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“As usual, when Frank was around, Nancy’s heart beat just a little faster. Even though nothing had actually ever gone on between them, Nancy and Frank both recognized that their respect for each other had an edge of something more, something that could be romantic in a different time and place.”       —   Target for Terror

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Harrison Ford

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#good with his legs

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#sherlock holmes #john watson #holmes #sherlock holmes pastiches #independent wrtiing #dr. watson #sherlock

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@catws-anniversary | Steve Rogers - Guilt

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Soldat... get me out of here.

CAPTAIN AMERICA: CIVIL WAR dir. Joe & Anthony Russo (2016)

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I've really been enjoying TFATWS. It's really good show, but there is one thing about it that still bugs me a bit (and problem that's been in the mcu for years, actually).

I've complained about this before, but I want to talk about it a bit more here.

In the last 11 years of Bucky's mcu story, he's always been a sort of prop (sebastian brought his all to it and made him real but that was sheer force of will). He barely had any lines and his story seemed to exist more to highlight other people's pain, primarily Steve but even Tony in CW. He was fought over, discussions about who he was and even his right to live were done mostly over his head (sometimes while he was standing right there). Even free from Hydra, it seemed he was still defined by his relationship to others and viewed through their perspective.

Now in TFATWS, he finally has dialog, a story, etc, but when it comes to his trauma, he's still being defined by his external effects on other people. Therapy seems to revolve around his victims and the things he did to other people, his identity issues revolve around what he'll do to others if he slips into WS mode, his de-programming is to prevent him from hurting others. His nightmares revisit the harm he did to others. Now this is all fine, because it would be a big part of him.

But very little has been done to address Bucky as a victim in ways that affected no one but himself. You mean to tell me this man never dreams of that machine and how painful it was? Or whatever violence they did to him while with Zola to keep him under control? The deprivation and experiments they subjected him to? Or the feeling of waking up mid-surgery to a room full of nazis sawing your arm off? What is was like to remember your family and having those things ripped away from you again and again?

Bucky's trauma is layered, it's both related to his guilt and the things he's done, but it's equally about being kidnapped and tortured, so the show could give, if not equal weight, at least some nod towards that as well. They may have with the "he'll do anything you want" moment but even then, most viewers would automatically connect that to his work as the winter soldier before really thinking about the implications of complete dehumanization and enslavement that it also brought up.

If Bucky ever manages to come to peace with his work as the winter soldier, he still has a whole lot of personal trauma that needs to be addressed. In fact, I'd argue he can never really come to peace with his work at the winter soldier if his personal trauma is never addressed. The winter soldier only existed because of Bucky's abuse so if he doesn't think about himself as an abuse victim, he'll always blame himself for what hydra made him do.

It almost still feels like the writers think that if you remove all of Bucky's external effects on other people, he's no longer interesting as a victim of violence himself. Or maybe because he's a man, they simply don't think that way about his trauma.

As I said, I love the show, so it isn't a hate post, I just wanted to get this into words.

And if any anti-B*cky people (which, how do you exist? what a weird character to choose to hate. Like, oh that victim of abuse? Yeah, can't stand that dude lol) somehow find this post, don't bother. Beyond the temporary annoyance of having to read your irrational, narrow-minded opinions, I don't care about you and will just block you.

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elliot + helen in the tourist (2022-)

So that’s what it takes to make you happy? I mean, screw self-knowledge, just get me a burrito. Next time you’re down, think of that. Or I can just…I’ll text you. I’ll just send you an emoji of a burrito. And from that moment on, you’ll know that everything will be okay. 

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The Falcon and The Winter Soldier | Episode 5: "Truth"

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“... i feel very grateful, you know? like i said, for a little kid that wanted to be an actor, that was a very nice moment”.

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SEBASTIAN STAN Award Ceremony of the 74th Berlinale

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“I wanna thank Aaron and Adam for teaching me and entrusting me and believing in me to lead this important story- a story that’s not only about acceptance, identity, and self-truth but about disfigurement and disability, a subject matter that’s been long overlooked by our own bias, uncomfortability, and projection.”

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from indieboy' instagram - february 22, 2024.

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The way bucky looks low key offended and mad

Avengers: Infinity War (2018)

The Falcon and the Winter Soldier: One World, One People (2021)

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