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a rockstar in a supermodels body

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my boyfriend and his mom keep talking to me about having an ED because they think i’m making myself throw up and shit which i’ve never done before. i’m not the purge type. but the thing is, is that i haven’t even been in the hopeless ED cycle in a year or so. but honestly them constantly bringing it up is making me want to do it in some fucked up way. like if ur gonna be concerned, at least let me actually do the thing ur concerned about. ik it sounds fucked up but it’s some weird reverse psychology shit lmfao

#anorexcic #eating disrorder #thiinsp0 #4n4 #eating disrorderr #anor3x14 #anamiia #4n0r3x14 #4n4m14 #4nor3x14

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Once more for those in the back.

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new purging method :D

just drink bong water. you’ll throw up everything in ur system and then maybe be high for a couple days :D

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listened to Bohemian Rhapsody today… i’m so very sorry

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24/48 calorie peanut butter cookies

i was really craving peanut butter cookies, so i found a recipe and made them

i used 3/4 cups of sugar instead of 1 cup. the whole batch is 2090 calories. however, i made each one exactly 2 tsp worth of batter which is 48 calories per cookie. this is what they look like raw.

they did expand quite a bit to where they’re slightly touching but i forgot to take a picture of that part 😹

however i also made a tiny batch with 1 tsp per cookie. those are 24 calories each. i burnt the absolute shit out of them. but that’s besides the point 😹

not my best work lmfao, but for those of you who want something sweet and cute, i’d definitely recommend

#anorexcic #eating disrorder #thiinsp0 #4n4 #eating disrorderr #anor3x14 #anamiia #4n0r3x14 #4n4m14 #4nor3x14 #ana baking

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new plan for motivation

so to prevent myself from binging, i’ve made a new reward system. every time i hit a milestone, i get 1 cheat day to eat whatever the fuck i want. the milestone i have currently is when i reach 135, or have my court date for a ticket i got. whichever comes first. the court date marks about a month since my last binge (which i’ve never gone that long without binging before) and 135 is a weight i’ve never been able to reach. i’ve been stuck losing the same 10lbs between 140 and 150 for like 5 years now (that’s really fucking sad lmfao). i’ve gotten into the 130s once ever and it was like 139.8 or something and then it went back up because i binged and didn’t stop. it’s really keeping me going rn. ive been doing a really good job, and whenever i have cravings i drink a diet coke and tell myself i can have them when i have my cheat day. which honestly my stomach is smaller now so idek if i’d be able to eat all that much. all ik is that i want fucking tropical smoothie cafe 😹

#anorexcic #eating disrorder #thiinsp0 #4n4 #eating disrorderr #anor3x14 #anamiia #4n0r3x14 #4n4m14 #4nor3x14

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NOTHING WAS WORKING FOR A SEC AND I THOUGHT I GOT T3RM3D OMG THAT WAS SCARY LMFAO

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dude fr my family would always make comments about my weight growing up. granted i was a large child, but it’s one thing to condescend me for being large, and another to pull me to the side and express a genuine concern. plus it wasn’t my fault. i was a child. it was my mother who wasn’t regulating what i was allowed to eat whatsoever. there’s no reason she should’ve been letting an 8 year old eat ice cream every day as an after school snack. but i digress. stop making comments about anyones weight, especially children.

DON’T MAKE COMMENTS ON CHILDREN’S WEIGHT

This is the fucking reason for my disorder

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i’ve been so self conscious about my double chin lately man. i didn’t think it was that bad but i got some action shots from a show i was in and my face literally looks so fat in all of them. like i would be so fucking pretty if my face wasn’t so damn fat -_-

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all i’ve ever wanted is to be skinny. since i was a small child. i’ve always been fat. i look at thinxpo and i’m like wtf why is it so hard for me???

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proud of myself

i was at work today and wanted to eat so badly. my mom made ribs so i was saving my calories for that. but i had no energy, and i work at a restaurant so everything looked so fucking good. but i got a diet dr. pepper and the urges went away. and now that i’m home and there’s food, im not even hungry anymore. well, more like so hungry that the thought of eating makes me sick to my stomach 😹. so proud of myself for not making myself a shake or ordering a big lunch or something. big w for today, and it gives me hope for the future.

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i think my stomach shrank

my limit has been 800 lately and i can’t even eat half of it before i get full. like yesterday i was hella hungry and ordered some chicken tenders from work. it was a 4 piece, and i ate 1 and some of the fries that came with it and was so full. i ate one more later but that was all i could eat for the day. and today i haven’t eaten all day. and then at 8:30pm i finally go to make a burrito with some of my leftover chicken from yesterday. all of it together was 275 calories and i ate it and was full. however my brother made pizza and i couldn’t help myself and got a slice (160) and now i’m so full that it hurts. i still have 365 calories left for today and i can’t even stomach it.

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4n4 protip if u have a nicotine addiction

before u eat, chug a shit ton of water and then hit ur vape until u feel sick and u won’t want to eat as much

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NOOO NOT THE FAST FOOD ADS

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i’m looking for a very mean and toxic coach

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looking at my 4n4 journal from when i was 14 is all the meanspo i need

my pic. 18 now lol

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