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I miss him so much

Hey, it's tradedmymarriageformysme, I'm feeling like shit because I thought I was over the extreme need I had for the game but I realized that I'm not, and now my heart is hurting, literally, because I miss them... Can I request a talk with Saeyoung? Like I'm here and he's in his dimension but we're able to talk, even though we'll never be together and this "window" will close and we'll never be able to talk again... Idk i just want him... I was avoiding everything related but isn't enough...

I hope you’re feeling better! And you can always request whatever you want! 

Tears fell in a steady drip. One…two…three…obscuring the screen, but she did not wipe them away. The face that stared out at her was a soothing balm to a world that seemed to be hell bent on keeping her down. She shrank further into the corner, pulling her legs up under her chin and resting her forehead on her knees.

Something brushed against her hair, like a soft breeze. Her head jerked up at the sudden and unexpected sensation. She turned her head, scanning the small room. It was dark, but there was enough visibility for her to see all the furniture in her bedroom. It was empty. She shook herself and glanced at her phone once more. Saeyoung’s face was distorted through the lens of her tears, but she smiled as she gazed into his soft and understanding eyes, imagining his touch, his smell, his humor. She could use someone like that right now. Someone to tell her she was worth something.

There was a graze against her thumb which startled her so much, she almost dropped the phone. She watched, in amazement, as a single finger phazed through the phone screen and grazed her thumb once more. Saeyoung’s face was now animated. His eyes large behind his glasses. His mouth was open, as if he was trying to say something, but there was no sound. On impulse, she pushed the volume button and his words began to come in loud and clear.

“…for you. Please don’t cry anymore. Help me…grab my hand, pull me out.” He requested.

She grabbed his finger, without thought as to how bizarr and unbelievable this was. She yanked gently and the rest of his hand slipped out. She kept pulling, and magically, Saeyoung eventually knelt next to her. He was there, physically there. She could touch him. He wiped her tears away and kissed her cheek, enfolding her in his arms.

“I…I…I’m sorry…” She sobbed into his chest. He leaned against the wall and she leaned against him.

“You don’t need to be sorry.” He whispered into her hair.

“I’m so weak! And pathetic!”

She felt the soft rumble of his laugh through his chest.

“You are far from those things. Crying doesn’t make you weak, it makes you strong. I wish I was as strong as you.”

She stared up at him. “You do?”

“Mhm. Don’t be like me. I bottle everything up and then it comes out in dangerous ways. If I could cry, I would be able to release those emotions in a healthier way. I envy you.”

She shook her head, unable to understand why he would say those things.

“You’re stronger than you know. And you will get through this, I promise. I will always be here for you, even if you don’t see me. Just know that I believe in you and am cheering for you for the rest of your life.” His arms tightened around her and she melted into his arms Her tears dried up and she smiled for what felt like the first time in months.  

She gathered strength from him and his words. Even if she didn’t believe them, he seemed to and that would help her carry on.  

“Thank you Saeyoung.”

“You’re welcome. Don’t let them win Princess, you are better than they can ever hope to be. This life is yours, don’t give it to them. Live it to the best of your ability. And don’t get down when you faulter, because you will. Learn from your mistakes and carry on.” His words were soothing. Her body relaxed, the tension ebbing away more with each syllable. Before she knew it, she was asleep cocooned in his warmth.

When she woke he was gone. She lay on the floor, the phone under her hand. She sat up, rubbing the sleep from her eyes and turned it on. Saeyoung’s warm smile greeted her just like always. This time he was winking and giving her a thumbs up. She gasped because it was not a photo she had ever seen. Had her dream been real? Had he really come out of the game to comfort her?She mirrored his smile, because dream or not, she would take his words to heart. She might be down now, but she would work her way back up. Her heart was lighter and she was ready to live again. She kissed the phone, blushing furiously. If only he was real. If only he would hold her in his arms every night. No matter, she would garner strength from him. Her secret ally, and keep him close to her heart.

