"When I asked why he was so thin and if he had an illness, he replied that he just liked to starve. To be honest, I never saw him eat during the days on tour, he only drank a lot of tea and was happy when there were hot drinks backstage. The others were satisfied with beer.
I looked at him a little helplessly. What was wrong with him? The self harm thing I could just understand as a show element, but was it okay for him to starve on purpose as an act of self-torture? Did he want to vanish into thin air? Did he feel his body as an enemy? As worthless?
Why does a person do such a thing to themselves, I asked myself. I wasn't a psychologist and didn't want to dig deeper. We didn't know each other enough for that and I thought it would be uncomfortable for him to talk about it. But something must have gone seriously wrong in his development."- Abo Alsleben "MAYHEM Live in Leipzig – Wie ich den Black Metal nach Ostdeutschland brachte" 🦇
“ Yeah, you did, and I should shoot you right now for it, you know I should. But I think I just might let you live, maybe, because I want you to know this… and the next kids that come up to you with their problems… that they’re being picked on, you should listen to them… no matter what twisted shit they say.”
has anyone else noticed the crossover with columbiners (or tcc in general but mainly this one) and DSBM/ black metal fans? Both niche communities.
i rly dgaf it’s just something ive observed. especially with lifelover fans. lately alot of the people who have followed me are into both. am i the only one or