#to do rn??? well see how long it lasts but yea v strange. wish i could control my fucking focus tho. like that would b great

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#it is truly so wild to go from feeling miserable and hopeless all the time for... lets look at my excel sheet #the last 23 days. then to suddenly rocket up to smiling to myself all day. the world is so fucking beautiful #for no rational reason aside from what i have to assume is a chemical shift in my body #like is this what happy ppl feel like all the time? its truely so crazy. have i always been like this? #did i not notice this was a thing? like ive definitely noticed it in the last year but like ??? #my suspicion is that it doesnt actually last long enough to b considered hypomania but like idk i should see a doctor probably lol #u would think being happy would make it easier to do things but i just keep forgetting to do them and just like spacing out lol bc rn i #feel chill. even tho i need to make a list of the shit i gotta do by Friday. bleh. but idk it makes being in thr lab so much nicer bc i #mean. i still dont give a fuck abt what im doing but im like fuck it this isnt gonna b my problem in like 2-3 months. even tho im sure ill #still have to write up everything. but idk. it also makes it easier to b like. ok so i kno what my problems r lets plan yo make things not #so horrible so u dont just live a miserable life and then like die having lived a life of fear. like its so crazy how much easier thst is #to do rn??? well see how long it lasts but yea v strange. wish i could control my fucking focus tho. like that would b great #its like the fucking painting of hypnose. my focus is like a lighthouse wildly swinging its light around until it sometimes blasts me in #the face. like not helpful. i need to b able to do things. #i guess the weird thing rn is thst while i feel happy. i also have this like simmering fear of irrational things. like when i used to live #in my parents basement and i was terrified of the dark rooms down there at night. like that kind of childish baseless fear #but like im in i tiny tiny apartment lol like bro what r u scared of??? silly silly silly #idk hopefully it holds out the whole rest of the week and then i can travel and see my parents like !!! yo !!! happy vibes :-D #that would b kinda unhinged lmao. i doubt itll last thst long. its already slipped from this morning so we shall see #unrelated

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TAGGED BY @dailyoddmew A cute and odd lil mew~ (who I wasn’t following apparently MY BAD)

1ST RULE: Tag 9 people you would like to know better 2ND RULE: bold the statements that are true

oh okay uhhh @photographerh @kamauster22 @ottiff @banessquik @sometimes-strange-skitty @lovelybug-art @sol-lar-bink And I can’t think of anymore I’m half asleep rn nnnn ;;o;;

((If you’ve done this or don’t want to, feel free to skip it! And if you want to do it but haven’t tagged, justtttt go for it!!))

APPEARANCE:

I am 5'7"  or taller (5′03′’ I think) I wear glasses (For long distances only~) I have at least one tattoo (Nupe) I have at least one piercing (no thanks uwu ) I have blonde hair (dark brown sound good?) I have brown eyes I have short hair (I like it short, expose my F O R E H E A D) My abs are at least somewhat defined (what abs) I have or have had braces (N e v e r)

PERSONALITY: I love meeting new people (Kindaa. I’m more nervous and shy tbh but I do like it) People tell me that I’m funny (I think so? I try to be funny at least uvu) Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me (I can try, and I want to help most of the time. But I’m not very good at it.) I enjoy physical challenges (NOOOPE) I enjoy mental challenges (M I N E S W E E P E R) I’m playfully rude with people I know well I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it (I have no clue but ima say yes just incase) There is something I would change about my personality (Don’t we all have something?)

ABILITY: I can sing well (Flan said my singing is nice so... I’ma say yes u//v//u ...even if all my songs are S A N I C) I can play an instrument (I suck :3c ) I can do over 30 pushups without stopping (HAH, I can barely do 5) I’m a fast runner (Nupe. Not even sonic’s shoes can save my slow ass) I can draw well (HECK YEA I CAN) I have a good memory (NOPE, I forget things after like 5 seconds) I’m good at doing math in my head (Eeehhhh... basic sums I guess. But if you get your fractions and tangents in then hand me the calculator) I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute (I used to be able to. Dunno anymore) I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch (Curry in a jar anyone? :B thatdon’tcount) I know how to throw a proper punch (why punch. When K I C K)

HOBBIES: I enjoy playing sports (Haven’t played any sports in ages) I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else (whatdidIJUSTSAY) I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else I have learned a new song in the past week (SO LOOK AROUND YOU AND TELL ME WHAT YOU REALLY SEE, I’M NEVER ENDING AND THATS THE DIFFERENCE IN YOU AND ME) I work out at least once a week I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months (why are these hobbies about EXERCISE AND SINGING) I have drawn something in the past month (YEP) I enjoy writing (YEP) FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION (YEP!!!) I do or have done martial arts (I DID, it was p’ fun while it lasted)

EXPERIENCES: I have had my first kiss (S-SOON. I HOPE, SOOOOOOOON) I have had alcohol (I like a rum n cola~ uwu) I have scored the winning goal in a sports game (fuk u sports) I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting I have been at an overnight event I have been in a taxi (Only like, once or twice) I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year I have beaten a video game in one day (God I wish. Speedrun Mania or sumthing) I have visited another country (Italy, Spain, France for Disneyland when I was like 5) I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIPS: I’m in a relationship (Eeeeeee ;;/v/;; Flaaaaan~ <3) I have a crush on a celebrity I have a crush on someone I know (MORE THAN THAT NOW, F L A A A AN~) I have been in at least 3 relationships (when I was a stupid teenager) I have never been in a relationship I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them I get crushes easily (Uh, I wouldn’t say so?) I have had a crush on someone for over a year (PFFF, never crushed for a year, w o a h) I have been in a relationship for at least a year (I think I have... I don’t... remember really) I have had feelings for a friend (Yeee)

MY LIFE: I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” (Best friends have always been a tough thing for me) I live close to my school (I’m 22, do I look like I go to school) My parents are still together (Yee~ happy family here uvu ) I have at least one sibling (MY BROOOO, he’s cool~) I live in the United States (How original of you, meme maker) There is snow right now where I live I have hung out with a friend in the past month (AHAHAHAHA, HAHAHA, HAHA, HA...Haaa) I have a smartphone (Is that what they’re called now) I have at least 15 CDs I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT: I have breakdanced I know a person named Jamie (I know, several Jamie’s) I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce (French teacher probs) I have dyed my hair I’m listening to one song on repeat right now (SO LOOK AROUND YOU AND TELL ME WHAT YOU REALLY SEE, YOU LIVE A LIE AND THATS THE DIFFERENCE IN YOU AND ME (IS IT FUCKIN’ OBVIOUS NOW) I have punched someone in the past week (MYSELF jkjk) I know someone who has gone to jail

I have broken a bone

I have eaten a waffle today

I know what I want to do with my life (YEA SURE, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING)

I speak at least 2 languages (I am too dumb to learn 2 languages.)

I have made a new friend in the past year (YEEEEEEEEE, quite a few tbh~)

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@seth-astral @doodlewill @b-randart, @cinnamon-bat, @im-crow, @theexplodingcelebi @trapmagius, @kawmapkarma, @zyrralex,

@bokurei-san

Holy fuk I tagged 10 people

I have

FRENS

You don’t gotta do the tag if ya don’t want tho uwu

#memes