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people i’ve loved.

(part 1/6)

I grew up with two seasons, and never really cared about any other. But in June of 2015, I experienced my first winter. I went on a ship that cruised around the Norwegian sea, and it was the first time I saw ice that didn't come from a freezer. It was the first time I saw a snowy mountain, glaciers and icebergs.

And all of a sudden, I, who previously couldn’t care less about snow, saw it as the most beautiful thing in the world. My eyes got locked at the sight of soft, glistening, white snow. And I turned around, wanting to see more from the other side of the ship. But instead of the beautiful snow, I saw an even prettier pair of eyes. His eyes resembled the sky that I have never learned to appreciate and his hair looked like the golden stands of silk I ran my hands through in China. I sort of stood there, gaping. That was the first time I met him. 

It was honestly a really awkward encounter because I just stood there, staring. For a whole 2 minutes, I swear I felt like digging a hole, crawling in it and just rot there. The next time I bumped into him again was when he literally bumped into me and accidentally tossing me into the pool. Mind you, the weather was about 2 degrees celsius with really strong wind. That was the first time we talked.

We ran around the ship, played pranks on the waiters and waitresses, got ice cream, and watched the sunset together. We never really arranged to meet up, we just happen to constantly bump into one another, as if it was fate playing us over and over and over again.

5 days felt like 2 spent with him. 

One of those days, we were staring off into the Norwegian sunset, and into each other’s eyes. It was the last day on that cruise. He gave me an amethyst geode necklace, and as he put it around my neck, the snow started to fall from the sky. He looked up, and his eyes looked even more beautiful reflecting the snowflakes, it almost looked like they were glowing. He was the one I watched my first snowfall with.

We went separate ways the next day. That was when I realised, I have made so many memories with him, yet didn’t even know his name. Or where he came from. I only knew that he prefers chocolate ice cream over any other, that he has a minor seafood allergy despite loving it, and how he scraped his knee cycling around his neighbourhood when he was 7.

So if fate would play us once again, to the blonde-haired boy with unearthly blue eyes, I am the girl who watched the sun go into slumber with you 4 years ago.

How have you been?

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Shitpost #1

Hi, this is my first post on Tumblr. 

You see, Tumblr has been previously blocked in my country and no one has ever been interested in it anyway so I just decided that this would be a nice place for me to rant and talk about stuff.

Mostly because no one from my school/community is interested in this platform anyways. But then again if they ever did find it, they won't even know that it’s me. 

Anyways, hello again! My name is Antares and I read, write and draw things. I will mostly be talking about deep things that no one cares about but oh well this is my blog and I can do whatever the fuck I want.

cheers!

Antares <3