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what a kind and thoughtful review from library journal i appreciate this very much buckaroos. that is now three STARRED REVIEWS (others in booklist and publishers weekly) dang sounds like a PRETTY GOOD BOOK WORTH PREORDERING. LOVE IS REAL

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oh we're fully going back to 2021 madness then

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Promotional photo of Jensen Ackles as Russell Shaw in episode 1.12 of Tracker, Off The Books (x)

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“Dean, like it or not, the stuff you don’t talk about doesn’t just go away. It builds up, like whatever’s eating at you right now.”

#I LOVE DEAN

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this was a comment on one of my post from a recent live event. it was photos of joyful queer buckaroos celebrating together and proving love is real through creation, community, and a trot of love. most important I AM LITERALLY IN PHOTO AS A REAL FLESH AND BLOOD HUMAN

it got me thinking about how DEEP AND VICIOUS the irony poisoning of these early internet communities goes. the way buds like this cannot fathom someone just being a sincere person unrelated to their OWN old days of cynical posting. it is fascinating, and i will admit, sad too

despite a DECADE of work, countless live events, 350 tinglers written well before large language models were a thing, there are still people who cannot imagine someone like me could exist. it is a strange place to be. not just part of me, but my entire EXISTENCE is often gatekept

it is easy to say ‘well chuck your art IS strange’ but honestly i think it is more than that. magical realism is common. there are stories about dinosaurs and bigfeet and unicorns. this scoundrel reaction is about two unspoken things: my art is neurodivergent, and my art is queer

heres the thing: I WILL BE FINE. what concerns me is not an issue of MYSELF, it is a concern for the other young outsider buckaroos who see comments like this one and think ‘is that what they will say if i express MY unique way? will i be dehumanized like this at every turn?'

i will be honest, i cannot say that WONT happen, but i CAN say this: for as deep as this irony poisoning goes, it is slowly dying. the way i was treated at the start of my career is LIGHTYEARS DIFFERENT from the way i am treated now. there is a massive shift towards sincerity

BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY. to young artists trotting up, the things that i am harassed over and doubted for and made fun of for are NOT tangental to what has made me successful, THEY ARE LITERALLY THE SAME THINGS THAT HAVE MADE ME SUCCESSFUL. YES I AM STRANGE, WHAT OF IT?

the things that you tuck away for fear of a review that says ‘there is a PROBLEM with this art because it has always been done another way’ THOSE ARE YOUR SUPERPOWERS. the gatekeepers want you to tuck those parts of yourself away because THEY TUCKED AWAY THOSE PART OF THEMSELVES

never forget that your unique way is PURE UNFILTERED 100 PERCENT ROCKET FUEL. it will stick out (maybe, if you are lucky, scoundrels will even say that someone like you could never actually be real), but sticking out isnt so bad when you are waving the flag of love.

in fact, when youre waving the flag of love, sticking out is pretty dang cool. what are flags for, after all? LOVE IS REAL BUCKAROOS. thank you for reading, and if you enjoyed this long post then please consider preordering BURY YOUR GAYS.

LETS TROT

#YEAH!!!!!

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justinhartley: Thank you all for watching @trackercbs! We’ve got 4 more episodes coming your way before we start season 2. Wanted to share some fun news for all of you #tracker fans out there. Have fun.

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#jacting joices

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MISS CONGENIALITY | 2000 

bonus:

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Jensen making the joke of the century and then looking shy af

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The 90s Song Ever - Quarterfinals 4

Oh no... this is the matchup I've been dreading.

Listen to both songs before voting (though I think most of us are quite familiar with both songs already), and define "better" any way you wish! Be prepared to fistfight a few mutuals.

#born in 90 and nine inch nails will win any contest ever for me #but closer vs smells like teen spirit? CLOSER??? #i mean. it's closer.......

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obsessed with everything in this. pls watch till the end.

thank you to the person who uploaded it!

#omg ...........

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i'm at the bedlund talking about destiel i'm at the reminiscing about misha avoiding the cw sniper like a squirming eel i'm at the gay firefighter actor talking about network censorship i'm at the collective prayer for a spn revival i'm at the gay madonna!jensen that lives in our heads i'm at the cockles happening at a non-cockles con

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gay sex wasn't legal in kansas until 2 years before supernatural started airing. just btw

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Not the basement (x)

#reminder that he said this ✌️😌