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#Sticks and rlly cool leaves!!

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hey ari! how have you been doing?

hii Violet love!! I’ve been doing rlly well how are you??

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oh and may we see the kittens?

They all say hi <3

#There’s six total btw!!

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oh hey btw everywhere everything i wanna love you til we’re food for the worms to eat til our fingers decompose keep my hand in yours. if you even care.

#I’ll love you until we’re food for the worms <33

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“let’s run away together” trope fucks me up bc it’s almost always doomed. but what if it’s not this time.

#no shit

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ari i love you!

vee I love you too and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! guys it’s vee’s birthday pls go tell her happy bday bc I love them so so much!!

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a fools guide to not wanting to die anymore

by me, a fool who doesnt wanna die anymore 

never make a suicide joke again. yes this includes “i wanna die” as a figure of speech. swear off of it. actually make an effort to change how you think about things.

find something to compliment someone for at least 4 times a day. notice the little things about the world that make you happy, and use that to make other people happy.

talk to people. initiate conversation as often as you possibly can. keep your mind busy and you wont have to worry anymore

picture the bad intrusive thoughts in youe head as an edgy 13 year old and tell them to go be emo somewhere else

if someone makes you feel bad most of the time, stop talking to them. making yourself hang out with people who drain you is self harm. stop it.

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"Cut everything that doesn't advance the plot" no. I'm gonna write more stuff that doesn't advance the plot

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Christopher Logue, from “War Music”

#Patroclus

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bathroom grafitti my friend saw

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Huge shout to my friend from an undergraduate philosophy program who started working out every single day, not for health benefits or to become conventionally attractive or whatever, but because -- and this is a direct quote -- he was concerned that otherwise he might "become lost in the world of signs and forget the things they signify". I have thought about this every single time that I've worked out since.

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50% #flowers, 49% #ari’s fairy garden, 1% dumbass.

#….well shit

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hi ari! how've you been?

could i show u smth i wrote?

hi vee!! Yes ofc anytime <33

#Oh my GOSH OK #Vee I rlly rlly like this?? Thank you for sharing omg?!? #The last stanza flipping hurts babe 😭😭😭😭

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I love the sentiment but if u were wondering under what circumstances I’d tell u to fucking shut up, you’ve found it

[DAZED FROM BLOOD LOSS] hey not to kill the vibe completely but i think i am in love with you

#Absolutely no dying silly ‼️‼️‼️

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online communities are so strange because people slip away so easily. you can be on here for years, folding people you've never met into the fabric of your daily life, and then they disappear, leaving only ghost posts scattered across tumblr behind. or their blog stays dormant, for weeks, months, years, until you're only still following them because you remember that they love sunflowers or they were kind to you when they didn't have to be or the last thing they posted was sad and raw and you still worry about them sometimes.

and sometimes they come back when you least expect it, years later, even, and there's this sudden rush of relief like there you are, there you are, even though you barely knew each other.

there's a strange kind of love to it. i don't know you and i want to hold your hand across miles and time zones and oceans. i can still see the imprint of you in this community you left. you don't anyone will notice or care when you're gone, but we notice and we care and we wish you well.

i hope you're all okay out there. i hope the sun is shining on your face and you are breathing deeply. i miss you.

#I miss you blue :(( I hope the sun shines where u are

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Yellowstone Wildflowers

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A question popped up in my head, and now I'm curious.

#literally just grew up hearing it in the background and never rlly stopped