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I regret to announce this blog is dead.

TL;DR: I'm signing off for now.

In the middle of 2020 I had joined multifandom-fanfiction 's blog as Mod Akane, and was writing with other people for the first time in my life. Not many weeks later due to unfortunate circumstances both me and the other mod left. [Myah and Lucy and I are still friends to this day, though. It was no choice of any of ours.]

Considering I wanted to keep writing, I created the-peak-of-despair to share writing and maybe take a few requests from friends. In a few months, I had gotten farther than I ever expected, totalling 600 followers as of 2021.

As of today 50 unwritten requests sit in my inbox, and it deeply hurts to dissapoint all of you- and everyone else who's followed me. I've absolutely loved writing for this blog but I regret to say I don't think I can keep on writing here.

I have ADHD, and with that has came hyperfixiations, ever since I was young. Danganronpa was another one of these hyperfixiations and along with how much I didnt expect this blog to grow, I didn't expect it to last. And of course within the passing months I have moved on to greater interests.

This blog was like my child, and I was relcutant to even take mod applications from some of my closest friends. Regardless I have, but for the past month I've heard nothing but radio silence and I cannot keep this going on. (And I hold no spite or anything to those who applied to be mods, some of you are my absolute best friends.)

Maybe I'll return to this blog one day, but as of now I have bigger dreams I'd rather persue. I thank all of you that followed me here, and the friends I made here.

You can still find me as Mod Akane in Myah's discord server, but thats about the most of it.

So for now,

this is Bonnie, signing off.

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so you said in a post a while back you like mastermind stuff? dw, this isn't a request, just a t h in g- anyways, Sonia as the dr2 mastermind is just y e s. why? she has almost no character development before this, as she had minimal (shown) emotions when Gundham died, and a lot of the strange things she takes interest in make sense. her obsession with serial killers and the occult would make (more) sense for the mastermind of a killing game. she would have something more to her personality (1/?

GOD you make such a good point. I love this series but I am s o fucking tired of Junko holy shit.. But yeah I think Sonia or even Akane would've made like fantastic masterminds. I know alot of people love Sonia but all I kinda remember about her sometimes is she like cried when Gundham was executed and that was it. I honestly might wanna write about her as a mastermind sometime I'm free.

I'm so sorry about dissapearing! I really dont want this blog to die but as the days go on I'm not sure what I can do. I'm super sick right now and I have to focus on highschool, and I might consider taking mod apps soon so that this blog can stay alive. -Mod Akane

#mod akane #danganronpa #akane speaks

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Hiya, mod akane! I haven't messaged you in awhile. But, I was thinking of you earlier and hope you were doing well. I know you were pretty stressed when we last talked. I hope things are going okay, please stay hydrated!! (also idk how your school works but I figured finals might be coming up for you soon and I wanted to wish you luck on those since ik they're stressful :( ) ♡♡ -shuichi anon

HI THERE! I’ve totally not been dead haha nope not at all no hahahdash hah ahj asdjfs   - 

Thank you!! I’m. alright. I’m actually switching to homeschool right now, so, pog, I guess, cause highschool is a nightmare,

I’m so sorry I’ve been dead!! I feel like I apologize way too much;; But like I genuinely have been finding it. super hard to write recently, and apperently my brain has decided to spend my time simping for a twitch streamer, so 

Yeah

I swear I’ll start writing again soon ashdjfgkasfa -Mod Akane

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hihi!! i was wondering if I could get a matchup for ndrv3

5'3 toric (attracted to men only) non binary person. short white hair, pale skin with a lot of freckles, blue eyes

I'm loud and hyper in public and in front of most others, but when I'm with people I know I can trust I let my guard down a little and relax. think ibuki level hyper and chiaki level chill. estj, 7w6. i enjoy tricking others, and whether voluntarily or on accident, I tend to lie or twist the truth a lot.

only character I don't want is gonta, massive trigger character for me

apologies if I forgot anything!!

I totally didn’t forget I did matchups before this request cause I didn’t realize no one had asked for any, hahaha noo.. not at alll...

I do hope you like these! This might be formatted a bit weird, since tumblr is not very nice to me. But enjoy!! -Mod Akane

I match you with… Kokichi Ouma!

