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Did my unruly ass just waste 40$ on the Lost Boys earrings pack cause I can't for the life of me save like a functioning adult?

YOU BET YER ASS I DID

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“Shepherding to you just means hunting?”

“Perhaps they do things differently where I come from.”

​Sigh. Elijahposting again since I can never get him out of my head.

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chnt fandom i bring you this gift before scampering away

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"Kill them with kindness?" Wrong. Congregants, light the pyre! I shall commence with reading. AUGUST 24, 2019 Every time I went to check up on Sydney, the same nurse was there to greet me. Very tall and thin ma

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Rant about Jedidiah Martin because I'm getting brain worms...

Jedidiah knows love from his upbringing, which is why his favorite game growing up was "playing house." Jedidiah practiced his mother's example of parenthood on his "children;" that being keeping them close by and admiring them, but neglecting them nonetheless. Sydney's comment about the fruit fly really captures this dynamic.

"It hadn't even occurred to him. He'd gotten up every morning and admired that starving animal, throwing itself against the walls of its container. Hadn't even thought to put a little piece of cantaloupe in there. And his beloved fly died hungry, empty, trapped, and alone."

Jedidiah is very dependent on his mother. He still lives with her, he relies on her protection to handle everything he cannot. Despite this, Lucille always keeps him at arms length and never any closer. She has this weirdly detached style of parenting, where she needs Jedidiah close in proximity, but not close emotionally. And Jedidiah mirrors this in his relationship with Sydney.

I think Jedidiah really does love Sydney, however, the only way he knows how to treat Sydney is the way his mother treated him.

He keeps Sydney close, essentially trapping him at the Camp, and admires him from afar. He does a lot to ensure Sydney's physical safety, sure, but this is done so with minimal interaction with him. Sydney is his fruit fly. He loves Sydney, and ultimately does not want Sydney to die, but he is doing nothing to nourish their relationship. I think he almost views Sydney's state of being "alive" as the physical act of living. He is breathing, his body is functioning. But being alive is much more than that. His clinical approach to their relationship is the reason why he doesn't seem to conceptualize how much he's hurt Sydney. And only when he starts to feel hurt by Lucille's treatment of him does he realize he's put Sydney in the same position.

It's almost as if Lucille and Jedidiah don't entirely view the subject of their "love" as a separate, autonomous human being.

It almost reminds me of the like "Teaching STEM without the humanities" memes. Jedidiah has no reference for an emotional connection with other people, so when he wants to be in a relationship with someone, it results in this dynamic we see between him and Sydney.

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these guys again (extra under cut)

homestar runner voice Everybody everybody!!! (first: in order by color, second: in order by appearance on the ost)

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Me when podcast characters are friends

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real

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I’ve been stuck in my comfort outfits lately. You’ll never guess why this is one! There is a centipede in my… uh. On the dress thing I sewed from a bedsheet.

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Sydney Sargent, gotta be one of my favorite genders

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"Worship is everywhere, dear." Always just out of sight, it seems.

This is inspired by those old biblical triptych paintings. Ohhhhhh husbant.... Why is he like that. I tried to make it evident that he’s hidden from view beneath the wall and Sydney’s shadow, hopefully that comes across.

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*twirling hair normally* im sooooo normal about this piece of media,,,, so soso normal,,,,, *begins whirring* sooooooooooooooooooooooo noooooooormaaaaaaaal 

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Star from the lost boys <33

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artists on tumblr stop fukcing lying to yourselves you never draw those sticks and circles when you sketch stuff out you just die and you know it

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I'm writing three different stories inspired by camp herevand there and I'm only on episode SEVEN, SEVEN this has taken over me and my gf life and I don't know what to do

#camp here and there #gay #im losing it #im so normal #im actually going insane

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Evening announcements goes so fucking hard for no reason

“Okay, Will, we just need a simple tune to wrap up the last announcements of the day-”