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Need to read it all again

MM Werewolf AU

I’ve been writing so many of these, thought I’d create it’s own post and throw them all in here. I think I got them all, but I might have missed some :/

Werewolf Choi Twins 1, 2, 3, ][ Werecat MC Saeyoung/MC,][ Werecat MC 2 

forms 1, 2][ Saeyoung angst ][ Werecat/demon MC ][ Hunting ][ RFA 1, RFA 2]

[ protective ][ MC kidnapped1, 2, 3, 4 ][ Sick MC  ][ Pregnant ][ Marshal ] 

[ Government, 2, 3, 4, 5 ][ bonding, 2 ][ baby ][ Yoosung parents ]

[ Yooran cuddles, Morning Glow ][ childhood tales ][ Laser ][ MC friends ] 

[ bad mom ][ evening walk ][ lunch ][ family time ][ Gyeong ]

[ Saeyoung & baby ][ Return of Mint Eye 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 ][ Too much]

[ Mint Eye revealed ][ MC/Saeran apology ][ Yooran angst ][ Gyeong&Ki ]

[ Cheetah form ][ Surprise party ][ attack ][ cheetah fluff ][ catnip tease ]

[ VxJumin ][ kitty affection ][ animal shelter, 2 ][ Saeyoung coma ]

[ Saeran unknown ][ trespassers ][ Jaehee study ][ wild catnip ]

[ alt werewolf mc ][ more Yooran cuddles ][ breakfast attempt ]

[ MC/Saeyoung fluff ][ test help? ][ more fluff ][ SaeyoungXMC smut ]

[ Jumin lunch ][ MC/Saeran ice cream ][ werewolf fluff ][ Yoosung/MC ]

[ serval MC ][ No flirting ][ SaeyoungXMC NSFW ][ beach fun ][ ear purr ]

[ sick Saeyoung ][ Druid Yoosung 1, 2, 3,][ Yoosung proposal ][ Yooran NSFW] 

[ Harry Potter ][ Scar ][ Future Fluff ][ Heart Yoosung ][ Death ][ runaway MC]

[ lactose intolerant ][ Restaurant ][ Zen/Co-star ][ curly hair MC ]

[ Werewolf fear NSFW  ][ Jumin Blind Date, 2, 3, 4 ][ Vampire Zen 1, 2 ]

[ Werewolf Yoosung, 2 ][ Dream ][ Shapeshifter MC ][ Yooran Split 1, 2, 3 ]

[ Werewolf Jumin ][ werewolf teens ][ WW SaeyoungxHuman MC ]

[ Dad’s weekend ][ birthday Choi boys ][ Mating Fight ][ Jealous MC ]

[ Jealous Elizabeth ][ Cake for Ki ][ Werecat Yoosung ][Keeping the Pack Safe]

[Choi Twins BD 1, 2

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Looking at everything you wrote for me, I need their love right now, I need your light too @elvendara

Thank you for giving me a safe space

DONE!! Sorry it's so late...I hope you like it!!

They held hands as they walked up the trail. Saeyoung’s strong hand holding Tainá’s delicate one. He gave it a squeeze and looked back at her with a smile. She trailed a bit behind him as they trekked up the hill. She thought she was in shape, but, apparently not. Saeyoung didn’t push her, nor did he tease her about how heavy she was breathing.

“This is a nice spot to stop and take a break. Whew, it’s pretty hot today.” He wiped at his forehead, as if he was truly sweating. She was grateful for his little act. She dropped onto the large rock, taking her backpack off and yanking her water bottle from the side pocket. She opened it and downed a couple of mouthfuls.

“Hold on, you’re going to make yourself sick that way. Small, slow sips babe.” Saeyoung pushed her water bottle down and sat next to her, thighs touching. His arm swept around her waist, his hand gently nestled against her hip.

Tainá sighed and lay her head against his shoulder. They were high enough that they had a decent view of the valley below. Saeyoung took his phone out and began to take several pictures, including selfies in which he professed that Tainá looked amazing, beautiful, perfect, even though her face was puffy, red, and sweat soaked.

