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Maybe soon...

#Spotify

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I would desperately love to stop now

#Spotify

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It's getting bad again

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i want to sleep so as not to think about death :)

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I don't know how many times I survived myself without telling anyone.

-V. J.

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wow wouldn’t it be so cool not to be constantly worried about abandonment

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I'm ready to give up.

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I'm tired of this playthrough. I've messed too much up.

Where's the restart option?

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Feels like a good time to uninstall conciousness.

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I wish I didn't have an ongoing love affair with how I looked when I was sick.

My collar bones and hips, sharp and clean.

My belly, concave.

I hate that my body is soft. I hate the way it moves. I hate the way it draws attention. I hate that these are things I love about the bodies around me but not my own.

I wish I didn't want to take a knife to everything that wasn't there before.

I should be grateful for my vessel.

I should be.

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How the FUCK am I meant to keep going like this??

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45 minutes until my 24th birthday and I'm still on fucking tumblr.