#to realize that you need balance

[starcurtain]

I think the most amazing thing about Alhaitham's ironic question "How has realizing your ideals gone for you?" is that yes, on the surface, it pierced through the heart of Kaveh's feelings at the time and forced him to reflect on whether he still had enough belief to keep going, but--BUT--

This is also Alhaitham subtly asking: "Was your life better without me?"

Kaveh left their friendship because of his ideals.

Kaveh's attempts to realize his beliefs began in earnest during his argument with Alhaitham, who challenged him back then by suggesting that Kaveh didn't honestly believe in his ideals and was just pursuing them out of guilt and a desire to punish himself for his father's death.

Kaveh's attempt to "realize his ideals," therefore, spans the exact amount of time he and Alhaitham have been separated. When Alhaitham asks about Kaveh's attempts, he's asking very specifically about the course Kaveh's life took when he was no longer in it.

How did it go for you? Were you happier? Was it worth it?

I truly believe that Kaveh will be able resolve his conflict with Alhaitham--and come to understand Alhaitham's actual feelings--when he realizes that, in that exact moment, he should have turned the question around:

How did realizing your ideals go for you, Alhaitham?

Was your life better off without me?

No.

#genshin impact #alhaitham #kaveh #haikaveh #kavetham #Kaveh was so worried about whether he should keep his own ideals #that he never even noticed how much Alhaitham's changed #Alhaitham's line in Parade of Providence #about how being correct isn't the same as being right #was sooo telling #it's not about compromising your beliefs #but about learning how to pursue them without compromising yourself #both of them had to feel the sting of pursuing their own beliefs too far #to realize that you need balance #Kaveh's pursuit of ideals that cost him everything was Alcazarzaray #but Alhaitham's pursuit of ideals was the fight that lost him Kaveh #Sumeru was saved because Alhaitham learned his lesson about egoism #and Alhaitham was able to save Kaveh in turn #it's so fucking clean my god this writing #Hoyo cooked so hard with this ship not even Gordon Ramsey can complain

[quantumshade]

can anyone explain to me at what point rose tyler was "unbelievably stupid". was it when she was inventing transdimensional travel

#what about her makes you think she's stupid. answer quickly #the whole POINT of the rtd companions - yes all of them - is that any ordinary person can shine when given the chance to #and when someone believes in them. #even besides that there is no point before during or after rose's time on the show when she is shown to be stupid. #she doesn't have like. the doctor's vast universal knowledge sure #but the point is that she's smarter than him in other ways! they balance each other out which is why they're such a good team #like the london eye scene in the very first episode for example. #that is aaaaall about how the doctor misses very simple things and needs someone with him who doesn't #all the best companions have a moment like this. thinking about when bill realizes the mother-son thing in knock knock #anyway. i'm ranting sorry. this post just really pissed me off #imagine missing the point so completely #and being so classist that you can't comprehend that dropping out of school is not a symbol of lack of intelligence #rose tyler #doctor who #delia.txt

[oddthingsndaydreams]

Somedays the artblock wins. Somedays inspiration smashes you like a cadillac on a random dashboard recommend. @transformers-synergize your redesigns are so pretty ;^;

#Transformers Fan Continuity #Transformers Synergize #Moonracer #Augh ;0; her design is so pretty and so clever too! #Moonracer is one of my faves she looks SO good #Like a lil templar so I gave her a standard to bear cuz I needed something to balance the legs of the original pose #And then I died on perspective and ended up simplifying it back down -sobs- #I hope the interpretation is to your liking ;^; I don't think I captured the likeness in her face but if I kept fixing it I'd never post #The legs and the 'coat' and the segmentation of her chest and the tire placement and her antenna I'm ;0; I love love love the redesign #Also you have such a fantastic grasp on color theory. The analogous colors with complimentary details and the general shift towards #Orange/Green is so pretty! Such rich soothing colors #I'm sorry some of the shapes are off btw I misread her shoulders entirely and didn't realize until my motivation died again

[mewtwo24]

I finally finished reading the fourth volume of svsss in full, and thing is--the first time through I only read the bingqiu content because I was ravenous for more of their happy ending.

