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thinking about kipperlilly going to sessions with jawbone for more than two years. i doubt she wouldve been punished if she didnt, considering you can get away with not attending ur own classes for two years before getting in trouble for it, so one way or another she made that decision to keep going

thinking about her spilling out her jealousies and her anger and jawbone probably trying to help her figure out how to redirect it, somewhat unsuccessfully, but hey, the bad kids dont even know she exists so at least she’s keeping her feelings where it cant actually affect the people its directed at

thinking about how she keeps going to sessions after the mountains of chaos. after lucy dies. thinking about how her anger gets so much more acidic, more violent, just More, its all suddenly more intense but she’s still going to those sessions. she still chooses to go. maybe because she needed to tell SOMEONE, and her best friend isnt there anymore and her other friends are no longer as tolerant of her venting as they used to be (because theyre all snippier, all more unhappy, all angrier)

i just scream

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jace stardiamond taking off his scarf to reveal his chest scar implying that he's wearing a deep v-neck underneath. yeah this tracks

#i think his shirt was just partially unbuttoned but i like your version better

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What if I said Ruvina and Cassandra used to hug Ankarna during winter

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incredibly interested in buddy worshipping a "nameless god of rage" actually.

because she's not nameless. her name is ankarna, apparently. adaine found it. adaine abernant, elven oracle, read it aloud to the cosmos and destroyed the oblivati mori.

but buddy does not follow ankarna. buddy follows a nameless god.

the rat grinders do not know the name of the god they follow. they do not know the cause in which they fight for. we were warned by pok, episode 13, that if someone began worshipping ankarna, it would be unsafe. but the rat grinders do not follow ankarna. they follow someone unnamed.

i wonder what would happen if the name was discovered.

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The rogue teacher and the dance bard teacher are old woman yuri to me

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thinking about Buddy Dawn meeting helio in the afterlife. thinking about buddy dawn asking helio why betral happens. thinking about him (possibly) waking up to kristen, cleric of doubt and uncertainty, chosen of his god , who still doubted the church anyways, reviving him. Thinking about him waking up with the light of twilight and suddenly realizing that none of his frenids nor his god ever had his back.

suddenly realizing that bad things happen to good people. suddenly understanding that when you live your life with blind faith, your afterlife is disappointing, and your "frenids" slit your neck open.

Thinking about him going home to his (probably) ultra religious family knowing that helio did not save him or warn him about the knife at his neck, and maybe even resenting kristen a little bit becuse maybe the chosen one of the church would have been warned. asking himself for the first time why helio did what he did. wondering if this life was worth it.

maybe buddy dawn suddenly knows that this isn't the life he wants. Maybe it takes a whole ark for him to realize it. Maybe he takes revenge out on the rat grinders. maybe he takes his frustration out on helio. maybe he leaves helio for cassandra, letting himself revel in doubt and mistery, allowing him to question "why?" for the first time in his whole life. Maybe he leaves helio for ARNKANA, allowing himself justified rage, and getting the justice he feels he desrves.

god. fuck man. buddy dawn, i hope you find peace no matter what. and i hope you also meet your god and go, "He kinda sucks tbh" and you and kristen bond over that.

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He!!!

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The trees don't "help" each other. They don't "decide" to let the fungus in. All they know is that when they call for help, the fungus answers. Without the fungus, they'd be nothing. It's like if a government was part of your body. It's the closest thing they have to a god. Isn't there something horrifying about that, deep down. God exists and you can't escape it. God exists and you can't live without it. God exists and spends every day ensuring that your brother's blood flows through your veins. Deep, deep in your DNA, there is a pact that links you all to the beast underground.

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The trees don't "help" each other. They don't "decide" to let the fungus in. All they know is that when they call for help, the fungus answers. Without the fungus, they'd be nothing. It's like if a government was part of your body. It's the closest thing they have to a god. Isn't there something horrifying about that, deep down. God exists and you can't escape it. God exists and you can't live without it. God exists and spends every day ensuring that your brother's blood flows through your veins. Deep, deep in your DNA, there is a pact that links you all to the beast underground.

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The trees don't "help" each other. They don't "decide" to let the fungus in. All they know is that when they call for help, the fungus answers. Without the fungus, they'd be nothing. It's like if a government was part of your body. It's the closest thing they have to a god. Isn't there something horrifying about that, deep down. God exists and you can't escape it. God exists and you can't live without it. God exists and spends every day ensuring that your brother's blood flows through your veins. Deep, deep in your DNA, there is a pact that links you all to the beast underground.

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baja blast sheep have you any wool

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Losing my mind about Red and the Big Bad Wolf still

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Obsessed with this cut to Murph while Emily and Brennan make Beast Noises at each other.

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MY GIRLIES!!!!!

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"because you were lied to, does not mean that everything is a lie. do not take the crimes of those who have manipulated us and put them at the feet of the world."

brennan lee mulligan sometimes you say shit like this during a campaign and it makes me want to tear my hair out

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he looks so offended at the prospect of getting shit for laying down, and honestly i felt that in my soul

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he’s just like us