapping an arm around his neck. The feeling of the head of his cock tease my opening has me going crazy, “Merriel, please.” 
I swear, I see stars as he finally sinks into me, stretching and filling me in all the right ways. My head rolls back, thunking against the wall with a pleasurable sigh. 
“Yeah,” He sighs, cranking his neck up to kiss me, “Feels so fuckin’ good.”
I wrap my legs around his waist as best I can in this position, wanting to feel him deeper. He starts to move, at first just rocking steadily in and out before starting to properly thrust. It’s a steady pace, but he reaches so deep that I can’t help but bury my head in the crook of his neck, trying to stay quiet. The noises of the party just outside the door blur, not even the footsteps of people making their way to and from the bathroom can tear me away from the feeling of him hitting all the right spots. 
I can’t help that sound that’s ripped out of me when he thrusts particularly hard, the head of his cock dragging against a pleasurable spot on my front wall. He laughs breathlessly, “Gotta be quiet baby,” he teases, hitting that same spot again just to watch me bite my lip and dig my nails into his arm, “Don’t want anyone walking in on us this time, do we?” 
It always blows my mind how he’s able to talk during this, his speech steady but bouncing with every hard thrust of his hips. 
“Or maybe,” he smirks, “You want people to find us? Especially all those girls who wanted me. Want them to see that it’s only you who gets me.”
Knowing there are girls at this party that had wanted him, no matter how many years ago, sends a pang of possessiveness through me. My hand flies to his jaw, tilting his head so I can stare into his eyes, “You’re mine.” I near growl.
He laughs, or tries to through a moan at least, “All yours baby,” he agrees, “But you’re mine too, don’t forget that.” His thrusts slow for a moment, teasing thrusts from the tip of his dick all the way down until skin meets skin.
“Such a nice pussy, who’s it belong to?” he asks, and we’re so close. Chest to chest, nose to nose, breathing in each other's breaths and moans. 
“You,” I answer, “It’s yours, Mer, all yours.” 
I feel myself getting closer as he speeds up again, taking one look at his face and I can tell he is too. His eyes are shut, eyebrows pulled down into a look a concentration and his mouth is open, letting out a series of soft sighs and moans. 
Someone from outside the door yells, their voice barely carrying past the sounds of skin on skin and continuous moans, “30 seconds ‘till New Years!” 
Merriell fixes me with a gaze of determination, “Ya close baby?” 
I nod, working my hips back against his thrusts desperately as I feel myself climb towards relief, “Yes,” I breath, kissing him sloppily.
His noises are turning desperate, like he’s holding on barely by a thread, “So fucking close..” he whines, head dropping to my chest where he sucks a mark into the exposed skin. 
15....14....13....12....11
“Look at me,” I beg, wanting to watch him come apart. 
He meets my gaze, our noses brushing together as we pant hotly into each other's mouth.
10....9....8....7....6
“Oh god,” he groans, “Baby, I’m gonna...” 
The sensations are adding up, his pelvis brushing against my clit with each pleasurable thrust. 
...5....
“Are you gonna...?” he asks, 
I nod.
....4....
“Yes,” I whimper, “God, Merriell.” 
....3....2....
“Oh fuck,” he growls, teeth latching onto my shoulder hard, and my nails dig into his bicep.
....1....
Relief crashes over us simultaneously. I can’t stop the moan that leaves my lips as I cum around him, clenching tightly, feeling him throb and twitch and fill me with his own. The party outside rages but we’re too caught up in our own euphoria to notice it. 
Merriell’s thrusts turn shallow as he rides out our orgasms, capturing my lips in a sloppy kiss, muffling our moans and whimpers. We breathe heavily against each other as we come down, hips twitching with aftershocks. 
His eyes flutter open and he looks at me with a sated and satisfied smile. 
“Happy New Year.” 