Turns out that was a perilous mistake.

Because I started reading the airplane extras. And I swear to god. MXTX is trying to kill me

What do you MEAN demon lord Binghe was sitting on his big fucking throne. All stoic and forbidding. Surrounded by his demon generals who don't know shit about human courtship. Asking them what he should do, fully demoralized by constant rejections from sqq, only to have airplane tell him to act more pathetic and needy. Which is already hysterically funny and insane, UNTIL LBH'S RESPONSE IS THIS, KILLING ME INSTANTLY:

LUO BINGHE. WHY DOES HE SAY IT LIKE: "I already tried that, didn't work--nothing works :/ not mean, not maidenly, not housewife, not spicy, not capable disciple. Is doubling down on clingy really all it will take? What's a born hater with only one love in his life to do????"

The dichotomy of him sitting there like 'how can I reach the unfathomable depths of shizun's heart?' A HEART HE'S ALREADY WON OVER, MIND and then in the Holy Mausoleum solving the puzzle without blinking and being like 'oh yeah you just have to hit the acupoints, no sweat.' Literally the comedy writes itself I'm so--

How am I supposed to be normal about this. MXTX understands the juicy quintessential queer joy of a person with the world's power at their fingertips wishing only for love. Willing to do anything to earn that love, when unbeknownst to them it's already been freely given. Totally not screaming and yelling and clawing at the walls

And that's not even touching airplane's uproarious account of events. The way he's like 'lol what's next, lbh and sqq are best friends now? smfh' only to see lbh TACKLE SQQ LOVINGLY. FOR SQQ TO BE BASHFUL ABOUT IT BUT SO SO FOND OF THE LITTLE SCAMP. This when we've been experiencing sqq's constant inner monologue of 'I'm so cool and so dignified about my role, truly the epitome of propriety and poser-level fortitude.' Meanwhile, in their universe:

Airplane constantly flaming???? Sqq and lbh in his observations????? His absolute bewilderment and confusion????? Legendary. No notes every single second of this shit was hilarious.

Airplane's comment that sqq + older adolescent lbh traveling together was just watching a couple in their honeymoon phase. OR the fact that lbh is exceedingly petty and refuses to share their food in the wake of airplane's interruption of their time together, until sqq relents sheepishly and insists airplane eat what's left (ONLY AFTER PLACATING LBH WITH MORE FOOD FROM HIS PLATE, SOBBING)

Watching airplane salivate over Mobei-Jun and acting like that's totally normal behavior. Finding out mbj and airplane got together first. Finding out sqq encouraged airplane. LIKE THIS. WHILE HE IS STILL IN DENIAL ABOUT HIS OWN FEELINGS:

Mobei-jun clearly thinking their arrangement is a forever thing, heartbroken his human abandoned him with all the hapless fury of a scorned wife swept away by false promises of fidelity. Airplane writing demons to be the type to beat up their crush lovingly and still unable to connect the dots about mbj's feelings. Mbj letting him go and respecting his wishes, only relenting when there's indication airplane was poorly processing his own feelings and didn't actually want to leave. Mbj caring for him and listening to him as soon as airplane voices what he needs directly and with clarity. None of these gays are functional and it's everything to me

Unrelated, but I physically can't hold this information in anymore:

I'm still reeling from younger lbh having his sexual awakening from the image of sqq wrapped in the immortal binding cables. Condemn me as you like he was so, so real for that.

And no I will not be taking any comments about how luo bingge couldn't bear to see luo binghe cherished in ways he never got to have and all the haunting implications of that. I will also not be taking any comments about luo binghe's instinct to look for sqq in that alternate universe, only to be shaken to the very core to be unable to find his shizun anywhere. The unspeakable and latent horror of his relentless mind likely piecing together what happened, but unable to say it; to suspect what is true, and live with the harrowing confusion of his double's actions. To blame himself, to assume that he had let his anger get the better of him in that world and result in unspeakable folly...