“Really Saeyoung! Nobody is going to want to see me looking like that!” she tried to yank his phone from his hands, but he deftly defied her attempts.

“I don’t know what you mean, you’re beautiful!” he kept his phone far away from her as he leaned in to kiss her nose, and then her lips.

Tainá stopped trying to divest him of his phone and let herself melt into the man. When he finally let her come up for air, she closed her eyes and wrapped her arms around his waist.

“How much further?” she asked, trying to keep the stress out of her voice.

“I think we’re high enough. Why don’t we have lunch and just enjoy the sun.”

“No, no, we can keep going. We don’t have to stop here.” Tainá tried to stand back up, but Saeyoung held her down.

“Babe, my feet hurt, I think I’d just like to stay here. Please?” he pouted sweetly, giving her those damned amber puppy dog eyes. She knew his feet were just fine and he was only making an excuse on her behalf, and she loved him all the more for it. She laughed and let him engulf her into his arms. They spent a few minutes gazing at the amazing view before Saeyoung took out their prepacked lunch, laying it out on a small towel he placed on the large rock.

They took turns feeding each other and gazing longingly into each other’s eyes.

When they were done, Saeyoung took Tainá’s boots off and began to massage her feet. She lay back on her elbows and moaned appreciatively.

“I promise, next outing won’t be so physical.” Saeyoung snickered. Tainá shoved him away with her foot and he fell off the rock.

“Oh! Saeyoung!” She jumped off and knelt beside him. He lay on his back, his eyes closed, glasses askew. She called his name again, searching for a head wound. When her hands touched his head, his arms flew around her and brought her down on top of him. Tainá gasped in surprise and yelped when he rolled on top of her.

“You jerk!” She squealed as she playfully beat on his shoulders. “I thought you were really hurt!”

“I can’t believe you’re calling me a jerk!” He mocked offense. “You’re the one who tried to kill me!” He joked. “I forgive you though, if you give me a kiss.”

“That’s extortion!” Tainá said as she slid her arms around his shoulders.

Saeyoung wiggled his eyebrows, “A good agent gets what he wants by any means necessary.”

“Is that so?” She narrowed her eyes. “And exactly how many times have you used this ruse to ‘get what you want’?”

“Uh, well, if I told you, I would have to kill you.” Saeyoung threatened. Tainá scoffed and tried to push him off. He was too heavy.

“Come on babe,” he kissed her neck, “just one,” her collar bone, “quick,” her chin, “kiss.” He hovered just above her lips. Tainá pulled him down and they met in the middle. The dirt and pebbles digging into her were forgotten as his arm slid under her waist and his fingers dug into her hip. She spread her legs so he could nestle between them, then wrapped her left leg over his right. He ground against her deliciously and she moaned into his mouth. She could feel his lips twitch into a smile, his hand beginning to shimmy towards the button on her pants.

“Let me make you feel good.” He whispered into her ear right before he nibbled on the lobe. Tainá sucked her breath in and arched against him.

“Saeyoung! Out in the open?” she glanced back down the trail, but they were clearly alone.

“Just…a little…here…” he covered her nipple with his mouth, over her clothing. His thumb rubbed her mound in a tight circle.

“Hah…” her mind went blank, any thoughts of being discovered suddenly obliterated. She dug her fingernails into his shoulders and pulled at him. Taking her reaction as an ascent, he quickly unbuttoned her jeans and pushed his hand under her underwear. His fingers found her slit and slipped between the folds.

He nibbled on her hardening nipple as her hands tangled into his hair. Her body writhed beneath him, any discomfort she felt from the ground was diminished by his adept attention. She moaned loudly, the sound echoing over the edge.

Saeyoung pumped two fingers inside of her and rubbed her clit with his thumb. Her legs were beginning to tremble, her breathing, coming in quick and harsh. Her chest rose and fell rapidly, the saliva in her mouth intensifying so dramatically that she had to continuously swallow.