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saportuh · 6 years
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ok panic concert highlights
(plus some personal adventures)
this was the portland show on the 12th k
so it was a fuckin hour and a half drive bc where i fuckin live now is far away from everything i hate it anyway that sucked & i ran my phone down to 80 percent during said drive which proved problematic
we get there (me & my lil sis) & our dad drops us off & we run up & im bitching about how weird the fucking venue is (it’s normal, it’s just not what i’m used to - in vegas the venues were typically in the casino/resorts so you lined up inside the halls & sat against the walls & tourist-watched, in this venue u stood outside in a line???? ughhh)
so we approach the line & something happens, i’m gonna make a separate post about it because holy shit
befriended two excitable gay kids, maybe 8th or 9th grade?? & i was like woah i was u once. now im old & jaded. eugh. then they bailed on me so.
we got into the arena & were on the wrong fucking side so we had to JOG all the way AROUND THE WHOLE FUCKINGN PLACE UGH
THEN WE GOT IN & SAT IN THE WRONG SEATS so the guy next to me (dad w a thick accent, maybe ukranian?? it wasn’t russian but it was close) politely informed me & i was like fuck well until they get here we’ll stay, but i had anxiety so during an arizona song i pretended to go to the bathroom & came back to look for our actual seat, someone took it so i pussied out & went back, had hella anxiety about it, then before hayley the ppl showed up so we had to move & i had to kick some preps out of their seat & they called my lil sister a bitch ;-;
OK SO ONTO THE PERFORMERS
arizona was cute, gotta check them out... singer kept getting emotional & wiping his eyes, it was sweet, and he was hella feeling himself dancing & stuff lmaoo. idk em but im proud of them.
HAYLEYYYYYYYYYYY her dancing & drumming & outfit??? also all the lesbians/wlw getting crunk in the crowd was so damn good haha
ALSO shout out to hayley’s band, they were so cute??? the guitarist & her kept having moments & he seemed like a cool dude, & the girl on synths was so pretty omg??? & smiley i loved her. & the drummer, they were goin so hard i couldnt get a good look, but they had kewl hair
“if you don’t know anything about me, there’s one thing you should know: I LOVE GIRLS” there was so much gay energy at that show i was teary the whole damn time
k confession, i love everything about hayley but i find her voice a little grating on the ears, something about it, but it was super angelic live & didn’t bug me once, & wanna be missed fucked me up cuz it’s my fucking f a v
SHE DID THE DRUMMY IT WAS HOT 
her oufit was so damn iconic rlly tho, the pants & shoes totes fit her but wouldn't look good on anyone else, but that shirt, the hot dad look w the open v & all the jewelry, holy fuck that’s how im tryna be
during girls like girls, everyone had their lights out & there was a bunch of pride flags out, and i got this gorgeous shot of a gay pride flag illuminated by lights (i posted it)
most of the songs they played between the breaks were gay themed too which was powerful dude i was so damn emotional
then during the countdown to panic, they played the next episode by dre (the “smoke weed every day” song) & then africa by toto jsfndjfndjskfnjdk
THEN PANIC CAME OUT 
WHOLE ASS STRING & BRASS SECTION BDEN RLLY WENT THERE WOAH
KENNY & NICOLE WERE SO CUTE THE WHOLE TIME THEY KEPT GOOFING AROUND ESPECIALLY KENNY IT WAS ADORABLE
THEN BREB POPPED OUT THE DAMN FLOOR
ok several things about breb
one, i never was heavy into panic, but considering how obsessive i was into bandom a few years back, i still know a lot about early panic, livejournal shit, ryden bullshit, etc, so it was really weird being there with normies who were just like “he’s hot & sings good” when i was like “yall lucky fucks never heard of myrtle beach ” dsjfnjsdnfds
two, four years into panic & i never was attracted to brendon, but dude, EVERYONE fell in love with him at this show, myself included, & i was starin at this bitch ass motherfucker in a trance before i was like “wait ur a bastard STOP U ENDEARING DICKWAD” he was so fucking endearing it was ANNOYING cuz i’ve seen some of the shit he’s pulled damnit. srsly tho, so absolutely charming, wow.