Well, you’re both a bit loud and pranksters! And short, haha shorties- (I’m just kidding I swear I’m legit shorter than you please I swear I’m not mean-) 

You trust each other a lot, and you’re one of the few people Kokichi lets his guard down around. Though sometimes he forgets to tone it down as well, he still cares a lot for you and values you above most people. Can usually tell when you’re lying- and he doesn’t really mind- but sometimes you’ll probably slip one past him if you’re really good at lying. 

You have prank wars a lot, and every time they get increasingly and increasingly more creative. Concerningly creative. Are you guys okay?

Kokichi is also a huge tease, and usually tends to match your energy level most times. You two are hell bringers when you’re together in public and he loves it. You’re also really respected by the DICE members and maybe, most likely part of the group. 

Generally, you guys are the some the best people to hang around, and you go amazingly together!

I also match you with.. Rantaro Amami!

Okay, okay, hear me out- 

Rantaro’s always pretty chill, and usually doesn’t get as loud or hyper as you do. But he certainly doesn’t mind when you do. He grew up with twelve sisters. You cannot get louder than that. When you’re usually a bit more calm, those are some of the softest moments of your relationships, and your closest moments.

Rantaro’s always up for your schemes and pranks, and has fallen victim to them enough to borderline sense when they’re coming. Sometimes your lies concern him, but it’s all because he cares about you. He’s always coming along for the ride and quite enjoys your antics. Opposites attract, I suppose. You both go well together, having your soft spots and your fun times!

#matchups #matchup #danganronpa x reader #mod akane #ask answered #kokichi ouma #rantaro amami #danganronpa v3 #ndrv3

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Peko angst prompt requester here! Firstly, welcome back! I hope you're feeling at least slightly better ❤️ Secondly, I love the fic so much!! Thank you so much for bringing more quality Peko content into existence! I love my sword wife 🥺

AAAAh thank you guys so so much!! I really do appreciate how much ya’ll care;; and also ofc!!! Peko deserves more love. I love her so much, I should really write for her more... but thank you guys again!! -Mod Akane

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Just stopping by to say I love your writing ✨

AAAAH Thank you so much, nonnie!!!! -Mod Akane

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Mod Akane!! Thank you for reblogging my promo, I meant to tell you earlier but I got busy! It is i, mod kaede of hope-kaleidoscope AKA, shuichi anon! I really hope you have a good day, and if life is tough for you right now, you've got this! ♡♡

Ohohoh, I thought it might be you! Mod Kaede!! I hope the blog treats you well. It’s no problem, really! I’m always happy to reblog promos and such. Thank you so much!! -Mod Akane

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Could I possibly get something for Peko x Reserve Course! Fem! reader using angst prompt #32 (or some variation of it) in which she defends the reader from some particularly nasty bullies and then consoles the reader who was pretty shaken up by the whole thing? I'm a sucker for hurt/comfort ❤️ (and the way you write!! high serotonin levels when reading on this blog!!)

Mod Akane? Posting? Thats insane, bro. /j

Haha, here you go, anon, I hope you liked it!

#mod akane #danganronpa #anon #peko pekoyama

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Peko Pekoyama x Fem!Reserve Course!Reader - prompt #32

Anon said: Could I possibly get something for Peko x Reserve Course! Fem! reader using angst prompt #32 (or some variation of it) in which she defends the reader from some particularly nasty bullies and then consoles the reader who was pretty shaken up by the whole thing? I'm a sucker for hurt/comfort ❤️ (and the way you write!! high serotonin levels when reading on this blog!!)

Ahjkdafsdfas thank you, nonnie! I do apologize for how long these all take me, this one was a draft I had sitting for a while and I figured it wouldn’t be too hard to finish. I wanna start interacting with you guys more, though! So maybe hit me up with questions, or maybe I can post some opinions and ya’ll can argue with me, whatever you guys might think would be fun! I wanna make up for being so absent. Anyways, I hope you enjoy! -Mod Akane

[Minor SDR2/DR3 spoilers + abuse/bullying]

“Hey, Reserve Course!” 

If the voice that had called it out had been familiar, (Y/N) might’ve responded. But as for the fact that it was entirely foreign, she chose to stare at the floor and keep walking, gripping her bag tighter all the way.