“Hahh…hnghhh….ahhh…” she scraped his scalp with her nails as she pushed his head down, her body’s response to him was electrifying. He slipped his hand out of her jeans and she panted and whined in disappointment. That disappointment did not last long. Saeyoung pushed her jeans and underwear down to her knees and his tongue took over where his fingers had left off. He used his hands to spread her apart and lapped at her opening, sucking on the tip of her clit gently.

There was a sharp intake of breath from Tainá as her hands flew to tangle into her own hair. She yanked on it in frustration. He was keeping her on the edge, teasing her mercilessly. He began to hum, and the vibration caused her body to wrench itself even more. Her core screamed out for release and she shoved her hands under her shirt, groping her own breasts, pinching her nipples, wanting to push herself into an orgasm.

Saeyoung watched as Tainá pleasured herself. He dug his tongue further inside of her, licking and sucking harder and faster, feeling how tensely her body reacted. Her legs locked around his head in a vice like grip and he sucked on her clit a little less gently. She began to pump her hips into his face and he knew she was on the verge. He inserted his fingers inside and thrust deeply, curling the tips so they hit her G-spot.

Suddenly her hands flew to his shoulders and her nails dug through his shirt, creating crescent moons he knew would bleed slightly. He moaned, not letting up on his intensity or speed. She rocked with him, riding his tongue and fingers like an expert. Her thighs pressed against his cheeks and her muscles tensed as the orgasm washed over her. He licked softly, feeling the shudders he created within her body. Eventually she released her grip on him and he could breathe easily once more.

He redressed her, leaving her pants unbuttoned, then lay on top of her. She glanced away when he came near her and he giggled. Her cheeks were burning red, her skin still flushed from the climax. Her body still vibrated with the aftereffects. Her arms were languidly tossed over him and she sighed contentedly when he once more nestled between her legs.

“I love you.” He whispered softly into her ear.

Her arms tightened around him. He was her life, her reason for being. She often found it fascinating that he thought she had saved him, when, in fact, it had been he who saved her. If anything, they had saved each other.

“I love you too.

__________________________________ @elvendara it just popped up in my submissions after all this time D: I hope you don’t mind me posting but it’s so good the world must see it 💞

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Got the same bad ending again, I'm pissed 😡

Noooooooooooooooooooooo THAT BITCH

Omg what should I do??? I guess I can't leave him, I can't follow the plan... Shit

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Noooooooooooooooooooooo THAT BITCH

Omg what should I do??? I guess I can't leave him, I can't follow the plan... Shit

#mystic messenger #mysme #mm #mystic messenger saeran #saeran choi #mystic messenger ray route #ray after ending spoilers #ray after ending #mm saeran #saeran after ending spoiler

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Let's just appreciate Jaehee's pose

#mystic messenger #mysme #mm #mystic messenger saeran #saeran choi #gayhee for jaehee #mystic messenger jaehee #jaehee kang #jaehee #saeran #saeran after ending spoiler #saeran after ending #ray after ending

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I'm crying so hard, what can I do??? Did I do something wrong? I don't want to leave him

This might not be a bad ending yet, but hurts like hell

#mystic messenger #mysme #mm #mystic messenger saeran #saeran choi #mystic messenger ray route #ray after ending #saeran after ending #saeran after ending spoiler #ray after ending spoilers

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Fuck fuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckaaaaaaaaaa

I think I fucked up, omg, I'm so worried, omggggg

Please let this not be the end 😭😭😭

Edit: it wasn't, thank God aaaaaaaaaa

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Noooooooooo my baby 😭😭😭😭😭

What can I do to save you??? Saeyoung, I love you so much, why you always sacrifice yourself???

#mystic messenger #mysme #mystic messenger saeran #mm #saeran choi #mm saeyoung #mysme saeyoung #mystic messenger saeyoung #saeyoung choi #saeran #mystic messenger ray route #ray after ending #saeran after ending

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Look at him, look at this beautiful face, this gorgeous eyes, his lips... I would give everything to have him by my side...