three, and what stuck with me most; brendon loves what he does. a little bit of exhibitionism, i think; he likes ppl looking at & admiring him, he’s that type of person, a showman, but also, i think he just loves making music, people singing along to the music, etc. ive been to eight concerts now, and i don’t think i’ve seen someone who clearly loved being on stage so much. a lot of ppl act like it’s a chore to tour, but brendon clearly loves it, and it made me happy, especially as an aspiring musician. 
four, the straighties drooling over him and the gays drooling over him was truly straight/gay solidarity
ok what else happened... brendon would throw in random ass high notes towards the ends of songs... my sister looked at me super alarmed when he first did it during dtmwagt lmfao... ppl would cheer & it was impressive, but kinda piercing & i was like “show off” lol
HE DID THE ‘I MAKE THESE HIGH HEELS WORK’ thing, i thought he retired tht?? so i was pleased lmfao
i dont rmr anything that stands out about ready to go or la devotee but the lights & backgrounds during them were very pretty & i got some good pics of brebbois face (i finally got semi decent quality pics im rlly happy abt tht, concerts r so hard to photograph)
hallelujah was cool cuz there were, like, those catholic(?) church windows projected on the top part of the stage, it was pretty af, they rlly outdid themselves with the visuals
and mona lisa had like pipes & industrial stuff?? idk it looked dope, and it contrasted rlly cool it was super pretty
nine in the afternoon,,,, the only pretty odd song... i dont even like pretty odd but it was like,,, damn. & he had the piano, total live in denver vibes ;-; but he wasnt dripping sweat this time lmao
golden days, brebweenie knows hes hot, kept winking & doing mic flips & shit & i was like u fucken weenie ive seen that pic of u w a bowl cut in a bra, die
k he’s a fuckin bastard but hhe’s pretty & talented fuckin big ego bitch ... can yall tell i hav a lovehate relationship w him bc i do
I GOT THIS ONE PART ON VIDEO DURING GOLDEN DAYS WHERE KENNY & NICOLE R FUCKING AROUND & MAKING FACES & GOOFING IT’S SO CUTE
during casual affair in the chorus, the mic would echo each word (just lay (lay) in the atmosphere (sphere) & the ‘lay’ was rlly good on my ears idk sometimes certain vocal notes sound GOOD & that was one i keep replaying it
SO VEGAS LIGHTS as yall kno i was born & raised in vegas & a vegasfucker69 it’s my fucking home i moved last november (not my choice) & miss it violently & i was CRYING during vegas lights hard & it was so beautiful im gonna watch the video i got over & over & over that song means so much to me IM SO FUCKING HOMESICK
speaking of which, im pretty bitter i didnt see panic in vegas, this was my first panic show & that kinda bothers me, like i should’ve seen them in vegas a few yrs ago but it never worked out.... still, im grateful i saw them at all & im glad i saw the song live. i had my fob snapback on too, it says ‘las vegas’ on it cuz i got it there haha, wore that on purpose
he did the fucking running man thing towards the end & everyone cheered & i was like dONT ENABLE HIM
sat down during dancing’s not a crime cuz im a bitch who doesn’t like half the new record & also my knees hurt cuz im old apparently, anyway this chick glared at me then sang every word wat a fuckin prep lmao
o yah i forgot, in golden days he got in the crowd & let a girl sing the last chorus it was amazing i bet that made her life