I also refuse to talk about how heartrending it is to hear Tianlang-jun weakly say "In the end, I really can't bring myself to hate humans." The implication that the foolishness of that hope and bright-eyed fondness--the very thing that put him through such unspeakable agony--couldn't be beaten out of him entirely. To discover that his faith in Su Xiyan hadn't been misplaced, to the contrary: his beloved hadn't scorned him at all, but rather fought to the miserable end to protect the fruition of their genuine feelings of love when she couldn't protect tlj or herself.

How MXTX has sqq deliberately draw parallels between their situation and that of ygy+sj and tlj+sx; desperately wishing it might not be too late for them. The concept of breaking cycles of abuse and harm pervasive throughout the newly devised story, how it evolves for the better only when love takes the place of power, pride, and domination. How the moment sqq chooses vulnerability instead of saving face, the genre shifts to the so-called "cringe" girly genre where most if not every character is more fulfilled, more true to themselves. How the "male-oriented" former genre was aimlessly sensationalized and sexualized, how it was a sustained performance of aspirational toxic masculinity. How men objectify other men without end. All of the unspoken gendered implications that come with that.

Anyways. Going to go put my head in a sandbox and try to process everything I just witnessed because even a second reading is not enough to find a modicum of closure.

#svsss #bingqiu #moshang #i swear to god this series is just 'gay man who doesn't know shit inflicting his delusional reality on everyone else and inciting chaos' #and literally it's slapstick levels of hilarious every single time; mxtx never change #also i fully agree that we did not get NEARLY enough mobei-jun and sqh/airplane content #the amount of mental illness to mental illness communication going on there was astonishing #mobei-jun being afraid of his uncle and bringing sqh because that's the only person he trusts fully (WAILING NOISES) #sqh having a tantrum but running away because for the first time he was honest about his needs + his dissatisfaction with catering to other #how that reflects his narrative compulsions and how he felt forced to warp more creative story paths for the sake of survival as a writer #how sqq's restoration of much of his original intent--as well as mobei-jun's acceptance of his needs--helps airplane begin to heal #how his happiness begins; how just like sqq he wanders in such confusion and denial before he's forced to realize what truly matters to him #SHREK VOICE: STORIES HAVE. L A Y E R S #it feels like modern day shakespeare and when i say that i don't mean it in a hollow elevating sense i mean it more like #mxtx just hits that perfect balance of poignance but also hilarious concentric circles of botched communication and brainworms #okay but real talk for a minute? .........;-; #the way lbh constantly struggles with such a crushing feeling that he'll be abandoned over any little mishap/thing/problem #really hit me where it hurts??? if only because its so clearly an anxiety that stems from original goods' upbringing #the way it becomes even more heartrending when you think back to all the sect leaders clamoring that he should have been killed as an infan #that he should have been aborted as a fetus--insisting right in front of him that his birth was a mistake and a disgrace #over having demon blood in his veins. like my god that scene is so viscerally upsetting i struggle to read it #the way its so easy to see the demons as a manifestation of otherness in precipitated form #how both sqq and sqh are influenced by human rhetoric without evening meaning to--assuming the worst against their better judgment #how both sqq and sqh both struggle with their own otherness in different ways and only find solace when they begin to accept who they are #how their lovers (lbh and mbj respectively) both are willing to navigate those confusing waters with them #how both demons love them as they are--accept them as they are despite how difficult forgiveness of perceived betrayal is for them #ty mxtx for changing my brain chemistry #as i get older i have such a fondness for the messiness of thematic queer self-discovery and growth into self-acceptance #that and how youth can so easily be defined by perfectionistic self-harm and the violence of repression

[luck-of-the-drawings]

smth smth about 'the thing that the character did that you thought was rly rly funny in the moment is actually linked to a terrible trauma that lies within said character.' or wahtever.

