#w undiagnosed digestive issues. i like the idea all of it combined meant i reached a point of just losing weight

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had an idea for something and decided to get up and try pounding it out to see what happens since i’m having trouble sleeping anyway and i can’t remember if i was underweight or overweight* when eddie and i met so i’m going w under bc i decided i like the concept of weight gain as a signifier of health better rn.

#txt.txt #reesebane #*using the terms bc it's relevant to my living situation in this setting IE homeless living out of my car and #w undiagnosed digestive issues. i like the idea all of it combined meant i reached a point of just losing weight #and more importantly muscle and mass. starving all the time even once i started getting more stable bc the fucking #digestive issues went on so long my body just stopped absorbing anything it needed #<- that one actually happened for a bit IRL one of my first blood work ups down here was basically like #damn bitch you live like this???