AND DURING DOAB HE WALKED THRU THE CROWD that was SO FUCKING ENDEARING i was like “wow what a guy” then i was like “HE’S A BITCH U KNOW HIM” & i was like “hmm??? what a guy” but omg he made so many people happy it was really beautiful & sweet & i was like... half in love & then i came to my senses jksjfhjsdhfkjsdn
RLLY THO HE WALKED THRU THE CROWD & HIGH FIVED PPL & SHIT & GAVE HUGS & TOOK ART/LETTERS IT WAS SO DAMN GOOD HE WAS SO SWEET & LEGIT EVERYONE WAS FALLING FOR HIM & I WAS LIKE SUFFERING
legit guys, like it’s weird i used to watch his parascopes in 2015 or w/e & he’d say some Bad shit on there sometimes, like ik he does some messy shit BUT HE ACTED SO FUCKING LOVELY BLEH
also he’s very short, like he’s 2 inches taller than me but he looked so little in the crowd i was like... aw
the piano thing ;-; it was rlly pretty but my paranoia & anxiety was off the charts i was like that things gonna fucking fall & crush the crowd it’s gonna fucking fALL but it didnt ofc but i was stressed bleghh
but ok on a positive note, that was soo fucken lovely, bden stopped to try to make eye contact with as many ppl in as many places of possible, like he made the effort to get to everyone & make them have a special moment & it was ... magical ok thts fucken cliche as shit but it rlly was
ok i did smth lowkey embarrassing, i doubt he saw, but when he faced towards us i was just overwhelmed w like.. gratitude?? ive had a bad 2 years in every way, so being somewhere filled with love & fun & kindness & joy & all around good vibes, i was so grateful? i just wanted to thank him for creating that kinda atmosphere. so i like,,, blew kisses but not in a weird way, like later i was like oh that was kinda weird whyd i do that, but at that moment i didnt use my head & it was jus my instinctual way of saying thank u idk it’s lame but it happened so there ya go idfk
fun fact, my vid of it is out of focus cuz i was so enamored watching him & watching the crowd react it was pretty fucking magical it rlly was
once he got down from that piano he went “wow i feel so fucking inspired now” & i was like “bitch me too tf” 
legit it was absolutely indescribable, even watching my vid now.... wow. and u can hear me lightly crying in the back of my video too lmao, and i was shaking p hard, it was so fucking magical. like im getting emotional rn cuz it was exactly what i needed to remind myself that there is good stuff in the world thats worth staying for. 
i never was super big on panic or breb like i said but if i ever meet him im gonna thank him bc that. wow. transformative.
also that transition from the piano cover he did to dying in la was smooth af. it was all around gorgeous.
OK GIRLS GIRLS BOYS, I WAS SO CONCERNED W FILMING I COULDNT PUT MY LIGHT ON (i had a red heart) BUT OMG
he got a bi flag first, then a rainbow one, then another rainbow one... one was those hayley ones lol, and one ended up on the stage out of his eyesight & he never saw it & i felt so bad fjdnfds
G-D ALL THE GAYS SINGING WAS SO EMOTIONAL & THE RAINBOW BEHIND THEM ON STAGE (AND PAN FLAG COLORS AT TIMES?!??!?!)) IT WAS FUCKING MAGICAL & BRENDON LET A FLAG DRIFT IN THE WIND FOR A SEC BEFORE HE PUT IT ON IT WAS GORGEOUS
AND ALL THE RAINBOW LIGHTS IN THE CROWD FUCK DUDE
breb might be a turd but he’s the only one of these emo dudes who parades around draped in flags & so aggressively empowers gay fans through it, and for that, i respect him. ik the song has more perverse origins but now it’s a bi anthem that rlly connects w lgbt fans & it’s rlly beautiful, AND i got another gorgeous shot of a pride flag surrounded by lights & im just. wow.