‘I just gotta get to the entrance gate… Peko’s gonna be there..’ She took a heavy breath, choosing to focus on the beat of her footsteps rather than the chastisement from her ‘fellow classmates.’ 

(Y/N), quite frankly, didn’t think it was very fair. Well for starters, who’s to say she’s lesser or not ‘cause she chose to attend the Reserve Course? And second off, did the Ultimates even realize that if not for her and others attending the Reserve Course, they wouldn’t have their precious, ‘elite’ academy? 

Maybe things would be slightly better if it was just that occasional, stick-up-their-ass entitled Ultimate. But considering that it was every other Ultimate, the staff, the restrictions..

People are so fucking unappreciative. You pay and do so much to get into your dream school, even in just the hopes of supporting it, making friends.. And all for what. 

“Hey, Reserve Course! You! I’m talkin’ to you!” Whoever it was with an especially large tree branch up their ass, they certainly were persistent.

“Hey, man, leave her alone..” You look up to see a girl, hair covering her eyes, with an unreadable expression barely visible. Maybe not all of them were assholes. Just a select majority.

“Shut it.” He shoves the girl away and she frowns, and then the boy begins to walk towards (Y/N). Fuck.

“Hey, stop walkin’ already!” He shouts angrily, sprinting to finally catch up and grab (Y/N) by the arm harshly, yanking her back. “What’s your problem? You deaf or somethin?”

(Y/N) certainly wished she was sometimes, if it meant not having to hear all of this consistently. Yet she chose to stay silent.

“Come onn, I’m talkin’ to you!” He yanks her arm closer. “You’ve gotta respect your elders, y’kno? Talk!” 

She speaks quietly. “..What is it you want?” 

He grins, and (Y/N) realizes now she’s fucked. He shoves her back, hard, so hard she falls down and lands on her ass. “I just got a question for you.” (Y/N) sighs, pushing herself off the ground slowly. She’s shoved back down.

“Hey.” He frowns, before shoving her again, this time with his foot. “Stay down.” He spits. “I just wanna ask you! Why’d you think.. You’d have any worth, at an academy like this?” “Are you.. Assuming things about me?” (Y/N) asks slowly.

“Don’t talk back.” He says, frowning heavier. “Answer me.” No one in the crowd of students leaving the school bats an eye.

No one in the crowd tries to stop him.

“I..” (Y/N) hesitates. She didn’t wanna give him an answer, if she even had one, but she also felt like getting home before sunset. She sighs, trying to keep the tough face together. “I wanted to-” “Spit it out, already!” He yells in her face. “I’m fallin’ asleep over here just waiting.” 

“I wanted to mean something.” 

He stops, for a brief moment, and begins laughing uncontrollably. “Y-You’re kidding.” he breathes between laughs, wiping fake tears. “Oh my god! That’s hilarious. Tell another joke.” “I was serious..” (Y/N) begins to trail off.

A foot hits her chest hard, throwing her back to the rough pavement and slamming her head down a bit hard as she was now pinned. That hurt. Alot. Tears from pain began to well in her eyes, just wanting to escape already, and it seemed like the boy was enjoying it. “Tell another.” 

Before you can stutter out any other statement, there’s a sharp swing as something cuts the air, and the weight on your chest slightly shifts off. “Ah, hey, Pekoyama.” The boy says, trying to play it cool as she holds her sword towards his neck. You look up slightly, even through blurry vision and ow that fucking hurts, and smile slightly at her.

Her facial expression is almost terrifying. “Get off of her.” 

“Hey, hey, we’re cool, aren’t we, Pekoyama?” He asks, slowly shifting his weight off of your chest entirely and letting you sit up slowly. Holding the back of your head, you took away your palm to find crimson blood. Fucking great.

“No, we’re not.” She glares, slowly moving her sword away from his neck as she steps closer to you, in a sort of protective stance.

“Come oon, what’s the big deal?” He’s still sweating nervously. “It’s just some reserve course kid!” 

If Peko could frown any further, she did. “I’d wipe that grin off your face with my sword...” She turns to you for a moment. “But I was taught to play nice.” 

