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being human sucks what if i wanna bark bark ruff awoooo ? what then? what if i dont wanna pay taxes? im just a dog you cant make me pay taxes!!!

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My new painting "Therian"

Oil on canvas 100x100 cm

Modern Therianthropy is categorized by a deep integral or personal belief that an individual is in some way and to some degree, a non-human animal, based upon involuntary, non-human experience. Physically, therianthropes are human and understand that they have human bodies. Therianthropy is an innate part of the person's life, and recognition and acceptance of the animal within. It makes us what we are, but more importantly who we are. Because there seems to be some confusion over what a therian is and is not, Therianthropy is about the inner nature of one's own self. Therianthropy is about the discovery of the animal within, that humans are born with. You cannot become a therian, you must be born that way. While therians are not tressing that Therianthropy is the only kind of personal animal philosophy/spirituality, they are, however, stressing the differences between Therianthropy and these other 'ways of life' or spiritual beliefs."

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Identities can change and that’s okay. You’re not invalid if you started out as a cat but that identity’s changed to a bear over the years. We change, and our identities might change. There’s nothing wrong with that.

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i hate this vessel. i hate being perceived as human. i hate being stuck inside this human body when my whole being knows that i am not human.

i want to cry and rip this flesh away until the ragged fur and spindly limbs of my true self finally appear. i hate existing inside this prison.

i want to do nothing but lay on the floor, curl into a ball and cry and cry and cry and scream. let me out.

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I want to run so bad. I hate that I wasn't raised as a canine. I hate that I have some squishy feet instead of hard calloused paws. I hate that I can't run outside because of my ripped up skin.

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"Am I valid if I..."

Yes, you're valid. Even if you:

- never have shifts

- never have phantom limbs

- didn't know you were a therian until you learned about it

- don't feel "therian enough"

- have experiences that differ from other therians

- don't relate to most therian's experiences

- don't know your theriotype

- experiment with different theriotypes occasionally to find what feels right

- don't wear gear, don't do quads, don't draw yourself as your theriotype

- aren't open about it, aren't planning on telling anyone

You don't have to be like all of the therians you see online. You aren't invalid because you aren't what the internet says is a therian. If you believe you are an animal in a non physical way, you are a therian! That's all. You're valid. :)

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i get this "i feel like im not supposed to be here" kind of feeling a lot when I am around humans, even those im close with. i try to mimic conversation, use "the rules" so i don't come off as rude, and yet it feels like i mess up every step.

i get strange looks as I struggle to understand or pronounce even simple words and my responses to others are often met with confused expressions and angry responses.

i can't help that I have to pretend to be human. it doesn't come naturally to me. all this talking and hidden expectations. never knowing if someone is being honest.

sometimes it feels like I'm just an animal on display and all the humans are coming to gather and take their anger out on me. always staring at me with terrifying eyes. makes my skin crawl when strangers look at me. puts me into fight or flight mode.

i know it's not true but it feels like sometimes, humans treat me so poorly because they can see my weaknesses and my true coyote form. they all see me as some terrible mangled up mutt who doesn't deserve respect or kindness cause this creature is below them. like im not even close to being equal to humans.

i know it's my stupid delusional animal brain telling me these things but...it all feels so real and it's upsetting. at least...some humans around me are nice.

( tldr ; pretending to understand human conversation and how to do it "properly" is hard and i feel like humans can tell im a horrible creature and target me because of that :3 )

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The idea that all Disabled people are alter human is so icky to me. As a disabled therian.

My therianthropy and animal identity make me alternative to human identity.

My disability does not.

My disability doesn't make me less or alternative to humanity. My existence as a human is not an alternative to able bodied humans.

My sickness does not make me different, nor does my fucked up wrist.

My identity and experience as a therian does.

Yes my life and experience is different due to my disability but the human I live in society as is not some weird alternative to "Normal" humans.

And it's incredibly fucking weird to imply that. And honest to God Dehumanizing. In the most literal way.

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🔮💖Witchy Aesthetic💖🔮

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list of resources about alterhumanity!

alterhumanarchive.neocities.org "is an ever-expanding collection of information, writings, and creations meant to function as a community resource and memory bank."

anotherwiki.org "is the free encyclopedia written by, for, and about the Otherkin community." primarily focuses on otherkin and therian identities.

thehornedgate.wordpress.com or Beyond Awakening is a collection of essays and stories about alterhuman identities by those who experience them.

beyondhumanity.net "was created as a resource for those curious about alterhumans and/or questioning an identity, to dispel misconceptions, and to provide an online space for [the creators] writings."

alt-h.net "began as a tumblr blog dedicated to content and articles on alterhumanity. [...], and it was the growth of the community here that began to push us towards our current goal of alterhuman advocacy."

obscurities.sonverrid.org "is a project & site for content, mainly writings, about personal animality from therians, otherkin, & other alterhumans, but for animal types that are uncommon or rare in those communities."

fromfiction-archive.rookerystudios.com is, like name suggests, an archive focused on fiction folk and fictional identities.

and a list of every site relating to alterhumanity, one way or other:

luunaathh.dreamwidth.org/The Directory of Nonhuman Spaces "I have compiled a directory of every single nonhuman/otherkind/alterhuman/etc site which currently exists on the internet. This list is inclusive of every alterhuman/otherkin identity which is currently defined." writes the creator. It lists forums, discord servers and more!

For more sites, make sure to browse Beyond Humanity and The Directory of Nonhuman Spaces, listed above!

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It's so sad that there are very few places anyone can go that provide that perfect secret little hideaway somewhere in th woods. Everything is someones property, public parks that are just grass, or housing developments now. I just want to be able to take a short walk from my house to some (not even that deep) woods and find a cool tree and make it my hang out spot and to walk along the naturally forming paths from other people and animals taking time to actually enjoy nature.

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Sleepy Critter Sundays!!!!

ARF ARF

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people assuming you are intellectually disabled or insulting your appearance as a visibly different person or just as a disabled person in general by comparing you to id people does not make id people or the concept of intellectual disability the problem.

the way abled people (and you) think of id people and intellectual disability is the problem.

additionally, a lot of id people have facial differences like strabismus and ptosis because a lot of neurological, chromosomal, and genetic disabilities come with intellectual disability. therefore it is not unheard of for abled people to assume you are intellectually disabled when you have a facial difference or are visibly disabled or autistic, especially as a young person.

autism also frequently occurs in people with congenital disabilities that cause facial differences, visible differences, and physical disability. intellectual disability, developmental disabilities, learning disabilities, and cognitive disabilities are common in many congenital disabilities. people offline know this, even if people online somehow never seem to.

remember congenitally disabled people ever, yeah? and care about us. the way people treat you when they think you're a different kind of disabled should make you angry about the way people with that disability are treated, not angry either at them or at your intelligence or abilities or independence being questioned.

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⤷ grey wolf moodboard

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just had a very profound moment of being nonhuman