bigfatwhalegirl

[bigfatwhalegirl]

im so embarrassing i can’t even starve correctly

[bigfatwhalegirl]

Being 26+ on this site with an ed:

[bigfatwhalegirl]

if im not 20lbs down by christmas

i will simply pass away

[bigfatwhalegirl]

I just want to curl up and hide my unwanted grotesque body under the covers for the rest of my life

[bigfatwhalegirl]

I can’t be caught until I’ve actually accomplished something. If people find out how shit I’m doing mentally before I actually get skinny and physically unwell, I will never recover from the embarrassment. That’s it, that’s the motivation to follow through.

[bigfatwhalegirl]

i'm getting bad again and i don't know how to help myself

[bigfatwhalegirl]

me trying to enjoy something: ☻

my brain: you can’t enjoy this because you aren’t skinny

me: ☹

[bigfatwhalegirl]

If you have me in your life, I’m really really sorry.

[bigfatwhalegirl]

the rumors are true, I fucking suck

[bigfatwhalegirl]

God I wish my ed would overcome my depression. My ed actually makes me do things, depression just makes me a lazy ball of fat

[bigfatwhalegirl]

I don’t wanna get out of bed. I don’t wanna eat. I don’t wanna go to work. I don’t want to go anywhere. I just wanna fall asleep and never wake up.

[bigfatwhalegirl]

[bigfatwhalegirl]

i was not a happy child and now i’m an unhappy adult

[bigfatwhalegirl]

no one actually gives a fuck unless you’re skinny, pretty or dead

[bigfatwhalegirl]

straight up. I’m so fucking tired of being fat. I’ve been wanting to be skinny for so fucking long, and yet I’m still just as pathetic as I was 5yrs ago. 

[bigfatwhalegirl]

I'm feel like I'm the easiest person for everyone to replace. Insignificant and unimportant

[bigfatwhalegirl]

Im so fucking done. I should be beaten and tortured and traumatized. i deserve it. I am so selfish. I am thé fucking worst person to have ever stepped on this planet.