after, breb said “that is gorgeous btw” about the rainbow lights, and “thank u for participating in love” & giggled, i got this shot of the lights in the dark lookin incredible ;-;
also said “this a record number of flags tonight, very cool” so portland is rlly gay apparently, kewl
nicole doin the nicotine bass line slayed me dead wowie u can hear me go “WOO” on the vid lmfao (im a bassist so i lov her double)
ive seen miss jackson live twice now cuz at my monumentour show, new politics brought lolo out to cover it so that’s dope lmfao
anyway bden did the fuckin valley girl voice for “the scenery is so loud” which was delightful
he had us do the ‘ayyyy’ bit woo
NICOLES BASS,,, SPARKLY
drum thingy ;-; speaking of monumentour, andy & patrick famously did a drum off & i MISSED IT cuz the stage at my venue wasnt large enough to fit both sets ;-; so they didnt do it ;-; but bden doin his own drum solo kinda made up for it a little bit
fuckin show off tho he played like 3 instruments & i was like u bitch stop
there was some kinda audio sample that went “i got a fever & the only prescription is more caffeine(?)” & bden mouthed the words along, and some girl behind me went “SAME” 
UPDATE: googled it, i knew i recognized chris walken’s voice, he says cowbell not caffeine & it’s a skit from snl that i’ve SEEN im a disgrace anyway that was fun also woo cowbell
the big screen kept cutting from bden drumming to a shot of the crowd & someone holding a pride flag & i was like yah drumming is gay now
lmao i only filmed like a minute of a song unless i rlly liked it so i could spend the rest of the song gettin funky right?? & i like king of the clouds but not a ton, but i filmed the whole thing cuz the visuals were so pretty lmfaooo i jus was staring at them like wowwww prettyyyyy
during the ‘i dont feel anything at all’ he looked rlly sad & i couldnt tell if it was genuine or if he was goin for like a pouty look djfdsjfndjks then right after he winked so ig pouty thx breb
at some point he introduced nicole&kenny plus the strings & brass ppl as “his friends” it was sweet & he was like “these lovely ladies” about the strings & “these handsome men” about the brass & i was like WOO GAY RIGHTS
FIRE DURIN CRAZY EQUALS GENIUS. BOZ FLASHBACKS. FIRE ON MY FACE HUNDREDS OF FEET AWAY. FEAR. DONT LIKE FIRE. SPONTANEOUS COMBUSTION. KENNY WAS TOO CLOSE. FEAR.
a whole arena singing bohemian rhapsody 25+ years after freddie mercury’s death was Incredible, i dont believe in afterlives but if there is one i hope he was watching & enjoying & knowing his legacy was staying alive bc wow that was powerful
THE END WAS CRUNK AF HOLY SHIT BDEN GOT DOWN
i cant believe i remember the day emperors came out like,,,, jeez. so lit live tho
I HAVENT MENTIONED HIS SPARKLY SUIT YET. KING OF SPARKLY SUITS
BRENDON DOIN HIS HIGH NOTE BIT & THE STAGE LIGHTING UP FULLY ON FIRE FUCK DUDE
bitchden took his shirt off when he came out for the encore..... bitch
SINS,,, FUCK DUDE,,,, MY CHILDHOOD WAS CRYING HHYSTERICALLYYY, 
in the background of my vid u can hear me do the ‘ily’ ‘ily’ from the mv emo ass
my lil sis got fucken turnt to sins lmfaooo??? danced her ass off???
us: W H O R E bden: ily
VIOLINISTS GETTIN WILD TOO
they played footage of the music vid & breb & his fuckin iconic outfit & i was a lil emo kid again omg i cant believe i saw it live
he did funny voice durin calls for a toast nerd ... least he’s not entirely bitter abt songs ryan wrote anymore tho lmao... or maybe he is considering theres only two on the 30 song setlist ;-;
i gotta listen to afycso again damn it’s so iconic
oh yah at some bit he said “ive been doing this for 14 years, im 31 now” & it reminded me like.. most of these emo bands, they started so young. & got successful at such a young age. it’s so crazy. idk. wow. 
he got growly during the chorus, that’s pstump’s thing beeb dont steal it lmao
CONFETTI fitting ending, & i got him walking off which is cool, other bands it goes dark & they just kinda disappear & it’s unsatisfying ;-;
so yah i finally saw breadman live, i got 400 pics and 30 videos so that all got spam posted over the last few days lmao
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