“Come ooo-” He’s going for some condescending tone, but when the sword is unsheathed and held towards his face, he stops. “A-Actually, I’ve gotta go, so… Seeya guys!” He tries to play it off, grabbing his bag and sprinting off. 

Peko puts her sword away, and her face automatically turns to concern as she drops down next to you, examining you for a moment. “Are you hurt badly?”

“Uhm..” You think for a second. Oh, right, the onset concussion. “M-My head’s bleeding. And my chest hurts.” 

Peko mutters a curse as she opens her arms slightly, inviting you to a hug if you need it. You lean into it, and she holds you close, sighing as she eyes the wound on the back of your head. “I’m sorry I didn’t come sooner. I should know by now…” “It’s- It’s okay, Peko.” You sniffle, burying your face in her shoulder. “You.. you came, that’s all that matters.” 

She holds you close, and begins to pick you up, letting you stay with your face in your shoulder, holding you up as you wrap your legs around her waist. 

“Come on. I’ll let young master know about this. He’ll.. Have some choice words, and we’ll get you fixed up.” 

You nod your head slowly. “Okay..” You’re still muffled by the fabric of her school uniform. “Thank you, Peko.”

She’s silent for a moment.

“I love you, (Y/N).” She mutters.

The world feels a bit warped, and the concussion is definitely setting in. “Love you too..”

#peko pekoyama #peko pekoyama x reader #danganronpa #danganronpa 2 #sdr2 #dr3 #danganronpa 3 #minor spoilers #spoilers #i curse alot #anon #ask answered #danganronpa x reader #danganronpa spoilers #mod akane #bullying tw

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Gonta was raised by lizards. They probably ate bugs.

Okay, okay, the exact words I was told was dinosaur people. And my PC can’t run V3 so I cannot check myself. I was told dinosaur people, and the mental image in my head was not very sweet. I preferred the wolves. I like wolves. They’re cool. Dinosaur people is a weird traumatizing image from like, 8th grade science class.

This conversation was terrifying to have at 1am. -Mod Akane.

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Go check out her blog, too! - Mod Akane

A (very belated) promo post ♡♡

Hello, My name is Mod Kaede (She/Her & They/Them), I am aware my blog has been around for like, almost a month now, but I figured it was okay to still make a promo post.. I wanted to wait until I felt a tad bit more confident with my blog before requesting one, if that makes sense!

What I Can Do:

Matchups (these will be opening up again soon)

Headcanons

Imagines/scenarios

I don't think I'm super picky, so the possibilities are endless! There's also a full list on my navigation page and official intro page, so if you're interested, I highly encourage you to check it out along with my masterlist.

I guess in order for this to work I have to like, tag people heheh. If I tagged you, please do not feel obligated to promote me. However, I do thank you in advance! ♡♡

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@miodas-dr-imagines @danganronpamess @danganronpa-h3adcanons @despair-ronpas-imagines @danganronpa-madness-imagines @the-peak-of-despair

#I know I’m not online often but I’ll be more active soon #school is a nightmare #mod akane #not an ask #promo

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K1-B0 for the ask thing? I crave the cinnamon rolls

hahaha I didn’t forget to check my inbox haha nooo, not at all... 

I did Keeboy back in this post! Thank you for your ask, tho! -Mod Akane

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I feel that... the elections terrify me. But, I also know that pretty much everyone is panicking over them.. to some degree at least. But I still wish we didn't have reason to be nervous lol. Also, don't worry, take your time with writing! We understand, im sure! If you do need to vent, I can always send you my url :(( that way you have someone who can listen!!! ♡♡ - shuichi anon

me sweating as my rights could possibly be taken away: 

Thank you, though! I’ll admit I was having a bit of a breakdown when I wrote my last post and I feel kinda bad about how I phrased it all, but thank you lots. I’ve been talking to alot of my friends, but I’ll keep you in mind :) -Mod Akane

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Hey there! I'm new here, and your stuff is really good!

ASDHJAS THANK YOU!! - Mod Akane

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If you write for the warriors of hope, can you do a headcanon where the reader is their older sibling. Like, what they like doing with the reader and how the reader comforts them when they have nightmares and stuff. If I could, I would definitely adopt all the warriors of hope, they did not deserve all the bad things that happened to them (even if I don't like monaca that much)

I don’t like Monaca much either but like god DAMN she did not deserve all that. Fuck Junko and Fuck Haiji Towa, I hope you like your request, nonnie! Again, I’m really sorry I didn’t write all of them! -Mod Akane

Here you go!