#jrwi show #jrwi fanart #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #made this within a short span of wahtever bc i gotta go up to the mountains for my stupid gay job tonight n im trying #nnot to frrRREAAAK THE FUCK OUUTTTTTTi dont wanna work but. get that bread we fuckin shall i guess #ONWARDS TO THE FISH TORMENT!! sometimes flowers feel pain when you trim them before their blossoming. atleast i imagine so #i used to draw gillion with loooong hair tied into a big ol braid. and then it was confirmed that he had short hair when he was little. #AT FIRST I WAS SAD. but then i realized the duality of. when they were little. gill had short hair. edyn had long hair. #AND NOW THEYRE OLDER. and gillion has long hair. and edyn has short hair #both mirroring eachother. looking up to eachother. subconsciously or not. they most certainly care. and most certainly miss eachother. #GILLION ALWAYS LOVED HOW LONG HAIR LOOKs. atleast i imagine so. he hasnt cut it since he left the undersea. sure he wanted to go back home #but even at the very start. he knew he was free in some way now. free to grow out his hair. an adventure would await him before he returns. #he knew it would be a while. so he cant let this go. he cant let this sought-after hair-length get cut away from him again #not yet. not yet. i like to think he loved music too. I SAW SOMETHING INTERESTING A BIT AGO #i see alot of ppl commenting on my baby gill comics like;'i wouldFIGHT this teacher i wanna KILL EM i want them DESTROYED #all very good and nice sentiments! i LOVE the energy here! and it would be nice. to have that catharsis #but the story of young tidestrider is not a story of catharsis. it is a story of agony and being so so small and so special and also so dum #and sucking so bad. and just being a kid and doing the things that a little kid does and so many tired tired people reacting badly to it #youre supposed to be the hero that will save us. our world hangs in the balance and you are the one who tips the scales. #YOU are supposed to SAVE US!! you NEED to SAVE US! CAN YOU PLEASE STOP SQUIRMING IN YOUR STUPID CHAIR!! #you'd think that young tidestrider ought to prevail. and be tucked someplace all safe and sound. #elders gone missing and rotting in a jail. their cultists nowhere around. but theres no happy endings. not here not now. #this tale is all sorrows n woes. you may dream that justice n peace win the day. but thats not how this story goes #BIG ideas for this lil baby gillion series. if anything i make ever gets disproven im killing myself in a well as to poison a water supply

[munamania]

the best of: jade claymore

#willow series #willow 2022 #jade claymore #erin kellyman #tanthamore #kit tanthalos #ruby cruz #okay so. i started this when i thought we were cancelled and you can probably tell by my extremely rambly nature #then balanced by thirsting over erin. lol #also prob didnt catch everything i wanted to. realized i forgot 'a little help princess' after i exported. but this is already long lol #anywhooo enjoy this was about to be a tragedy if like we were never getting more of her but we're safe <33 #and i need more of her character like rn she's my best friend my brother in arms i want to pry open her mind with my bare hands #a.og

[solardee]

[Solar Eclipse]

[There are downsides to linking yourself to the celestial bodies in your universe.]

#Dee art #Undertale AU #Undertale Multiverse #Dreamtale AU #UTMV #Undertale Equiverse #UTEV #Dawn!Dream #Dusk!Nightmare #I cannot tell you how close I was to naming Dawn and Dusk “Sun and Moon” #Before I realized the names were already taken by another AU #Oh well #Dawn and Dusk work much better for this case anyways lol #That being said in UTEV's Dreamtale Eclipses of both kinds are relatively common! #They tend to reflect who's more powerful at the moment #Because while there is a general balance they maintain #If it pivots in a strange way it can leave one over charged and the other weakened #They prefer to wait these out then try and meddle like they can with more moderate changes #After all the balance doesn't need to be maintained to make everything work properly #They just prefer to keep things at a baseline to avoid mood swings

[felixcatton]

it's 1:30 am and i'm thinking about how logan and rory both grow up feeling like their lives aren't really theirs. how logan uses risk and impulse as a way to feel some semblance of control over his life in response to his father's control. how in contrast, rory spends her life with a tight grip on just about everything, clings to safety and a clear path forward, because she worries that her success is the thing holding her and her mom's life together.

