#which ofc i will then also solve via akiteru

[theheightofdishonor]

udai just itches at my brain because you hear about him from saeko and you're like oh he's just like hinata! and then you meet him and you're like hmm maybe takeru? but you watch him again and go no, it's asahi and they're all wrong even though the responsibility that weighs on his shoulders is all asahi and the bitter curse of obscurity despite his efforts is takeru and the hunger that once almost ate him alive is so hinata and the part of him that still itches for volleyball but is manageable is reminiscent of noya and i just want to crawl inside his brain a little. Like, when did he decide/realize that volleyball wasn't it for him? What made him want to be a mangaka? Big enough to bring life a whole generation of monsters, small enough to never be considered for youth nationals, but there's a whole rainbow to be shaded in between those two lines. His name destines him to the skies and beyond and here he is shackled and someone that hungers for volleyball the way he does, do you think it hurts him to starve himself.

ofc this entire little thought journey is very much so on the precipice of turning him into something a little beyond human and since the narrative demands that you don't, that you understand he's just some guy, let's take a step back. Udai tenma, (volleyball monster, of the heavens and of the sky) goes to the interhigh game alone. Now, we know that volleyball monsters are cursed to loneliness at some point due usually to their monsterousness. So, does Udai at this point in his life, as removed from volleyball as he now is, have close friends or is he still lonely? Let's discuss

#my answer is no #i think he's very introverted and very closed off and very hinata pre kageyama #i think he has plenty of acquaintances and people he's friendly with #but no real close friends #which ofc i will then also solve via akiteru #come on it'd be so full circle #back then it was udai in the center of everyone's eye and akiteru in the crowds and now it's akiteru who's got well a social life and #udai's just lonely and #im getting ahead of myself #udai tenma #haikyuu!! #haikyu #tsukishima akiteru #even if he's not in the actual post #all in all yall should be proud of me because i very rarely am coherent in any way about udai #usually it's just !!!!!*heart eyes**heart eyes*<3 blorboooo