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Nagisa Shingetsu, Kotoko Utsugi - Older Sibling headcanons

anon said: If you write for the warriors of hope, can you do a headcanon where the reader is their older sibling. Like, what they like doing with the reader and how the reader comforts them when they have nightmares and stuff. If I could, I would definitely adopt all the warriors of hope, they did not deserve all the bad things that happened to them (even if I don't like monaca that much)

Hi there anon! I’m really sorry I didn’t write for all 5. I have my personal extreme urge to punch grieviences with Jataro, Monaca, and Masaru, and I literally just could not figure out how to write for them for this. I don’t mind writing for them another request! But I wanted to get something out and Nagisa and Kotoko are really easy for me shut up no I’m not a kinnie, so I hope you enjoy what I did get done. -Mod Akane

[Bit of spoilers for UDG, and mentions of panic attacks/triggers]

Nagisa Shingetsu

-He had another nightmare, one of the few times he got to sleep. He didn’t remember it exactly. He didn’t want to. Something about losing you. He wasn’t really sure.

-The second he’s awake, it’s straight back to work anyway, thanks to your guys’ father. 

-Though, when he goes to work, and you’re trusted with watching him, he doesn’t have to keep at work for long. He doesn’t mind. But it’s very obvious something is off with him. 

“Nagisa, what’s wrong?” 

“It’s.. nothing. I’m fine.”

-Y’know, like a liar.

-He’s one of those kids who grew up too fast. He’ll try and shoulder all his problems to himself until he physically and mentally can’t anymore. After that he just breaks down crying somewhere and prays you don't hear. He wants to stay strong, and prove to you he’s okay, and that you don't have to worry.

-The second you realize he’s crying, he tries to play it off as hard as he can. 

-It takes convincing, telling him it’s okay to cry, and that he’s not failure, and alot more convincing before he finally just breaks down hugging you, crying as hard as he possibly can. 

Kotoko Utsugi

-Someone said it again. Someone said that fucking word again and she can barely hold everything together. 

-You were coming to get her from some sort of practice for a drama class, because clearly your parents couldn’t give enough fucks to do it themselves. The second you get in the building you can see her, she’s teary-eyed, shaking, and she can barely keep it together.

-The second she’s out of the building, she starts crying. Hard. She’s crying, she’s cowering away, she can barely get in the car. 

-You know better than to touch her, or to force her to do anything. So you let her cry for a moment, until she starts trying to either hurt you or herself, she’s so caught in the flashback.

“Kotoko. Kotoko. Kotoko!” You have to call her name over and over.

“Get away! Get away from me!” 

“Kotoko! I’m not gonna touch you. I’m not gonna hurt you.” You have to keep telling her that, over and over until she starts to listen. 

-When she finally starts to breathe and realized she freaked out and tried to hurt you both, she starts crying again. Harder. 

-But this time it’s okay to hug her, as long as she lets you, telling her it’s okay, it’s alright now, she doesn’t need to worry.

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Hey hey, Mod Akane! I feel like it's been a bit since I popped in to talk. How have you been? I have been so busy recently, college is in the way of life and I don't think I ever told you but I actually started that writing blog I mentioned weeks ago! I think it is going pretty great, better than what I expected for myself at least. So yeah, busy, BUT im gonna be okay hopefully. Hope you're doing okay too! - shuichi anon ♡♡

hi there, shuichi anon! im glad you're doing okay. im kinda of a mess. i feel guilty about my blog and not answering asks or writing in forever, but its really hard to sit down and write and my requests are piling up. but i dont wanna vent haha! i hope college and the blog are treating you well! -mod akane

#shuichi anon #akane speaks #im so sorry guys #evergthings been hell #im so scared for ekections #and highschool is a fucking nigbtmare #and i swear to god im trying #but it feels like id rather do anything else than write rn #and its a bit terrifying #cus its my passion #but ktll be alrigbt #dont worrg aboht me. #mod akane