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How do I tell you I love you without choking on the words?

Growing up, I never heard my family say 'I love you'. It was something people confessed in films and books and not what mother said to us or father told my mother. I love you was an exotic bird that existed somewhere in the world- too far away from us. I love you was a weakness that required immeasurable strength.

So, I pour my love in the morning coffee. And in the evening, I peel an orange for you, I love you. And I send you 15 cat pictures an hour, I love you and I hope you see it. And I text you good morning at the same time everyday, I love you, I love you, I love you. And until I learn to swallow it and live in it and whisper it, I hope you see how much I love you.

-Ritika Jyala, excerpt from The world is a sphere of ice and our hands are made of fire

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Bhagwan ji shaadi bhalein hi late krwa dena lekin bs anand babu jitna simp hi dena

#hum saath saath hai #anand babu simp level #desi #desi shit posting

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Every other romance trope in bollywood ek taraf aur main character ka club jakar item girl ki jagah apni girlfriend/ wife ko imagine krna ek taraf.

Like bhaiiii even at your bachelorette party you have eyes for your girl only. Like you love her so damn much that you can only imagine her as the item girl like urghhhh

#desi #desi tag #desi shitposting #desiblr #desi romance

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tips #1

if you’re hungry and don’t want your stomach to get noisy, drink zero calorie cola or monster, chew gum, drink hot tea/coffee, or a lot of water.

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the vocabulary of loss is the dictionary

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10 HARSH TRUTHS YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT

1 . People only value you for the value you bring. There's no such thing as 'love you regardless and people that use this phrase are either ignorant or manipulating you. The amount of love you receive is directly propotional to the value you bring/ how much value they estimate you are at.

2. You live life according to your position not your value or wishes. The broker you are the more values you are forced to overlook. The Bible literally says the poor have no choices & are slave to circumstance. You want success, play into your position. The only thing that will allow you to uphold your values & live a good life is 💰. Being broke is actually the root of all evil.

3. No one cares unless you're pretty, rich and influential enough. You want people to care? Have status. People will preach morality and virtue signal to you but Riddle me this, what more do they do after that? Your friends care more about the fact that Selena Gomez was cheated on than the fact that you were. What, pray I ask. Is the difference? That you're someone they hang out with and Selena is pretty, rich and has status. Be honest with me if they could hang out with with someone richer & prettier would they still choose you? It may be hard to stomach but keep this in mind. We are social animals. We are status seeking and hierarchical. And no you're not the exception that's why if Kim K ever liked a post we'd all know but your mom has been liking for ages and none of us know

4. Nature does not bow to virtue and evolution does not care bout sociology. You want success? Work within your natural boundaries first then venture outside. Women are women, men are men. You'll get the most success by treating women as women and men and men because millions of years of evolution & adaptation does not care about your 587689 word virtue signalling pity ploy. The higher power is learning how we evolved to survive and work within that, regardless of gender. Politics is a waste of time & the most misleading crap we invented. Human beings only have control over max 15% of their minds. The rest is purely run subconsciously, mostly by evolutionary adaptations.

5. No one cares about your pain past self righteousness. This might be the hardest to hear but vulnerability especially in public is self sabotaging. It's natural especially as women to need to vent, get a therapist or coach or internet friend 2 continents away , your day to day friends respect you less by every little form of weakness you show and what says I'm weak here harder than hey look I was hit and I hurt? This is really hard to comprehend bc we care about our maimed ones that's probably what makes us human, this is literally the marker of the human species- we care for our weak. we just don't respect them if they're over 16. We care for them. We want to help them. We will riot for them. We just lose respect. It sucks but it is what it is.

6. It is within the nature of a social species to attack their weak. " So you're saying if I'm getting attacked it's because I'm weak" no, we all are weak you're just showing yours. Have you ever had someone attack you for no reason? Like you literally can not pinpoint what it is you did that made them come at you like that? Now look at the people that are Hella shitty but never face backlash. What's the difference? Exactly. Survival for the strongest sorry. People don't come at you because you're bad or you messed up or you did something wrong- the only reason is you're showing weakness. Evolutionary speaking weaklings put the whole social group in danger and either they bossed up or got killed by their own and sadly we still function primarily on the lizard / & monkey brain. No Saber tooth tiger will anhiliate the whole tribe bc Alice is being wussy but your brain sees Alice being wussy and goes attack. Maybe not jump at Alice but why is she wearing that? Ew. & no its not about muscle it's about non verbal cues.

8. Life is a dying process, not living. Living is the process of getting closer to death. Never put to tomorrow what can be done, today.

9. "Loyalty" , "girlfriend" ," casual sex" and "male dependence" are the most misogynistic things ever invented 100% by men to keep women used. Do with this what you must.

10. You are not better off alone. Safer alone probably , but isolation is a fools game. "Lone wolf" lol no you just need therapy. It's no "sigma" whatever it's a trauma response. There have been countless experiments dating back to BC showing that the literal basic need of any member of a social species is community. When you lose community you seek death. Either directly by attempting suicide or indirectly ie you can't bring yourself to support life, you can't eat or drink or even get out of bed- you lose community & your body seeks death. Your best bet at a healthy happy life is to find community in as many places as you can bc if your bf is your only community if he breaks up with you you'll lose meaning of life bc the meaning of life in itself is community. The human basic need is community. That's why you scroll online for hours - seeking community.

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This is goodbye

Hey guys,

I started this account when I was basically a child. I had gotten into a very unhealthy relationship with a boy because I was desperate for love and attention. It was a very toxic relationship and it took me a lot of time to heal from it.