#logan leans into recklessness and rory leans into careful control #how those different approaches reflect their different relationships with their parents #logan is just full of resentment and anger while rory loves her mom so much and couldn't stand it if she didn't make her proud #i could say so much about logan's consistent willingness to risk his life. cause at least that means it's his to risk. #rory feels that nothing is hers to risk. nothing at all! #and how their relationship helps them both find balance between these two extremes #logan realizing that finding love and care for himself and others is its own way of rebelling against his upbringing #or that love and care is more important than rebelling at all #rory realizing that sometimes you need to jump to make anything happen #that her life should be hers not just the fulfillment of what lorelai's 'should have' been #they just. were building a life together that was something other than what so many people thought they should build. #it was theirs and no one else's. and it helped them each feel for once like their lives were their own. i feel SICK. #idkkkkk goodnight #rogan #rory x logan #logan huntzberger #rory gilmore #u already know this is not going in the main gg tag

[marvelousmawn]

i entered into a fugue state and suddenly an hour and 36 minutes passed

#hello from the hallowoods #hfth #hfthw #i had held back on talking about it bc she's not a podcast listener unless it's taz balance #and ive just realized i couldve SENT. THE RECAP. LMAO. #''let me yell at you about the newest episode. however for context on why im insane you need to know the first 3 seasons''

[drifting-pieces-blog-blog]

When Episode 5 hits.

Not me info dumping to my friend all the reasons why the episode is so much more painful than first impressions are.

Laters Gators....

#HIS PHONE IS ON GOOGLE MAPS #The scales balanced because Steven realized he wanted to protect Marc #And Marc realized he needed Steven #Jake in there no longer banging on the lid as Marc feels a solid moment of peace #THE END CREDITS HAVE THE FIELD AT NIGHT AND I'M STILL NOT OKAY #That song still destroys me #Because sometimes he loves his life when Steven is there #Do you think Jake felt the quiet too? #Do you think Jake smiled when the gate opened and they passed through? #Jake so proud of sassy Steven 'oh nosey' #Steven tried SO hard to reach the boys in the cave #Do you think it was exactly how Marc did it? Crawling through the water like that #Did you notice that the water fall fountain on HR desk in episode 2 looks exactly like the water fall in the cave?

[drewsaturday]

actually i do think it's funny how few lesbian films i've seen as someone who's been out for over a decade.

like. these are the only Classics TM i can remember watching:

but i'm a cheerleader

blue is the warmest color

loving annabelle

chloe 2009

carol

obvs i did get a TON of rep through tv shows and Certain Webseries and music videos instead but i feel so uncultured. i need to put a list together of the ones i particularly need to see so any recs are welcome lol.

#txt #the uncultured-ness is again bc i didn't have much time after realizing i was gay and wanting to get into these kinds of films #before tumblr purity culture made it problematic to watch the old ones and being poor/ill made it impossible to go to #movie theatres to watch the new ones or have access to streaming sites with the sooooorta current ones #i also didn't get a ton out of most of them since... i couldn't relate to the non age gap ones lol so that's another reason it's such a #short list. easier to get that in fanfic. #though i guess i am lucky for the thing lots of other lesbians seem to hate re: how many of the films we DID have proportionally at #a certain point were so geared for age gaps ;jlkskdfj #it's nice to have but it does kinda get balanced out when there's so much backlash from fellow lesbians who fuckin hate you #anyway recs don't need to be age gap centric but it does help esp if it does not revolve around teenagers generally #i think my issue rly was that instead of watching lesbian films #i'd be lesbian for an actress and just watch all of their stuff instead #and then just stumble onto a lesbian tv show episode they were in in like 1998 #as happened with alex kingston in like 3 different ways

[tainted-esau]

Lmao??

