monsters-and-mental-illness

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Self harm doesn’t always happen when a blade touches skin.

It’s skipping meals because you don’t feel like you deserve to eat today. It’s having sex because you want to be used or abused or defiled. It’s drinking recklessly because you might have the ‘courage’ do something stupid. It’s smoking - not because you need the nicotine - because you know it’s bad for you. It’s banging your head against a wall when you’re angry. It’s crossing the road without looking because you lowkey hope a car might hit you. It’s thinking about all the ways you could break a bone and make it look like an accident. It’s not taking painkillers because you want to suffer. It’s taking painkillers in excess because you know it’s dangerous. It’s walking home the more dangerous way because you’re kind of half hoping you’ll get attacked or raped or stabbed. It’s going for long walks at night and getting chilled to the bone and hoping that you get lost so that you can’t find your way back. It’s seeking out triggering material. It’s all the stupid little ways you punish yourself for existing.

Sometimes self harm happens when you put effort into depriving yourself of things you like or need, and sometimes it happens when you don’t put any effort into doing the things you like or need.

It’s a pattern of self-destructive behaviour, and it doesn’t only happen in one way.

#self harrrm #tw #drugs #alcohol #tw depressing stuff #sex #sh #self destruction #self destructive behavior #fuck it

[monsters-and-mental-illness]

Hahaha....yeah you were right mom. This is something I cry about 24fucking7

#funny #memes #tw #anxitey #drugs #mental disorder #mental illness #mental ill meme #trauma #mommy issues #daddy issues #fucked for life

[monsters-and-mental-illness]

the hardest part isn’t the hunger pangs or the light headedness, it’s how slow it is. it’s dealing with the fear that i’ll never reach my gw, or even be skinny at all

#tw #eating disoder things #weightloss #anxitey #bulimik #anna miaa #disordered eating tw

[monsters-and-mental-illness]

Fuck i-

[monsters-and-mental-illness]

#funny #memes #tw #eating disoder things #weightloss #anxitey #bulimik #anna miaa #disordered eating tw

[monsters-and-mental-illness]

Every time I eat I re-realise that being full hurts more than starving.

Every. Fucking. Time.

#tw #eating disoder things #weightloss #anxitey #bulimik #anna miaa #disordered eating tw

[monsters-and-mental-illness]

I only have three modes

1. I feel EVERYTHING

2. I feel nothing

3. Anger is the only emotion I’ve ever known

#tw #funny #memes #out of control #numb #ragecore #feeling everything #anxitey #drugs

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#thinspo #anamia #not pro just using tags #proana #ana memes #anorexia #pro ana #bonespo #i wanna be skinny #im fat #anna miaa #tw ana #anxitey #bulimik #bulimia #tw bulimia #disordered eating tw

[monsters-and-mental-illness]

fuck this is me

#depression #depressed #anorexia #thinspo #thispiration #bonespo #eating disorder #binge eating #mental disorder #meanspo #anna miaa #tw ana #anxitey #tw ed #tw ed things #eating disoder things

[monsters-and-mental-illness]

A constant struggle

Thinking about eating vs. actually eating.

#funny #memes #tw #eating disoder things #weightloss #bulimik #anxitey #anna miaa #anorexia #bulimia #tw bulimia #tw ed things #ed side effects #ed #disordered eating tw #tw eating things #binge eating disorder

[monsters-and-mental-illness]

why the fuck is my nose bleeding while purging

#tw ed things #bulimia #purge #tw bulimia #bulimic #anorexia #purging #mental health #depressed #thinspo #ed #nosebleeds #the great purge

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#bipolar disorder #funny #memes #tw #psychosis #weightloss #bulimia #anorexia #anxitey #tw depressing stuff #suicide #sewerslide #drugs #high on drugs #420 #bpd #borderline personality disorder #PTSD #OCD #ADHD #depression #anxiety

[monsters-and-mental-illness]

Me

#tw #weightloss #memes #funny #bulimia #bulimik #purge #mia #anorexia #ana #anna miaa #eating disoder things #ed #spiderman #tw eating things

[monsters-and-mental-illness]

The dynamic of selfharm

These are only some of my demons but yeah basically...

#ana #anorexia #weightloss #bulimia #mia #bingeing #binge eating disorder #eating disoder things #depression #tw depressing stuff #cutting #cutters #self harrrm #blood #anxitey #tw sui mention #suicide #pills #pill popper #popping pills to make the pain pain go away #tw #art #my demons #the demons of selfharm #sad #trauma #i hate me too

[monsters-and-mental-illness]

I will shank a bitch if they dare try me...

#tw #funny #memes #psychosis #shadow people #insomnia #nervy #going crazy #dont try me

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#bulimia #bulimik #hello kitty #ED #eating disoder things #memes #hello kitty stay pretty #anna miaa #mia #weightloss #tw #toilet date #funny