I'm so scared to get an bad ending, it's been only the first day but so much happened aaaaaas

#mystic messenger #mysme #mm #mystic messenger saeran #saeran choi #mm ray route #mystic messenger ray route #ray mysme #mystic messenger ray #ray after ending #saeran #saeran after ending

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I would DIE FOR YOU AAAAAAAAAAAA

Look at his smile, this beautiful baby, love of my life, I want to give you the world, I want to protect you and make you happy, save Saeyoung and we'll be a happy family 🥺

#mystic messenger #mysme #mm #mystic messenger saeran #saeran choi #mm ray route #mystic messenger ray route #ray mysme #mystic messenger ray #saeran #mm saeran #ray after ending

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I felt the same while on it, I've laughed so much when called Zen "you know he wants you" I mean everyone does but okay

I just loved everything about this bad ending, it's fun, it's bad without being straight up abusive, it gives the Best scenario for a bad path

I've played 5 times already just because

Jumin Han’s Bad End 2 DLC - Notes / Opinion

Y’all know me. I have to take notes for everything I play or read or watch. I can’t help it. Here we have Jumin Han’s Bad End 2 DLC. The infamous bad end. The red shoes bad end. The “kinky” bad end, to some. Not my favorite bad end, but a memorable one. With that said, let’s dive in! Spoilers ahead!

Continuar lendo

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V just thought that Rika stinks and I can't stop laughing

#mystic messenger #mysme #mm #mystic messenger saeran #saeran choi #mystic messenger v #v route #mysme v route #mm v #mystic messenger rika #mysme rika #mm saeran #mystic messenger ray route #mm ray route #ray after ending

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I just did Jumins DLC and I'll try not to spoil anything, I just want to highlight the fact that @cheritzteam is soooo perfect that even though this was supposed to be a bad ending, they never made him abusive, I love it so much, he's a dom, in a real bdsm relationship where he gives the sub control to stop everything whenever, all he did was because she wanted and agreed to, it wasn't kidnapping, just kink. I just feel so happy with it. It's worth it every penny.

I also started Saeran's after ending and will talk about it without spoilers, just my feelings while playing ^^

#mystic messenger #mysme #mm #mystic messenger saeran #saeran choi #mystic messenger jumin #mysme jumin #jumin han #jumin dlc #mm jumin #mystic messenger ray route #mm ray route #ray mysme #mystic messenger ray #mm ray #ray after ending

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omgggg I just finished Jumins DLC and it's GOOOOOD AAAAAAAAAAA

I really hope it'll sparkle in you too because I would love to see what you'll write from it, it's so incredibly hot omg

Please come talk to me when you finish it I need to let my excitement out!!!!

Anyone else having difficulty logging into Mysme? I keep getting an error message or “checking server” which after I hit “OK” boots me out!

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To Release #4-#7

In my unbridled rage, I started and finished everything- even the two I lost for Jumin and Saeyoung. I specifically apologise for Jumin’s- it’s short and brash and nowhere near to the standard that my original piece had. I poured my heart out into that one… and it’s gone. I do not have the strength to try to write it again. So, instead I offer my apologies. This was written in one sitting with no editing, so this will have typos and missing words and incorrect tenses everywhere. Again. My apologies. 

Jumin, Saeyoung, Saeran and V need to let MC go. 

Years ago, I had asked the amazing @promiscuous-jalapeno to write a HC for me when I was too scared to write my own and she did an amazing job- tore me right up it did. I asked her shortly thereafter if she minded if I tried to do it and she was kind enough to encourage me. Nearly 4 years and I’ve finally done it.

Trigger warnings: Character death, curse words, mild sexual themes, and cancer.

This is for my friend, my sister- Susana. I don’t know how to let you go. But one day I will. And one day I will see you again. Rest well until then dear one.

This is for my baby, my puppy Meiko- run free my little one. I know you’ll be waiting for me too. Keep Susana company and keep her safe until we catch up, okay? Good Boy.

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Reading so much webtoons recently and now I want to draw a fanfic for MM. Let’s pretend this is a screen shot of my fanfic haha.