#ykwim. like i get sometimes i have to chill but jesus fucking christ i dont know. like im not entitled to feeling mad or even generally

[averysbones]

ehl oh ehl sometimes i feel like im not actually mentally ill and then im like oh yeah okay someone has vaguely been mean to me and now im Not Okay

#was told by a . friend? i dotn even know her that well. on call that she thinks about muting me sometimes and i just immediately got like #really bad mentally like. i had to leave i was not hashtag present #anyways cue intrusive thoughts about sh that could rid me of talking (maybe impossible. probably. its fine its more of a hypothetical or wtv #but golly would it not be a wonderful time for me) i am mentally ill Lol. #idk i feel like when i feel safe around people i feel free to be louder and shit because like. brain loud but usually im too anxious to be #loud outwardly #ykwim. like i get sometimes i have to chill but jesus fucking christ i dont know. like im not entitled to feeling mad or even generally #upset about this because how would she have known right but like. god its stupid amounts of triggering to me idk #vent