#tboi #tboi fanart #israel au #tboi au #tboi four souls #needless to say i was. inspired #don't ask about whatever tf happened with what this card does i have no idea but all you need to know is i wanted to make it worse #there were originally going to be two hp boost events. one from monsters and one that added +1 heart for each item controlled #and originally i was going to have it so Israel players could protect this card with their own items so they could reap the benefits #BUT THEN I REALIZED THE CYCLE WOULDN'T END #which i mean. kinda fits for Israel as a character given he's technically. y'know. omori. #anyway i feel like +3 treasures isn't enough compensation for the bull this card is capable of throwing at you #idk you tell me i don't balance cards for a living i just draw lol

[itspileofgoodthings]

this is your reminder that if I don’t follow you on tumblr I still love you.

#I hate that tumblr did the freaking mutual thing because now everyone can see #dash curation is such a personal thing and it’s also a brain thing #If you are intellectually stimulating it’s better if I just check your blog now and then #(which doesn’t mean if I do follow you you are intellectually not stimulating) #it’s just. a delicate balance and vibe #and it’s one of those things where the more you say it and draw attention to it the more awkward it becomes #But also I’ve been wanting to make this post for a while! #idk. it’s something I’ve wrestled with for so long and then eventually I was just like. I need the vibe of the dash to be a certain way #just for my own sanity and that involves not following a lot of people tbh #anyway I just. Yeah. It’s a public space so the necessity of boundaries being established is normal and everyone’s gotta #but it’s also a community and I know how hurtful it can be to suddenly realize someone is not following you who once was #idk. I strongly encourage everyone to unfollow me #and check in when you want if you want lol #who would WANT these things on their dash #just all interspersed #No one cares Maria it’s not important etc. #but yeah it’s just very. when my depression works the graveyard shift all of the people #I’ve ghosted stand there in the room #like. It can FEEL like that

[caemthe]

thought of the day:

pat, who isn't as intense as cú or as odd as dee, but a secret third thing:

a normal person

#crack. º ( running wild. ) #/ yknow the more i think about it the more i realize pat would be the 'protagonist' in a sense bc #/ on their own cú is the protagonist of life™ and dee is the prophecy of doom that keeps the story going but when you put them #/ together + add pat. their super intense stories kinda cancel / balance each other and pat stands out more as your relatable hero #/ there's literally no use for this knowledge but i needed to throw it out there #/ congrats pat you're the mc of a story about picking up strays and discovering the power of friendship (and fighting the gods-)

[whumpacabra]

36. Undeserved

Angst, self loathing, low self worth, comfort, gunshot wound, bandage change, stabbing mention, referenced past torture and captivity, referenced character death, referenced scars

AU Masterpost / Previous / Next

The Wolf forgot how much flesh wounds burned. Smith still cut and electrocuted and whipped the Wolf from time to time, but his usual method was his favorite and most effective. The Wolf hadn’t had a flesh wound this deep since there was glass in his feet or a knife in his leg.

(Smith never stabbed him. That would be too dangerous, too easy to fuck up and kill him. The Wolf didn’t remember when he got that scar in his thigh, he just remembered the burn of air kissing flesh that wasn’t meant to know light.)

“I’d kill to get you in a fucking hospital.” Dan’s grumble wasn’t wholly directed at the Wolf. His hands worked with the steady, telegraphed precision the Wolf had come to expect. He still wasn’t comfortable with it, but flinching away would only hurt worse. “I know this is rough for you, son, but I just want to make sure this is good for your trip north. You really ought to get some proper attention up there. The both of you.”

“Yessir.” The Wolf replied automatically, studying the bloodied bandages Dan set aside. “Can I ask you a question?” Dan stopped his work, looking up with surprise in his eyes.

“Sure. What’s on your mind, son?”

