#truly either reigniting interest in old joys or discovering completely new experiences

[nullcanary]

"Now all my other gods are dead. Hallelujah, to the apocalypse in my head!"

#just finished my first playthrough #what a wild journey this has been #this game has given so much enrichment to my life #this game pulled me out of the deepest depression ive ever been in #and then momentarily put me back in one after the malenia fight because reptile brain was like youve been running from a tiger for 4 hours #my stress response was so on edge for a week yall #but thats a different story lets not digress #I'm making art again... i literally thought i lost that spark #im WRITING again?!?? a FEW things too?!? yall whats in this elden juice?! #i finally have an oc of my own to cherish #ive connected with talented inspiring and clever creators of various forms of fanworks #truly the game just turned a light on inside me again that said 'youre allowed to feel again' #it just happened to be the correct combination of so many nuances that mattered to me already and them dialed them up to 10 #the astel fight was my absolute favorite #when i watched the trailer it was what captured my eye the most #when going through armor sets i saw the Preceptor's set and thought 'holy sh!t thats my aesthetic' #and now i have an irl version of it that i made with my own hands #ive never had the opportunity to be obsessed with a single character before and thats so weird to only realise after succumbing to varrérot #truly either reigniting interest in old joys or discovering completely new experiences #oh yeah and lastly im so flippin into IAMX now hes almost all ive listened to since the year began and thats also because of varrérot #tag rant over #elden ring #i have very normal feelings about frenzied flame #lord of frenzied flame ending ie third impact lmao #iamx stalker lyrics in header