This blog was my diary. But along the lines, it became my personal safe space. I explored so much here and my blogs attention diverted and it really did turn into a diary of all the things I love and hyperfixate on.

The thing is I don't relate to this content anymore. I am healed from the relationship and I don't think this blog really provides anything of the substance anymore other than my rants which I think I should start writing down on an actual, physical diary.

 So this is a goodbye and end of this beautiful journey.

I hope that the people who did stumble on my block because of the breakup content(I deleted most of it because it was a very misleading content that spread the damsel-in distress persona) are healing and realising they deserve better.

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“If we wait until we’re ready, we’ll be waiting for the rest of our lives.”

— Lemony Snicket

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TRIGGERING SUBJECT MATTER: toxic parents

Dear Desi Parents:

You did NOT do us a favour by giving BIRTH to us, and that is not something we are obligated to you for, heck if someone had given ME a choice, I would not have been born at all.

Doing the bare minimum for us is not something to be proud of. It is EXACTLY what it sounds like, THE BARE MINIMUM. AND IF YOU THINK THAT DOING THE BARE MINIMUM FOR SOMEONE YOU FORCED INTO THIS WORLD, IS SOMETHING TO BE PROUD OF, well ,maybe you did not deserve kids!

The fact that you gave birth to us, and that you do the bare minimum for us like feeding . clothing and sending us to school, is not something for you to hold over our heads, as though we were bonded labourers of the olden days , to be held under a non-existent debt without free will or agency.

We are not burdens who have been dumped on you. You chose to bring us into your lives willingly. We are not your puppets. We are people with agency, to grow into whatever our inner hearts and The Universe decree us to be.

And if you haven’t already had kids, and if you disagree with what I have said here, if you believe that kids must be indebted to your every wish because you merely ejected a bunch of cells, that formed this vessel a consciousness will be forced to inhabit, then perhaps reconsider your decision. Trust me , it will be better not only for your mental health, and prevent the being yet unconceived of, from a lot of horror.

TRIGGERING SUBJECT MATTER

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Parents, literally anywhere in the world: As long as my child is happy, who cares what people think?

Desi parents: As long as *I* am happy with what people think of my kid and in extension of *my* parenting, who cares what my child thinks?

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It's so exhausting living with you. You never see me as a fully, functioning self-dependent adult. I am always just the kid who screws up in your eyes because this one time two years ago I forgot to lock the house when I left. It was fine before I went away to college. I was still miserable but it was fine because I hadn't experienced how to live by myself.

But now its exhausting and draining and I just want to run back home. I love you guys, I really do. Ofcourse you love me to in your own ways too. But I am not happy when I live under you cause you guys constantly remind me that I am living under you. Like it's gift that I am. That I could easily be tossed to the roads to fend for myself. That I should always be grateful. Maybe that is not your intention but that's how I always feel around you.

You always taunt me saying that I am always happy and cheerful when I am living in my hostel and not with you guys. I can see in your eyes that it hurts you- this truth. But what can I do, maa?

I have to constantly hide who I am around you guys. I can't wear what i want to wear. I can't go outside. I can't meet my friends. I have to live a certain way when I am under your roof. It's like I am a completely different person around here. I feel like I am hopeless, ambitionless, uncreative robot who lives to only please her parents. Despite all of this, I still cease to please you.

It's heartbreaking that my mere existence goes beyond your goddamn irrational rules. And that cleaning this house at a certain time is more important to you than my happiness.

I just wish sometimes you would accept me the way I am instead of bringing me down because I am not like you.

#desi #desi tag #desi parents #just desi things ig #i can stay out till 9 at my college but the moment it starts getting dark you are on my ass #wearing even ripped jeans is a crime in your eyes #i cant go out to meet a friend after staying in basically a lockdown for a month

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Love letter to my best friend

Remember how when we used to play the game of life and we would have to choose a lucky number for spinning the wheel and you would always choose the number seven declaring that it's your birthday?

I used to also choose the number seven as my lucky number.

Because it's your birthday.

#friends #beest friends #ex friends #god it still hurts sometimes #my life always revolved around yours because I wanted it to #I wanted to be the moon to your earth #friend breakup hurts

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OKAY BUT REALLY WHERE ARE ALL THE DESI BISEXUALS AT HUH? I GO TO ART SCHOOL I FIND NOT A SINGLE SAPPHIC GIRL BUT MY FRIEND GOES TO BUSINESS SCHOOL FUCKING BUSINESS SCHOOL AND IS DATING A GIRL!!??

#desi #desi tag #desi queer #desi lgbt #i want to date a girl so bad #desi bisexuals #kaha ho bhai

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I think kafka’s diaries are the strongest evidence that journaling is not necessarily good for your mental health

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“He used to think that he wanted to be good, he wanted to be kind, he wanted to be brave and wise, but it was all pretty difficult. He wanted to be loved, too, if he could fit it in.”

— F. Scott Fitzgerald

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And I do not get why people hate Kate so much. Everybody on the show had issues. Tully was a very needy friend and she wanted someone stable in her life which was Kate. She never had a stable home and in some ways Kate took the caregiver role in their relationship. But Kate had issues too. Yes, it might not look like she had issues because she wasn't a lesbian in the 70s and neither did she had absent parents but that doesn't mean she didn't have her own set of issues. Her whole life everybody of importance had preferred Tully over her. Sean wanted Tully to give speech at his wedding. He was always more close with Tully. Her parents too had a liking towards Tully. Johnny was also into Tully before her. Her kid prefers to talk with Tully too. So, no she didn't have it easy either.

Stop hating on her so much. Everybody in the show have issues which make them flawed.

#kate mularkey #firefly lane