“Why did you help us?” Why did Thomas help them? Why did Merrill? “You didn’t know if - if we were criminals. If we would hurt you - I did hurt you - ”

“Imma stop you there, son.” Dan had him fixed with a harsh stare, hands still gentle on his arm. “I helped you folks because you needed help.” He huffed in amusement, stretching his jaw to emphasize the still fresh bruises left by the Wolf. “Plenty of folk fight back when they’re hurt - it’s only natural. Besides, Tommy and Merrill and I could handle a few troublemakers if you two turned out to be bad apples.”

The Wolf bit his lip. His breathing shook, but he swallowed the anxiety.

“What Alice said - about, she said - she was right. You don’t know what we’ve done. What - what I’ve done. And I’m - I’m not - I should still be - be down there. Should have stayed down there. I’m not a good person - I, I deserved everything - ”

“No one deserves what happened to you, Wolf. No one.” His name sounded…safe, on Dan’s tongue. No insult curling in condescending superiority. “No matter what you done - what was done to you in turn…it wasn’t right. You don’t earn that kinda treatment, however godawful you are. You’re still a person. Still have rights. And that includes the right to bein’ safe.”

“But - ”

“What happened to you, would Harrison deserve it? If he’d done what you’ve done?”

The Wolf opened and closed his mouth, teeth clacking together. He could still hear Harrison’s wails, the grief echoing throughout the bunker. A friend dead by his hand. That was different - that was mercy, that was selflessness.

“Of course not - he’s, that’s different he wouldn’t - he’d only do it if he - he was scared and he, he didn’t have a choice.”

“Did you have a choice?” The Wolf flinched at the hands cradling his face, calloused but so so gentle, open to letting him break away if he wanted to. He didn’t want to. The Wolf closed his eyes, letting gentle hands hold his face. They didn’t drop him, even as hot tears rolled down his cheeks.

“I - it’s different. I’m - I was a - I deserved - ”

“Never,” the hands holding his face tensed, “never think that you deserved that hell. You didn’t, you hear me?”

Something inside him shattered. The Wolf sobbed, collapsing through the hands and against Dan’s chest. The arms that wrapped around him were hesitant at first, but held him tightly when he didn’t resist. Steady. Safe.

“You didn’t deserve it son. None of it. Not a single second. You didn’t deserve any of it.”

For the first time in a long time, the Wolf cried - not out of fear, or pain, or anger; he simply wept. And the arms that held him didn’t falter or retreat or evaporate as a phantom of his imagination.

He cried. And he was held in safe arms through it all.

AU Masterpost / Previous / Next

(An AU of my Freelancers series)

Taglist: @i-eat-worlds @whumpy-daydreams

#whump #angst #comfort #gunshot wound #scars #past torture #past captivity #past stabbing #past character death #freelancers au #Harrison gets a breakdown. wolf gets a breakdown. perfectly balanced as all things should be. #worlds this is for you. my original outline didn’t have this scene but you liked Dan so much when I introduced him #I was like yeah actually he’s a good parallel to ghostie for wolfie #let’s have wolf breakdown and realize he’s a person with feelings and wants and needs and. truly shocking. human rights.

[neverrcry]

okay now talk about me 💁🏼‍♀️

buckle up bre here we go ok here we go. you have been nothing but kind to me since we first followed each other on whatever blog that was a while ago. you're always willing to write with me even if you know nothing about the fandom i'm writing for. you are so passionate about every single character you write and it just shines through all your replies. i truly do sit on the dash and read your threads often. you and kels write some beautiful stuff and i love seeing your characters grow and develop. bre you have been so supportive and kind to me and it really makes me smile. every time we chat i have a blast. i cannot wait to watch more starkid things to i can properly brain rot with you. thank you for always sharing your passion with me <3

send me a url and i'll write some positivity for them, @sleazeballtm, accepting!

#sleazeballtm #also you are just such a powerhouse dude #you are a wonderful. wonderful parent and the fact that you can balance your personal life and writing on tumblr is really inspiring to me #it's helped me kinda keep myself in check and realize that #sometimes breaks are needed and writing is fun. it's a hobby. #thank you for always being there for me and for being apart of my support system.